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I woke up from a supersupersuper bad dream an hour ago. I dreamed about louis... I don't want to use that word to talk about lou cause it don't feel lucky if you always grab that kind of word around your mouth especially for him, anyway after I realized it's really just a dream, the first thing came to my mind is I reeeeeeally need to check on lou through the fucking internet. I was even ready to run out my only chance to text him on ins, wanna tell him please be happy and be safe. Then I thought it better be used as telling him I'm going when I could have any chance to see louis concert in person one day... ...

now I'm thinking Lili

what if losing liam is also a bad dream we didn't wake up from.

l came to this community way too late like ten years after this band apart. but I never regret any of it. l'm happy and lucky to meet a community tight like this. I'm still in the most euphoric stage totally loving them.

It's my hard night right before my final, as always I'd like to put on some music video at my side to went through with it. I've actually just start falling in love with ATL at that time, but I've already seen them videos for a hundred times in a too short period so I scrolled my head and thought about I haven't seen any 1D video yet. I know they are pretty popular back in the days cause I'm actually only six years old when they are hot under the spotlights, you see there's a littlelittle gap within us, so all I know about is their songs wmyb, 18, perfect, best song ever, drag me down, night changes, only these five, I have no idea about any other thing about this band but I love 18 a long time ago, I even recited all the lyrics of this song so I can sing it clearly at my high school which banned for any electric setup, kind of destiny ain't it. So I put on up all night the live tour video, my first crush in the band is Liam, the little waving he shaked when he sang on the stage got me sososososo fooking hard. Li is also the first one I searched for on ins. I'm always a shipper when I stepped into a community. When I see that tour video, I'm like Lilo & Zarry & didn't figure out what to do with niall. btw I knew nothing about larry thing back then. After my first investigation on ao3 is finished, I was like yeah I AM INTOING this community for sure. First of all, respect to every shipper on the internet. I love u all, laying on the bed and drowning in ao3 is the happiest thing for me after a day tortured by life. every night I literally mean it EVERY NIGHT even till today I only sleep after I read Ziam work for at least 30 minutes. Larry work sometimes. I am falling into Ziam community sososososohard and that's why I signed up my first tumblr wanting to find an account called doveziam to follow. I love her. She is a beautiful writer and her wonderful works and touching words pushed me further into this warm community. but I really be here way too late, that account isn't active in recent year. Luckily, I've found so many lovely writers who are also super talented.

Four months is passed, Lili, I only loved you for only four months, I checked your ins every week to see your happy time you shared with us, I totally not see the doom coming. Lili, eight years ago I lost my mother which taught me always to be grateful for what I have, but Lili, you taught me to be grateful IN TIME.

Lili, it's a nickname by Chinese fan for Liam. Don't even know Liam know it or not. there's no more opportunity to tell him that.

I ask myself

What is love even too late for mourning?

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All I can keep thinking about is that scene from This Is Us- where Karen Payne is talking to Jay about how the boys just stopped living at home one day. And how she had the cutout of Liam with his longer curly hair so she could go in and say goodnight to it. And how he’s never coming home to her again. And how none of this is fair. Not one single bit of it.

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no one fucking helped him and that keeps just repeating in my head

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I scrolled it and didn't see the words much precisely, I just found a fic-link called LOVE LETTER made it seemed it would be a so harmless story without seeing the sad list warning then I Read it.

Now I'm not good......

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I need sweet Jalex-gifs to heal this...

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ruthless world could be yeah...

ah it hurts me so much....

they didn't get the chance to share feelings balanced.

the love didn't run through the mist of friendship completely yet.

till the wicked smile showing up only in Jack dreams.

sufferings always made it to the poor guy exclusively.

down below is the lyrics of Break Out! Break Out!

one of my fav songs of atl.

when you done read this fic, take a look at the lyrics again.It just simply expresses the subtle emotions so fitting and compatible with the story in the fic......but a heartbroken version.

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Luck loves me not tonight, I'm running out

This four leaf clover's all, but useless now

I've got four wheels that say I'm not alone tonight

I'm always looking for a joy ride through

The brightest part of this town

Break out, break out

As we escape through the windows

Head for the car, and never look back

Singing, singing

Break out, break out

Our time has come and we've got

These big city dreams

Put up or shut up, we're not wasting time again

The credits are rolling and we're getting lost again

In parking lots, to serenading sirens

As the blue lights bathes our smiles

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Break out, break out

As we escape through the windows

Head for the car, and never look back

Singing, singing

Break out, break out

Our time has come and

We've got these big city dreams

Let's take a moment to reflect

On the past few years of my life

I haven't worked myself away to stay inside

｡°(°¯᷄◠¯᷅°)°｡

This is the time to let us

Break out, break out

As we escape through the windows

Head for the car, and never look back

Singing, singing

Break out, break out

Our time has come and

We've got these big city dreams

and Jack Barakat's dream is Alex Gaskarth.

welcome to cry again....cuz I just did

anyway here is the original ↓

ヘ(>_<ヘ)

but the meaning of this song just got more complicated to me from now on......

sorry for grammar mistakes not English speaker

Hey! I know there are sad tags, but I was just curious: what fics have made you bawl your eyes out? For me, it was fucking LOVE LETTER. I will never recover from that one.

Oh, Love Letter for sure.

We've answered this one a ton over the years and I don't think my answers have changed at all. I can't find all the mods' old favourite sad fic lists but you're welcome to comb through their fave tags to see if you can see them.

I did find Stacy's favourite sad fics and a mod who wishes to now remain anonymous also had a list.

This is a majorly old list of mine but like I said, answers remain unchanged. To add to that, actually, the author who wrote a couple of the fics on that list has a lot more here and literally all of them devastate me even if they're happy??? I don't fucking know why.

I think multiple of these may no longer be accessible but it's possible I have copies of them if people are wanting them.

-Eve

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E C H O

acient Rome au fanfic work

你知道他的，一向温柔善良，博学又慷慨，跟孩子们也可以打打闹闹，他是年轻人涌进这座城里干出一番事业的理由，而当远征军打到城里的时候，他站在城墙上，失去矛失去盾，可他只是站在那里，眼神就足够坚毅，身形依然挺拔，撑起士气，但结局...至少他在这座城里的故事结束了，他将带着所有人的祝福离开，以往那些令他不安的怨怼，默默泣流血泪的日夜再也追不上他，他只会越跑越快，爱会驱使白鸽喜鹊飞个不停，一切幸福的意向爆发在他的身后，可是我，却只能活在回忆，因为他就是我幸福的意向，我记得，我用盔甲作鼓，敲出一段段俏皮的旋律，哄他见我，而他终于出现了，大声喊着我的名字，那时我太年轻，他碧水般的眼，碧绿的纱裙，我以为我能永远亲昵他的黄金发，扭开黄蜂衣扣，一辈子厮磨埋没在诺言中

--来自古将军皮什切克留言

↑It's a short fanfic of lukasz piszczek/marco reus written by me, sorry it'll be a huge work for me to translate it to English, so if you're interested please use translator, I don't mind.

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Hey Summer

teenager version of niclas

like he just finished shower and against the balcony chilling then he found u,,, kind of caught u peeping at him and blushed....

same the little pink pig as credit

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EINLADUNG

INVITATION

邀请

Füll's young version is my fav, as you can see, I tried to make him hot and sluty, the background is cyberworld haha sorry for my poor draw skill.

and there's some posters on the wall as credits haha, and the little pink pig toy on the bed is from his daughter in real life.

I drew this a while but I just set up my tumblr account, so posting some old work up would be my first thing.

Honestly, I don't know here's rules well,haven't learned all the function yet. let me know please if I did sth related like break silence rule, or not appropriate, such as I put this kind of football-ship-ish work, I mean gay-ish work into the specific personal character tag(s), I wonder if this is all right,,, ,,,anyhow, I did it and I'm gonna put more here haha,,,

English is not my first language, sorry for mistakes in using.

veryvery excited in meeting samezone fans😚