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No shot I did not just have a similar af convo as the one I wrote in Sugar Lips out of the blue with a stranger regaling me in a 15 minute tale, and seeming delighted when I also said I liked writing and my degree was in something similar. "A writer? I also graduated from the same university, and same program, though decades ago" With dude trying to encourage me to leave my job for a better one and giving me ideas for networking, and suggesting we touch base.

This fic seriously goes "either you write what you've experienced or I'll manifest it : 💀"

Unlike Phil, dude was an actual old man.

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I'm taking a month off from all online activities or else I'll go insane. You can guess why.

As before, no deletions—and honestly, just as a late addendum—I apologize for ever deleting part of Broken Teeth and Playing Cards and likely will restore it.--This probably isn't the best time, but yeah, I was wrong about Dream/disliking him for nothing. Let's just say peer pressure and...yeah. I'm sorry for that rashness.

Me being gone won't effect anything as I've been taking a month to write at this rate anyway X_X and I'm not a big poster. I also don't engage publicly with fandom—at least not here.

Just this fandom is an incredibly draining place to be. I've never believed in a digital detox, but boy howdy—I am now fully on board. I do not want to know anything about MCYT for the next month. Unfortunately, that also includes QSMP.

Don't worry, it probably would have taken me a month to write the next chapter anyway. See you back in April.

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@samrieimg ❤️🥺 let me know if you'd like a copy sent to you! Or if you'd like the PDF copies!

LST series here.

Read tags. Pairing: DNF.

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probably gonna be inactive on Tumblr/replying on AO3. Not dead/hiatus-ing, just perturbed.

No desire to curate an audience at this time.

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sorry Bois for the absence, after a 3 day vacation irl, somehow I was voted to be the "one to cover other people's vacations" by doing 6 day 10 hour shifts a couple weeks

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also, Broken Teeth and Playing Cards update soon--but...bit of a massive change.

I removed entirely one part of the plot and a certain pairing and everything to do with it. I can't comfortably write them. That also goes for my serial killer work for that pairing too. I'm not removing it, but no updates.

You might have caught those vibes when I just kind of instead wrote another pairing serial killer fic for no particular reason—yeah. I packed up the dogboy serial killer energy and moved it.

Old works I've already completed are just as is. Not deleting them, but don't really have any interest in discussing them.

Now also between me and you, come closer reader

I'm a bit cowed right now, but when I get my balls back I do think I'll be the scourge of fandoms again writing smut for a certain bloodthirsty pairing and hopefully Ph/za getting absolutely dicked tf down.

I think it'll good if I write at least some content that someone absolutely hates passionately again.

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Self promotion but: If you want hurt/comfort Philever and Forever tending to Philza's wings <3

Click here

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i feel that way about role play in general. i used to role play constantly, every day, because that's what a friend loved to do. we had a two year long role play we did and wrote thousands of words from angst to smut to fluff. and then we drifted apart and i haven't done it since. it's weird, but i know i enjoyed it at the time, and hope it's like that for you too. or will get to that point. if it helps, whether you write it again or not, you were very good at writing smut but what made your smut so good was that it had real characterization with it. it always felt like a story or characters came first and the smut was a fun way to examine those characters

I did enjoy it/do enjoy it, but there's now feelings of discomfort. I don't think I'd be comfortable ever co-writing it again, but I do think I'll be comfortable writing smut again at my own pace.

I admittedly think what bothers me is I feel like I owe that creative side of me to them. I don't. It's irrational. Just gotta wait for time to pass >_<. Gotta embrace the BBH in me that used to be actually anti-cursing/PG for now...except with language.

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which is a SHAME because ever since I watched OPQ and Cellbit narrated Nidere killing people I've had half a mind to write some very sexy cannibalism and gore, but yanno like...sexy. I just know there's room in my brain for something spiderbit

But I'm like nun now

Weird side effect of no-cowriter is I can't write/come up with smut. Or choose not to. I don't know what to make of it.

Before our friendship I wasn't really a smut writer believe it or not. My three genres were horror, angst and mystery.

So...I guess enjoy this No Nut November, because I have to take time to now consider if I am a smut writer or was it just to appease my friend O_o.

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Weird side effect of no-cowriter is I can't write/come up with smut. Or choose not to. I don't know what to make of it.

Before our friendship I wasn't really a smut writer believe it or not. My three genres were horror, angst and mystery.

So...I guess enjoy this No Nut November, because I have to take time to now consider if I am a smut writer or was it just to appease my friend O_o.

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for nanowrimo this year my goal is just to write the 1700 words a day not on anyone story just in general

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Hi holy shit so like I read sugar lips a couple weeks ago when my mental health was at a low and it has lived rent free in my brain since. The whole story filled me with this gut wrenching dread cause I felt so like seen and understood through wilbur’s charcter. Like holy shit your writing is INSANE!!! LIKE U NEED TO BE A BESTSELLING AUTHOR AHHHHHH!

And then tonight i just read all of Job and once again my heart ACHED and like just wow, you are easily my new fav ao3 author and i’ve been on there for like 4+ years like wow. Just wow.

Thank you :)

sugar lips my beloved terrible child of a fic and Job my sweet angel of one

(As in the latter was 20x easier to write).

Thank you so much for your kind words :D!

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I ultimately decided to leave everything as is. It's been a lot of mixed feelings

I also don't know if I'll be able to return to writing any of my DSMP works anytime soon. Maybe with time. Ha, I like writing for fandoms when they're dead anyway.

That being said I am not unwell. Just in a different headspace. Not a bad one by any stretch.

Welp. Late night vent time.

But before that, thank you for 1001 kudos on Sugar Lips :3

In simple,  my co-writer ghosted me. In long, it shouldn't have been a surprise.

It is hard to write without them as silly as it sounds. It has been hard for months--our talks got few and far between and they haven't wanted to talk about writing for a year-- but...a complete absence bears a lot harder.

A lot of my writing feels like a reminder. I'm left dismayed by it. If it had to end, I wish we could have ended it sooner and properly with closure. On some note, I'm grateful this is a form of closure to what's felt like months of communication issues.

But on the other hand I'm angry. The ordeal has made me feel worthless and I feel wounded. It was a tumultuous last few months and I feel like I tried to be as understanding and caring as possible. This feels a lot like being backhanded.

Maybe with time I'll feel less sour and upset and angry about it all, but when 90% of my AUs are buried in that...

I'm deleting all mention of my co-writer in next 24 hours from works. Symbolically, I need to and I don't think they'd care either way, they haven't cared for awhile about my writing.

Which...is a realization that stings a lot more than I thought, enough i admittedly lose my tough big man status and cry a bit.

Funny thing is we met because of my writing. They originally made fan art of it in a previous fandom I was in.

I'm not giving up on my works. I love them all dearly still.

And a final message I won't ever send, because I'm as much of a coward as they are.

"Fuck you. I'm going to be honest the last 6 months sucked. I regret visiting you IRL. I did not have fun. And also I loved you like a sibling, and I will miss you, and I'm thankful for what you inspired me to do, and resentful all the same."

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Hi hi, we plan on finally printing Space Time Traveler series in the next couple months! The cover art is done. The text is being formatted. The document is being minor grammar-checked (all 3 books heh) with me and my friend, the person who did the cover art. We've both been super busy with work etc.

Since we're in the final stages, I'd like to ask again : is there a final authors note, dedication, quote or forward/afterword page for readers you'd like to include? I would appreciate it but no pressure. We don't plan on printing until the end of October, so please let us know by then :) if not, no biggie. ❤️

Lol can be a meme too. Thank you.

((I struggle greatly with these kind of things))

Final author note:

This book was my first foray back into horror without hiding behind a comedic lense. I once as a young teen loved writing horror,  but felt inadequate.

I thank readers like Amoxil for elevating this work above just a small story and finding meaning in it and questioning the mysteries and lore in the text. I admit I have forgotten what answers I had for them and I think readers do a better job of writing their own interpretations past a certain point. As always with all my works, I welcome you to take inspiration and take elements you like and weave it into your own work. We are all mimicking authors and artists we liked, and I hope to leave others inspired.

As for this work:

Love for me has been akin to horror. I am drawn in. But I do not understand. To want to be vulnerable is to hand someone the knife to stab you with. And it will be warm. Your blood. Their hand. And you will crave it.

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Welp. Late night vent time.

But before that, thank you for 1001 kudos on Sugar Lips :3

In simple,  my co-writer ghosted me. In long, it shouldn't have been a surprise.

It is hard to write without them as silly as it sounds. It has been hard for months--our talks got few and far between and they haven't wanted to talk about writing for a year-- but...a complete absence bears a lot harder.

A lot of my writing feels like a reminder. I'm left dismayed by it. If it had to end, I wish we could have ended it sooner and properly with closure. On some note, I'm grateful this is a form of closure to what's felt like months of communication issues.

But on the other hand I'm angry. The ordeal has made me feel worthless and I feel wounded. It was a tumultuous last few months and I feel like I tried to be as understanding and caring as possible. This feels a lot like being backhanded.

Maybe with time I'll feel less sour and upset and angry about it all, but when 90% of my AUs are buried in that...

I'm deleting all mention of my co-writer in next 24 hours from works. Symbolically, I need to and I don't think they'd care either way, they haven't cared for awhile about my writing.

Which...is a realization that stings a lot more than I thought, enough i admittedly lose my tough big man status and cry a bit.

Funny thing is we met because of my writing. They originally made fan art of it in a previous fandom I was in.

I'm not giving up on my works. I love them all dearly still.

And a final message I won't ever send, because I'm as much of a coward as they are.

"Fuck you. I'm going to be honest the last 6 months sucked. I regret visiting you IRL. I did not have fun. And also I loved you like a sibling, and I will miss you, and I'm thankful for what you inspired me to do, and resentful all the same."

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sorry for lack of updates. I'm probably taking a longer hiatus from DSMP works and working on JRW/I ones.

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not really a question but i had a thought about sugar lips: not to be a doomer but wilbur would be so fucked if he wanted to sue schlatt for assault. like quackity mentioned it to him, but unfortunately the more you think about it he doesn’t have a lot of evidence to go off of. schlatt only paid him in cash so there’s record of the transactions, there wasn’t any physical contract or record of their arrangement, and really all there was are the texts between them,,, i mean they could pull like two witnesses (quackity and maybe popov?) but i’m sorry for wilbur there wouldn’t be much to go off of. wouldn’t be surprised if schlatt set everything in that way so he could just get away with doing anything to wilbur

Yeaaaaaaah, Quackity in the story knows it too tor a degree. We all just wish it worked. I'm very aware with s-work/those kind of relationships, having proof of an assault is near impossible. Heck, it's impossible for most everyone to prove it these days, even when you have evidence it isn't enough.

Schlatt in the story definitely intended for it to be like that. To spoil some part of the ending, Schlatt never faces legal repercussions or criminal or anything. Man is free to do it someone else. It's an awful notion, but it's the dark one where you just hope as a reader he won't.