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Parentheses in a Twin-Sized Bed

Summary:

“In your bed?” Buck asks, surprised. “Not my bed,” Eddie mumbles. “Belongs to… the state of California, I guess.” “In the State of California’s bed, then?” (In which they are scared and soft, and so very much in love.)

Explicit, 3594 words

Written for @sanjuwrites as part of the Buddie Heart Eyes Fic Exchange run by @kwills91. Hope you enjoy, Sanju!

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somewhere henry fox just hit his knees screaming on the phone to pez

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breaking up w a guy fuckin sucks :/

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agents of shield announcing the events of age of ultron THREE days before the movie came out like oh my god marvel was fucking peaking 🫡 i wish i was old enough to be around to watch it live

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chloe is an insanely talented actress how can a death scene still hit THIS hard on an EIGHTH watch???

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SERENA WILLIAMS during Kendrick Lamar’s Halftime Show at Super Bowl LIX

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kendrick fucking lamar the man that you are

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wip wednesday

thank you @welcometololaland @captain-gillian @nisbanisba @carlos-in-glasses @henrygrass

@carlossreaders @whatsintheboxmh @strandnreyes @paperstorm @alrightbuckaroo for the tags <3

coda hopefully dropping tonight!

In the five years that they’ve known each other, Carlos thinks he’s learned some of his favorite things (the depths of TK’s kindness – infinite, the size of his heart – gargantuan, even for lizards) but also, some of his least favorite. TK’s instinct to run headfirst into danger. His readiness to do whatever he can to save someone, even if it means harming himself, killing himself, in the process. It’s the size of his heart and Carlos loves it more than life itself but he also hates it, to his core. He hates the panic he’s grown familiar with but never used to, the wonder if the last words he said to his soulmate, the casual ‘I love you’ were the last. Carlos has learned this about TK, been made intimately familiar with how close a call can be (he still has nightmares about hypothermia that gunshots ring through, a cacophony of worst case scenarios his brain taunts him with just when he thinks they’re out of the woods), but he didn’t realize to what extent he understood it until today. Until he’s rushing over to shield Wyatt from the impact of the blast without a second thought, and it only occurs to him as he’s on his way to the hospital to meet TK, that that could have been the end. If things had been worse, if the impact had been more severe, or the call center had been in more direct path of the asteroid, Carlos may have been on his way to the hospital for a very different reason. He hadn’t taken a second to think. He’d just moved. His only thought in that moment was that he keep Wyatt safe, and Carlos is glad he did. He can’t imagine a world where he did anything else. And suddenly, TK insisting on going back with Tommy to find a woman trapped at a school with chlorine gas starts to make sense. Giving himself hypothermia to save a child. Trying to pull the fire alarm to save his team. Running toward an exploded ambulance. You okay? he’d asked, after the thing hit. Wyatt had said yes. And Carlos had moved on to checking in on the rest of the call center, performing the duties he’d been sent there to do. It didn’t even cross his mind, what could’ve just happened.

no pressure tagging @sanjuwrites @reyesstrand @bonheur-cafe @heartstringsduet @tellmegoodbye and anyone else who wants to share!

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i know i've been largely absent over the last year, but enjoying this fandom has truly been the gift of my life, and there's truly no one else i would want to have done it with. truly, so so grateful.

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the fucking series finale and they couldn't have cut a fucking promo.

fox you will always be hated by me

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Seven Sentence Sunday

Thanks for the tags @nisbanisba @heartstringsduet @henrygrass @everlastingday @carlos-in-glasses @carlossreaders @lemonlyman-dotcom @strandnreyes @freneticfloetry

Have some more 5x05 thoughts -

TK’s reply is sweet and playful as he gently pulls the wrapped container out of Carlos’ hands with bright eye contact. It pools something dark and nervous in Carlos’ gut, despair expanding as he watches the box slide away. He tries to recall his rationale as TK unwraps the cream and gold paper, rehearsing phrases like free from distraction and adhering to a schedule while TK dramatically throws the paper to the floor and steels himself for the unveiling of the surprise.

TK adores gifts. He loves giving them, he loves receiving them, he loves celebrations and parties and joy. His heart is so big and he loves so deeply and Carlos can’t lose him. This feels like the most important moment in his life and he’s blowing it.

tagging @sanjuwrites @whatsintheboxmh @alrightbuckaroo @reasonandfaithinharmony (ahem, lol) & @paperstorm

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IM DONE IM DONE IM DONE

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the end is in sight yall omg

i have my organic chemistry final at 9am and then i'm done with first semester of my junior year!!

it's crazy bc i was barely in college when i joined this fandom, and now i almost have my bachelors degree in psychology 🥹🥹

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Somewhere in a Song

Rating: E Word Count (so far): 7607 Chapters: 15 Relationship: Carlos Reyes/TK Strand Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Musicians, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Falling in Love, Past Drug/Alcohol Addiction, Closeted Character, Country Singer!Carlos, Rockstar!TK, more tags to be added

Fresh out of rehab for drug and alcohol addiction, lead singer TK and his band Stranded are pushed into a tour he's not sure he's ready for. To combat the bad press from his very public hitting of rock bottom, his label suggests they take up-and-coming country singer Carlos along with them. Between TK's still healing wounds and closeted Carlos's fears that his parents don't support his musical career, a rocky start might turn into finding exactly what they both need.

Thank you to @herefortarlos for the beta, @actual-sleeping-beauty for song suggestions, and @bonheur-cafe for editing a cowboy hat onto Rafa's head ♥

Chapter one

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yeah hey so what the fuck

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the lack of andrea alongside the lack of grace actually hurts so much 💔 carlos in his state has needed someone in his corner who sees him and understands him at a deeper level and it feels like such a disservice that he doesn’t have that this season. characters who could’ve been a great comfort to him though the trauma and hardships in the last year, other than his husband, have been sorely missed. it just all feels so unfair 😭

god i know. @sanjuwrites made a really great point when we were talking a couple months ago about how it feels like they set up a lot of things with carlos's support system outside of tk in s4, and nixed it this season. and that feels super apparent to me, especially through this arc.

like in s4 they introduced carlos and iris's friendship, spent some time developing things with andrea (the 4x12 conversation with owen where she reflects on hers and gabriel's reaction to carlos's coming out and her regrets about it), and we also got another carlos-grace storyline that affirmed their bond while also tying directly to things like race and racial justice, and all of those relationships just.... aren't on screen, in s5. and there's definitely reasons for it with sierra leaving and budget cuts, but it feels like such a glaring hole, something i could see rounding out this storyline in a way that would make it feel much more satisfying.

i think a lot about carlos's line from 4x18 to tk, "i'm alone in this" and sometimes it feels a little like he is, besides tk. and it's great that he has his husband's support, absolutely, but ideally he'd have more and it's such a shame that we don't have grace this season, and that they couldn't bring back andrea or even iris (who may not understand exactly what he's feeling but whose friendship has been a place of solace for him in the past that would definitely help when he's struggling).

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long car ride + a good ass playlist = rereading my favorite @theghostofashton fic 🫡