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dean obviously sees himself as sam’s father (it’s literally mentioned in the script, in case you think it wasn’t blatant enough in the show), and while sam mostly sees dean as a big brother (there’s also very interesting subtext about him refusing to submit to john but pretty much always willingly submitting to dean. makes you think), it still doesn’t change the fact that dean raising him has lead to power-imbalance in their relationship. the fact that dean punishes him physically & emotionally and the fact that sam is scared of pissing him off & submits to his physical violence comes from said power-imbalance and the fact that their relationship isn’t exactly brotherly, especially post s1 because dean quite literally took john’s place after his death (the symbolism & implications are very unsubtle)

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big, beefy and tall bottoms being manhandled by their smaller tops >

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saying “dean and sam are equally obsessive/abusive” when it’s canon that sam would’ve died locked up in the panic room because of dean’s decision is crazy (also don’t forget the fact that locking sam up was also about punishing him). it’s so obvious that some people are desperately trying to compare incomparable situations because they think sam should be the “more fucked up one” despite all the evidence (dean’s “if tables were turned…i’d let you rot in here. hell, i have let you rot in here” vs sam’s “yeah, well…i guess i’m not that smart”) that it’s the other way around when it comes to their relationship

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dean winchester's most embarrassing moments:

1_ getting clocked and called simp incestphaggort loser

2_[seeing sam] so I'm dead? this is heaven?

3_replying "always do" when sam tells him to call if he needed him when he's outside

4_"whatever we have between us love family whatever it is" <- forgot the basic dictionary word incest

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Dean + his heaven

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rewatching 5x11 and the show going on about sam’s rage issues

are you kidding me

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family tree 'verse masterlist - COMPLETED

chronological order:

even if we died tonight, I'd die yours

warnings/tags: underage kissing, pre-canon, forbidden love, religious imagery and symbolism, implied/referenced underage sex, codependency, pov dean winchester

rating: M

words: 1.5k

summary: (It's a home inside of an abandoned house, it's love inside a family that should be wrong but feels so right.)

Dean and Sam. 1999.

still tied to me

warnings/tags: sibling incest, religious imagery and symbolism, religious guilt, forbidden love, shame, past underage, codependency, suicidal thoughts, stanford era, implied/referenced alcohol abuse/alcoholism, blow jobs, bulimia, coitus interruptus, unhealthy coping mechanisms, masturbation

rating: E

words: 1.7k

summary: Dean and Sam are states away from each other but can't stop thinking about the other.

(Neither of them know how much longer they can go on like this.)

making love in our own grave

warnings/tags: sibling incest, religious imagery and symbolism, religious guilt, forbidden love, set during season 1, codependency, pov sam winchester, blow jobs, anal sex, dirty talk, alcohol, top dean/bottom sam, past underage sex

rating: E

words: 3k

summary: He prays, if it's so wrong, then how can it feel so right? How it can it feel like Dean completes him, that Dean is the missing piece of him?

(There's no answer to his prayers. But Dean answers anyways.)

where happiness ends and dies with you

warnings/tags: sibling incest, religious imagery and symbolism, set during season 3, pov dean winchester, marijuana, blow jobs, rimming, anal sex, top sam/bottom dean, orgasm control

rating: E

words: 2k

summary: Dean's not gonna beg for God to save him now.

(Sam saved him a long time ago.)

you were my whole world

warnings/tags: sibling incest, codependency, suicidal thoughts, pov sam winchester, minor ruby/sam, set between s3 and s4, grief/mourning, canonical character death, unhealthy coping mechanisms, implied/referenced alcohol abuse, demon sex, vaginal sex, demon blood

rating: E

words: 1.3k

summary: Sam is lost to his storm of grief.

(Ruby shows him the way out.)

forgive these bones I'm hiding

warnings/tags: sibling incest, codependency, pov sam winchester, top dean/bottom sam, spit as lube, anal sex, anal fingering, religious imagery and symbolism, religious guilt, set during season 4, self-worth issues, jealousy, minor ruby/sam winchester, alcohol, angry sex, established relationship

rating: E

words: 2.2k

summary: Sam has his brother back.

(Why is everything still so fucked?

Sam prays and Castiel shows.)

I tried to be good, am I no good?

warnings/tags: past rape/noncon, rape aftermath, past torture, aftermath of torture, set during season 7, pov sam winchester, PTSD, trauma from lucifer's cage, implied/referenced self harm, angst, hurt/comfort, religious imagery and symbolism, religious guilt, self-worth issues

rating: M

words: 2k

summary: Maybe it was penance. Maybe it was because he is fundamentally unclean. Maybe it corrupted him beyond repair.

(Dean loves him anyways.)

sweet mourning lamb

warnings/tags: sibling incest, codependency, established relationship, religious imagery and symbolism, religious guilt, sick sam winchester, protective dean winchester, weirdcest, pov sam winchester, pov dean winchester, trauma from lucifer's cage, angst and fluff and hurt/comfort

rating: M

words: 1.9k

summary: The lamb is brought to the slaughter and says thank you, Lord.

(Sam is completing the trials. Dean tries to take care of him.)

hit 'em twice as hard

warnings/tags: sibling incest, religious imagery and symbolism, codependency, set during season 10, mark of cain, blood and violence, possessive dean winchester, rimming, anal sex, bondage, rough sex, dubious consent, PTSD

rating: E

words: 1.4k

summary: Everything about Dean is rougher, calloused. He's still Dean, but the softer parts of him are buried underneath rage and spite.

(Sam is still drawn to him.

Bleeding for love has always kinda been their thing.)

cannot escape his mother's blood

warnings/tags: sibling incest, codependency, set during season 12, established relationship, bottom dean/top sam, porn with plot, alive mary winchester, pov multiple, dirty talk, rimming, blow jobs, anal sex, angst with a happy ending

rating: E

words: 4k

summary: Something is off with her boys. Mary knows it.

(She doesn't know if she wants to know it.)

family tree 'verse tag on my blog

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my take on the whole "dean was parentified" narrative and where that slippery slope usually takes people ("sam was spoiled as a kid and dean shielded him from all harm") is that many people can't comprehend that dean was in fact parentefied, but that doesn't mean he was sam's father. sam had a father, and it was john.

nor does it mean sam was spoiled or babied by either of them. canon doesn't support this interpretation despite it being so popular in the fandom.

dean was parentified in the sense that he had responsibilies and stressors that weren't appropriate for his age and his role as a son... but that doesn't change the fact that his relationship with sam was that of a brother, not a parent.

at one point dean says "I had to be more than just a brother. I had to be a father, and I had to be a mother." and his feelings of overwhelm and resentment are valid—their childhoods were difficult, stressful, and abnormal.

however, this doesn't mean "john was absolutely useless and neglectful, so he was completely out of the picture. dean was indeed sam's father and mother. and he fulfilled those roles so well that sam had a happy, easy childhood and he was freed from any parent-related trauma, since dean was his parent, and he did an stellar job at it"... you know?

parentified siblings are siblings after all (and sam and dean only have a 4-year age gap). and dean did "fail" in his parentified role—sometimes he fucked up, sometimes he was the one hurting sam. in many ways, he didn't understand sam's needs or how to fulfill them. which is understandable. and he definitely couldn't shield sam from the difficulties they both had to face. that was well beyond his capability after all

on top of that, sam was taught self-reliance from a young age and he was exposed to the hardships of their lifestyle just like dean (hardships in general since he was born, and hunter-related ones since he was eight). and most of the glimpses we get of sam as a child/teen show a lonely, sad, troubled person. where's the pampered and unconcerned child!sam people keep hallucinating?

deep down, the issue is that people seem to put sam and dean on a seesaw and weight their problems and traumas against each other. if we say sam had a shitty childhood, then we're somehow denying dean's traumas and sacrifices. and if we believe dean suffered a lot in his youth, then that must mean sam had everything served on a silver platter. and that makes no sense.

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see, season one is sam thinking dean loves john more than he loves him & dean thinking sam hates john more than he loves him. and season two is about the realization that they love each other more than anything, including their own anger.

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[sam learns something new abt dean’s childhood] oh I never knew….. 🥺💞…… that’s so sweet . and heartbreaking . I love you. you’ve been thru so much 🥹 I’m really sorry 😞💖

[dean learns something new abt sam’s childhood] what the fuck why didn’t I know about that. I’m supposed to know everything about you. 😡‼️💔 what else aren’t you telling me. don’t answer that I need a drink. ✋

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In addition to "not liking Dean's music" and "taking the last of the lucky charms" we can now add "not appreciating a Christmas where your decorations are made of beer cans, your presents are stolen and your dad isn't home, has lied to you, and could even be dead, and also you are 8 years old" to the list of unforgivable Sam crimes.

The thing that bothers me most about posts like this are that these people don't seem to realize how fucked up it is to expect a child to take on a parental role, and to expect their sibling to be grateful for that. Why would Sam have positive memories of his older brother, also at a very young age, having to steal things from random homes because their father isn't around? Dean "tried his best," yes, but he shouldn't have had to. Neither Sam nor Dean deserved the childhood that they had. It isn't a contest of who was the most neglected and abused.

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yeah yeah everything sucks but like inc’est la vie or whatever

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I screwed up a lot with you, didn’t I? Nah, that’s okay.

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Sam Winchester and Dean Winchester find out there is a porno based on ‘Supernatural’ and Dean insists they watch at least the beginning dialogue together. They’re watching it together, drinking a beer and laughing at how cringe everything is until Sam walks onscreen and they both realised they casted a female porn actress as Sam. Dean is losing his shit and 'Sam' is in utter shock watching this unfold, too caught up to realise their characters are flirting with each other and by the time Dean’s stopped laughing and Sam humiliation calms down they realise porn! Dean and Sam are making out and stripping in front of them.

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incestuous psychos.