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one direction will always be so so so bittersweet to me like they were such a foundation of my teenage years while at the same time those boys were spending most of their days trapped in hotel rooms or waking up at 2 am to record an album and non stop touring and working so much more than anyone let alone a bunch of teenage boys should work and its always been hard to reconcile those two realities especially on a day like today because god when they were good together, they were so good together.

and i just don't think anything like them will ever happen again. 5 boys from basically working class backgrounds thrust into a level of fame the height of which hadn't been seen for decades, all of them becoming the breadwinners of their families before the age of 18. the immense pressure but also the amount of fun they were. the tragedy and joy of it all intertwined. really impossible to put into words

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this next fic im working on is gonna raise a lot of eyebrows lol

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TARLOS SCENE AFTER AD BREAK IM SO EXCITED

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tk sticking out the fan killed me i love him so much

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i adore TNT truly i do but this was such a dumbass move bruh im floored 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

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WHAT IS THAT SCHOOL GONNA DO BRUH IM IN TEARS

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i need everyone who villainizes charlie spring for his mental health and how it affected his friends to click that little x button and never watch another episode of heartstopper again because what the actual fuck

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just realized if tk were to die he would have died without his wedding ring on >:))))

which means when carlos would have to decide whether or not to bury his husband in his ring carlos would have to put it on tk's hand >:))))

except this time tk's hand is cold and devoid of all the warmth and life that it had the first time carlos did it >:)

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What if while TNT are all holding hands TK takes his ring out from necklace under his shirt alongside his 252 pendant and presses both to his lips as he counts down his last seconds. One last I love you I hope you know that to his husband who isn't there with him, but hoping he can still hear him as he whispers it against the metal.

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guys what if tk calls carlos :)))))))

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i am so back

@theghostofashton

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this show rarely misses but truly. it's been hit after hit so far i'm so so happy

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fun little lore drop there is in fact chlorine gas in the air of the state im in rn >:)))))

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Alright, let's totally not think about TNT praying being a complete mirror image to Nancy, Tommy and Carlos praying when they thought TK might not wake up :))))))))))))

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WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE EPISODE JUST ENDED??? WHAT WAS THAT PROMO? IM GONNA SCREAM

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fill the empty spaces

pairing: tk/carlos wordcount: 1.2k rating: T

He wonders, sometimes, if TK has a sixth sense, and if it’s knowing. Sending a text when Carlos is in the worst mood, calling right as Carlos’s day goes south. Taking Carlos’s hand when they’re out in public and the world gets too loud, for a second. Reminding Carlos of his presence, despite everything. Carlos doesn’t know if TK realizes how easily the seas calm when he’s around. Even if he doesn’t know, it’s like he can tell. Has some indescribable sense that something is off, that Carlos needs him. or, promises are kept

read on ao3

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in case anyone was wondering how my watch with @theghostofashton is going 🫶