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Seven Sentence Sunday

Thanks for the tags @nisbanisba @heartstringsduet @henrygrass @everlastingday @carlos-in-glasses @carlossreaders @lemonlyman-dotcom @strandnreyes @freneticfloetry

Have some more 5x05 thoughts -

TK’s reply is sweet and playful as he gently pulls the wrapped container out of Carlos’ hands with bright eye contact. It pools something dark and nervous in Carlos’ gut, despair expanding as he watches the box slide away. He tries to recall his rationale as TK unwraps the cream and gold paper, rehearsing phrases like free from distraction and adhering to a schedule while TK dramatically throws the paper to the floor and steels himself for the unveiling of the surprise.

TK adores gifts. He loves giving them, he loves receiving them, he loves celebrations and parties and joy. His heart is so big and he loves so deeply and Carlos can’t lose him. This feels like the most important moment in his life and he’s blowing it.

tagging @sanjuwrites @whatsintheboxmh @alrightbuckaroo @reasonandfaithinharmony (ahem, lol) & @paperstorm

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IM DONE IM DONE IM DONE

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the end is in sight yall omg

i have my organic chemistry final at 9am and then i'm done with first semester of my junior year!!

it's crazy bc i was barely in college when i joined this fandom, and now i almost have my bachelors degree in psychology 🥹🥹

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Somewhere in a Song

Rating: E Word Count (so far): 7607 Chapters: 15 Relationship: Carlos Reyes/TK Strand Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Musicians, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Falling in Love, Past Drug/Alcohol Addiction, Closeted Character, Country Singer!Carlos, Rockstar!TK, more tags to be added

Fresh out of rehab for drug and alcohol addiction, lead singer TK and his band Stranded are pushed into a tour he's not sure he's ready for. To combat the bad press from his very public hitting of rock bottom, his label suggests they take up-and-coming country singer Carlos along with them. Between TK's still healing wounds and closeted Carlos's fears that his parents don't support his musical career, a rocky start might turn into finding exactly what they both need.

Thank you to @herefortarlos for the beta, @actual-sleeping-beauty for song suggestions, and @bonheur-cafe for editing a cowboy hat onto Rafa's head ♥

Chapter one

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yeah hey so what the fuck

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the lack of andrea alongside the lack of grace actually hurts so much 💔 carlos in his state has needed someone in his corner who sees him and understands him at a deeper level and it feels like such a disservice that he doesn’t have that this season. characters who could’ve been a great comfort to him though the trauma and hardships in the last year, other than his husband, have been sorely missed. it just all feels so unfair 😭

god i know. @sanjuwrites made a really great point when we were talking a couple months ago about how it feels like they set up a lot of things with carlos's support system outside of tk in s4, and nixed it this season. and that feels super apparent to me, especially through this arc.

like in s4 they introduced carlos and iris's friendship, spent some time developing things with andrea (the 4x12 conversation with owen where she reflects on hers and gabriel's reaction to carlos's coming out and her regrets about it), and we also got another carlos-grace storyline that affirmed their bond while also tying directly to things like race and racial justice, and all of those relationships just.... aren't on screen, in s5. and there's definitely reasons for it with sierra leaving and budget cuts, but it feels like such a glaring hole, something i could see rounding out this storyline in a way that would make it feel much more satisfying.

i think a lot about carlos's line from 4x18 to tk, "i'm alone in this" and sometimes it feels a little like he is, besides tk. and it's great that he has his husband's support, absolutely, but ideally he'd have more and it's such a shame that we don't have grace this season, and that they couldn't bring back andrea or even iris (who may not understand exactly what he's feeling but whose friendship has been a place of solace for him in the past that would definitely help when he's struggling).

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long car ride + a good ass playlist = rereading my favorite @theghostofashton fic 🫡

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derek coming to stiles to tell him all his problems i know that's fucking right

teen wolf really knew how to make me multiship man like i adored stiles and lydia but OH MY GOD i woulda sold my soul for derek to kiss stiles on the mouth

they were perfect for each other bruh

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thinking about the police station scene makes me go still like a russian sleeper agent hearing their activation phrase

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9-1-1: Lone Star Casts Peyton List as Campbell’s Wife… and Accomplice? (Exclusive First Look).

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this is such an unbelievable scene because there's two realizations happening simultaneously:

eddie is having the realization that he was never really alone through this whole ordeal and there has always been a we with him and buck.

while on the other hand, buck is having the realization that in the end he truly always just ends up back where he started. alone.

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okay im still thinking about the tablet thing. buck gave that whole little speech about having privacy in your own home and then he went: But Not From Me.

because buck is the exception!!! he's always been the exception!!!

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not even God himself can understand all the feelings I'm going through trying to process the seeds of Buddie canon we just got and i think that is so beautiful <3

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im seriously dying thinking about buck right now. he loves eddie so much he is willing to let him go. number 1 one clinger number one settler he loves him so much he is trying to let him go. i am going to explode

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i just. eddie flipped over the tablet because he KNEW that buck seeing him looking for a new home would hurt buck tremendously. eddie knows exactly who buck is and he tried to protect him for a little while longer and he never wants to hurt him :(

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BUDDIE STANS RISE UP WE ACTUALLY NEVER LOSE???

gonna be thinking about that look on bucks face until march like buddie is absolutely coming let’s fuckING GOOO

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can we move on from this cop storyline please 😭😭😭