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dilemma
being single and broke on valentine's day is not what you expected - especially when your dealer is waiting for his payment. @momnomnom @sweetempathprunetree @darkuni63
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warning: drug dealer yoongi, oral (m receiving), kissing, smut, praising, weed smoking, unprotected sex, dirty talking, cumshot,
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âSugaâŠâ you murmur to the phone pressed to your ear. The sound of the shower is loud in the background as you wait for the water to turn hot.Â
âY/N.â the voice on the other side murmurs, voice deep and a little raspy. âYou know you donât have to call me that. Iâve known you for years now.â
You touch the water and hum. âI know. I like saying it, though.â you respond to the man on the other side. âI hope I didnât interrupt you from anything. It is Valentineâs Day afterall.â
You hear a chuckle on the other side. âNothing at all. I was just dozing off when you called.â
You lick your lips. You texted first, asking if he had your usual - nothing but an eighth of weed to hold you off. When he didnât respond, you called.
You knew Yoongi way back from your High School years that then rolled into college and even now, as you worked at your big girl job. His product was good, affordable and he always threw deals for clientele such as yourself - loyal, as he calls them. Thereâs been times in which Yoongi would add extra to the bag he sold you just because.
âThatâs sad. Figured a guy like you had someone to spend the day with him." The shower water is now hot. âI guess weâre both lonely on this holiday.â
You hear a grunt come from Yoongi. âI guess we are.â Thereâs silence for a moment from the both of you. âWhat do you suggest we do about that then?â
You lick your lips, your heart pumping at his sudden choice of words.
Another reason why you liked Yoongi - he always flirted back, no matter how subtle. You ponder if he was like this with all his clientele - but you understood that with you, he was. It never went past light flirting and lingering eyes, but itâs fun to engage with, nonetheless.Â
âHow about I drop off your usual and then we can smoke together?â Yoongi questions, a coolness in his voice. âI have a new strain you can try.â
âA new strain?â you open the shower door and get inside. The water hits your back and you lowly moan at the nice sensation of it. âThat would be nice, Yoongi. How long do you think youâd be?â
âNot long. Are you in a rush?â
âNo. Iâm just showering.â
Yoongi is silent for a moment and you lick your lips in anticipation.Â
âGetting pretty for our smoke session, I see. How nice.â thereâs shuffling in the background as you laugh at his response. âIâll be there in around 20.â
âSee you.â
You scrubbed your skin furiously as if it was covered in the most dirt and grime ever. Your showers lasted longer than 10 minutes - especially when it was an everything shower. How you managed to do everything in 10 minutes was beyond you, but you managed. You still had to get out and make yourself look good without appearing as if you were trying too hard.
You tilt your head in the mirror, mind wandering.Â
What if Yoongi was just a natural flirt? You were probably thinking far too into the flirtings - here you stood in front of a mirror pondering on what lingerie to wear for a man that sold you weed. Could you get any more pathetic than that?
Then again, what exactly did you have to lose?
You sigh. Your dignity was one - and so was good weed for the low if Yoongi decided to deny you.
âFuck it.â you shrug away your nerves, deciding that even if Yoongi denied you, that wouldnât stop you from at least attempting.
You knew Yoongi likes black - itâs all you ever truly see him in. You decided on a lacy black one you only ever wore once - for pictures - and covered it with a long t-shirt that stops at your thighs.Â
Your phone sounds and you exhale a breath. You place the phone upon your ear and murmur a soft hello. âYNâŠâ you feel the goosebumps of hearing your name come from Yoongiâs lips. â...Iâm outside.â
âComing.â you sing-song.Â
Itâs evening in February and that meant it was a bit chilly out, but youâd choose to ignore the piercing feeling of the cold breeze against your legs.
Yoongiâs car matched him, you thought. It was a black sedan with the darkest tint of windows youâve ever seen. It stands out in the driveway of your way - your own car wasnât as new as his nor was the surrounding ones belonging to your neighbors.Â
The car is still on, but Yoongi assures that the lights arenât. You got into his car swiftly, admiring how clean it was and how him it felt.
âYou look nice.â Yoongi comments, flickering on the light.
âIn a big ass t-shirt?â you snort, but even your heart is pounding from the compliment. If he thought you looked nice now, you wondered just how heâd like your lingerie.
Yoongi chuckles. âYeah.â he nods. âYou smell nice, too.â
You bite your lip, glancing at Yoongi's way.Â
âThis is a nice car.â you had to change the subject. Yoongi was such a smooth talker and everything he said had a tone of seriousness to it. It was hard not to be tongue tied around him. âYou canât get all your money just selling weed.â
Yoongi knits his brows. âSounds like youâre fishing for information.â he murmurs.Â
âJust an observation.â
Yoongi grasps a small rectangular box. He opens it, revealing pre-rolled blunts wrapped in paper. âYouâre correct. It isnât all I sell.â he says. âBut, Y/NâŠignorance is bliss.â Yoongi lights one of the blunts and hands it to you. âLadies first.â
You gently grab the blunt, trying to ignore the way Yoongiâs eyes watch you. You feel nervous underneath his intense stare, contemplating how you would make your move upon him.
Yoongi licks his lips, eyes trailing down to your exposed legs. They appeared soft and smooth and he wanted to test the theory, but he held himself back.
Yoongi blinks when your hand comes into his line of vision. Yoongi shakes his head. âYou can keep that one. Iâll light another.â he says, opening the box once more and grabbing yet another blunt.
You giggle. âThat seems excessive.â But you take Yoongiâs word for it and continue to smoke as Yoongi lights his own. âIsnât there a rule for using your own supply?â
Yoongi chuckles, taking a drag of his blunt. âMy supply would be fine, trust me.â
âI feel bad though.â you murmur, glancing out the window. Itâs hard to see with the tint and you just thought that was perfect. âI made you come all the way here for nothing.â
Yoongi is intrigued. He watches as you slowly turn towards him, body facing his way now in the large seat. He wants to tear his eyes away from the way the oversized shirt rises up your thigh, but it takes him a whole ten seconds to do so - and yes, he did count.Â
âHow so?â Yoongi swallows, finally lifting his eyes to reach yours. He continues to smoke as he awaits your response.Â
âI donât have any money.â your blunt was smaller than his now as you take a few puffs before continuing. âI should have told you once I realized. You know, bills, rent and all.â
Your throat feels dry. Yoongi slowly nods his head before releasing a laugh.Â
âThatâs fine. You donât have to pay me.â Yoongi shrugs his shoulders. âYouâve been a loyal customer for years.â
Your eyes watch Yoongi inhale the smoke and exhale it through his nose. Your legs clench, finishing the blunt that has grown small.
âThat would be taking advantage of you. I donât want to do that.â you shake your head.Â
âI consider you a friend of mine, Y/N.â You feel the jolt in your heart that tells you that your plan was going to fail. âYouâre the only one that I would give such luxuries to.â
The jolt is back, but this time your plan was back in action. âOh?â you ask, opening the window and flickering the small bud out of it. âI consider you a friend of mine, as well. But stillâŠâ
Yoongi blinks, tilting his head.Â
â...I donât just want to leave without offering you something.â
Yoongiâs unsure if heâs completely understanding what youâre speaking but he doesnât have a moment to digest, either. Youâre fast and swift, swinging your leg around and sitting completely onto his lap. Yoongi gasps when he feels you directly on him, the oversize shirt riding up your thighs once more.
Thereâs an open water bottle in the cup holder and Yoongi is quick to drop the rest of his blunt inside of it, not caring if he has wasted the rest entirely because you were in his lap. Yoongi is hesitant to touch you - he wants to feel the softness of your thighs. But he allows himself to slowly, telling himself that if you didnât want him to, you wouldnât be in his lap now.Â
âYou donât have to offer me anything.â Yoongi murmurs, leaning back into his seat and looking up at you.Â
Yoongiâs hands are big and they feel nice on you. Youâd recall often staring at them whenever you and he were together - usually when he was bagging your weed.Â
âI want to.â your hands send electric shocks through him when he feels them onto his neck. âYouâve been good to me after all these years. Always giving me deals, supplying more than what I ask for.â
Yoongi grunts when he feels you begin to grind against him and he is but a man, and within seconds heâs painfully (and embarrassingly) hard.Â
âYou even used to listen to my drunk ramblings when Iâd call for weed.â
Yoongi snorts. âThey were entertaining.â he admits, recalling the time youâd call him in all hours of the night back during your college days, ask for your usual, then completely change the topic of conversation. He never told you to shut up like you would have in his position.
Your hands slide down from his neck to his chest. You then grip the hem of your shirt and begin to lift. Yoongi watches in a trance, eyes slightly widening. In his eyes, you move in slow motion, taking off the oversize shirt.
Yoongi feels a lump in his throat and he tries his hardest to swallow it. His eyes are fixed on you - the black lingerie you wore that hugs you perfectly. It leaves little to the imagination, a lacy material covering your skin. He can see the outlines of your nipples - aroused and hardened for him.
âCat got your tongue?â
Yoongi manages to swallow, eyes glancing up to look at you. Youâre smirking down at him, satisfied that he was tongue tied.Â
âYou knew you were going to come out here and do this to me.â Yoongi presse you firmly against him, hands roaming up your sides. âThatâs why you smell so good and your skin is so soft.â
Yoongi doesnât intend to hold anything back now - not as you sit in his lap and allow him to touch you freely. He leans into your neck and inhales the sweet scent of your natural aroma mixed with perfume, a scent heâs sure he smelled before. He doesnât want to think too much into it (or admit that he has smelled you when heâs given you your usual because he wasnât a creep).
âGuilty.â you mumble, lowering yourself so youâre a few inches from his face.Â
Yoongi places his lips against yours, moaning into the kiss. It catches you by surprise for a moment, but then you melt into him. His hands roam your body, palms feeling what skin you have exposed.
Your teeth sink into Yoongiâs bottom lip, lightly tugging it. Your palms slide into the back of his neck just as Yoongiâs begin to cup your ass.
âYou want to do this here?â questions Yoongi, a dark look in his eyes. He isnât opposed to it, however, the way he wants to have you would be quite difficult in his car.
âWe can go inside.â you murmur, lips kissing down his jawline.Â
Licking his lips, Yoongi nods. âYou know you donât have to do this if you think you need to pay me.â he has to be sure that itâs something you truly want to do - ignoring that you did come out here in lingerie and willingly sat in his lap after he stated you didnât have to pay him.
âMaybe I just want to fuck you.â was your response and now, Yoongi is sure that tonight youâd get exactly what you were asking for.
The next is a blur. You managed to put your shirt back on while Yoongi gathered his own belongings and getting out the car. He keeps his hands on you as he follows you back inside your home and once the door is closed, youâre on him once more.
There had to be an attraction prior to this - between the both of you. Youâd notice oftentimes that Yoongiâs eyes would wander when he thought you werenât looking, and he also noticed how youâd become so giddy or flushed when he was around. This was bound to happen sooner or later - but never Yoongi leading it.Â
So you had to.
âDo you have a condom?â you ask Yoongi, possibly far too late. âIâm not on any birth control.â
Yoongi nods his head, glad that he left condoms in his wallet with him.
âIâm clean.â Yoongi mentions, a dust of crimson on his cheeks.Â
You smile. âSo am I.â
You then fall to your knees, lifting the oversize shirt over your head. You then place them on the belt of his jeans, eyes glancing up at him.
Goosebumps run through Yoongiâs skin at what youâre trying to do and heâs quick to help you. He loosens his belt and you do the rest.
Yoongiâs already hard from seeing you on your knees and the thought of what's about to come next. He watches with his mouth agape as you take his cock out of his underwear, licking your lips.
Itâs a rush going through you right now and for an odd reason, you feel yourself clenching around nothing just at the sight of Yoongi above you - and the thought of pleasuring him.Â
âShitâŠâ Yoongi murmurs to himself, swallowing once his mouth becomes dry. Youâre pumping his cock gently, eyes admiring at how pretty it looked. He was cleanly trimmed, cock erect and twitching in your hands.
You place a kiss on the tip of Yoongiâs cock before your tongue dips out and licks a single stripe upon it as if it was a lollipop. You can hear Yoongiâs breath hitching, and itâs what motivates you to continue.
Your tongue twirls around the tip, sucking it completely into your mouth. Your eyes glance up at the man, satisfied when his eyelids are closed and heâs beginning to pant.
Yoongi tries his hardest to remain upright, but then he feels your mouth more. So wet and warm and inviting - you take him into your mouth fully, continuing to suck as if your life depended on it. Yoongi leans against your front door, the back of his head pressed against it.
Deeper and deeper, you take Yoongi in your mouth. You rarely found your own pleasure when it came to pleasuring men - but this is different.Yoongi is hot, youâd admit, and even hotter when heâs moaning and panting because of you. You find yourself cleaning your own legs for any friction.
Managing to open his eyes, Yoongi looks down at you. Your cheeks are sucked in due to all the sucking youâre doing and wet slurping could be heard. Yoongi groans again because, damn - âYouâre so pretty.â he grumbles, embarrassed because he didnât mean to say it aloud and sound so damn whipped.
Your heart jolts at Yoongiâs compliment and it only causes you to suck harder, your jaw beginning to hurt but you refuse to stop because Yoongi (your weed dealer at that) called you pretty.
Yoongi pushes himself out of you - heâs unsure how he managed. His hand grasps your chin as he pants out a pathetic, âI donât want to cum yet.â
Thereâs a string of saliva connecting your lips to Yoongiâs cock and it breaks when you slide your tongue over your lips.
âOkay.â you nod at Yoongi. âMaybe next time.â
Yoongi swallows and for a moment closes his eyes. You were a vixen - someone sent by the universe to fuck up his life. And most important, he was willing for you to do so.
âY-yeah.â Yoongi mentally screams at himself for stuttering. âNext time.â He was known for his cool demeanor, a complete nonchalant person. You were breaking down walls he was certain wouldnât bulge.Â
You grin, small and cute, and nod back at him. âNext time you can return the favor, too.â you suggest. âNow I just want to ride you.â
Yoongi shudders. Heâs certain now. The universe sent you indeed. It sent you to humble him, telling him that there was someone out there who could break down the walls he placed.
Your bedroom is far while the living room is a few feet away. You lift to your feet, waving at Yoongi to follow you. He does, awkwardly, lifting his pants just so they arenât dragging across the ground.
You push Yoongi onto your couch, enjoying the sight of the man. âCondom?â you knit your brows.
âRight.â Yoongi mumbles, cheeks tinted red. He goes through his pockets and gets out his wallet. The condom falls out smoothly, a small, square black package.
You watch as Yoongi places the condom onto his cock and soon, youâre hovering above him.Â
âCrotchless.â you giggle to Yoongi, who appears confused when you donât remove the lingerie.
Yoongi gulps, nodding his head. You donât allow him a chance to process, youâre already centering yourself and slowly engulfing him fully.Â
Yoongi shudders at your warmth, even through the condom, of your pussy. He bites his lip, hands immediately on your hips as you begin to rise and fall. Youâre so beautiful, his hands slide up your sides and then cup your breasts. With the lingerie youâre wearing, your breasts are seconds from falling out and he decides to speed up the process.Â
âIâve wanted you for so long.â Yoongi muffles himself between your breasts, large hands squeezing them. He kisses them, his tongue poking out to lick a nipple.
âMe, too.â you huff, your nails digging into the shirt of his shoulders. You imagined far too many times what Yoongiâs cock looked like and what it would look like inside of you.
Yoongi begins to thrust with you, his left holding the flesh of your ass. His tongue continues to twirl on your nipple in utter boyish bliss. He ponders while fucking you what youâd feel like raw - he imagines how tight youâd be around him, how wet and even warmer than you are now
âShitâŠyouâre so tight.â Yoongi kisses up your neck. âAll for me.â
Thereâs a change in Yoongiâs tone of voice, no longer a stutter or a tint of uneasiness. You feel it in the way he begins to thrust harder, no longer allowing you to take control. So this was the Yoongi you knew (now know sexually) - cool, nonchalant and dominant.
With each thrust Yoongi hits a sweet spot and you moan with pleasure. His eyes continue to watch you contort with different emotions at what heâs doing. âYouâre moaning like youâre in love, baby.â
You suck in a breath at the pet name. Fuck Yoongi, seriously, because you probably did look that way. But it wasnât your fault - you donât get fucked this good often and when you do wellâŠ
âYou havenât stopped moaning either.â you retort, somehow managing to find your words. You wrap your arms around his neck to bring him closer to you, your lips close to his ears. âAlmost like youâre in love.â
Yoongi feels it - your tongue. It swipes at his ear teasingly and thatâs all he needed to flip you onto your back, hitting the couch rapidly. He throws your legs over his shoulders and lifts his shirt a bit so he can continue to fuck into you. The position allows him to go even deeper, hitting that spot so sweet that youâre wailing.
âSo wet. Wish I could feel you.â Yoongi says more to himself than you. Thereâs a creamy wetness wrapped around the condom, your pussy leaking with pleasure.Â
You begin to pant, eyes snapping shut. You were beginning to think that maybe you were becoming dick drunk, because your next words surprise you just as it does him. âIf you can pull out, you can take off the condom. Cum on me, too.â
âShit, baby, really?â Yoongi halts his thrusts. Did he hear you correctly? âYou canât be that high.â he jokes.
âFuck you.â you hiss low. âJust take it off and fuck me, Yoongi.â
âYeah, yeah.â Yoongi does as heâs told, quickly getting up to undress his bottom half. He removes the condom and looks around.
âJust throw it-â
âIâm not throwing it on the ground.â Yoongi raises a brow. âIâm not a caveman.â He was far too respectful and sanitary for that,even if it was just for a moment.
You huff and nod, pointing behind you to the direction of the bathroom.Â
Yoongi dashes down the hall, discards the condom, and rushes back. He kisses your cheek quickly, centering himself back at your whole.
Yoongi winces, then shudders.
You felt better than heâd imagined - warm, wet and still tight. Heâs slow at first, trying to collect himself. Your legs are over his shoulder again, and he reaches inside of you deeper and deeper.Â
âYou look in love.â you joke, mocking him. Yoongi hasnât looked away from your pussy since he started.Â
âMaybe I am.â Yoongiâs nails dig into your thighs, his thrusts picking up the pace. The sweet sounds of your moans mixed with the wet sounds of your pussy hit his ears. âYouâre clenching around me so tight.â his eyes flicker to you, and he smirks. âLike you want me to cum in you.â
Yoongi pounds inside of you, each thrust aggressively deep. You donât mean to say it - but Yoongi was playing a dangerous game as if you werenât already high and horny.
âMaybe I do.â
Yoongi grumbles something inaudible. Indeed you were sent from the universe - heâs read about nymphs and youâre beginning to fit the description.Â
âYou do, huh?â Yoongi opens your legs and marvels at the sight of your pussy, his cock being milked with your essence lovingly. His thumbs place itself onto your clit and he rubs. âYouâre just talking. Good weed and dick would do that to you.â
Cocky Yoongi is back and damn was it hot.
You opened your eyes to see Yoongi in the act.Â
A mistake.
Yoongiâs looks completely feral, eyes dark with lust. His hair sticks to his forehead and his mouth is slightly agape, panting to himself. His eyes are fixed to your pussy and you decided to see just what he saw.
You were cumming now - Yoongi circling your clit just as rough as he was fucking you. His cock fits perfectly inside of you and watching the way he fucks you just sends you completely over the edge.Â
âThere you go, baby.â chuckles Yoongl raspily, witnessing you cum for him. âYou look pretty cumming on my cock.â
A few more sloppy thrusts and Yoongiâs certain heâs near. He bites his lip, pulling out of you abruptly. His cum spills on your clit, warm and slippery.
You huff, shaking your head. âYou managed to pull out.â you murmur.
Yoongi falls back against the couch to catch your breath. âAlmost didnât.â he admits with a laugh. âYou hungry?â
You nod your lazily, the side effects of the weed coming to you.Â
âI can get us something to eat.â Yoongi offers. âFree of charge. You donât have to fuck me-â
You kick Yoongi, a rush of hot embarrassment running through you, but all the man does is laugh, gummy smile on full display.
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the lingerie era | myg
đŠpairing: neighbor!yoongi x reader (f)
đŠgenre: smut, fluff, f2l, neighbor!au, childhoodfriend!au, best friendâs older brother, lingeriemodel!reader
đŠsummary: Sending Min Yoongi, aka your ridiculously hot neighbor/childhood friend, a photo of yourself in lingerie might be the best or stupidest mistake youâve ever made.
đŠword count: 10.1k
đŠwarnings: fingering, oral (m receiving), corruption kink, gagging, deepthroating...? rough sex w/protection, implied masturbation (m), light degradation, the way oc becomes a slut for his cock so quick, yoongi touches boobies, nipple play, dirty talk, yoongi teasing reader for 4263 years straight bc he's mean
a/n: this is the extended version of the airdrop incident! if you haven't read that drabble already, it's fine bc that scene is included in this one!đ
An onlooker might be wondering why youâre standing outside your neighborâs door at ass oâclock in nothing but an oversized tee, but the answer is simple. Mistakes were made. Youâre an idiot.
Approximately five minutes ago, you thought itâd be cute to send your best friend Mo a photo from your first day at your new job. But it wasnât just any photo. It was a photo of you in strappy black lingerie, lying on beige silk sheets all glowy and oiled up. Youâre gazing up into the camera lens like itâs the dark eyes of a man about to rail you.Â
As weird as it sounds to be sending that kind of photo to your best friend, youâve known her your entire life and sheâs always been the number one supporter of your modeling career. In fact, sheâs the one who bugged you for the pics in the first place.
You have no regrets for wanting to share the photo with your best friend. You just hate yourself for thinking itâd be fine to AirDrop it since she lives right next door. In your defense, your company is paying for your work phoneâthe new iPhoneâand you were eager to play around with all the random features you wonât otherwise be using. Besides, AirDrop has a small range and Mo is your neighbor, so it was the perfect opportunity to test it out. In theory, she wouldâve received the photo no problemâif she were actually home.
But Mo wasnât home. Youâd realized that too late after the AirDrop had gone through to someone else. Mortified is an understatement of how you felt when she sent a text saying, âGIRL;;;; Iâm at Namjoonâs place rn;;;; IÂ am NOT in AirDrop rangeđ„Čâ
For a good two minutes, you were convinced it mustâve been some creepy stalker whoâd accepted your AirDrop⊠or the sweet elderly lady who lives across the street and occasionally drops off a tray of baked goods. You could totally see her accidentally accepting the AirDrop, only to be blindsided and violated by that photo of you. Thereâs no way in hell youâll be able to return her sparkly red reindeer platter from her last cookie delivery. Not after sheâs seen you like that.
But then an even darker thought came to mind. And youâd take creepy stalker or innocent granny over that any day.
Thatâs how you ended up on your neighborâs doorstep at ass oâclock.
After letting you stand out in the cold for a whole ass minute, he finally answers the door. âHeâ as in Min Yoongi, your childhood friend slash nemesis, the older brother of your best friend, or, in the simplest terms, your hot neighbor.
And when you say âhot,â you mean really hot. Your innocent little crush on him was cute when you were ten, but the admiration has since evolved into pure lust. Youâve admittedly thought about him in ways you should not be thinking about a childhood friend let alone your best friendâs brother.Â
Whenever you catch a glimpse of his big hands, you wish they were on your body, you wish his long veiny fingers would curl inside you, and the tiniest part of you wishes he wasnât someone you had a long history with. You always feel like you have to be on your toes around him because of that history. Because you know it can all fall apart with one wrong moveâlike accidentally sending him a suggestive lingerie photo. Oops.
âYes?â he raises a brow, staring at the way youâre shivering outside his door, the way your perky nipples are most definitely poking through your shirt. Youâre sure he sees it all. But given the fact that heâs practically seen you naked, you donât even bother covering up. Whatâs the point?
âDid you, by chance, get an AirDrop like five minutes ago?â you get straight to the point. Itâs fucking freezing, after all. He couldâve at least asked you to come inside for a sec. You wouldâve declined to avoid the risk of temptation, but still.
âDepends,â he hums, eyes still very much on your chest. The boy has no shame apparently. Youâre pretty sure heâs dating that pretty brunette youâve seen sneaking in and out of his house lately, so whyâs he looking at you like that? âWhat was the AirDrop?â
âA picture of me,â you mumble. It was freezing a minute ago, but now your face feels hot. Thatâs weird.
âHmm, not sure if the one Iâm thinking of is you or not.â The bastard puts on his most exaggerated thinking faceâlike that emoji with the hand on his chin. You hate him. âWhat were you wearing?â
âNothing!â you squeak at him. Both of you know no one fucking uses AirDrop except old people. Heâs obviously playing dumb and knows whatâs going on. He just wants to hear it from your mouth to make his ego bigger than it already is. âYou know what Iâm talking about.â
âPretty sure you were wearing somethingâŠâ he furrows his brow, unlocking his phone to âconfirmâ what he saw. You snatch the phone out of his hand, but he seems to remember the contents of the photo just fine. âAh, yes. Black strappy lingerie, right? I didnât know you were like that, Y/N.â
âFuck you,â you hiss as you scroll through and search for the picture in question. AirDrop must have its own stupid section on the phone because you canât find it anywhere.
âRelax, I already deleted it,â he chuckles at how determined you are. Youâre not falling for it. Surely heâs already leaked the photo on OnlyFans. You donât have a whole lot of faith in Min Yoongi. Heâs never been The Nice Guy. âWho were you trying to send it to?â
âNone of your business.â He has a girlfriend, after all. Why should he care about who youâre sending those kinds of pictures to?
âMy sister?â
âFine. Yes, her.â
âYouâre sneaking around sending nudes to my sister? On AirDrop?â he narrows his eyes. Why does he seem more disgusted at the AirDrop part? Youâd laugh if you werenât so stressed. âSheâs in a very committed relationship, you know.â
âIâm aware.â You donât know whatâs worseâhim thinking youâre hitting on his sister aka your best friend, or admitting the pic was from a photoshoot for your new job. There are no winners here. Might as well come clean. âSheâs the one who asked for pics so she could fangirl over her lingerie model best friend.â
âMy little Y/N grew up and became a lingerie model?â He tilts his head, intrigued. He mightâve deleted the pic from his phone, but you bet the image is forever ingrained in that fuckboy head of his. You wonder how his girlfriend feels about him thinking of other girls in that context. Youâd feel shitty. Heâs a horrible boyfriend. âIn that case, Iâd also like to show support. Mind if you send the pic agââÂ
You cut him off with a growl. His eyes slowly work their way up your bare legs to your chest to your death glare.
âI kid, I kid.â He waves his hands like a white flag so you donât pounce on him. But then something occurs to him. His smug look turns into a frown. âWait, so AirDropping it to me wasnât âan accidentâ?â he asks with air quotes.
âNo, it was a real accident, Yoongi,â you scoff. You canât believe he thought youâd intentionally sent that pic to him. Heâs so full of himself. Heâs the last person youâd ever want to see those pics.
âWell thatâs no fun.â
âElaborate.â
âIt wouldâve been kinda cute if you did it to get my attention,â he shrugs, leaning his head against the doorframe. âJust like when we were younger. Remember how youâd always tug on my arm and pout until I acknowledged you?â
âNo, but itâs kinda weird that you remember it.â You finally cross your arms in front of your chest. âItâs also kinda weird that you want my attention when thatâs what your girlfriend is there for.â
âItâs kinda weird that you keep up with my love life and know I have a girlfriend,â he fires back at you in his usual arrogant tone. âIâm breaking up with her, by the way. Just in case you wanted to know.â
You pause the petty war for a second. Min Yoongi is breaking up with his girlfriend because you accidentally sent him one (1) risquĂ© photo of yourself? To be fair, you do look pretty hot in that photo. But still! Youâve known the guy your whole life, and all itâs ever amounted to was banter with a hint of feelings and dirty thoughts on your end. Youâd always assumed Yoongi thought of you as nothing more than his little sisterâs friend. Surely heâs just toying with you right now. Because thatâs what fuckboys do.Â
Thatâs what Min Yoongis do.
âGood to know,â you nod, the cold breeze coming back. You better leave now before you do something stupid again. Stupid AirDrop. âWell, Iâm gonna go now. Itâs fucking cold.â
You drop his phone into his palm, your fingers grazing his in the process. Theyâre so warm. But your fluffy blanket is warmer. And itâd never betray you.
âThanks for only being a slight dick about the pic,â you say, scurrying off to your doorstep.
âAnytime,â he smirks. Asshole. âIâll AirDrop you later.â
âI donât want your dick pics, sir.â You hear his laugh before closing the door.
A minute later, you get an AirDrop of what you hope is not in fact a dick pic. You accept it immediately. Itâs a blurry selfie of him on his bed, flipping you off with an emphasis on how much extra mattress space he has. That has to be the quickest breakup of all time. They donât call him a fuckboy for nothing.
He accompanies the selfie with a simple text:
Yoongiđż [2:03AM] âYour lossâ
The rest of the night is spent staring at the extra space next to him on his bed. Heâs taunting you. Teasing you. Tempting you to do something youâll surely regret. Well, youâre not taking the bait. The accidental AirDrop was an honest mistake, but this one would be all on you. Because you understand the risks.
Itâs best to keep things how they are between you two.
After a night of tossing and turning, your week somehow gets worse. Your car decides to malfunction fifteen minutes before youâre supposed to be at work. You swear it was working perfectly yesterday. Then again, you donât know shit about cars.
Your first instinct is to call Mo. You like to think of yourself as a prepared person, but shit happens. And when shit happens, Mo is your personâyour one phone-a-friend. But you know sheâs with Namjoon, and you know sheâd drop everything including him for youâyouâd do the same for her. Youâd rather not be a cockblock when things are going so well for them.
Alternatively, you wouldâve borrowed your parentsâ car, but they moved into a nicer place a few years ago and reluctantly left you behind after a lot of convincing on your end. You can handle yourself, you told them. And it was going greatâuntil The AirDrop Incident happened and your car refused to start up for no fucking reason.Â
Uber and public transportation are other options, but you donât have time to wait for those rides to arrive. You need to leave in the next 30 seconds or risk being late. Your new job is on the line here.
And thatâs why you find yourself, once again, at Min Yoongiâs doorstep. You hate it here.
He opens the door and blinks his heavy lids at you several times before saying anything. Poor boy. The morning sun is too bright for him, like a cat waking up from its first nap of the day. And yet, he still manages to look so attractive with that messy hair and furrowed brow. You bet the raspiness in his voice is even more seductive in the morning. It is.
âAre we really doing this again?â he asks, pointing his finger back and forth between you and him. At least heâs awake enough to realize shit like this shouldnât be happening two days in a row. Youâre sick of it too.
âI need to be at a shoot in like ten minutes, and my car is fucked up right now, soâŠâ You wish the boy would finish the sentence for you, but heâs just standing there like a smug ass. Youâd shove him over, but youâre going to be late and heâs your only option. So you swallow your pride, just this once. âDo you think you can give me a ride?â
He makes some sort of grunt and says, âIâll be out in a sec,â before shutting the door in your face. Youâll take that over the teasing you were expecting. Must be too early for the banter.
As soon as you get into his car, you realize you were horribly wrong. The false sense of security got you good. Apparently, itâs never too early for banter.
âWhat would you do without me, hm?â he asks, looking more awake and alive than ever before. Glowing, even. You knew it. He gets a kick out of you needing his help. Heâs always been like this. One time when you were seven, your dumb ass climbed up a tree and got stuck up there like a cat. Heâd only helped you down after you begged him for ten minutes straight. And although he stood right below you to break your fall in the unlikely event that you slipped, he also had a big fat smile on his face the entire time. Heâs the worst.
âIâd manage.â
âIâm sure you would, Y/N.â He doesnât sound very convinced. Kind of like your parents before they agreed to trust you on your own. âSo, whatâs this about lingerie and modeling?â
âGot a problem with it?â you challenge him. The very reason you havenât told anyone else about your job aside from your best friend is that fear of judgment. As far as your parents know, you do modeling for a trendy clothing brand (you do). They just donât know about your side hustle. Youâre sure a guy like Yoongi has no problem with it, though. In fact, last night he sounded awfully eager to support your new job because it just so happens to center around two of his favorite thingsâtits and ass.
âNot at all,â he hums. âJust curious how it happened.â
âMy ex had connections to the company,â you say.
âAnd you dumped him after he got you a job?â He raises his brow and laughs. Whatâs he so amused about? âKind of savage, Y/N.â
âActually, he broke up with me,â you correct him. How dare he assume youâre the savage one.
âWhy would he do that?â he asks, as if itâs not normal for people to break up. Maybe itâs just his protective gene kicking in. He was the same way when he heard about your first breakup years ago.
âHe said I wasnât giving him enough,â you shrug. Youâre honestly not too upset about it. Itâs not like you had enough time to get attached to him anyway.
âGiving him enough what? Head?â
You glare at the boy even though you really want to laugh. Heâs not entirely wrong.
âSorry.â He does a quick glance at you as he turns the corner. Still smiling, though. âWell, if I had to guess, it had something to do with you playing hard to get.â
âI do not play hard to get,â you say with a firm hmph.Â
âYouâre certainly not making it easy now,â he frowns. Okay, maybe he has a point. But in your defense, the trait rubbed off on you from Yoongi himself. You spent your entire childhood chasing after him and wound up with nothing. You worked your ass off for any sort of reciprocated feelings from him, only for him to continue to treat you like an annoying child as you both grew older.Â
By the time college came around, you were tired of doing all the chasing and thought youâd finally outgrown that neediness for him. You told yourself it was better that way, to keep him as nothing more than a bittersweet childhood memory. And you moved on. For once, you just wanted to be desired and admired by someone as deeply as youâd felt for Yoongi.
And when you think about it, all of your past relationships might have relied too much on the thrill of the chase. You never thought about what came after. You never envisioned a future beyond the chase. Thatâs why those relationships were so quick to fizzle out. You didnât give them a reason to stick around.Â
You didnât give them enough.
Yoongi unlocks the doors as he pulls up in front of the building for the shoot. You unbuckle your seatbelt and thank him on the way out like heâs your Uber driver.
But then he goes off script. âWhen should I pick you up?â
You werenât expecting a ride home. After your car died on you, youâd immediately changed from your cute ankle boots into sneakers in preparation for the long walk home after work. In fact, you wouldâve opted to walk to work too if you had enough time. Like you said before, you can handle yourself just fine. Ever since you found your footing as a model and started living alone, youâve stopped relying on anyone else.
âNo need. Iâll walk home,â you gently decline, kicking your white sneakers up for him to see.Â
Still, you canât pretend like it doesnât feel nice that the boy offered you another ride. Itâs a subtle gesture, but it lets you know heâs watching out for you. Thereâs at least one person you can count on, even when your best friend and family arenât around. And thatâs already more than you could ever ask for.
âWe can grab dinner after,â he suggests, leaning his arms against the steering wheel. You know exactly what heâs doingâplaying to your weakness and bribing you with food. Because thatâs the one thing you rarely ever say no to. Youâve always been that way.
âOkay, sure. Iâll be done around six.âÂ
Itâs fine. Youâll pay for his meal as thanks for the rides. Then youâre even.Â
The first half of the shoot goes well. The lingerie theyâve picked out for you is super pretty, and the assistant said you get to keep your favorite set after the day wraps up. Right now, youâre feeling pretty fucking good despite the stressful night and morning you had.Â
During your lunch break, you find some shameless texts waiting for you.
Yoongiđż [10:34AM] âMy friend would like you to send pics of your wardrobeđâ
Yoongiđż [10:34AM] âFor scienceâ
For science. Your smile flattens just a little. You get that heâs just teasing you, but part of you really wonders if heâs only paying this much attention to you because of your job and the picture youâd AirDropped to him. All you are to him is a hot body to look at. Thatâs the only reason he broke up with his girlfriend, isnât it?Â
If you hadnât been a dumbass and sent him that photo, he wouldâve simply dropped you off at work like the silent Uber driver he was supposed to be. And that wouldâve been the end of it. There wouldnât have been a âletâs get dinner afterâ or a âsend pics of your skimpy lingerie.â
And yet, this is exactly what youâd been yearning for since age fiveâhis attention.
If you really wanted to, you could play along and send him a teaser of the lingerie you decided to take homeâa polka-dot mesh set that is very seethrough. You could even drop it in his lap when he picks you up later and tell him itâs a souvenir. Thatâd get his attention for sure.Â
But youâre not going to do that. Obviously. Instead, you send him a boring pic of a rack with empty hangers. Because thatâs playing it safe.
Yoongiđż [12:58PM] âGoing nude today?â
Yoongiđż [12:58PM] âOr are those micro thongs getting smaller?đ§â
Yoongiđż [12:59PM] âHelloâ
You wheeze. Heâs lucky youâve known him since birth. If it were any other guy, youâd ghost him for saying shit like that. Then again, heâs only saying it because he knows he can get away with it with you.Â
Y/NđŁ [1:00PM] âi have to get back to work nowđ«Ąâ
When you finally reach the homestretch of the shoot, youâre tired and more than a little hungry. Itâs been a long day, but you want to finish strong before indulging in a nice dinner with you-know-who. You decided you want to take him to your favorite new sushi spot. Not because you know he loves sushi but because itâs what you happen to be craving today.
While sitting down on the fluffiest rug your ass has ever felt, you model a pretty white set with lots of ties like a bikini. Just a few more photos to go, and then you can get your sushi with your Uber driver. But then your starved brain starts to fuck with you.
Just off to the side behind the camera, you see a shadow that looks a lot like Yoongi. You know itâs not actually him, though. Itâs just a hallucination spawning from your cravings. Your cravings for sushi, you clarify to yourself.
Then the shadow crosses his arms and smirks as you get on your knees and press an innocent finger to your bottom lip like youâre just asking for your mouth to be filled. As soon as the camera captures a few shots, your eyes dart back to check on the shadow. He gives you a thumbs up.
Thatâs not a shadow.
Suddenly, your cheeks are hot and your chest is pounding. Heâs not supposed to be here. How are you supposed to focus when you know your childhood friend is watching? You have all these eyes on your body as it is, but heâs the only one that really gets you flustered. More flustered than your first day on the job here.
âCan we redo that shot one more time, please?â the photographer asks. âRelax your shoulders a bit, honey.â
You drop your shoulders, but thatâs not going to hide the way your heart is practically pounding out of your chest that you know heâs got his eyes glued to.
âActually, can I take a quick water break?â You shoot up from the rug, take a long sip of water, grab your thin little robe, and drag your unwanted visitor off to the side.
âHi to you, too,â he says, glancing down at the way your fingers wrap around his wrist.
âWhat are you doing here?â Your shaky tone screams of unease. When he said heâd pick you up, you werenât expecting him to actually go in like a parent picking up their kid from school. He was supposed to stay put in his car where youâd meet him after work. That was the plan. Not this.
He studies your face as if heâs debating whether or not youâre being serious right now, as if he expected you to be happy to see him. After building up the anticipation for several seconds more, he has the audacity to say, âJust here to show my support for my lingerie model neighbor.â
Why did you even bother asking? You shouldâve known. He just confirmed what youâd hoped wasnât true. Heâs only paying any attention to you because of that dirty image you ingrained in his head with that dumb AirDrop.
And to be honest, youâre kind of over it. Maybe itâs just your empty stomach raging, but he should know that this is crossing the line. Heâs your neighbor for crying out loud. Heâd seen you lose your two front teeth, gone trick-or-treating with you, witnessed your awkward teen phase, and all that other wholesome childhood shit. Sure, he gave you a hard time every step of the way, but his presence in your life and the memories you made together were all you ever wanted to protect.Â
Thatâs why you chose to stay behind when your parents moved away. You were fine with being away from your own family, and you were even fine when Mo started spending more time with Namjoon. But Yoongi has always been a different case.
You gave up on seeing him in a romantic way after realizing it just wasnât realistic. If youâd let yourself feel that way any longer, heâd eventually have to reject you, and then that would be the end of it. And youâd much rather keep him in your life than risk it all with a dumb confession of unrequited love. He doesnât love you, and youâre okay with that.
You just wish he wouldnât make it so painfully obvious that itâs only your body that heâs after. Because thatâs when it might be easier on your heart to cut ties with him.
âI work better when youâre not here.â You let go of his wrist and donât look up from the red mark your tight grip left on his pale skin. Youâre not going to let his charm sway you. He needs to leave. Nothing good can come out of him being here.
So he backs away and leaves.
As you tie your sneakers and refill your water bottle in preparation for the long walk home, you let out a big sigh. Looks like you wonât be getting your sushi fix tonight. Stupid AirDrop.
You wave bye to the crew and claim your free lingerie before stepping outside. To your surprise, itâs already dark out even though you thought the sun wasnât supposed to set until seven. If you squint hard enough, you swear you can see Yoongiâs car parked in the lot.Â
So you try not to squint.
But as soon as you walk past the car, your feet make a u-turn until you can see the boy leaning back in his seat, eyes closed and arms folded against his chest. You might still be upset, but you canât deny how good-looking he is. Itâs not fair. The only reason you stop staring is to avoid judgment from anyone passing by. And because you kind of need to talk to him.
You knock on the window on the passenger side.
He doesnât even flinch.
You knock again. Still nothing. Either heâs dead, or heâs just fucking with you. He better not be fucking with you when youâre mad. Read the room, asshole.
Trying your best not to throw your phone at his window, you instead use it to call him. His phone screen blinds you as it flashes on in the darkness and vibrates against his thigh.
This time you catch the slightest twitch of his pretty pink lips. Theyâre glowing in the light of his phone screen.
You walk around to the driverâs side and get a better look at his glowy handsome face. âI know youâre awake.â
Now he has a full smile to accompany his closed eyelids, cosplaying as a happy corpse.
You roll your eyes at him and start walking in the opposite direction. âAll good, Iâll just walk home.â
The doors unlock real quick. The corpse snaps out of his eternal slumber. âHey, I was kidding,â he calls out the window. âCome back here.â
For the second time in the past three minutes, you make a u-turn toward his car. But this time, you hop in, hesitant to look him in the eye.
âI didnât think youâd still be waiting hereâŠâ You bite your lip. You wish he werenât still here. Then you wouldnât be forced to talk about what happened earlier. Itâd be much easier to not talk about your feelings.
âYou agreed to grab dinner with me afterward, didnât you?â Heâs acting like you didnât banish him from the building twenty minutes ago. Heâs acting like you couldâve told him to never speak to you again and heâd still be waiting here because of some promise youâd both made earlier in the day. He wouldâve been waiting here for you no matter what.Â
Maybe you shouldnât have gotten that upset. Time to go in over-two-decades-of-history-preservation mode.
âYeah but⊠I kind of overreacted earlier. Then again, I donât know how else Iâm supposed to react when my neighbor sees me half-naked,â you say, shrinking in your seat. âI still meant what I said, though. I work a lot better when youâre not around because you make it hard to focus.â
You immediately regret admitting that last bit.
âItâs understandable that you get so flustered around me. Kind of cute, too,â he hums like he just won the lottery. Mother fucker. âBut I shouldâve just been honest with you earlier.â
âWhat do you mean?â You tilt your head like a lost puppy.
âSomeone obviously hasnât checked their phone in a while,â he chuckles, pointing to the pink phone resting atop the mesh lingerie in your bag. You grab your phone and shove the lingerie deeper into your bag until itâs out of his view. Hopefully, he didnât notice.
Sure enough, you have more unread texts waiting for you beneath the thirsty ones from lunch.
Yoongiđż [6:29PM] âIs the shoot running late?â
Yoongiđż [6:29PM] âNo rush btw. Just want to make sure you didnât die in the bathroom or something hahaâ
Yoongiđż [7:01PM] âSo should I be concerned orâ
Yoongiđż [7:02PM] âJust to clarify, I donât believe youâre deceased in the bathroomâ
Yoongiđż [7:02PM] âBut I am gonna go in and check lolâ
Then you realize how late it is. Itâs over an hour past the time you told Yoongi youâd be done. No wonder itâs fucking dark out.
Your whole mind is spinning, and you have a lot of questions. You turn to him, and the first thing you ask is, âYou thought I died in the bathroom?â
âYou were running late, not responding, and, well⊠I had to check,â he shrugs his shoulders. âI didnât know the lady at the front desk was going to bring me right to the shoot.â So he had good intentions after all. He wasnât just after your bodyâfar from it, in fact. He was genuinely worried about you.Â
Well, shit. Now you look like the asshole for telling him to fuck off after he thought to check up on you like a guardian angel. He shouldâve just said so in the first place. But maybe itâs hard for him to admit that sort of thing, too. You can relate.
You still feel bad, though. Doubt had clouded your better judgment because of your own insecurities. You didnât believe what he was doing for you was unconditional. But the truth is, he cares about you more than you know. He always has.
Was Yoongi completely and utterly crushed after youâd asked him to leave your photoshoot? Yes. But he wasnât going to show that to you. After all, as far as you knew, heâd only dropped by to check you out in that pretty lingerie. Thatâs always been his biggest downfall. Heâs never been fully honest with you. Itâs understandable that youâd be frustrated with him.
You had every right to be mad at him for interfering with your work. You had every right to walk away right past his car after the shoot. And yet, you still chose to sit down beside him to salvage whatever it is between you and him. Itâs always been complicated like this, but itâs worth all the petty bickering you guys do on a daily basis. Seeing you so flustered and cute makes it all worth it.
The last thing he wants is for you to slip through his fingers. Because a world without you would just be weird. And boring. And lonely.
And now youâre rambling on about sushiâhis favorite food. You claim youâve been craving it all day, but itâs not very convincing.
âHey, the sushi place is the other way,â you frown as he turns left instead of right. âYouâre the worst Uber driver ever. Iâm leaving you a one-star review.â
âI thought you didnât like sushi,â he points out, completely ignoring your Karen threat.
âYeah, when I was like ten. Iâm allowed to change what I like, arenât I?â You make a good point. Maybe your taste buds have changed and you arenât just catering to his preferences. But itâs in his nature to keep pushing your buttons, to keep getting a reaction out of you. Thatâs the one thing he knows will never change between you and him.
âYou were cuter when you didnât like sushi.â
âFuck you.â You turn your head away from him and toward the window to hide your face. He can still see your reflection, though. For such harsh words, your expression is soft.Â
Itâs funny because thatâs what Yoongi has always liked most about you. Youâre a tough cookieâyou know it, he knows it, everyone knows itâbut the best cookies are the ones with soft centers. And he loves to devour and savor that soft side you only seem to show him.
About ten minutes later, he pulls up to a drive-thru youâll surely recognize. He doesnât go there often himself, but whenever he does, heâs reminded of those Halloween nights spent scaring the shit out of you before spending his allowance to buy you a kidâs meal with a dumb light-up pumpkin toy. Heâs reminded of the time you broke up with your first boyfriend and needed someone to rant to over vanilla milkshakes and fries. Heâs reminded of the past two decades the two of you shared together, no matter how silly or short-lived the moments were. Heâs cherished all of it.
It might not be the sushi youâd hoped for, but your eyes light up when you see the fast food sign. You lean in closer to him to get a better look at the menu. Today you smell like fruit andâhe goes in for another sniff by your neck, purely to identify the intoxicating scent youâre wearingâsomething floral.Â
âOoh, order me the nugget combo with an iced coffee,â you finally glance at him, mid-sniff, with the eyes of an angel. He knew youâd appreciate the fast food.
âYou and your nuggets. What are you? A baby?â he chuckles before being greeted and prompted to order over the speaker. âCan we get a burger combo with iced coffee, one kidâs meal with nuggets and milkââÂ
You give his shoulder a small shove.Â
He smirks but otherwise continues on as if nothing happened, ââand a nugget combo with iced coffee.â
âSo a total of two combos and one kidâs meal?â the employee double-checks.
âActuallyââ
âYeah,â he cuts you off and drives to the pick-up window before you could protest and cancel the kidâs meal order.
âWhy do you need a kidâs meal?â you mumble as the employee hands off the big bag of food to Yoongi. Youâre so cute when youâre pouty.
âItâs for you, obviously.â He pulls into a spot in the empty lot and takes a sip of his coffee.
âWhy do you always treat me like a baby?â Thatâs the question you ask as you take the kidâs meal box from his hand and start snacking on the few nuggets it comes with.
Because youâre tiny and cute and need to be protected at all costs, he wants to say. Instead he goes with the safer option. âBecause youâre my little sisterâs friend.â
âBut Moâs rarely ever around anymore. I feel like Iâm spending more time with you than her at this point.â Thatâs true. Her and Namjoon have basically become inseparable. That must suck at least a little for you.Â
âI personally wouldnât let that slide.â As much as Yoongi loves his sister and knows sheâd do anything for you if you asked, he also knows youâre not the type to reach out unless you really need to. If Mo understood you the way he understands you, sheâd know to check in with you, to send you the occasional random meme in case youâre having a bad day, and to remind you that you arenât alone.Â
But thatâs where he comes in.Â
âItâs fine, Iâm happy for her and Namjoon. Last I heard, sheâs waiting for the proposal.â You set down the empty kidâs meal box and move on to your actually dinner. He has to resist the urge to pick the little nugget crumb off the corner of your lips.
âYou donât feel left behind?â he asks. Itâs crazy to think his little sister could be getting married soon. Meanwhile, heâs watched you cycle through several boyfriends without much luck. His own love situation isnât much different, but thatâs what happens when no relationship has inspired him to do the things he does for you. Your presence in his life is more than just love and lust.Â
Everything you are to him is unconditional.
You shake your head at his question as you glance up at the stars through the windshield. âThereâs only one person Iâd ever feel left behind by.â
If itâs not Mo or your family, then surely itâs the guy youâve been chasing after all these years, the guy who teases you because you have a cute pout, the guy whoâs been with you every step of the way. The one guy you didnât want to see your lingerie photos in fear of ruining everything. Surely itâs him youâd be hurt by most if you lost him.
âHeâs not going anywhere, Y/N,â he assures you.
You continue to study the stars in silence. There are no shooting stars out tonight, but what youâre looking for isnât a wish. âIs that a promise?â
He nods. The easiest nod of his life. âThatâs how itâs always been, right?â
You nod back. Itâs always been you and him. Nothing could ever erase that history youâve both been trying so hard to protect. Thereâs no need to play it safe anymore. The history between you and him is stronger than that.
As a way to transition out of the sappy stuff, you reach down and grab the toy from the kidâs mealâa tiny soft cat, probably from a baby cartoon or whatever. You have an awfully big smile on your face for someone who complained about ordering the kidâs meal in the first place.Â
Without thinking, Yoongi snatches the cat out of your grasp and dangles it by the tail in front of your eyes. âIâll be keeping this.â
âI thought you said it was my kidâs meal.â You swing your little paw at him to reclaim your prize, but heâs too quick, holding the cat captive just out of your reach. Itâs incredible how easy you are to taunt, especially over something as silly as a toddler toy. Maybe heâs just become a pro at it with over two decades of experience.
After unbuckling your seatbelt, you practically lunge over the center console and lean your weight on the edge of his seat with one hand while the other reaches for the cat, now pressed against the window on Yoongiâs side. He can smell your pretty perfume again, and heâs going to make it last as long as possible.
He brings the cat forward until itâs an inch away from your hand to encourage you to stretch just a tad closer to him. It apparently works, because the hand supporting your body has moved onto his thigh to give you the extra bit of reach.Â
If youâre both not careful, you might fall into his lap. He wouldnât mind it of course, but then youâd feel how hard heâs getting just from having your hand on his thigh like that. Your sweet scent isnât helping his situation either.
âSay please and itâs all yours.â He lets out an awkward half-cough after inhaling a large dose of your perfume. Very smooth, Yoongi.
You narrow your eyes at him before backing off. His thigh can finally breathe, not that it wanted to. âI donât need it that bad.â
Aww, youâre acting all tough again. Yoongi slips the cat plush into his pocket with a smirk. âSee? Playing hard to get.â
âI swear Iâm only like this with you. You drive me mad,â you let out a dramatic sigh.
Thatâs right. He affects you in a way no one else does. âGood.â
âNo, not good.â You wiggle a finger at him as you scan the receipt and pull out your phone. Several seconds later, he gets a notification of you sending him money for all the food.
âYou couldâve at least let me pay for the kidâs meal.â Especially after he pocketed the cat.
âIâm just paying you back for all the rides so far.â So far? Interesting choice of words.
âDoes that mean youâre going to need another one tomorrow?â He takes another sip of his coffee.
âI donât know, maybe. Iâm getting my car looked at tomorrow morning before work, butâŠâ You have that ashamed look on your face again for having to ask for another ride. Youâre not a burden to him. Ever.
âGot it. Iâll be on standby. Just AirDrop me ifââ
âEnough with the AirDrop.â You give him another feisty shove and almost knock his coffee out of his hand. Even if the coffee had stained his whole car, he wouldâve forgiven you immediately because your smile is so pretty. Heâs just happy youâre back to being playful with him. âIf I need anything, Iâll let you know. Thank you, Yoongi.â
On the drive home, you tell him more about your job with such a glow. The days might be long sometimes, but the crew has been so sweet, and the photographer âknows how to make you look good.â The photographer could be terrible and youâd still look amazing. Thereâs no doubt in Yoongiâs mind about that.
You also mention something about special little perks, too.
âSpecial little perks like what?â he asks, more curious than heâd like to be.
âGuess.â Why are you tempting him like this?
âDoes it have something to do with the lingerie in your bag?â
You blink at him like a deer in headlights. Uh oh. âYou were supposed to pretend like you didnât see that.â
âSee what?â he plays along. Good save, Yoongi.
You give him a thumbs-up and smile the rest of the way home.
After parking in the space in front of his house, Yoongi takes a five-second look at your car right behind his. It looks perfectly fine. Whatever the issue is, itâs not visible from the outside, but hopefully it stays broken for a while.
âIs it actually broken or did you just say that to score a ride from the handsome guy next door?â he teases.
âThe latter, obviously,â you deadpan before switching over to the most precious giggle ever. Youâre so fucking cute. âThanks for the ride, Handsome Guy Next Door.â
âNo problem.â He watches, amused, as you dig through the lingerie in your bag to find your keys. Heâd turn on the flashlight on his phone to help you see better, but heâs supposed to be ignoring that mesh polka-dotted lingerie. Thatâs what a good and respectful neighbor would do.Â
Fuck it. He immediately breaks down and shines a light on the sheer bralette and g-string (and your keys). Itâd look so pretty on you.
You grab your keys and shoo away his shameless horny eyes. Thatâs his cue to leave things as they are, just as he had the night before. If you wanted something more, youâd let him know. Heâs already assured you everything will be fine between you and him no matter what.
Just as he unlocks his door, you stop him in his tracks.
âYoongi, wait.â
He turns around, a little too eager some might say. You havenât even said anything else, but heâs already ready to say yes to whatever it is.
You dig around in your bag again. He catches a glimpse of the mesh fabric between your fingers. Heâll take a souvenir any day.
But then you toss it back in your bag and hum an innocent, âNever mind, itâs nothing.â
Youâre such a tease. Oh how the tables have turned.
As soon as you close the door behind you, you kick off your white sneakers, and take the teeny tiny lingerie with you to your room.
You saw how quick he was to turn around when you called out to him. You saw how he practically drooled at the lingerie in your bag. He wasnât ready for the night to end either.
Piece by piece, you toss your clothes aside and replace them with the mesh polka-dotted triangles. Your little nipples are so visible through the thin pieces of cloth. Good.
Then you take a quick bed selfie, just like Yoongi had one night ago. And you lay it all out there. Youâre done hiding and suppressing your feelings for him. Because no matter what happens between the two of you, even if the night doesnât go the way you hope, youâre not going to lose him. Thatâs what was promised in his car.
So, one last time, you AirDrop him a photo of yourself in lingerie. He accepts it immediately.
Then you text him.
Y/NđŁ [8:18PM] âyou asked for a pic of my wardrobe earlier didnt you?â
Y/NđŁ [8:18PM] âbtw knock on my door rn or youre a cowardđĄâ
Youâre really doing it. Thereâs no going back now.
You throw a hoodie over your shoulders and leave it unzipped as you pace back and forth in the hall. You always wondered why you get so antsy when itâs just Min Yoongi. Itâs literally just the guy youâve lived next to your entire life. But thatâs the hold he has on you. The mere thought of being with him never fails to excite you. Those are the kind of butterflies you get with him.
Your heart nearly jumps out of your chest when you hear his knock. You swing the door open before you can chicken out.
Of course his eyes immediately fall on your chest. He almost forgets to speak.
âWhat pic were you talking about? Did you send something?â he asks, still very much concentrated on your nipples.
Wait.
âYou didnât get the AirDrop?â Not this again. The granny across the street probably did get it this time. You want to wrap yourself up in your fluffy warm blanket and permanently disable that stupid phone feature once and for all. No, itâs not a stupid feature. Youâre just stupid for using it.
âYouâre so fun to fuck with, Y/N,â he laughs right in your face. âYes, I got your cute little photo.â
âStop teasing me,â you pout. Here you are, trying to look all hot for him, and heâs still finding ways to fuck with you. Heâs so mean.
âI could ask the same of you.â Yoongi slips his index finger into your bralette between your breasts. He tugs on the stretchy band until it snaps back against your skin. âOr maybe you donât realize what you do to me when I see you like this.â
âI donât,â you play innocent as you pull him inside and shut the door behind him. Youâd love to be enlightened about what your body does to him just by existing. A demonstration would be much appreciated. The more detail, the better.
He pushes you back against the wall in the narrow hallway and pins you there. You try to distract yourself by staring at the tiny speck of coffee on his white sweater but a strong hand cups your chin and lifts it so you canât run from his gaze. His eyes are dark.âIt's so fucked up how many times Iâve gotten off at the thought of my little sisterâs friend in nothing but lingerie.â
Funny, youâve always thought it was fucked up of you to lust over him given how close youâd been throughout your childhood. You cringe at the thought of Mo learning about all the unholy fantasies youâve had of her brotherâhim fucking you against the wet walls of his shower, him shoving his cock down your throat until you cry, and even him tying you up on the bed and doing whatever he wants with your body. Your delusional self has thought about it all with him.
But now you know heâs felt the same way all along.
You slide your hands up his chest to his neck as your eyes hone in on his glossy lips. For as long as you could remember, youâve always wondered what Min Yoongi tastes like. In your dreams, he tasted of creamy vanilla milkshakes. But now, in this momentâŠ?
You lean in and press your breasts into his chest, but he pulls back just before you can get a taste of those lips.
âI always knew you had a thing for me,â he smirks. The teasing never stops. But thatâs what youâve signed your life away for. âIf you want to kiss me so bad, say it.â
The stubborn you who âplays hard to getâ would never admit that. The you right now, on the other hand, is yearning, desperate, and painfully horny. In this state, youâd get down on your hands and knees so quick.
âI want to kiss you, you assââ Your mumble is cut off by his lips. They taste like the iced coffee from earlier with a hint of salt. You want more of it.
Your tongue gets tangled with his. Itâs sloppy, but youâve had enough of keeping it clean with him. Youâve played it safe for far too long.
His hands grab your breasts as he lets out a low moan inside your throat. Funny how perfectly your chest fits in his large hands. When he gives them a squeeze, you lean into him more. Anything to get more of his touch.
But then he slides a hand down your belly and works a few fingers around the fabric between your legs. They glide between your folds so smoothly.
âDid you get this wet just from a little kiss and touch? Poor thing.â He holds up the proof of your lust before licking it off his fingers with that tongue. âI thought youâd put up more of a fight.â
The next thing you know, your hoodie is gone and heâs carrying you off to your room. As soon as your back hits the mattress, he climbs on top of you, bombarding you with more kisses until youâre out of breath.
Your hands fidget with the hem of his sweater until he gets the memo that you want it off. Seeing him shirtless is nothing newâyouâve seen him casually walk out of the shower in nothing more towel on multiple occasions while hanging out with Mo next door, hence all your the shower fantasies. But in this context, with him on top of you on your bed, the butterflies just keep coming.
As the two of you continue to makeout, you unzip him. Itâs your turn to slip your hand into his pants. Heâs huge, just like your fantasies. Youâre not sure your inexperienced throat can handle it.
âYou havenât even seen it yet, and youâre drooling,â he purrs when he leans back to get a good look at your current statusâstarved for his cock. âDoes my cute little neighbor love having her mouth filled with cock?â
âI havenâtâŠâ Your words trail off when you see his erection in full. Your hands latch back on to it like gravity. Thereâs no way thisâll fit down your throat without making you gag. You lick your lips.
âWait, this isnât the first time youâreââ
âIâve had sex,â you clarify. âJust havenât given a blowjobâŠâÂ
It still feels weird to admit these kinds of things to your neighbor. Youâve always been more careful and closed off about your sex life than him. Meanwhile, you swear youâve heard the whimpers and moans of all the girls heâs pleasured on the other side of your wall. Youâve never heard the sounds he makes during sex, though.
âHow innocent. Depriving yourself of tasting it for this long.â Now heâs got a big olâ smile on his face as you lie on your stomach and kiss along his length. âYou wonât be so innocent by the time Iâm done with you.â
You donât want to be innocent with him anymore.
When you finally take him into your mouth, itâs easy. You swirl your tongue around as you bob your head up and down him. The taste isnât nearly as bad as youâd thought. In fact, you kind of like it. Or maybe youâre just too horny to care.Â
But then you decide you want to gag. So you push your mouth further down his length. The slightest tickle against the back of your throat practically has your whole body jerk in protest. You pull back and let yourself breathe before wrapping your lips back around him.
âHey, easy,â he chuckles, holding your hair back. âDeepthroating is too advanced for you. Youâre still a baby.â
Youâll let the baby comment slide only because youâre too focused on sucking his cock. You wouldnât mind doing this all night. It could easily become your new addiction.
âMm,â you moan as flick your eyes up at him. His mouth is open, panting, still trying to fight off the feral instincts you so easily gave in to. Whatever youâre doing, itâs working. Not bad for a first-time blowjob.
âSo good,â he praises as he watches your mouth working so hard along his length. Youâve finally earned some praise from him. After all these fucking years. âFuck, youâre so good.â
The next time you come up for air, he wipes his thumb along your lip to clean you up before flipping you over onto your back. Youâd love to suck the glaze off his thumb, but the selfish bastard does it for you right in front of your face.
âI know youâve grown quite attached to sucking my cock, but Iâd like to know how your other hole feels, if thatâs alright with you.â
You nod, knowing just how soaked your g-string got while sucking him off. After wiggling out of it and tossing it aside, you spread your legs out for him like a well-trained slut.
He uses his fingers again to make sure youâre coated enough. You feel two curl inside you. Then a third. His thumb brushes gently over your clit exactly one time.
âFuck,â you whimper from the jolt of pleasure. He needs to do it again.
But he doesnât.
So you run your own two fingers around your clit as his slip in and out of you. He watches the rhythm of your fingers going around and around like a hypnotic spiral. That smirk is creeping back up again.
âSo thatâs how my neighbor touches herrself,â he nods like the enthusiastic spectator he is. âThatâs how you touch yourself for me.â
You continue to tease your little bud as he grabs a condom from the ass pocket of his jeans and slides it down his length. Finally. Fucking finally.
Your horny little body pounces on top of him, your thighs straddling him beneath you. His cock presses against your ass as you strip off your bralette and lean over to kiss him some more. Youâd leave him a nice hickey, but you hate the thought of Mo bringing it up as âa byproduct of another one of his meaningless flings.â
Instead of thinking about that, you grab his cock from behind and ease yourself onto him. Youâre sure his ego just got a boost from the amount of time it took you to adjust to his size.
âDonât worry, Iâm not gonna be That Guy who comments on your tight little pussy.â Asshole.
Then you start sliding yourself up and down his cock. You gasp immediately. It feels so fucking good to finally have him inside you.
The boy doesnât waste any time, either. His hands work their way up your waist back to your breasts. He gives your nipples a few pinches and is delighted to learn just how sensitive you are over there. You toss your head back with each little pinch.
As the pleasure builds, you feel him thrusting back beneath you. Your ass is practically bouncing off his thighs with each thrust. If you donât hold onto his shoulders, you might fall off of him, which would be quite the tragedy because you happen to like the feeling of his cock pounding inside of you.Â
âMoreâŠâ you huff against his neck. âHarderâŠâ
At your request, he gets back on top and takes the lead, ramming himself in and out of you. You knew Yoongi was a strong guy, but youâve never been fucked this hard before. Perhaps this is what years of all that sexual tension have amounted to.
You let out another loud moan, this time crying out his name. You should be afraid of Mo coming back from Namjoonâs and hearing the way you cry her brotherâs name with such lust. You shouldnât show what a dirty little slut youâve become for him. But youâre mind isnât functioning anymore. Not with him fucking you silly like that.
âIâm gonnaââ you yelp.
He speeds up and pounds harder into you until youâre overcome by your orgasm. The wave of pleasure washes over you as you feel your walls tightening around him.
âFuck, Y/N,â he groans, feeling just how tight you can go. He should be grateful for your tight little pussy. Especially if his high was as good as yours.
As you catch your breath, your thoughts start to come back to you. Youâre certainly not looking forward to the conversation youâre gonna have to have with Mo later. But you know it was worth it. And you know you donât regret anything that happened tonight. It was long overdue, anyway.
Yoongi, on the otherhand, might still have his head in the clouds because heâs just lying down on your pillow with the goofiest smile. Heâs been smiling a lot more lately.
âDo you remember that time you invited me to your little tea party in here?â he asks out of nowhere.
âNo,â you lie.Â
Of course you remember it. You were probably five or six and youâd just watched some teen show where the main girl asked her love interest out on a lunch date. Your naive self was inspired to do the same, but with your love interestâyour Yoongi. And initially he said no because heâs mean like that. That was your first heartbreak.
But then he turned around later and crashed the tea party youâd set up for your sobbing self and your teddy bear. He claimed heâd only stick around for the shortbread cookies, but youâre starting to think there was more to it.
âWell I do,â he admits. âThat was the first time I thought you were kinda cute.â
âKinda?â
âYeah, kinda cute. Because you were also an annoying little brat, you know that?â This is just slander.
âWell I appreciate you putting up with this kinda cute annoying brat for all these years,â you mutter. âNo one was forcing you to.â
âI know, thatâs my point.â He pinches your cheek. âEven if I tried to run, you always somehow found a way to cling onto me. Like a leech.â
âOkay, buddy, Iâve had enough of this slander,â you hiss in his arms under the blankets. âIf youâre going to say something nice, just say it already. No more of your dumb leech metaphors.â
âYouâve always had a hold on me, Y/N.â He presses a soft kiss to your foreheadâthe first of many, you hope. âAnd I feel like a lot happened in the past day, but thatâs only one small part of what this is.â
âThisâ as in you and him.
âLike one page in a history book,â you chime in. âOr like a chapter in a memoir, or the chorus of a song, orââ
He chuckles at your rambling because itâs apparently âso fucking cuteâ to him. What else would you expect? If one page in the history book is dedicated to the past 24 hours, 10,000 pages are filled with him teasing you, you chasing him, and everything in between.Â
Today simply marks the start of a new era.
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Min Yoongi adored you. He'd simply never hurt you - unless you asked.
Pairing: Min Yoongi x Fem!Reader Type: One-Shot - SMUT (You must be 18+ to ride this ride.) Word Count: 4.4K Content: established relationship au; soft bf yoongi turned mean!dom!yoongi at the request of sub!reader; p in v penetration; unprotected sex/creampie (be safe, y'all); oral sex (m receiving); brief face-fucking; v fingering; squirting; a lil degradation and spit kink, as a treat; harsh language; after-care; also cavity-inducing fluff A/N: This was nine (9) pages in Word - my longest smut ever, all because this man-bun era has got me FUCKED up. Barely proofread (sorry ily)
âWhen I signal you, thatâs when you press the button, okay?âÂ
Your eyebrows furrowed as you stared down at his recording equipment â a galaxy in its own right, lit up like a Christmas tree. He may as well have asked you to defuse a bomb, except you couldnât even identify the bomb. âThere are approximately three thousand buttons in front of me right now,â you whined.Â
He was exhausted and you knew it â you could feel it â but his patience with you was, as always, limitless. His fondness for you still shone through his eyes, overpowering the dark circles looming below, as if he hadnât made a mistake in inviting you into his office. Then there was his laugh, surprising enough to smack you but so soft that it cradled you. âItâs the only one that says ârecord,â jagiya.âÂ
A quick survey of the landscape before you indicated that this was a criminal oversimplification. There was a minimum of four options fitting his description, and all of them looked both breakable and expensive. You blinked down at the sound board, then back up at him, dumbfounded. âI think you made a mistake letting me in here.âÂ
Again, with the laugh â knocking you prone, nudging you closer to an early grave. Somehow, out of all of time and space, you got to exist in the same lifetime that he did. How lucky you were to have him, and his wind chime laugh all to yourself. Â
You were lovesick and it was chronic.Â
âLook down at your left hand â no, baby, donât move it â that knob above your middle finger?â He was standing on tiptoe inside the booth, gesturing as if he was landing a plane. Your eyes darted up to follow the path of his fingers, then back down to the board. âGo diagonally up from that knob for two rows. Do you -âÂ
Overcome with a sense of unearned pride, you pressed down on the button, beaming. You certainly had not been signaled, but nonetheless, your efforts were rewarded. Importantly, that reward was now recorded for prosperity. Your favorite mixtape, the soundtrack of your racing heart, a lullaby: âI really couldnât love you more if I tried.âÂ
His wide smile, like his tone, was sweet enough to cause a cavity. You were folded up like a pretzel in his chair, but somehow, your knees still seemed to wobble. Â
You were lovesick and it was terminal.Â
âShould I shut it off now until youâre ready to start?â You asked with cheeks glowing pink.Â
He shook his head, still grinning. âI can cut it down. I do need you to cue the track, though â when I signal you.â He stated the last bit of his sentence slowly, shooting you a pointed look and then a wink.Â
You were once lovesick and now you are dead.Â
Finger hovering over the âplayâ button, you watched him wide-eyed, anxious to avoid another mishap. His faith in you may have been unshakeable, but yours wasnât â and this third mixtape was his magnum opus. Youâd rather explode into a cloud of dust than mess up the tireless work heâd put into it so far. Â
He closed his eyes and took a deep breath, centering himself. Without looking, he raised his hand and pointed silently to you. Within seconds, your mind was blown.Â
Min Yoongi contained multitudes. Despite your years together, it never ceased to amaze you how your beloved introvert â who said more with actions than anyone could communicate with words â could transform the way he did. Moments ago, his voice was a blanket, fresh out of the dryer, but now? Now, his presence electrified you. There was an unapologetic confidence â callousness, even - that you only saw when he rapped.Â
Even his body language changed, like heâd evolved right before your eyes. You couldnât look away because there was nothing else worth looking at â just him, top to bottom. The way he held his head, lips nearly touching the microphone, highlighted the deadly curve of his jaw. Carved from marble, luminescent and sharp. The strain of his neck, vibration visible in the column of his throat as he growled out his bars. Then down, down, down to his hands. His rings caught the light from above him, refracting slivers of white as his fingers moved with the beat. Â
Oh, how you wanted them wrapped around your throat.Â
Seeing him like this had you spellbound â feral, if you were being honest. As you watched, bottom lip clamped hard between your teeth, a heatwave crashed over you; it burned you from the inside out. Sometimes, you dreamt about this version of him. Your Yoongi adored you. He showered you with affection, respect, and praise. Heâd never dream of hurting you.Â
But would he, if you asked?Â
You were so lost in your thoughts that you didnât hear him finish the take.Â
âAegiya?â There was a hint of concern in his voice that told you heâd called out to you more than once already.Â
You swallowed hard and shifted in his chair. âYes?âÂ
He slid his wireless headphones down until they rested around his neck. The bright red band leaned against his cheekbone as he tilted his head to the side in confusion. âAre you alright? You looked like you were in a trance.âÂ
He wasnât wrong. You were hypnotized, and it was entirely his fault.Â
When you merely hummed in response â too distracted by his features to form a coherent sentence â he opened the door to the booth and stepped out. He pulled the headphones off completely and set them down on the counter before walking straight to you.Â
You were vibrating. Could he feel it?Â
The trembling only intensified when he reached you. Looking down at you, he ran the pad of his thumb over your cheek.Â
âTell me.â He said, as if that brief touch informed him of the maelstrom spinning circles in your brain. âSomethingâs got you dizzy.âÂ
Psychic.Â
Suddenly, you were shy. This man knew and loved every single aspect of you, and still you felt embarrassed. If you begged him to fuck you â not just make love to you â would he laugh at you? Even worse, would he be offended? You didnât want him to think that what you had wasnât already perfect because it was. Â
His eyes scanned your face, narrowing just slightly as he tried to read your mind. The two of you were silent for what felt like hours before you saw it â his pupils dilating, offset by the spark of silent understanding. The corner of his mouth twitched when he cracked the secret code. The hand caressing your cheek lowered slowly until it came to rest on your throat, thumb harshly directing your jaw â and your gaze - upwards.Â
âIs it me, baby?â He teased with a voice like velvet, cocking his head to the side with a smirk that left you stupid. âHave I got you dizzy?âÂ
Involuntarily, you whimpered. So stunned by his stare that you were speechless. Melting into a puddle. Dripping.Â
He exhaled sharply through his nose â a cruel, quiet laugh - and his eyes darkened further. âI canât give you what you want if you canât tell me what that is.âÂ
Once again, you shifted in your seat. You were suddenly so painfully aware of every nerve in your body, each one tingling like a live wire. Even your thighs clenched, trying desperately to apply pressure where you needed it most. You craved him so badly that it ached.Â
âI donât want you to be gentle with me,â was your answer, though it sounded more like a question. âI - I know that you -âÂ
His hand shifted quickly from underneath your jaw. He now had your cheeks pinned between his thumb and middle finger, squeezing hard to cut off your sentence before you could finish it. There was a microscopic pause as his eyes searched yours for permission. You blinked and nodded to the fullest extent you could within his grasp.Â
âStupid girl. You know nothing.âÂ
Muffled by his hand, your weak moan was barely audible, but he could feel the way your breathing quickened. The rise and fall of your eager chest. The way your nipples, yet untouched, made themselves known through the fabric of the t-shirt youâd stolen from him. Draped in him but smelling like you. Â
Blackcurrant, orange blossoms, vanilla.Â
He leaned down, mouth now hovering beside your ear. The heat of his breath on your neck was maddening, but it was the way his lips brushed against your ear that proved fatal. When he spoke, it echoed in every one of your bones. A whisper heavy enough to bruise. âGet up.âÂ
You followed the lead of his hand over your mouth and rose to your feet. Sharply, he redirected your gaze to the seat youâd just left. It was inexplicable how something so faint could be so blatant. That nearly imperceptible spot, snitching on you; showing him how your body begged for him.Â
âSuch a messy girl, ruining my chair like that.â He tutted. âI should punish you, shouldnât I? Should I ruin you, baby?âÂ
Held so still, your knees still trembled. Without his hand gripping your cheeks, you wouldâve crumpled at his feet. Before you could do so yourself, he forced you downward. After all, your knees couldnât buckle if they were digging into the hardwood.Â
He released his grasp and used that same hand to push his hair away from his eyes. Your heart raced as if you were sprinting, and yet you were frozen in place. You didnât know where to begin because you wanted everything. Â
Your indecision prompted him to roll his eyes. âDo I have to do everything for you? Say it. What do you want?âÂ
âT-to touch you. Please,â you begged, âI want to feel you in my throat.âÂ
He beckoned you silently with a curl of his finger. You sat up further on your knees and reached out tentatively for the drawstring tied at the waistband of his joggers.Â
âStop.â He ordered, and you did. Looking down at your wide eyes, his smirk deepened. Your hands fidgeted uselessly in your lap as he began untying the drawstring himself â his slow pace was torturous. You'd have ripped them off his body if given the chance. âOpen your mouthâÂ
Again, you did as you were told.Â
It took everything you had not to drool when he lowered the waistband of his joggers just enough for his cock to spring out. Already throbbing, pink tip glistening with pre-cum in the half-light. He took himself in his hand and began to pump himself as he took a step towards your waiting mouth.
"Stick out your tongue."
Now, you couldnât help it â and when he saw the string of saliva spilling from the tip of your tongue, he growled.Â
âFuck,â He breathed, sliding the fingers of his free hand into your hair and tugging. âLook at how badly you want to be used - you're begging without saying a word.âÂ
You couldnât speak, but your eyes were screaming at him. Please.Â
Teasingly, he tapped the tip of his cock against your tongue, hissing as he felt the wet heat of your mouth. But when you went to close your lips around him, he pulled your hair â and you â away.Â
âSpit on it â slowly. Keep your eyes on me.âÂ
You felt a twinge between your thighs as he delivered his orders. Youâd undoubtedly soaked through your little sleep shorts already, but his tone just then made a mess of you. You squirmed as you kneeled, feeling the rivulets of slick begin to trail down the innermost part of your thighs. And he hadnât even touched you yet.Â
Looking up at him from under the curtain of your lashes, you saw the wicked fascination flicker in his eyes. The way he breath hitched as he watched your spit fall from the ledge of your lips until it connected with his shaft. In your peripheral vision, you could see his cock twitch at the contact.Â
âNow open.â Finally.Â
A low moan broke from the depths of his chest as he slid into your mouth, and you couldnât recall a more beautiful sound. As you pushed yourself further onto him, you hallowed your cheeks, following the vein running along the underside of his length with your tongue.Â
You stared up at him through wet eyes. So full, you pleaded with yourself not to gag, to breathe steadily through your nose. Tip pushing past your soft palate, he grunted as he bottomed out. Without softening his gaze, he watched for your reaction â always so concerned, even when he was pretending not to be. To his surprise, you swallowed, allowing the tightness of your throat to squeeze him.
âYouâre fucking filthy.â He muttered with his eyes screwing shut. His jaw fell open when you slid off him, swirling your tongue around the head of his cock once you reached it. His eyes followed suit, blown out pupils fixated on the spit dribbling down your chin; darkening at the obscene sound of him sliding through the suction you'd so masterfully generated.Â
Pulling your hand from your lap, you reached out slowly for his balls. As your fingers massaged him, his grip on your hair got tighter. Almost imperceptibly, he began to roll his hips against your mouth.Â
His panting was interlaced with curses as he fucked himself into your warmth. âFit so fucking perfectly in your throat,â He grunted, âLike you were made to be my toy.âÂ
It startled you when he suddenly removed himself from you. Thoughtlessly, you whined â and then, immediately, you froze. Eyes darting back up to him, the anticipation of consequences prevented you from closing your mouth fully. You waited there on your knees, trembling, while your mascara pooled uselessly in the wells beneath your eyes.Â
âSomebody feels entitled,â He scoffed as he glowered down at you. âYou better be careful what you wish for.âÂ
Before you could process the speed of his movements, his arms hooked under yours and pulled you from the ground. Your legs ached, but as he loomed over you, you followed his unspoken order, backing yourself into a corner. With your shoulder blades pressed flush against the wall, he stepped forward and used his knee to push your legs apart.Â
For a moment, it seemed like his façade was cast aside. He raised his hand slowly to caress your cheek, swirling soft circles into your flushed skin with his thumb. Out of habit, your eyes drifted shut and you leaned further into his touch. And when he leaned in, just as slowly, your slightly parted lips waited for a kiss that never came.Â
âYouâre just begging to be filled, arenât you?â He asked in a whisper so sharp it stung. âNot loved but fucked.âÂ
You nodded shyly. âY-yes,â You stuttered, âPlease.âÂ
His lips still lingered closely enough to touch yours, to send shockwaves shooting down your spine, but he continued to withhold his affection. This was the first time â ever â that Yoongi had turned down an opportunity to kiss you. Until now, he didn't seem capable of doing so.Â
âPlease what?âÂ
âFuck me. Please -â You keened as his hand began to drift from your cheek, down your neck. In the blink of an eye, every word you knew disappeared from your vocabulary. The tip of his index finger trailed down over the fabric of your stolen shirt, between the valley of your breasts, and came to rest at the hem. Â
He pinched the seam between his fingers and tugged. âPart of me wants to tear this off you,â He mused with his head tilting to one side. His eyes remained locked on yours; the amusement in them was clear, even in the darkness. âBut most of me wants to see you fucked out and stupid - in my shirt.âÂ
Your legs threatened to give out yet again. He was devastatingly handsome under normal circumstances, but this newly unearthed cockiness was ruinous. You bit down hard on your lip as he raised your shirt enough to access the waistband of your shorts. With his help, you shimmied them down until they dropped quietly at your feet. Quickly and clumsily, you stepped out of them and kicked them aside.Â
Yoongiâs hand rose again to your face. His middle and ring finger were extended; the others curled down towards his palm. You didnât need to be asked to open your mouth â it was the only response your eager mind could conjure. His fingers were cool against your tongue as you closed your mouth around them. And when he was satisfied with the lubrication youâd provided, he slid his fingers out from your hollowed cheeks with a lewd pop.Â
âHow badly do you want to come all over my fingers?â Â
Itâs a wonder there wasnât a puddle beneath you, considering how those words made you gush. âI need it,â You pleaded with fluttering eyelids and bated breath, âPlease touch me.âÂ
You whimpered and closed your eyes as you felt his fingers dive into the pool between your thighs. Every nerve lit up like a switchboard as he slipped through your soft folds. He scoffed at how wet you were â so soaked that it was audible in each millimeter of his movement.Â
Simultaneous to his middle finger penetrating you, your head rolled back until it rested against the wall. Your mouth fell open, but you were too entranced to do much more than breathe as you acclimated to his presence inside you. He started slowly, curling his finger upwards as he pushed further inwards. Even at this pace, the otherwise dead air was filled with the sound of your sodden cunt.Â
âYouâre dripping already?" He let the tip of his finger rest against the spongy spot behind your pubic bone; the pressure was incredible, but he stayed torturously still. âAnd yet youâre so - tight.â Achingly slow, the pad of his finger spiraled against your g-spot. âIâll have to stretch you out before I can bury my cock in you.âÂ
As his ring finger plunged inside of you, you cried out, head slumping forward against his shoulder. Sensing that you wouldnât be able to hold yourself up for much longer, Yoongi grabbed the back of your right thigh with his left hand and pulled your leg up to rest against his hip. With this new angle, his fingers ventured even deeper until they bottomed out at the knuckle. He didnât give you much time to adjust to the new sensation. Â
As he fucked his fingers into you at a feverish pace, he continued his mind-numbing assault on your g-spot. Over and over, he toyed with you; thrusting, stretching, scissoring, and teasing as your arousal trickled into the palm of his hand. There was an intoxicating â unbearable â warmth burning in the pit of your abdomen. A sensation so all-consuming that your eyes rolled back in your head.Â
Your walls clenched around him, sucking him in and begging for more as your helpless heart raced. âOh my god,â You wailed, âHoly shit â Please, Iâm - Yoongi!âÂ
Your orgasm hit you like a freight train. Never in your life had you fallen apart like that â shaking and speaking in tongues. Having sensed the swell of pressure, Yoongi knew exactly where this road headed; and he could tell that you were fighting it. âDon't hold back from me,â He growled.
And then the dam broke. Â
A wicked grin danced across his face as the wave of pleasure crashed onto the floor below you. âFuck. Look at this.â He pointed downward and your bleary gaze followed. Remnants of your orgasm had splashed onto his joggers as well as the hardwood. âNobody could ever make you come like I can. Say it.âÂ
The words bubbled out of your chest, half-way between a sob and a moan. âNobody can make me come like you.â
You were a shivering, spilling mess; and your eyes were still ringing from how intensely your every muscle had clenched. Before your knee could buckle, you were abruptly swept up into his arms. With one arm wrapped tightly around your back, his free hand slid over the surface of his desk, sending various papers and cords rocketing towards the floor.
Once the space was cleared, he set you down and laid you out onto the cool surface. You were exhausted and thankful to be horizontal; though you knew he wasnât yet finished with you.Â
After all, he intended on ruining you.Â
Through half-lidded eyes, you gazed up at him. The hair heâd so neatly tied into a bun at the top of his head had mutinied; inky tendrils were now splayed out haphazardly in different directions. You were fuck-drunk, but you swore the overhead light behind him encircled his head like a halo. It was all so unholy - the way he stood before the altar of your exposed core, with his face angelic and his throbbing cock in hand.
The hand not pumping his cock slid over your bent knee. It took tremendous effort, but you lifted your arm to place your hand on top of his. One tiny squeeze â a brief, loving check-in â received an echo. Then, just as quickly as it appeared, the fleeting moment of tenderness was gone. With each of your legs now trapped in his hold, he pulled you towards the very edge of the table.Â
Once he was satisfied with your closeness, his focus switched to his access. He simply wasnât content to leave your legs bent up at either side of him; so, he rested the backs of your legs against his shoulders and leaned forward until youâd nearly folded in half.Â
He didnât need to use his hand to center himself prior to entering you. His body understood the proportions of yours automatically; like you were puzzle pieces created to fit perfectly together. Though his intention may have been to penetrate you slowly, centimeter by centimeter, your slick was overwhelming. The usual ache you felt upon acclimating to his size was drastically reduced; and he bottomed out quickly, cursing.Â
The fullness you felt was euphoric, and it left you mewling hopelessly under the weight of his body. He was buried deep, throbbing as your walls constricted around his width. It shocked your system when he slid out almost completely only to drive himself back into you.Â
âLike a fucking vice grip,â Yoongi hissed as he picked up his already brutal pace. Every curve, every vein dragged maddeningly along your walls as he fucked you. âDo you hear how wet you are? Shit â your pussy is begging for me.âÂ
The only thing louder than the squelch of your cunt was skin hitting skin; close behind was the way your name spilled from his lips in a flurry of expletives. You, on the other hand, were nearly incoherent. With every thrust, he knocked another thought loose until eventually, you had nothing left. Relentlessly, his cock grinded against your g-spot, leaving you too mesmerized to recall your own name.Â
There was a sheen of sweat above his knitted brows; and his bottom lip was now trapped between his gritted teeth. He was close and you knew it. The depth of his thrusts didnât falter, but his steady pace was getting harder for him to maintain. You felt the rubber band inside you beginning to fray - on the brink of snapping and shooting you out of orbit like a sling-shot.Â
âBaby,â The soft, shaky voice caught his attention. He opened his eyes and focused hard on you â your flushed cheeks, and trembling lips. As he surveyed you, his resolve began to evaporate; his expression softened immediately. There he was: your Yoongi. âYouâre gonna make me come again.âÂ
As your walls clenched tight around him, the edges of your vision began to blur. You watched his face as he came shortly after you, studying how delicately his eyelashes fluttered as the warmth of his release filled you. In that moment, it was the two of you, toppling in slow-motion off the edge of the universe. Irrevocably in love - heaving chests, shuttered moans, names whispered in the place of prayers.Â
He shifted his arms to allow your quivering legs to fall from his shoulders. When the hands on either side of your head could no longer hold up his weight, he collapsed onto you. With his face nuzzled into the crook of your neck, you could feel his breathing begin to slow as his cock softened inside you.Â
You were nearly delirious when you felt his lips buzz against your skin. You were too far gone to understand what he was too exhausted to communicate. âHmm?â You hummed, wordlessly asking him to repeat himself.
He groaned with the effort of pulling himself away from your embrace. He only traveled far enough to glance over at you. âI said, I think several of my past lives just flashed before my eyes,â He stated matter-of-factly. Within seconds, his eyes crinkled up at the corners and his grin grew. That soft chuckle wasnât far behind.Â
âI donât know where I am.â You admitted with a sheepish laugh. After a moment, you amended that thought, âI donât know who I am.âÂ
Yoongi placed a gentle kiss below your ear â the only part of you he could reach without sitting up fully. âI have no idea. How did you get in my house?â As you rolled your eyes, he bumped the tip of his nose against your jaw, too tired to tease you much more than that. âBut now that weâre both completely spent, Iâd like to go back to being soft with you â for now.âÂ
He tried to wink at you, but both of his lead-lined lids closed in unison. Â You hummed thoughtfully as you ran lazy fingers through his hair, like the decision required serious deliberation. You paused, then giggled. Â âPermission granted, my love. You may proceed.â
He was quiet for several moments before he stood bolt upright. Startled, you propped yourself up on your elbow and looked to him. He turned towards the booth and then back to you.
His eyes were wide as a blush swept over his cheeks. "Aegiya, did you forget to stop the recording?"
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OMFG. had me blushing and kicking my feet.
the shape of your body (explicit)
genre: fluffy slowburn smut
pairing: jimin x reader
summary:Â the same day you finally manage to speak to your months-long public transit crush, you end up seeing much more of him than you bargained for.
word count:Â 24k đââïž
contains:Â explicit sexual content~*~ (after a slow burn lmao) - new york city grad school AU, strangers to lovers, reader is an art student, public transit thirsting, jimin is a dancer and a nude model, namgi and vhope as side characters, basically everyone is gay (they're ART STUDENTS in NEW YORK CITY it's called realism đ
), a smidge of member x member side character relationships, jimin is biromantic demisexual đ, conversations about body image issues/past relationship struggles/demisexuality and libido, soooo much making out, a couple "failed attempts" at sex, accidental voyeurism (but not how you think lmao YOU'LL SEE), showering together non-sexually, and: fingering, clit stim, nipple play, come eating/sharing đ€ an attempted blowjob, face sitting, & protected sex (multiple rounds đ„”)
A/N: asjdshgkdfjgs i can't believe it's done đ there were so many times i thought i would never finish this fic !!! i have too many friends to thank for talking me off of SEVERAL ledges where i was convinced this whole thing was trash and that i should just stick to short porn or perhaps simply never write again. i'm so glad i saw this one through because there are concepts in here that are deeply important and personal to me wehhh đ« i sincerely hope y'all enjoy this one!! thank u for enduring mostly radio silence while i was in jimin lockdown, and of course, happy early birthday to mini, the light of my mf life đ„°đ (oh and LDOMLT ch 8 is coming next so buckle tf up bitches đ)
an eternity of smooches to @haliiimede for beta reading and just generally being the best fucking person on planet earth âš AND TO @goodsoop FOR THE DEMI SENSITIVITY READ VERY SORRY THAT I AM THE WORLD'S LARGEST IDIOT AND FORGOT TO CREDIT..... i love you both đ„ș
read on AO3!
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Youâve taken the subway thousands of times since moving to New York.
Morning rides, squeezed nearly to death between commuters in suits blinking back sleep and school-uniformed kids scream-laughing and paper coffee cups gripped tight by winter-numb fingers.
Long trips with your sketchbook on your lap, riding the line all the way to Pelham Bay Park and back, to surface above ground out where thereâs a little more space to breathe, until the setting sun floods orange glow between the buildings just before you descend again.
Late nights coming home, Namjoonâs head thudding back against the train window behind him as he dozes off, one arm thrown around your shoulder to ward off any drunk creeps, his free hand interlaced with Yoongiâs on his other side.
Itâs always been the three of you, first in friendship, and now that the two of them have figured out theyâre something more, you donât mind it. But when itâs late and youâve had enough drinks to feel warm all the way through, to melt something open inside of you, and you glance over to see a loving flicker of eyelashes exchanged as Namjoon leans down and presses a kiss to Yoongiâs temple, you canât help it.
Thereâs a little bit of an ache there, right behind your ribs. Sometimes.
But mostly, when it comes to the train, you take the 6 to school. You go through the motions this morning the same as you always do: headphones around your neck, bag slung over your shoulder, immediately dropping into the first empty seat you see as the train doors shudder closed and the car starts to move. Six stops down, 51st street to Astor Place, five days a week, you know it like a heartbeat.
You just wish you knew him, too.
Subway Boy, as Yoongi affectionately labeled him the time you got two pitchers of margaritas deep and made the mistake of confessing to your roommates about your crushâ if it can even be called that. Can you truly have a crush on someone you know nothing about, not even their name?
Well, you know a few things.
He must live further north than you, because on the days you see him, heâs already on the train when you board at 51st.
He must like music, because he always has a set of fancy bluetooth earbuds in.
Youâre pretty sure heâs an athlete of some sort, because heâs usually carrying a gym bagâand because during this summerâs heat wave, the one and only time youâve seen him wear shorts, you nearly fainted at the thick, defined muscles of his thighs.
He has an affinity for jewelry, delicate silver always glinting through the multiple piercings in his ears. At odds with this, he seems to prefer to dress comfortably, and youâve seen him in enough branded school t-shirts and sweats to figure he must also be an NYU student, though you canât say for sure if heâs undergrad or graduate.
You deeply hope youâre not crushing on someone who still needs a fake ID to drink, but thereâs no way to be certain.
Most importantly, you know that he is absolutely stunning. Elegantly handsome, with expressive deep brown eyes, skin like glass, and round cheeks and full lips that flush frozen pink on particularly frigid New York days. His hair has changed colors a few times over the months that have passed since you first took notice of him, but itâs currently a honey blonde, and long enough that he often reaches up to card a hand through it. He does it now, pushing loose strands back to expose his forehead as he frowns down at his phone.
On days where you share the same car, you notice very little else that happens on the ride, thoroughly entranced in Subway Boyâs beauty and his mystery. The train could probably catch fire and youâd miss it entirely.
Today happens to be one of those days, and excitement glitters in your bloodstream as you realize heâs seated across from you. The rush of seeing him always feels like its own reward, some kind of cosmic sign that the day is going to be a good one.
And then the train stops moving.
Thereâs an audible reaction from a few people in the car, and you glance up a moment later when a voice buzzes over the intercom. Youâre able to make out âattention passengersâ and very little after that, just the basics about some sort of unforeseen interruption of service and that the train should resume moving again soon.
You sigh, knowing very well that the MTAâs definition of âsoonâ does not often align with typical human expectations. Figuring youâve got some time to kill, you reach into your bag to retrieve your sketchbook and the first pencil you can dig out of the bottom.
âWhat did they say?â A voice, quiet and deep, surprises you before you can even flip to your in-progress page.
You glance up to find Subway Boy staring at you, forearms braced on his knees as he leans forward into the gap between his seat and yours. Heâs got one bluetooth earbud pinched between his fingertips and a confused look on his face, having clearly missed the announcement.
Heat floods your face at the feeling of his eyes fixed on you, and it takes you a second to form a response. âUhâ I didnât get most of it. Something about unforeseen interruption. And that weâll be moving again soon.â
A muscle works in his jaw as he rolls his eyes. âTypical.â
âI donât think they know what âsoonâ means,â you murmur, mostly to yourself as you tear your gaze away from Subway Boy and return to the sketchbook in your lap, rifling through to find your latest half-finished drawing. When you hear him huff a laugh, you have to bite down on the hopeful smile that threatens to shine across your face.
âDefinitely not.â
You force yourself to keep your eyes on the page, assuming Subway Boy must go back to his music when he falls silent after his last comment.
With featherlight flicks of your pencil, you start to add a little depth to the quick study you were working on last night, Yoongiâs half-peeled tangerine that he left abandoned on the coffee table when he stepped out onto the fire escape for a smoke.
Subway Boyâs voice catches you off guard a second time. âAre you drawing?â
You bite down on your lip again, a nervous habit, and you nod as you tilt the page so he can see from across the car.
âWow.â You wonder if youâre imagining the way his voice seems to soften a little. âYouâre really good. Are you an artist?â
You canât help itâ your gaze flits up to meet his again. Itâs nearly overwhelming to lock eyes with your Subway Boy and hear him compliment you, like something out of a wild daydream. âI guess so,â you remark, the corner of your mouth tugging up into a small smile as you say it. âIâve certainly paid NYU enough money in my attempts to become one.â
âKnow the feeling,â he scoffs, but his eyes smile back, pulled into crescent moons.
âWhat did you pay them for?â
âCurrently, a dual MFA/MA in dance and⊠teaching dance. Really went all-in on the dancer thing.â
âOh.â Your eyes widen automatically. Youâve wonderedâ and yes, occasionally drunkenly speculated with your roommatesâ what Subway Boyâs line of work might be, but you have no idea why dancer never occurred to you. Because now all the pieces suddenly fall together in front of you: the toned muscles that flex beneath the sleeves of his t-shirt, the natural grace he exudes, not to mention his perfect posture.
Of course heâs a dancer. It makes perfect sense.
It occurs to you, a beat too late, that a wide-eyed âohâ is not the most normal response to a truly innocuous answer to a question asked of a random stranger.
But the smile in his eyes doesnât falter. âI feel like I see you on this train a lot.â
Your stomach flutters like butterfly wings, and you have to look away, back down to the safety of your sketchbook. âReally?â
Thereâs an extra pause before he speaks again. âMan, sorry. Think I misread that. Now I feel creepy. I promise Iâve only noticed you a normal amount.â Your eyes snap back up to find him wincing slightly, one hand rubbing at the back of his neck.
âNo, no, Iâmâ itâs notââ you stammer, trying to recover. âI, uhâ me too, I have too. Noticed you. A normal amount. I⊠I donât know why I just pretended like I didnât.â
Subway Boy leans forward, head dropping down with a genuine laugh that shakes his shoulders, and you canât help but laugh too, out of sheer embarrassment. Heâs beaming when he rights himself again, and it sends a thrill buzzing through you, all the way down to your fingertips still clutched tight to your pencil.
âThat makes me feel better,â he admits. âAt least weâre both creepy.â
As if the universe itself is intervening to save you from any further humiliation, the train shudders back to life and begins to move again. The sigh you breathe is a strange mixture of relief and disappointment.
âThatâs definitely a new record,â you say shyly as you move to shove your things back in your bag. âMaybe the MTA actually looked up what âsoonâ means.â
His focus is tracked over your shoulder when you look up again, and his eyes dance left to right to chase the patterns in the subway tile as you pull into the next station.
âGuess itâs a miracle,â he says softly, not making eye contact.
âMust be,â you murmur back, letting your gaze drop to the floor, unable to hide your smile now.
He doesnât say anything else, and neither do you, but the warm flush stays in your face for the rest of the ride. When the train pulls into the Astor Place station, you and Subway Boy get to your feet simultaneously, so quickly that your bags knock together as you pull them over your shoulders.
âSorry,â you say in unison, immediately sharing an exhaled laugh at the synchronicity of the moment.
The doors slide open and he gestures for you to go first before following after. Itâs a surpriseâ heâs never gotten off at Astor before, and when he doesnât take the option of heading in another direction but instead falls into lockstep next to you, you seize the opportunity.
âAstor Place today, huh?â You hope the observation still falls into the category of ânoticing a normal amountâ.
âYeah, first day of a new gig. What about you? Class?â
You nod. âPretty standard stuff. But we start a new unit today, so thatâs fun.â
âYou in grad school too?â
âYup, MFA in studio art.â You canât help but tease, just a little. âOnly one masterâs degree for me, Iâm such a slacker.â
His eyes squint again as he smiles. âHey, Iâm just glad youâre not, like, eighteen.â
âI thought that too!â You keep talking before you can stop yourself. âI mean, when I was⊠noticing. I distinctly remember thinking, like, please let me not be thirsting over a straight-up child right now.â
âAhh...â Subway Boy trails off, and you can see a faint pink starting to blossom in the apples of his cheeks. âYou were thirsting?â
You canât help but scrunch your nose up slightly, resisting the urge to full-body cringe at your own stupid mouth. âWe are now officially both creepy.â
He fidgets a little with the strap of the dance bag slung over his shoulder. âHopefully Iâm living up to the hype.â
Youâre grateful to reach the art building before you can dig your grave any deeper. You nod your head in the direction of the glass doors as you slow to a stop, and he does, too. âThis is me.â
âItâs actually me, too,â he remarks, glancing up at the building as if to double-check. âBut I have a little bit, so Iâm gonna grab a coffee I think. But it was nice to finally talk to you. Not thatâ sorry, that was weird. Take out the finally. It was good to talk. Meet a fellow starving artist and all.â
You worry your bottom lip between your teeth for a moment, until you finally work up the courage to ask the question. âDo you have a name?â
âOh!â His eyes widen, more heat-blush coloring his face. âYeah. Park Jimin. Probably couldâve led with that.â
You give him your name, and his voice is like music when he repeats it back.
âWell, good luck in class,â Jimin says with a nod. âAnd hopefully Iâll see you around sometime.â A smile toys at the corner of his mouth, and then he pauses as his words seem to catch up to him. âWell, I mean. I guess I know I will. On theâ trainâ yeah, Iâm gonna go before I say any more stupid things.â
âBye Jimin,â you giggle, and he gives a shy departing wave before he spins on his heel. As he walks away, you canât help but notice the way he drops his gaze and shakes his head, like heâs thoroughly embarrassed by his social performance.
And just like that, Subway Boy has a nameâ one that loops in your head as you float to class, barely feeling your feet touch the floor. Park Jimin. Itâs sweet like him, warm sunshine in your veins as you shoulder open the door to the studio, grab a seat, and start to get set up.
A voice nearly makes you jump out of your skin as Kim Taehyung leans in, having occupied the seat next to you while you were off in la-la land. âKnow what the new unit is?â You start to shake your head, then realize it was a rhetorical question when he waggles his eyebrows and continues. âLife drawing. Ready for some naked people?â
You roll your eyes and grab at the strings of his gray beanie, pulling it down over his fluffy hair and eyes in one swift tug. âBro, we are literally in grad school. Stop acting like a virgin.â
âLike you werenât thinking it too,â he grumbles to himself as he shoves the hat back up his forehead.
You shoot him a look as your professor signals the class to settle and launches in. Itâs the same routine as each unit youâve rotated through in your graduate studio, so you only half-listen, mostly distracted by Taehyung tearing open the paper wrapper of a red heart-shaped lollipop and popping it into his mouth. His latest oral fixation in his millionth attempt to quit vaping.
You lean down to dig into your bag, trying to ignore the sound of hard candy clacking against teeth as you fish out both pencils and charcoal to give yourself options. You pull a couple of each out of their cases, glancing up in an attempt to refocus on the professor, who is still talking.
It takes a second for your brain to process the image in front of you. His shy smile has been replaced with a serious, professional expression, but thereâs no questioning the familiar face, the posture, the silver jewelry, the way he reaches up to run a hand through his hair. Subway Boy Park Jimin is standing in the center of the room, wearing a short black satin dressing gown.
Your jaw goes slack. It feels like it happens in slow motion as you watch Jiminâs strong hands move down to undo the sash at his waist before he shrugs off the flimsy fabric and lets it fall to the floor. And then heâs not wearing anything at all.
You lose your grip entirely on your handful of pencils, and they hit the studio floor with a clatter that certainly feels deafening, each one choosing to roll off in a different direction.
Taehyung glances over at you, brow slightly creased. The lollipop tucked in his cheek impedes his speech slightly, but not enough that you canât understand him. âNow whoâs the virgin?â
You crouch down, praying that maybe you can gather your things unnoticed, but it already feels like every pair of eyes in the room is burning a hole in your back. To his credit, Taehyung at least helps a little, extending a sandaled foot to kick any pencils he can reach over towards you. You scramble around the room to chase after the rest, and you canât bear to look up and see if Jimin is watching you or not. Youâre not sure which would be worse.
Fighting the urge to army crawl out of the room, you grip both hands tightly around your materials as you return to your seat, then tuck everything into the tray of the easel in front of you. Youâre a professional, you tell yourself. Itâs not like itâs your first time drawing someone nude.
Itâs just your first time doing it when you happen to have a crush on them.
But itâs fine. You let out an exhale to ground yourself, then pick up a pencil. Itâs just a body.
You vaguely recall hearing your professor explain that youâd be moving through ten quick-sketch poses to begin with, each held for only a few minutes, before switching to a few longer sessions for the rest of class. As you were too busy chasing your pencils around the room, youâve missed the first pose entirely, and you have to work quickly to get a very rough outline of the second before Jimin moves again at the professorâs instruction.
He switches so fluidly from one pose to the next, and you have so little time, itâs enough to get you out of your head just trying to keep up. You find yourself falling comfortably into a flow state, focused on little more than lines and shapes in front of you and the act of reproducing them on your page. Itâs an exercise you know well, and the repetition of it soothes you.
The studio is quiet, save for the scratching of pencils on paper and the soft classical music your professor has switched on.
By the time you finish sketching the tenth pose, it feels like you can breathe a little easier, and your professor offers Jimin a quick break just as you lean back to admire your work. You do your best to quickly duck behind your easel as he stretches, then reaches for a bottle of water set on a nearby table.
Taehyung removes his sheet of sketches and sets it aside before leaning in, pressing his face against his easel to match yours. âHeâs cute. Bet he gets like, infinite ass-pussy. Just the absolute most.â
âShut up, Tae!â You jerk your foot out to kick the leg of his chair, and a boxy grin stretches over his face as he giggles. You stare daggers back. âYouâre too damn horny today. Like you didnât just get your ass eaten in the supply closet last week.â The rumor had spread through your cohort practically overnightâ probably started by Taehyung himself.
The menace in question shoots you an over-exaggerated wink. âAnd Iâd do it again, too.â
You roll your eyes. âNasty.â
The professor claps to get everyoneâs attention again, and you peer around your easel to watch as Jimin resumes his place at the center of the room. You settle in for the first of a few longer, more detailed sketches, trying desperately to keep your cool about it. But Jimin is unquestionably gorgeous.
He turns to the side for the first pose, arms wrapped around his muscular torso and eyes downcast, fingertips and thumb resting over his neck and chin as if to cradle his own face in his hand. After a long stretch of time where you manage to get most of a sketch done, the professor cues him to move into a second pose, and he faces the back wall, reaching up to drape his arms over each other, crossed wrists resting delicately on the crown of his head.
You could easily see him as a statue carved out of marble, and you try to ignore the flutter of your heartbeat as you attempt to translate his beauty onto your page each time. You have to hold in several sighs as you work on outlining the strong, toned muscles of his back and thighsâ not to mention his perky ass. You canât help but wonder if the rest of the class is struggling silently, too.
Youâre beginning to think you might survive after all when the professor asks Jimin to move again and he does, shaking his body out slightly before reaching to grab a provided stool and shift it to the center of the room. He takes a seat, abdominals flexing as he leans back on his hands and unabashedly lets his legs fall open.
Fuck. You nearly snap your pencil in half.
You try desperately to keep it together as you start your third sketch with unsteady hands. The minutes tick by, and you arenât aware of Taehyungâs eyes on your paper until you hear his stupid whisper again. âWhy arenât you drawing his dick?â
Heâs not wrong. There is a noticeable blank spot at the center of your page. âIâm getting there,â you huff. âWorry about your own sketch, Tae.â
âGirl, you are literally doing detail shading on his legs and he doesnât even have a penis. What is he, a Ken doll?â
You grit your teeth and refuse to dignify Taehyung with a response. Fine. You can do this, you tell yourself. Donât think. Just look and draw. Itâs not a big deal.
With a hard swallow, you trace your eyes down his body, and⊠well, you donât know what you were expecting. Itâs just a soft penis resting limp between his legs, framed by an extremely regular pair of balls. Nothing scary, though you canât quite will the heat back out of your face, canât manage to silence the recurring thought that makes your stomach dropâ itâs cute.
You resist the urge to smack your head against your easel as you finally fill in your sketchâs dick.
You somehow manage to survive the rest of class, but relief still floods your veins when your professor signals for everyone to wrap up what theyâre doing for the day. Jimin starts to come alive again from the fixed pose, tilting his head to one side until something cracks audibly in his neck. You tear your gaze away for fear that his eyes might find yours, and shove everything into your bag as quickly as you can, not even caring what ends up where.
âWhereâs the fire?â Taehyung questions beside you, but you ignore him.
You zip your bag up and sling it over your shoulder, then make a beeline for the exit, keeping your eyes fixed firmly on the floor. Itâs only once the studio door swings shut behind you that you feel like you can breathe again, and you have to keep yourself from outright sprinting to your next class.
~*~
The rest of the day rushes by in an overwhelming blur, your focus entirely shot by the events of the morning. You collapse into a seat on your train home, hugging your bag to your chest, thankful for the first time in your life to not be sharing a subway car with Park Jimin.
When you turn your keys in the lock and stumble in the front door of the apartment, the divine smell of what could only be Yoongiâs cooking immediately hits you full-force. You find him in the kitchen with a towel thrown over his shoulder, searing a large steak in a cast iron pan for what must be a planned date night with Namjoon.
You wrap your arms around his tiny waist from behind as you approach. He responds with his usual greeting: a soft grunt of mild discomfort.
âCan I ask you a question?â you ask, trying to sound as sweet as possible.
âYou just did,â Yoongi notes.
You decide to let his sass go, since you really do need help. âTwo more?â Yoongi hums, somewhat affirmative, and you continue. âI know you work like 47 jobs and never get any time offââ
âSome of us have to pay rent without the luxury of stipends or rich parents, yesââ
âBut is there any way I could⊠maybe possibly encroach upon your date night just this once? Itâs an emergency. I need advice.â
Yoongi sighs, and you shift to peek over his shoulder, arms still wrapped around him as you watch the way he tilts the pan to one side, collecting butter on a spoon to baste over the steak as it cooks. You squish your cheek into his bicep.
âLucky for you,â he begins, his tone relenting, âNamjoonie just called. Theyâve got him working late to prep for the exhibition next month. So date night was canceled anyway.â
âAw, Yoongiiiii.â You squeeze him tight enough that he makes another disgruntled noise, and you finally release your grip. âIâll be your girlfriend tonight.â
He rolls his eyes, but willingly plays along. âThen get the wine, darling?â
You fall into a typical routine: Yoongi pulls a tray of roasted vegetables out of the oven as he lets the steak rest, while you grab a bottle of red at his instruction and fight with the corkscrew in an attempt to get it open. Yoongi watches you, slow-blinking, unamused.
âYou wouldnât last an hour in the restaurant industry.â
âEither help me, or shut up,â you hiss through clenched teeth.
When you finally get settled at your tiny kitchen table, Yoongi nods as if to prompt you while he fills each wine glass with a heavy pour. âLetâs hear it.â
You take a deep breath before launching in and recounting the events of your day, trying not to choke as you simultaneously stuff your face with food. Yoongi eats and listens quietly, no discernible reaction on his face save the occasional lift of his eyebrows. He leans back and crosses his arms over his chest as you finish detailing the way you ran out of the studio the minute class ended.
âAlright. So you saw Subway Boy naked, big deal. Do you know how many dicks Iâve seen?â
You groan. âSpare me the details, please.â
âBut this is what you wanted, right?â You shrug, and he rolls his eyes. âDonât play coy now. Youâve been lusting after this kid for months like a weirdo. So why are you stressed?â
âBecause!â you huff, frustrated. âItâsâ itâs out of order. Itâs not like he chose to get naked in front of me specifically, he obviously just thought it was going to be a roomful of strangers. And it seemed like maybe we could be friends or something, but now I donât know if I should keep pursuing that or just leave him alone. I want to be respectful, but I donât want him to think I took one look at his penis and decided I didnât like him anymore, but then itâs like, how do I hold a conversation when he and I both know I have seen his penis, not only seen but studied it, drawn it, and will continue to, weekly, in detail, from multiple anglesââ
âYou are absolutely overthinking this,â Yoongi laughs into his glass of wine, downing the rest before he continues. âJust get on the fucking train and say hi like a normal, well-adjusted human. This is my advice to you.â
You sigh as you shove a roasted potato in your mouth. âAt least youâre a good cook.â
âIâm a great cook,â Yoongi corrects you as he gets to his feet. âNow help me with these dishes.â
~*~
Yoongiâs advice continues to echo in your brain as you lapse back into something like normalcy for the rest of the week.
When the day of your studio class rolls around again, you find yourself hustling not to miss the train, having hit snooze on your alarm a few too many times that morning. You fly down the subway steps just as the 6 is pulling into the station, and you try to ignore the way your pulse is already quickening, telling yourself itâs just from rushing and nothing else.
Pulling the strap of your bag up on your shoulder, you make it to the platform just as the train doors slide open, and your heart instantly leaps into your throat. There he is, leaning against a pole, overwhelmingly beautiful as ever. Park Jimin.
Heâs scrolling through something on his phone and hasnât yet looked up to notice you, and you find yourself frozen in place, jostled angrily by commuters exiting and boarding the train on either side of you.
Panic floods your veins. Thereâs no time to talk yourself off the ledge, no time to remember Yoongiâs words of wisdom, no time to do anything but make a snap decision. So you do the only thing that feels right: you turn around and sprint back up the stairs and out of the subway station.
The sidewalk is equally bustling, and you try to dodge people while you think through what to do despite the way your head is spinning. You were already going to be cutting it close for time today, and you donât exactly have the disposable income for a taxi or an Uber. As you try to settle your racing thoughts, your eyes alight on a rack of Citibikes.
Fuck it. You donât have a better option. Securing your bag on your back, you quickly scan the code to unlock the bike, then shove your phone in your pocket and swing your leg over the seat.
Youâve never biked in Manhattan traffic before, but it canât be that difficult, you tell yourself. Definitely easier than sharing a subway car with Park Jimin.
Thankfully the street youâre on has a defined bike path, and you do your best to follow the flow of traffic, squeezing your hand brakes to slow to a stop when you hit a red light. Itâs been years since youâve ridden a bike that wasnât stationary, but it comes back to you relatively easily, likeâ well, riding a bike.
When you hit a long stretch of green lights, you do your best to pick up speed, trying to make up for lost time. An approaching red light threatens to slow you down again, and you breathe a sigh of relief as it flips to green at the last possible second.
Just as your front tire rolls into the intersection, a deafening car horn nearly gives you a heart attack. You instinctively slam your grip tight around your brakes, and your bike screeches to a halt so fast youâre almost flung over the handlebars. A taxi just barely veers around you as it plows down the intersecting avenue, and you gasp for air, adrenaline coursing through your system.
Holy shit.
You drop one foot to the ground for leverage as you try to get your pulse back under controlâ youâre pretty sure you just saw your life flash before your eyes. Reality feels a million miles away, but youâre vaguely aware of someone shouting after the car as it speeds down the street.
âFucking asshole!â
It takes a few seconds for you to realize that itâs a familiar voice, and when you do, you whip around as best you can with a bike between your legs.
âYoongi?!â
âOh my god,â Yoongi groans, knuckles blanching as he presses down on his own brakes. âWhat the fuck are you doing?â
You squint, taking in the helmet strapped over his wavy dark hair and the insulated bag tucked into the basket on the front of his bike. âSince when do you deliver food?â
He grimaces, speaking up to be heard over the noise of traffic. âI just do it to make extra money when my hours suck.â
âWhat about the coffee shop?â
He shakes his head. âThey only have me opening Mondays and Wednesdays right now.â
âWhat about the bar?â
âThatâs just weekends, reliably. Sometimes extra evenings, but only if someone calls out.â
âWhat about theââ
âChrist, woman!â Yoongi cuts you off with a growl. âThe foodâs gonna get cold if I have to sit here and run through my entire rĂ©sumĂ© with you! Are you alright? Why arenât you taking the subway?â
âBecause!â you snap back. âThere is a man on that train whose dick Iâve seen and I⊠I donât know how to handle it! Okay?!â Though you donât intend to raise your voice, it comes out loud enough that a group of high school kids on their phones exchange stifled giggles as they fast-walk around you.
âWell you need to be fucking careful,â Yoongi chides. âBiking in the city is not for the faint of heart. And if Iâm not allowed to give in to my suicidal ideation, youâre not allowed to crack your head open on the pavement all because youâre trying to avoid a penis.â
âFine,â you spit back through gritted teeth. âNow if youâll excuse me, I need to get to class.â You push off the asphalt, legs still shaking a little with excess nerves as you re-find your balance and make your way cautiously through the intersection.
The rush of wind in your ears isnât quite loud enough to drown out Yoongi calling after you as you bike away. âItâs only weird if you make it weird!â
When you somehow make it to Astor Place in one piece, you dock your bike and quickly sprint to the building, well aware that youâre already late. Itâs only once you push the studio door open that you realize how truly frazzled and out of breath you are, and though you keep your gaze fixed on the floor, you can feel every pair of eyes in the room on you. You hold a hand up in an apologetic wave and hurry to find your seat.
Trying to collect yourself, you begin to unpack your materials as quietly as possible so as not to disturb the class. You nearly jump out of your skin when you hear Kim Taehyungâs voice beside you.
âYouâre sweaty. Why are you so sweaty?â
Heâs got an eyebrow cocked when you look over, and you give him the most powerful death glare you can muster, enough that it must actually scare him. âShutting up now,â Taehyung murmurs, voice shaking slightly as he returns to his own sketches, and you huff an exhale as you attempt to catch up to the rest of the group.
Class passes surprisingly quickly once you manage to get your breath back, much in the same way it did the week prior: you do your best to compartmentalize the body in front of you from the human person you have a giant, embarrassing crush on. It goes decently well in the moments where Jimin is frozen in a fixed pose, just lines and curves and light and shadow for you to emulate. During the breaks when he comes alive again, you hide out behind your easel, trying to ignore Taehyungâs inane bullshit and wishing you could disappear entirely.
The second your professor dismisses everyone for the day, you stuff your things back into your bag, hoping to once again speed-walk out of the room.
But despite your better judgment, you canât help yourself this time. As you get to your feet, you glance up to watch Jimin pull his dressing gown back on, only to realize his eyes are already on you.
Youâre distinctly aware of how much of a mess you must look from biking over, and the fact that you almost assuredly smudged charcoal on your face when you reached up absentmindedly to scratch an itch mid-sketch.
Jiminâs plush lips turn up in the smallest of smiles, and the bottom drops out of your stomach.
With a hard swallow, you avert your gaze from his, sling your bag over your shoulder, and quickly make your escape through the studio door. You can feel your pulse pounding in your throat even after heâs out of your sight, and your hands shake like a leaf all the way to your next class.
~*~
That night, sleep evades you until the early hours of the morning, and it feels like youâve only just begun to doze off when the harsh noise of your alarm pulls you up from dreaming. You roll over in bed and glare accusingly at your phone, then shut it off, promptly letting the waves drag you under once more, seminar be damned.
Itâs nearly noon when you finally make it out of bed and stumble into the living room in your sweats. Namjoon is curled up in his reading chair, a feat for someone of his size, surrounded as always by his massive stack of ever-changing âto readâ books. He glances up from the one thatâs open on his lap, clearly surprised to see you.
âNo class?â Namjoonâs voice is rough-edged, like heâs only just woken up himself.
âSkipped,â you grunt. His eyes track you as you cross the room and collapse face-first onto the couch.
âIs this about the penis?â
The cushion muffles your groan. âNot you too.â
You hear the distinct fluttering sound of Namjoon closing his book and shifting in his seat to give you his undivided attention. âSeems like you want to talk about it.â
You turn your head to the side to take in your roommate. âMaybe. Are you gonna give me the same stupid advice your boyfriend did?â
He smiles softly, one dimple flexing at the corner of his mouth. âI can try to be gentler.â
You huff as you flip onto your side, pressing your palms together and slipping them under your cheek. âSounds like youâve got the details already, so please. Enlighten me. Tell me how Iâm supposed to handle seeing this guy naked once a week in the name of art.â
âDidnât William Blake say âArt can never exist without naked beauty displayedâ?â Namjoon poses it like a serious question, brow creased as if in contemplation, and you roll your eyes.
âI donât know, Joon, did he? I said enlighten me, not write me a thesis.â You reach up to grab a couch pillow and fling it in his direction, missing by several inches. âDid Blake have anything in there on dealing with a naked crush and trying not to make it weird as fuck?â
âWell, does he seem weirded out by it?â Namjoon counters, patient as ever.
âI donât know.â You shrug unsurely as you play back your last interaction with Jimin. âHe smiled at me yesterday, at the end of class.â
Namjoon steeples his fingers together, leaning forward slightly in his chair, interest clearly piqued. âOkay, and what did you do?â
You squeeze your eyes shut. âI⊠threw all my shit in my bag and ran out of the room.â When you crack an eye open again, you can see Namjoon trying and failing to keep the smug smile off his face, his dimples giving him away.
âMaybe you could try smiling back next time?â he gently suggests.
You sigh, because you know heâs right. âYou make it sound so easy. Whatâs next? Youâre going to tell me to talk to him?â
He laughs a little. âIâd quote another poet, but I fear you might launch more projectiles at me.â
You narrow your eyes at him. âLetâs hear it, nerd.â
Namjoon clears his throat for dramatic effect before launching into a recitation. ââItâs cool, not tryna put a rush on you / I had to let you know, that I got a crush on you.ââ
Thereâs a wide grin on his face as you sit all the way up. âDid you just quote Biggie Smalls at me?â
âHey, I appreciate all forms of poetry.â
You feign annoyance, but you canât quite hide the smile beneath it, and you get to your feet as Namjoon continues to mumble a verse of Crush on You under his breath. âWhatever. I need to do laundry.â
âOhââ Namjoon pauses to interrupt himself. âLuckyâs closed, by the way.â
Already halfway out of the living room, you whip around again at the mention of the laundromat youâve been exclusive with for the last few years. âWhat?â
He nods solemnly. âMe and Yoongi found out the hard way last week. Theyâre putting in an Equinox.â
Your face twists in disgust. âA stupid bougie gym?! Youâve got to be kidding me. Where am I supposed to wash my fucking clothes?â
âWe found a place a few blocks up. Quick Clean, or something like that.â Namjoon shifts to dig his phone out of his pocket. âIâll send you the address. Itâs not bad, just a little more expensive.â
âThis is such bullshit,â you groan as you stomp back into your bedroom, the day already off to a terrible start.
In a gentrification-induced rage, you angrily shove the contents of your overflowing laundry hamper into the giant yellow IKEA bag hung up in your closet, just barely managing to fit it all. Glancing at the mirror on the back of the door, you briefly consider changing out of your sweats, or at the very least doing something with your hair, but you shrug it offâ itâs not like youâre trying to impress anyone at the damn laundromat.
You grab your headphones off your desk and sling them around your neck, double-check that your sketchbook is still tucked into your bag, then lug everything out to the front hallway. You pull your slides off the shoe rack and slip your socked feet into them.
âBye, nerd!â you call over your shoulder to Namjoon before the front door slams shut behind you.
By the time you make it to the weird new laundromat, youâre sweaty and pissed off. You knew the walk to Luckyâs by heart, but you had to do this one while looking down at your phone GPS and trying not to get hit by a car. Not an easy feat while carrying every article of clothing you own over one shoulder.
You miss the way the nice old man who owned Luckyâs would greet you warmly and sneak you a cup of coffee from his pot in the back, the way his cat would roll over on the front counter for belly rubs, the way there was always a deeply entertaining telenovela playing on the ancient tiny TV.
The stupid Quick Clean has none of these things, just a shitty pile of magazines in the seating area and weirdly sticky floors. You slam into the front door a little harder than is necessary to push it open, the bell tinkling violently overhead as you enter. The only compliment you can give the place is that itâs relatively dead, save for a couple people on their phones or half-asleep in chairs as they wait on their stuff, and two guys in the corner loading armfuls of wet clothes into a pair of dryers.
You grab a machine a respectful distance away from them and swing the door open when a laugh thatâs nearly musical gives you pause. Unable to shake a sense of familiarity, you glance over at your neighbors again, just in time to see one of them reach up to run a hand through his honey blonde hair.
Your IKEA bag hits the sticky floor with an audible thud as panic kickstarts your heart.
This isnât fucking happening. Of all the laundromats in New York City, you did not just manage to stumble into the one currently being used by Park Jimin.
But even before you can catch a glimpse of his profile, youâre already certain it canât be anyone else. Youâve spent too much time familiarizing yourself with the slope of his neck, the definition of his forearms, his dainty hands. Thereâs no mistaking them, adorned today with several silver rings that catch the dim fluorescent light as he grabs more of his clothes from the washer.
The desperate need to turn around and run rises up in your chest, just as before, but this time you steel yourself. You canât keep running away foreverâ particularly not when you pulled on your last clean pair of underwear this morning.
A rush of heat floods your face at the thought of the many pairs of underwear in your bag that will soon be sent spinning around this washing machine, where Jimin could easily see, but then it occurs to you that you have seen his penis. Maybe the trade-off will put you on slightly more equal footing.
But you really donât need to be thinking about Park Jiminâs penis in this laundromat right now.
Shaking your head slightly to try and banish the thought, you set about your laundry routine, trying not to drop any unmentionables on the floor when you dump the contents of your tote into the washer. You dig quarters out of your bag and slot them into the machine, then press the button to start the cycle.
With a final exhale to steady yourself, you turn to look over your shoulder again, only to find Jimin leaning up against the empty dryer next to his, unabashedly watching you with a small smile on his face.
It occurs to you now that you couldnât have put less effort into your appearance if you tried, and youâre suddenly hyper-aware of every random stain on your sweatpants and your extremely fashionable socks and slides combination. Jiminâs just in a white t-shirt and a pair of distressed jeans today, but literally everything looks fresh off the runway on him. You suppress the urge to walk out the door and go lay down in traffic, and instead take Namjoonâs advice: you smile back and even lift your hand in a shy wave.
You drop into an empty chair across from your machine and watch as Jimin starts to cross the room to join you, his eyes never leaving yours. Before he can make it, you suddenly become aware of someone else sliding into the seat beside you.
âYou didnât tell me she was cute, Jimin-ah!â
Eyes wide, you turn to see Jiminâs friend sprawled out next to you, one arm draped lazily over the back of your chair. His wavy dark hair peeks out from under a lime green beanie, and heâs swimming in an oversized long sleeve tucked into baggy pants, cinched tight at the waist with a Gucci belt.
âJung Hoseok,â he gives you a nod. âFriends call me Hobi. You can call me whatever you like.â The way his wide smile pulls his mouth heart-shaped makes you giggle a little, slightly dazed by whatever the fuck is happening right now.
You hear Jimin sigh as he takes the open seat on your other side. âPlease ignore Hoseokâs tendency to come on way too strong. If it makes you feel any better, heâs as gay as they come.â
Hoseok flicks his wrist just so. âGuilty as charged.â
âOh, itâs okay,â you say with a shrug, your gaze flitting from Jimin to Hoseok and back again. âI have two gay roommates, so.â
Hoseok hums, clearly interested. âGay together or gay separately?â
âGay together.â
He narrows his eyes. âOpen to a third?â
You canât help but laugh at the unexpected question. âUh, Iâd have to ask.â
He looks like heâs going to say more, but Jimin interjects. âHoseokâ can we get a minute?â
Hoseokâs lips pull together, fish-like, and he nods as he gets to his feet. âSay no more. Iâll just, uhâŠâ He fumbles, looking around for something to do, then crosses the room to take the open seat next to the sad pile of magazines. ââŠdo a little light reading.â He picks up one at the top of the stack, holding it up for you both to witness. âOh look, the queen died!â
You bite down on your bottom lip to suppress another laugh, but Jiminâs face is surprisingly serious when you look back at him. âI just want to say one thing,â he murmurs, voice low, âand then Iâll leave you alone.â
Nerves settle in the pit of your stomach like a heavy weight. âJimin,â you start, and when he opens his mouth to keep talking, you blurt out the first thing you can think of.
âIâm sorry,â you say in unison, and thereâs a beat where you both blink, equally taken aback by the otherâs apology. Itâs quiet apart from the rumble of the laundry machines and the distinct sound of Hoseok smacking the magazine over his mouth, clearly more invested in your plot line.
You break the silence first. âWait, why are you sorry?â
Jiminâs eyes drop down to the floor, one black boot toeing nervously at the tile. âI figured you were upset with me because I didnât warn you.â
Your eyes widen in surprise when you play your initial conversation back. âOh my godâ when I said graduate studio art, you⊠you knew.â
He nods, somewhat remorseful. âI was kind of hoping that maybe it would be a different class, but. Yeah. I figured. Iâm really sorry, I shouldâveââ
âNo, no,â you interrupt. âI get it. Iâm not mad, obviously I didnât even put it together until right now.â You pause for a second and canât help but smile a little. âAnd, I mean, how do you just casually work that into your first conversation with someone? âGreat talking to you, ready to see my dick in five minutes?ââ
Jiminâs head tips back when he laughs, his cheeks flushing a faint shade of pink. âRight.â
You can feel your own face grow hot as you realize what youâve just said. âGod, sorry, I didnât mean toâ clearly I donât know how to handle this. Thatâs why I wanted to apologize, for avoiding you and being weird.â You twist your hands uncomfortably in your lap. âIâve just never been in this situation before, and I wasnât sure if youâd still want to talk given⊠theâŠâ Every cell in your body screams at you not to say the word âdickâ again. âYeah. I thought it might be easier to keep my distance. Keep it separate.â
Jiminâs eyes drift back up to find yours, and his casual beauty is so stunning, itâs enough to knock the air out of your lungs. He shrugs softly. âI mean, maybe it would be. But I donât want to.â
âGreat,â you manage a laugh, still breathless. âBecause I nearly died on a Citibike the day I didnât take the subway.â
He laughs, too. âNot gonna lie, I missed seeing you on the train.â Youâre not expecting it when he extends a hand out. âFriends?â
You realize belatedly that heâs offering a handshake, and you gently take his hand in yours. His skin is soft and warm, a contrast to the cool metal of his rings that press into your palm as he squeezes.
âFriends,â you echo with a smile, squeezing back.
Thereâs a sudden thump and a cackle as Hoseok falls out of his chair with a peal of laughter. âYou are so fucking weird, Jimin-ah!â he gasps from his spot on the floor. âWho shakes hands?!â
The two of them keep you more than entertained until the buzzers on their dryers sound a second apart from each other. You learn that Hoseok and Jimin are roommates, that they met as dance majors in their undergrad program, and that Hoseok now works as an adjunct instructor and freelance choreographer.
âBecause some of us decided we wanted to actually make money instead of digging ourselves further into debt,â he explains with a sly grin and smack delivered to the back of Jiminâs head.
You watch as they meticulously fold, Hoseok regularly leaning over to redo Jiminâs work and chide him about wrinkles, and then they stack the clean laundry back into their bags and head for the exit.
âBye, new friend!â Hoseok calls as he maneuvers the door open with his foot, and Jimin pauses at the threshold, the bell overhead tinkling gently.
âSo⊠guess Iâll see you on the train?â he asks, like heâs still a little unsure, and your heartbeat flutters.
âGuess so.â
âCool.â He gives you one last soft smile before he disappears after Hoseok. The bell sounds again when the door shuts behind him, as if to snap you back to reality.
The floating feeling in your stomach doesnât quite dissipate even long after Jimin has left the laundromat. While you wait on your clothes, you flip to a blank page in your sketchbook and start on something new: the outline of a hand extended in mid-air, rings glinting like an offered promise.
~*~
The next week, Jimin is waiting for you on your morning subway ride, the dance bag that he usually keeps tucked between his legs set on the bench next to him. When he sees you step through the train doors at 51st, you watch him reach over to swing the bag down to its rightful place on the floor, freeing up the space. An open invitation.
You canât help but feel a little shy as you sink down next to him and murmur your thanks. Thereâs something about being this close to him that just makes your mind go blank, puts you at a loss for words entirely.
To your surprise, he doesnât try to strike up conversation either. Instead he plucks one fancy bluetooth earbud out of his ear, gives it a diplomatic swipe across the fabric of his joggers, then holds it up, pinched between his fingers in front of you.
Another invitation, you realize dumbly.
The corner of your mouth turns up as you pluck the bud out of his hand and press it into your own ear. The music that must have paused itself upon the earbudâs removal resumes, and your smile grows when Jimin quickly unlocks his phone to restart the song from the beginning.
An acoustic guitar and a light, pretty voice fill your ear, underscored by a gentle yet driving beat, not unlike the rumble of the train beneath your feet. Itâs like the rest of the world fades away to nothing as you stare down at his sneakers next to your shoes, hyper-aware of the mere inch or two of space between you in this moment.
As if to prove your point, the train comes to a sharp stop, enough to make you slide a little on the bench and then youâre suddenly not just close but touching, all the way down, an unbroken line from shoulder to hip to knee.
When you look over in surprise, Jimin is already looking back at you. You swear you can feel warmth radiating out from him at every point where your bodies press together.
After another dazed moment, you come to your senses enough to scoot over, breaking the contact with an embarrassed laugh as you feel your face grow hot.
Your gaze drifts back down to the floor, only to snap up again at another brush of contact, this one not initiated by you or by the motion of the train. Instead, you realize Jimin has spread his legs an inch wider to purposefully touch his knee to yours again and leave it there. You blink softly as you look over at him, but heâs staring firmly out the window of the subway car now, smiling with just his eyes.
For the rest of the ride, you think of little else but Jiminâs knee pressed against yours and the pretty pink flush in his cheeks.
You stay in comfortable silence, music floating in your ears as you exit the train at Astor Place together, until you reach the studio, where you finally return the borrowed earbud. He smiles as he tucks them both back into the case, then pushes open the door and gestures for you to enter first.
Jimin shoots you a final look before your paths diverge, and you sink into your seat with a small, dreamy sigh. Your bliss is short-lived when you hear Taehyungâs voice over your shoulder.
âThat was fast.â
You whip around to shoot him a look. âWhat was fast?â
He makes a face, like itâs obvious. âYouâre already banging the model and itâs been, what, two weeks?â
Taehyungâs just close enough that you can lean forward and smack him on the arm, and he hisses in a way that has to be an exaggeration. Thankfully he seems to take the hint, and manages to actually keep his mouth shut as the professor commands everyoneâs attention at the center of the room.
When Jimin emerges in the usual black satin, you try to keep your composure, but you canât ignore the chill that dots up your spine when he lets the fabric fall to the floor.
Nevertheless, you sink into the routine of class, the thrill of Jiminâs naked body now equal parts familiar and exhilarating. The only difference is that today, when youâre dismissed, you make no effort to quickly pack up. You instead purposefully take your time, adding a few extra details to your last sketch before you finally start putting things away. Your gaze flickers up distractedly to see Jimin pulling his dressing gown back over his body as he moves to close the distance between you.
âHi,â he says simply when he reaches your easel, and you smile.
âHi.â
âSorry, is, uhâ is it okay that I talk to you, when Iâmââ He gestures vaguely to his lower half with one hand, using the other to keep himself covered.
You swallow hard at the thin layer of fabric and everything you know lies beneath it. âYeah, itâs okay,â you say, hating how breathless you sound.
âWhen are you done with classes today?â
It takes an extra second for you to remember your own schedule. âUh, six.â
Jimin fidgets with the satin material in his hands, clearly a little uncomfortable. Or maybe nervous. âWould you⊠want to get dinner after? With me?â
Your stomach flutters as you nod. âYeah, yes. Iâd like that.â
~*~
When you emerge from your last class, you find Jimin waiting for you on Astor Place, and youâre not expecting it when he greets you with a single question: âDo you like sushi?â You answer affirmatively, and he nods over his shoulder. âThen letâs walk this way.â
You end up tucked into two seats at a place youâve never been to before, where rolls and other plates of food zip past you on a steadily moving conveyor belt. Jimin shows you how to pop the plates out from their protective domes, and you gather a small feast of options on the table between you to share.
âSo,â you start with a nervous smile, chopsticks hovering in midair. âCan I ask the obvious question?â
He quirks an eyebrow, intrigued. âWhatâs that?â
âWhat made you decide to nude model?â The words alone send fresh waves of heat and nerves through you, sparkling in your chest. âOr have you done it before?â
âI havenât,â Jimin confirms with a shake of his head, then he pops a piece of sushi in his mouth as if to buy himself time. He chews, bringing a hand up as he speaks with his mouth still half-full. âDo you want the real answer?â
You nod, and his adamâs apple jerks as he swallows. Thereâs a look on his face like he isnât quite sure what to say, and then he exhales a weighty sigh. âIâve struggled with my body for a really long time. Especially in undergrad.â
Your eyes widen slightlyâ you werenât expecting such a serious response.
âDance doesnât typically have the best culture for that to begin with,â he continues, âand Iâd spend literally all day staring at myself in a mirror, so I would just⊠pick myself apart. Always convinced I wasnât good enough, that I needed to lose more weight, always.â
The thought of it makes your heart ache, but you let him talk.
âIâm through the worst of it now, so please donât feel like you need to be worried. But I have some friends whoâve done this kind of thing before and it seemed like, I donât know, a good challenge?â His brow creases, contemplative. âI really love art, so I thought maybe if I did it, I might be able to see my body in a new way, through the eyes of other people. Of artists.â He pauses, then nods, like heâs said his piece.
It takes you a second to respond. âThatâs⊠beautiful, Jimin.â
He looks down, clearly a little uncomfortable. âSorry if that was too heavy.â
âI can take it,â you say softly, and itâs enough to make him glance back up in surprise. âThank you for telling me.â
A faint color floods his face. âThanks for listening.â
You eat in a silence thatâs oddly comfortable, and when you both reach for the same piece of sushi and end up knocking chopsticks together, he lets you have it, picking up the thread of conversation again as he smiles. âWhat got you into art?â
You make a face, chased by an unsure shrug. âIs it bad if I say itâs the only thing I feel like Iâm good at?â
Jimin laughs a little. âI donât know that I believe you.â
âI mean,â you lean back in your seat. âMaybe not the only thing, but Iâve just never been able to see myself doing anything else. Iâm not cut out for the corporate life, as much as my parents wish I was. Artâs always been the thing that I go to in my free time. When Iâm feeling so much that itâs overwhelming, or so numb that itâs like I canât feel anything, the act of creating something just⊠brings me back to center again.â You worry your bottom lip between your teeth. âItâs an outlet, I guess.â
âWell, if it helps, youâre very good at it.â
âThanks,â you say with a small smile. âBut itâs not even about being good, at least not to me. Maybe it sounds weird, but I donât really have any interest in being the best. Itâs art, so itâs all subjective anyway. I just wanna make stuff.â
Jimin smirks as he adds another empty plate to the growing stack in front of you, tongue poking briefly at the inside of his cheek before he speaks. âI could stand to be more like you.â
âYour turn,â you shoot back. âWhy dance?â
At this, he actually brings a hand up to cover his face, and his voice is muffled under his palm when he responds. âI can tell you exactly why, but itâs embarrassing.â
You shift a little in your chair to get a better look at him. âDonât be embarrassed! Itâs not like Iââ you cut yourself off before you can very obviously finish the sentence with âhavenât seen your dickâ, and you shove a piece of sushi in your mouth to shut yourself up, so fast you nearly choke.
Jimin laughs loudly into his hands, and then youâre laughing too, dropping your head down on the table to try and chew your food without asphyxiating.
âOkay, okay,â he gasps when he can finally manage to take a breath in. âIâll tell you.â
He sets his chopsticks down, overly serious. âWhen I was little, I was obsessed with Titanic. Specifically the scene where they dance together, and Rose rises up on her toes in front of everyone.â There are practically stars in his eyes as he recounts the moment, and you canât bear to cut him off. âI just thought she was so beautiful, and I wanted to be like that. Almost broke my toes trying to go en pointe barefoot like an idiot.â
Youâre silent for a moment, and thereâs a flicker of panic in Jiminâs face, like heâs worried he overshared. âI have to be honest,â you say softly. âIâve never seen Titanic.â
His eyes nearly pop out of his head. âWhat?!â
Already expecting the reaction, you grimace and nod. âI know, I know. Everyone gets mad at me for it. Go ahead.â
Jiminâs eyes flit from your face to the remaining piece of sushi on the plate between you, then back again. âI mean, we can go solve this problem right now, if you want.â He pauses, then admits with a giggle, âI have it on DVD.â
You shrug, trying to act casual despite the way your pulse has started to quicken. âThey canceled my morning seminar for tomorrow, so Iâm down.â
He leans forward to steal the last piece of sushi with a smug smile. âThen letâs get out of here.â
Itâs a short train ride back to Jiminâs place, and you make it in the front door just in time to see Hoseok slipping out of what looks to be his bedroom. You barely process him as the same personâ tonight his dark hair is swept off his forehead, and heâs in nice dress pants and a white button-down, unbuttoned just enough to display the delicate spread of his collarbone.
âHi kids!â he calls in greeting, and you wave back as you kick your shoes off.
Hoseok crosses to grab a mirrored pair of aviators and his keys off the table by the front door. âDaddyâs going out. You two have fun, donât do anything I wouldnât do.â He pauses for a moment, like heâs waiting for a joke to land, then cracks a grin. âBy which I obviously mean do whatever the fuck you want.â
As Hoseok pulls the door shut behind him, you follow Jimin into the living room, where you perch nervously on the edge of the couch while he disappears into the kitchen. âDo you like prosecco?â he asks, raising his voice slightly to be heard.
âUh, I think so,â you say unsurely. âI donât think I ever developed enough of a palette to have wine preferences.â
âWhite and sparkling?â
âSounds good,â you respond, and then you hear the distinct noise of a cork popping before he returns with a bottle and two glasses in hand. He sets everything on the coffee table as he takes a seat next to you, then leans forward to fill both glasses nearly to the brim.
Jiminâs face flushes when you giggle softly at the pour. âSorryâ I like to drink. You donât have to finish it all.â You shrug and take a healthy pull from your glass. Itâs crisp and light, with little bubbles that fizz and pop all the way down.Â
âHoseok calls me a lush,â he admits with a shy laugh as he picks up his own drink and turns to face you, sitting back against the arm of the couch. You shift to mirror him, curling your socked feet up under you. He takes a sip, then seems to think better of it, leaning forward to set his glass down on the table again. âI did want to tell you something. A couple of things, I guess.â
The sentence makes your stomach twist, and you try your best to ignore it. âWhatâs up?â
Jiminâs lips press together for a moment, as if heâs trying to figure out how to word whatever heâs about to say. âIâm not, like, trying to be presumptuous by telling you this but I justâ I donât want it to go unsaid and then come up later and be a whole big thing, so. I just want you to know that Hoseok is my ex.â
Your eyes widen in surprise. Youâre not sure what you were expecting, but certainly not that.
âWe dated freshman year of undergrad, for⊠maybe three months? It was the kind of thing where I knew I was bi in high school but was too scared to act on it, so when I moved to New York I just, like, dated the first gay person I met? Which was probably a little shitty of me. We quickly realized we work much better as friends, and it was a very mutual thing. No hard feelings.â
You nod slowly, trying to keep up. âAnd youâve lived together since then?â
âNo, no,â Jimin replies quickly, and he nearly grimaces as he continues. âAt the end of last semester, I, uh⊠I got out of a pretty bad long-term relationship.â The way he says it makes your heart sink a little. âAnd she and I lived together, so Hoseok was extremely gracious and offered to take me in.â
He reaches for his glass of wine again, then pauses with it halfway to his mouth. âIdeally the number of exes Iâd be living with would be zero, but. You know. This is definitely the better option, at least until I can figure out what comes next.â
A pause settles between you while he takes a long drink and you try to process all this new information. âIâm sorry about the breakup,â you say softly, and he shakes his head as he swallows.
âDonât be. It was a very good thing. Long overdue.â
âWell,â you correct yourself, the corners of your mouth pulling up. âThen Iâm sorry that it took so long.â
At this, he smiles back. âMe fuckinâ too.â
After one more sip, Jimin sets his wine back down on the coffee table, then rolls off the couchâ surprisingly gracefulâ to retrieve Titanic from the small collection of movies lined up on the shelf beneath the TV.
âReady?â
âThis better have a happy ending,â you murmur over the edge of your wine glass. Jimin laughs so hard he nearly tips over.
He settles next to you again as the movie starts, painted pretty in the blue glow of the TV, and you try your best to watch the movie, but itâs hard to keep your eyes off him. Partway through you notice him grab a pillow off the back of the couch and hug both of his arms around it, curling up small.
Cute, you canât help but think to yourself, and you can feel heat settle in your face as you try to refocus on the story.
When you reach the dancing scene Jimin sits up a little, lips parting slightly, that same starry look in his eyes as when he explained it initially. The mental image of a younger version of him equally enraptured by the moment nearly makes your chest cave in.
The movie goes on, and youâre draining the last of your second glass of wine when out of the corner of your eye, you see Jiminâs eyes go wide. Jack and Rose are closely examining a rare diamond necklace, and you donât understand what he could be reacting to until Kate Winslet delivers her next line.
âJack, I want you to draw me like one of your French girls.â
Your eyes go just as wide as Jiminâs, and you let out a laugh of disbelief thatâs nearly a scream. âOh my fucking god, Park Jimin! You did this on purpose!â
âI swear, I didnât! I didnât even think about that part until right now!â He shakes his head desperately as he gasps for air, and he doubles over with his own laughter, rolling right off the couch, arms still clutched tightly around his pillow.
âI literally cannot believe this.â You dissolve into giggles as you sink to your knees on the floor beside him, close to tears.
It takes time for you both to recover, but Jimin eventually manages to pull himself back up to sitting, shoulders still shaking slightly with laughter. He lets the pillow drop to the floor and presses both of his palms down into it as he leans towards you. âBut hey, maybe thatâs why I like you.â
Heâs so magnetic, so beautiful, you canât help but lean in, too. âYou like me?â
Thereâs a warm glow of color in his cheeks, and youâre not sure if you can blame it entirely on the wine. âI do.â
Your lingering smile slowly starts to soften, and now your heart feels like it might pound out of your chest. âSo what, youâre Rose and Iâm Jack?â
His gaze drops to your mouth, his voice barely more than a whisper as he murmurs, âUh-huhâ. Imaginary violins swell in your head as you surge forward to close the distance and press your lips to his.
Jiminâs lips are soft and warm, and your head spins as you sit up on your knees and lean into the kiss. While his mouth moves gently against yours, his palms press to the small of your back, and the heat of his hands radiates through the thin fabric of your shirt. You wrap your arms over his shoulders, partially for balance and partially in an attempt to pull him closer to you.
He tilts his head, and you whimper against him when you feel his tongue trace delicately over your bottom lip. He returns a breathy noise back as he licks slowly into your mouth, like heâs taking his time, like heâs not in any rush.
Even though you can feel your arousal starting to build, heavy in your gut and slick between your thighs, you realize: you want him to take his time with you.
Youâre surprised at the loss when he suddenly leans back, just enough to break the kiss, still keeping you held close. âIs it, umââ he clears his throat, then tries again. âI donât⊠want to go any further. Than this. At least not tonight. Is that okay?â
Your eyes search his, and youâre a little breathless when you manage to get the words out. âYeah. Yeah, of course. Iâm good with that. With whatever you want.â
âOkay.â You exhale a laugh when he reaches over to find the remote on the coffee table and pause the movie. âI want to keep kissing you, if thatâs alright.â
âYes, please,â you murmur against his lips.
Jimin shifts a little, and you follow his lead, letting him tip you backwards onto the floor, your arms still looped around his neck, one hand now tangling in his honey blonde hair. He drops a forearm down to the carpet beside you, his other hand coming to rest at the curve of your waist, knees bracketing your hips as he covers your body with his.
He alternates between sucking on your lower lip and gentle passes of his tongue into your mouth, the hand on your waist tracing a lazy path down to your hip and back up again. Something pulled tight inside you starts to slowly unwind, blooming open as you sink into the rhythm, into him.
Itâs been such a long time since youâve just kissed someone like this, without it feeling like part of a race to get naked. And youâve never been kissed like this in your lifeâ so soft, so attentive. Itâs enough to make you dizzy, even with your back pressed flat to the floor.
You lose track of how much time passes as you trade open-mouthed kisses on Jiminâs living room carpet, until he finally pulls away again. Still in a daze, you shift the hand in his hair to gently cup his face, not quite able to believe that heâs really real.
âGod,â Jimin breathes, laughing quietly to himself. âI really like you.â
You smile as you blink up at him. âI like you too, Jimin.âÂ
Rolling over, he drops down onto the floor next to you with a blissed-out sigh. He stretches his arms overhead, spine arching like a cat, then lifts up again to glance back at you. âDo you want more wine? âCause weâre only like halfway done. This movie is stupid long.â
âI could go for more,â you answer with a shrug, still smiling.
In one swift move, Jimin flips his legs over his head and effortlessly somersaults up to standing, and your eyes go wide. âHow do you fucking do that?!â
âIâm a trained professional!â he calls over his shoulder as he sashays into the kitchen. You giggle a little. âI would break every bone in my body.â
Heâs humming prettily to himself, and you hear the sound of the fridge opening and closing, followed by the pop of another bottle being uncorked. You pull yourself back onto the couch as he rejoins you and pours fresh wine into both glasses, and a sudden curiosity urges you to ask a question. âIs Titanic your favorite movie?â
Jimin shakes his head, but says nothing, and the strange hesitant expression that flashes over his face just makes you that much more intrigued.
âLetâs hear it.â
His eyes flit over to you, then back to the wine glasses. âYouâll laugh.â
âI wonât!â you exclaim, lifting a hand when he scrunches up his nose, doubtful. âPromise.â
With a reluctant sigh, Jimin sets the bottle back down on the table, staring straight ahead as he admits, âItâs The Notebook.â
You press your lips together, trying desperately to keep your mouth in a straight line. At least you manage not to laugh. âIâ wow. Really?â
He nods like the reaction is expected, picking up his wine glass and settling back against the couch cushions. âI donât know, thereâs just something about it. Itâs comforting, to me.â
âYouâre such a romantic,â you murmur, gently nudging his thigh with your foot until you coax a smile out of him.
âYou know what?â Jiminâs voice is thoughtful now, more self-assured. âI am.â He takes a sip of his drink before he continues. âFor a long time I didnât want to be. Or thought that I couldnât be. I used to always try to be so. I donât know. Masculine, I guess. I think some of it had to do with denying my sexuality, but even once I got around to accepting that, there was still this part of me that would just never allow myself to be⊠soft.â
His gaze drops down to the wine in his glass, and you sit up, tucking your legs underneath you to scoot closer to him until youâre side by side. âI like you soft,â you say simply, and he looks over at you, still smiling.
âIf we watch The Notebook I will cry.â
âThatâs okay.â You lean into him to seek a kiss, made sweet from the wine. He hums a little against your lips before you pull back. âSame time next week?â
~*~
Just like that, you fall into a regular routine with Jimin: sharing his headphones on the morning train, sketching out the shape of his body in studio, then picking up takeout and wine to bring back to his place and split over a movie. As predicted, The Notebook does make him cry, and when you show him Kimi no Na wa the week after, hot tears stream down your face at the final scene, the way they always do.
He takes your head in his hands as the credits roll, his thumbs swiping at errant tears on your cheeks. You chase a sniffle with an embarrassed laugh. âOkay. Weâre even now.â
On your fourth movie night, partway into Moulin Rouge, something emboldens you when you see Jimin reach for his usual couch pillow. You lean over and gently pry it out of his grip, then shift to tuck yourself into his side and curl your legs up in his lap instead.
âBetter?â
âMm-hmmâ, he murmurs as he ducks down to nuzzle against your cheek. âYouâre warm.â
These nights end the same way each time: you ride the train home with a wine-soaked buzz in your brain and flushed, kiss-bitten lips, your fingertips brushing over your own mouth at the memory of his.
Once a week quickly turns into more. The two of you coordinate laundromat afternoons where you listen to music together as you wait for your clothes. You usually end up drawing to pass the time, and sometimes Jimin dozes off, head tipping over onto your shoulder so gently that you canât help but smile down at your sketchbook.
At his request, you help him dye his hair pink in his tiny apartment bathroom, and it somehow suits him just as well as honey blonde. You both get dizzy from laughter and cleaning product fumes as you desperately try to scrub the bubblegum stains out of the tile before Hoseok comes home.
When you finally introduce Jimin to your roommates, the four of you crammed all-too formally around the kitchen table over Yoongiâs cooking, the interaction feels like a cross between a job interview and a prom date meeting your parents. You choke on a piece of chicken that you nearly inhale when Namjoon offhandedly refers to Jimin as Subway Boy, and Yoongi smiles wide enough to show his gums as he gladly recounts your months-long crush in great detail while you bury your burning face in your arms.
But Jimin takes it in stride, laughs into your mouth as he kisses you over the sink while the two of you wash the dishes.
âSubway Boy, huh?â
âI will drown you,â you murmur as you pull away, brandishing the spray hose like a threat.
Itâs easy and slow. This blossoming something, a nameless but undeniable spark, the calm comfort of Jiminâs arms wrapped around your waist, his fingers intertwined with yours, his head dropped down on your shoulder.
~*~
You dig your phone out of your pocket as you shoulder open the door to the dance building, pulling up the text from Jimin to double-check his practice room number. A train delay made you slightly later than your agreed-upon time, but you know the takeout bag of Indian food dangling over your wrist will easily earn you his forgiveness.
It doesnât surprise you that heâs the only one left in the room when you find it, nor that heâs still reviewing the choreography with an expression of severe focus. You hover in the doorway, waiting for him to look up, but heâs entirely concentrated on his own reflection in the mirror.
His movements alternate between delicate and powerful, explosive and restrained, and you have to hold in an outright gasp when he launches his body into an aerial and lands it effortlessly. But then his feet falter in a split second of hesitation, and you can see his expression tighten, clearly frustrated.
âFuck,â he mutters to himself as he rubs a hand over his face, and he doesnât even try to keep going with the rest of the dance. You take the opportunity to step a few more paces into the room, and his eyes jump to you in the mirror.
âHi,â you say softly, suddenly a little nervous to be intruding on the moment. The corner of Jiminâs mouth turns up, but his eyes seem far away, and you can tell heâs still raging at himself in his mind.
âHi, sorry,â he sighs. âI justâ canât get this. Itâs like my body isnât doing what I tell it to.â
âYou need food.â You try to say it gently as you cross the room, holding up the smiley-face adorned plastic takeout bag. âAnd perhaps the enigmatic charm of Rachel McAdams.â
This seems to shake him out of his thoughts, at least a little. âI do like her.â He steps close enough to slip his arms around your waist and pull your body flush against his. Sweat glistens on his collarbone in the dim practice room lighting. âBut I like you more.â
You roll your eyes as you playfully smack a hand against his solid chest. âStop lying.â
ââM not,â he insists as he presses a kiss to the hinge of your jaw. âRachel McAdams has never once brought me masala dosa.â You giggle despite yourself, and when his lips drop down to your neck, itâs enough to make your breath hitch.
A spark ignites in your chest that doesnât go out, not on the subway ride back to your apartment, not through dinner and a movie, and certainly not once youâre most of the way through the second bottle of wine. As the credits start to roll, you waste no time, turning in Jiminâs lap so you can properly straddle him and take his face in your hands.
You trade decadent, easy kisses, and Jiminâs hands settle at the small of your back, his thumbs massaging gentle circles into your hips. A shiver rolls up your spine when he shifts a little and you realize you can feel a growing bulge through the fabric of his joggers, pressed firm against your thigh. He breathes a soft sound into your mouth as his tongue slides over yours, and youâre so overwhelmed, you barely register the sound of keys in the lock or the front door opening.
Itâs Jimin who reacts first, turning his head to break the kiss as his cheeks flood with color, and you glance over your shoulder just in time to see Yoongi storm past, heading for his room. He lifts a hand up to his face to shield you from view as he goes.
âDonât stop on my account!â Yoongiâs voice is dripping with derision. âBy all means, continue fucking on our shared furniture!â
âWeâre fully clothed, asshole!â you snap in response as Yoongi slams the bedroom door behind him, hard enough that it rattles in the frame.
When you look back down at Jimin, his face is twisted in an expression you take to be embarrassment. You drop your head down on his shoulder with a frustrated groan, the moment successfully killed.
âDo youâŠâ you pause, turning your head to the side but continuing to ask your question into the fabric of his shirt. âWe could go to my room, for more privacy, if you want?â
He hums his agreement, and when you peel yourself off the couch and head for your room, he follows. You spin back around to face him in the doorway, so fast he nearly knocks into you.
You brace your hands on the doorframe as you survey him. âWe really donât have to⊠do anything, if you donât want to. We can just talk.â
Jimin nods, and you step aside to let him enter first, pulling the door closed behind you as you follow. He takes a few tentative steps into the room, and you walk past him to drop down onto the floor next to your bed, then pat the carpet to encourage him to join. Thereâs a flash of something over his face, and then he sinks down beside you. Itâs only now that you realize how quiet heâs gotten.
âWhat is it?â you ask, suddenly a little nervous.
He stares down at the soles of his feet, pressed into each other, his knees tipped open like butterfly wings. âDoes it make you feel bad? That weâre notââ
âNo,â you answer immediately, and the honesty of it resonates in your chest.
âI know weâve been hanging out for a while,â he continues, voice low. âAnd I do want to, you know. Hook up.â
âJimin,â you lean forward to place both of your hands over one of his, settled atop his knee. âYou donât have to explain anything to me. When you want to, I want to. But I like everything weâve been doing, too. Itâs not like weâre not⊠intimate.â
His gaze flits up from the floor to meet yours. âI donât want you to think that I donât want you.â
You close your fingers around his hand, pulling it off his leg and up to your face so you can brush your lips over his palm.
âI donât think that at all,â you murmur against his skin. âPromise.â
Thereâs a hint of a smile in his eyes when you look back up at him. âOkay. Sorry, I know itâs stupid. Like why do I need reassurance from you when Iâm the one being difficult?â
You press your cheek into the warmth of his hand, toying lazily with the rings on his fingers. âWhy are you so convinced that youâre difficult?â
Jimin huffs a small sigh. âThis conversation has not gone this well in the past.â His eyes drop to the floor again, and after a momentâs pause, he keeps talking.
âMy ex and I struggled a lot withâŠâ he shakes his head, as if heâs trying not to say âeverythingâ. âSex. With me wanting it, with us having enough of it. I think it gave me a complex. I could be physically, you know, ready, but then as soon as sheâd touch me Iâd get in my head about everything and freak out and immediately want to stop.â He pauses, worrying at his bottom lip.
You pull his hand into your lap, your fingers delicately tracing over his in an attempt to provide some comfort. He shrugs when he starts to speak again. âAnd then, I donât know, I guess she was just trying to share her side, but... she would make me feel so bad about it sometimes. Because I was genuinely trying so hard but it was like I was never good enough.â Another pause, and this time he sniffs a little. When his eyes roll up to stare at the ceiling, you can see heâs holding back tears. âIt felt like she didnât want me anymore, not if there wasnât sex. So I left.â
âJimin,â you breathe, and he flashes you a small grimace, clearly embarrassed by his own dramatics. With a grunt of effort, he turns sideways and flops backwards onto the floor of your room, and you scoot closer to him, your hand still playing with his.
His gaze roams over the ceiling as he sighs. âI donât want you to think I was this perfect person and she was some awful bitch. She loved me a lot, and Iâm sure she was struggling with not feeling wanted either, in her own way.â
Your voice is soft when you interject. âTwo people can just be⊠incompatible. It doesnât mean either of them is a bad person, or that itâs anyoneâs fault. Sometimes things just donât work, no matter how hard you try.â
Jiminâs mouth pulls up on one side as he shakes his head, eyes squinting. âHow did you get to be so smart?â
You canât help but laugh a little, lacing your fingers together with his in your lap. âYears of making terrible decisions.â You give his hand a gentle squeeze before you ask a question. âDid you struggle with this before, or just with her?â
His mouth twists slightly, unsure. âYes and no? Both? My desire has always⊠fluctuated, I guess. Been a little shy.â A smile spreads over his face, and he hums a note. âLike, you know how people say love at first sight isnât a thing? That itâs just lust?â You nod, prompting him to continue. âI think, at least for me, itâs the opposite. I can fall for somebody, and fall hard, like that.â He snaps loudly with his free hand. âBut lust⊠I donât know, it takes longer. Itâs like a slow burn thing.â
You nod again, processing his words for a moment before you respond. âWell, Iâm in no rush.â
Jimin sits up, voice thoughtful as he untangles his hand from yours, and itâs clear heâs getting more comfortable opening up to you. âRight after the breakup, I did a lot of research. I found this term, demisexual, that felt pretty accurate.â He shrugs. âBut I donât know. I mostly just think that... I am who I am. And the people who get it will get it. Like you.â
Before you can even speak, he sweeps an arm under your calves to drag you into his lap in one swift move, and you squeak a little in surprise as your world tilts.
âDemisexual. I like it,â you giggle as he guides your legs to wrap around his middle. His hands slide up your thighs, grabbing at your hips to tug you closer so he can trail kisses along your neck.
âBiromantic demisexual, technically,â he murmurs, head tipping up to find your mouth again.
You drape your arms over his shoulders and hum against his lips as he kisses you. âIt suits you.â
Another soft noise escapes you when Jimin manages to maneuver to standing with you still in his arms. You tighten your grip on his shoulders and your legs around his waist, and his hands shift down to your ass to firmly hold you up. You squeeze your eyes shut automatically in fear of being dropped, then flutter them open again when you feel your back press into the soft cushion of your bedspread.
Jimin is hovering over you, forearms dropped down to the bed on either side of you. His eyes search yours for a moment, and then he leans in to kiss you again, so fiercely this time that it leaves you breathless. You canât help but whimper as his tongue slips into your mouth.
When he finally pulls away, he presses his forehead to your collarbone with a groan. âItâs late,â he murmurs, breath ghosting over your neck. âI should go.â
You nod responsibly, despite how desperately you want him to stay.
You walk him out, and his sweet parting kiss leaves your heart hammering in your chest, enough that you slump against the frame with a sigh once you shut the door, your knees suddenly weak.
Light on your feet, you follow the faint noise of the TV to find Yoongi in the living room with Planet Earth on at a barely audible volume. He glances at you, his mouth a flat line, then reaches for the remote to turn the sound up a few notches. You drop down on the couch next to him, and itâs silent for a moment, save for the calm narration and the crinkling plastic of him tearing open a bag of Turtle Chips.
âHowâd it go?â he finally asks, voice monotone.
âItâs good,â you answer softly. âWeâre good.â You fold your legs up under yourself and sneak a look at Yoongi out of the corner of your eye. Youâre still a little pissed, but you also want advice. Damn him for knowing everything.
âHave you heard the term âdemisexualâ before?â
Yoongi nods, still chewing as he replies. âYeah. Like asexual spectrum, right?â
You shrug. âI guess. Itâs new to me.â
He shoves a few more chips in his mouth before he continues. âIs that what your Subway Boy is?â
âI think so, yeah.â
Thereâs a long pause while you watch penguins march across the screen, and you think that might be the end of it. Then Yoongi clears his throat. âYou know, Iâm somewhere in there too. Not completely asexual, but definitely not⊠not.â
Your eyes widen. âReally?â
Yoongi snorts. âDonât act so shocked. These walls arenât that thick.â
âIs Joon?â
He smirks, like youâve just told a joke. âDecidedly not.â
âOh.â You blink, trying to process. âHow do you deal with it?â
Yoongi makes a face, like heâs never thought about it before. âWe just communicate, I guess. Be respectful even when we donât necessarily understand. And, like, Namjoon watches porn, and surprisingly reads quite a bit of eroticaââ
âOkay, okay,â you cut him off. âI donât need all the details.â
He huffs a dry laugh at your discomfort. âItâs not always easy, sometimes itâs frustrating for both of us. But we make it work. We love each other.â
You chew a little at the inside of your cheek, and then you canât hold in the question any longer. âIs it weird that the idea doesnât bother me? Jimin said it was a huge issue with his ex. Like, does that make me on the⊠spectrum?â
Yoongi shrugs. âI mean, you might be? But not necessarily? I donât know, sex matters different amounts to everyone. Some people donât mind not having it that often. You donât have to put a label on it unless you want to, you know?â
âYeah, makes sense.â You nod slowly as you digest the idea. âThanks, Yoongi. I appreciate the education.â
His only answer at first is a noncommittal hum, and then he points a finger at the few inches of wine in the bottle you left sitting on the coffee table. âGonna finish that?â
âItâs all yours,â you say. âConsider it atonement for going to first base on the couch.â
Yoongi grabs the bottle by the neck and immediately drains it. âApology accepted,â he grunts as he sets it back down. âAnd Iâm sorry I snapped at you.â He extends his bag of chips in your direction and you happily reach in for the biggest handful you can manage.
~*~
During your next movie night, Jimin canât keep his hands to himself.
They pet up your thighs, your legs draped over his, then slide up to your hips, fingertips tracing patterns over the waistband of your leggings and toying at the hem of your shirt.
His mouth has a similar problem: he leans in to press kisses along the line of your jaw, then down the slope of your neck, sucking delicately at the spot that makes your nipples tighten and sends a shiver through you.
âYouâre missing the movie,â you remark, raking a hand through his peachy-pink hair, shadowed at the roots where his natural color has started to grow in. Heâs typically good about keeping himself restrained until the credits roll, but youâre barely halfway through Pride & Prejudice, havenât even cracked a second bottle yet.
âFuck the movie,â he growls against your skin, and you bite back a whimper when his teeth scrape over your neck. You canât ignore the way your core is starting to ache from his insistent mouth.
His lips find yours again, and you giggle softly into him. âYouâre in a mood.â
âJust been thinking about you,â he murmurs between kisses. It surprises you a little when he suddenly pulls back so he can look you in the eyes. âShould weâ do you want to go to my room?â
The air hangs still and heavy between you, and you worry at your bottom lip for a moment. âAre you sure?â When he nods, dark brown eyes blinking up at you, your mouth turns up at the corner. âIâd rather we not traumatize any more roommates if we can help it.â
You lean over to pause the movie before sliding off his lap and getting to your feet, and then you reach your hands out for his and pull him up next to you. âCome on.â
Jiminâs bedroom is so perfectly him that it relaxes you, feather-soft comfort every time you step inside. His bed isnât made, because it never is, the thick white duvet pushed down on one side where he stumbled out from beneath it this morning. He keeps it dark, blackout curtains drawn to support his night owl lifestyle, and the room is bathed in the warm glow of fairy lights heâs strung up along the ceiling. A myriad of posters and art prints and polaroids are taped to the walls, some beautiful, others sentimentalâ he even managed to coax you into tearing a few of his favorites out of your sketchbook. You still donât think theyâre anything special, but nevertheless, it makes your heart squeeze in your chest to see them on display with everything else. Like they belong here in this room, like you do too.
The door clicks as it shuts behind him, and then his mouth is on yours again, kissing you dizzy while he backs you up until your knees hit the edge of the bed. He guides you to lay down, and his hand slips beneath you to drag you up the bed with him as he crawls over you.
His hands come up to tug at your shirt. âCan I take this off?â he breathes.
You nod, staring up at him and not quite able to believe any of this is real. âYou can do anything you want to me.â With a smile, he lifts the hem of your shirt, and you sit up a little so he can pull it the rest of the way off.
âGod, youâre beautiful,â Jimin murmurs against your skin as he kisses down your neck, over your collarbones, then down between the valley of your breasts. His hands slip down to palm at your tits, squeezing gently, and he mouths at the stiff peaks of your nipples over the thin fabric of your bralette. You untangle briefly, only for as long as it takes to get the lacy thing off of you entirely and tossed over the edge of the bed.
You shiver a little as the air hits your bare skin, and then the warmth of his body covers you again, and he ducks down to close his mouth over your nipple and suck. The plush softness of his lips and the firm suction combined are enough to make your eyes roll back, and your spine arches up beneath him when he drags his tongue in a circle over the sensitive bud.
âShit,â you groan. Your hands fist in the fabric of his shirt, and it feels like your only tether to reality.
Itâs easy to believe itâs the waiting, the anticipation of this moment, that makes every little touch light you up like a live wire now. But something tells you it will always feel like this.
While his lips shift to your other breast, one hand slides down to cup your clothed pussy, rubbing gentle friction into your center. You circle your hips to press yourself against the flat of his palm, sighing at the brush of indirect contact and the heat that thrums through you from the pressure on your clit.
You feel Jiminâs weight shift on the mattress as he kneels next to you, and his lips find yours again at the same time his hand slips into your leggings, two fingers tracing the seam of your panties to make you whine softly. If he couldnât tell before, he must be able to now: how wet you are, enough to drench the lacy fabric so it clings to your cunt, dripping arousal to show how badly you want him.
Heâs surprisingly forceful when he tugs the damp fabric to the side, but so gentle again as he slips one finger and then a second into your tight heat. Your mouth drops open as he curls them up to rub at your g-spot, stroking into you over and over while your cunt squeezes tight around him.
Your head drops back on the pillow and you groan. âOh, fuck, Jimin.â
You can hear how soaked your pussy is as he pumps into you, and the wet squelch of his fingers working inside you would make you shy if it didnât feel so overwhelmingly perfect. The pleasure edges your breathing with soft sounds, and Jimin swallows them when he kisses you again.
He shifts slightly for a better angle and then you feel the heel of his palm grind down against your clit. Itâs enough to make your hips buck up under him with every press of his hand, his insistent touch shooting sparks of arousal through you.
Itâs been so long since anyone has touched you, and youâve wanted this with him so badly for so long, but even still, it surprises you how quickly he can bring you to the edge.
âJimin,â you break the kiss to gasp against his mouth, unable to believe how close you already are. Close enough that all you can do is cling, to any part of him you can reach: his hair, his shoulders, the fabric of his shirt. âJimin, Jimin, fuck.â
âLook so fuckinâ good like this,â he groans, and he says the next part softer, like itâs just for him. âMy girl looks so pretty on my fingers.â
The pace of his movements doesnât falter, nor does the heavy weight of his palm as he ducks down to capture your nipple in his mouth again. Your pussy pulses around him, sucking him in to the last knuckle with each thrust of his hand, and your nails dig desperately into his forearm as you feel your orgasm crest.
His teeth graze lightly over the tight bud of your breast, and itâs enough. With a final whine, the arousal thatâs been coiling inside you snaps, and your back arches up off the bed as you come hard on his fingers.
Jiminâs fingers keep stroking you through it, the flat of his palm rubbing rough circles against your clit again and again and again and it feels like you might never stop coming. You moan as it rolls over you, wave after wave, until his touch is so overwhelming that you have to pull your trembling thighs together, and he finally relents.
Spent, your body sinks heavy into the bed, and you canât help the dazed giggle that flutters out as afterglow starts to bloom behind your ribs.
Jimin hovers over you, dropped down onto his forearms, full lips pressing indiscriminately to your flushed skin, all over. You snake a hand through his hair to pull his mouth up to yours, and he kisses you slow and deep.
When you break apart, you tip your forehead to his. âCan I touch you?â you ask, still a little breathless.
âPlease,â he murmurs, lips brushing against yours again before he pulls away with a small, embarrassed smile. âMy pants hurt.â
You sit up on your knees and he does too, and you bite down on your lip as you reach for the hem of his shirt. He helps you pull it over his head, and then there he is, beautiful as ever. Familiar, yet somehow all new.
Jimin shivers and whines when your hands run across the bare skin of his chest, teasing over his soft brown nipples before starting to trace a path down to his stomach. You lean in to kiss him, and he outright groans into your mouth when your fingertips tease along the band of his boxers that peeks out over his jeans. You gently bring your palms to his hips to guide him, and heâs pliant for you, shifting backwards at your suggestion until heâs seated, leaned back against the headboard.
Your hands shake slightly as you unbutton and push down his jeans, and you hear him exhale a ragged sigh of relief. Heâs so hard, you can understand why the tight denim must have been painful: his dick is still straining even now, a thick outline pressed into the fabric of his underwear, and thereâs a dark patch that clings to his tip where heâs started to leak precum.
You tug his boxers down with enough force that his length smacks heavy against his stomach, and he makes a strangled noise in response, eyes squeezing shut. His hips jerk violently beneath you, and your jaw goes slack as you watch his cock twitch, and keep twitching, until a steady pool of milky gloss has leaked out over his stomach.
âShit,â Jimin hisses as he comes practically untouched, and he gasps for air to try to speak. âFuck fuck fuckâ âmsorry, thought I couldââ
You can see him starting to spiral, can feel the panic starting to heat up inside his body, so you take his face in both of your hands. âJimin.â
âThis has never happened beforeâ fuck, I donâtâ this is soââ
âJimin.â When you say his name again, firmer this time, he goes quiet, his eyes still shut tight. âLook at me,â you murmur, and he does, lashes slow-blinking open. âItâs okay. Okay?â Your gaze searches his, trying to convince him. âI like everything about you. Everything you do. Youâre perfect.â
Clearly trying to steady his breathing, his chest shudders with effort, and you gently circle your thumb at the hinge of his jaw. He makes a soft noise as his eyelids drop shut again, his cheek pressing into your hand, letting you carry a little bit more of his weight.
Itâs quiet for a moment, and his voice is unsure when he speaks. âThereâs tissues⊠in theââ
âCan I take care of it?â you interrupt to ask, your voice low. His eyes blink open again to look at you, and a dark glint flickers there as the unsaid meaning of your question washes over him.
âY-yeah.â
You take your time moving down the bed to settle between Jiminâs thighs, and you stare up at him, waiting for any indication that he wants you to stop or doesnât feel comfortable. But he just swallows hard, his adamâs apple jerking in his throat, and nods.
Leaning down, you drag your tongue in steady, long strokes over the flat plane of his stomach to lick the mess up.
As you get the last of it, youâre surprised to feel his hand cup the back of your head. You donât resist when he pulls you up for a kiss, then licks into your mouth to taste himself, the salt and slick of his cum sliding between your tongues.
When you break apart to swallow, Jiminâs voice is a whisper. âThat okay?â
You nod, unable to bite back your smile. âYouâre⊠really fucking hot.â
He smirks as he finds your lips again. âSo are you.â The next kiss is sweeter, and then he pulls back. âIf you want, we can keepâ or I can go downâ I donât wantââ He canât finish any of his half-started thoughts, and you smile, lovingly running your palms over his thighs, back and forth.Â
You want him so badly, more than anything, but you try to breathe through it. You can see the wheels spinning in his head, that self-critical flash in his eyes, the same furrow in his brow that creases when he gets frustrated with himself.
âIâm not saying no because I donât want you,â you preface. âBut I just donât want you to feel stressed or get in your head about it. I want it to feel good, and Iâm in no rush. Next time, okay?âÂ
His lips are still a little pouted, but he nods, and you lean in to sling your arms around his neck. âCâmere.â
You tug him down to the mattress, and your half-naked bodies fit together like puzzle pieces, hands tracing gentle patterns over bare skin as you kiss.
When you eventually end up with your cheek pressed to his chest, you listen to the sound of his heartbeat settling, his breathing evening out. You speak softly in the quiet of his room. âMy roommateâs doing an exhibition on Friday. Will you come with me? Iâve been promised there will be free booze.â
Jimin tightens his grip on your waist, his voice slurring like heâs half-asleep. âMmm, my favorite person and my favorite thing.â Thereâs a pause, and he sighs. âThat sounded bad. Promise I'm not an alcoholic.â
âI know,â you laugh, dragging your lips over his collarbone, then grunting a little noise of frustration as reality starts to set in. âI have class early tomorrow. I should go before I fall asleep here.â
He whines his disapproval, but when you glance up you can see the fight going out of him, his eyelids starting to flutter closed. You lean up for one, two, three more kisses before you force yourself out of bed to find your bra and your shirt. âIâll see you Friday?â
âMmkay.â He inhales deep, like heâs coming up for air. âText me when you make it home safe?â
âI will,â you promise, and you do.
~*~
Namjoonâs exhibition is laughably fancy for what really just ends up being a room full of gay, overdressed art students. The ridiculous finger foods disappear in minutesâ all the broke grad school kids came hungryâ but you and Jimin gladly hover around the table of champagne flutes instead, giggles sparkling between you like the bubbles that fizz in your glasses.
Youâve been trying to drag him away to actually take in the art, but he keeps necking his drinks. âYouâre supposed to sip it, you demon!â you chide with a laugh as he does it again, picking up a fresh glass and throwing all of it back in one gulp.
He smirks slightly as he shakes his head. âItâs more fun this way. Try it.â
You roll your eyes, hiding the grin that threatens to stretch over your face in the rim of your drink before following suit. Heâs not wrong: a rush of warmth creeps up your neck as you swallow, the world softening around you, and itâs made sweeter by the kiss Jimin leans in for. When he pulls back you can see his face is flushing, too.
âCome on, Mr. Park,â you murmur, your free hand intertwining with his as you set the empty glass down and retrieve another. âTake me on a tour.â
Jimin grabs another flute too and then youâre off, and he actually manages to drink this one slowly as you weave through the gallery, the click of your footsteps underscoring the gentle classical music that floats through the speakers. You lean into Jimin in comfortable silence as you take in each art piece, sipping delicately at your champagne, occasionally hooking your chin over his shoulder just for the thrill of being close to him.
âThese are all beautiful,â he hums appreciatively as you stand in front of a wide, impressionist landscape, swirls of color that shift into shapes when you step far enough away, but dissolve into unidentifiable blobs of thick-textured paint up close. âNamjoon did a really good job curating.â
âMm-hmm,â you nod, but your eyes are on Jimin and everything else pales in comparison. Heâs dressed up for the occasion, tight black jeans and a white button-down with a leather jacket thrown on over top. His hair is styled, pretty pink strands pushed back off his forehead, and his asymmetrical silver earrings glimmer in the low lighting. The result is so stunning youâve had a hard time focusing on anything but him tonight.
A thought thatâs been running through your mind all evening resurfaces again as you swallow the last of your glass of champagne.
âThey should put you in a gallery.â You didnât necessarily plan to say the thought out loud, but say it you do. Jimin quirks an eyebrow and you decide to double down. âBut not here. Somewhere better.â
âThe Met?â he guesses, teasing.
âThe Louvre,â you counter, and he outright laughs, his head tipping back.
âThe Louvre?!â
âYou heard me,â you giggle, your body pressed against his side. âYouâre art.â
Releasing your hand, he wraps his free arm around you to pull you into his chest, the smile still lingering over his face. âAnd you,â he murmurs, âare drunk.â
âDoesnât mean I donât mean it.â Your voice is muffled slightly as you speak into his collarbone.
You tilt your head up for a kiss, and it seems to surprise both of you how quickly the atmosphere changes. It might be the more-than-several glasses of champagne to blame, or the fact that youâve found yourselves in a corner, hidden away from the rest of the exhibitionâs patrons, but the soft spark that ignites between you quickly grows into a licking flame at the touch of your lips. Itâs heat-blush passion as your mouths move against each other, and youâre trying to keep quiet despite the weight of it, heavy in your core, this shared, unspoken need.
âJimin,â you breathe into him, overwhelmed by all that he is.
He shifts, nosing at your jawline as he speaks into your ear. âDo you want to go somewhere?â
The suggestion makes you a little unsteady on your feet, your high heels threatening to topple over, and he catches you with a hand to your waist when you falter. âLike, somewhere here?â
âToo far to go all the way home,â he purrs, the hand on your body squeezing gently. âAnd you look too good.â
Your head swims as he kisses you again, and he pries the empty glass out of your hand, setting it down on the nearest table with his. A hand returns to the small of your back, then slips lower, cupping your ass through the fabric of your black dress. His mouth paints a smile over yours, and you grab his wrist. âFollow me.â
Stumbling your way through the gallery, trading laughs under your breath like confidants and kisses when no one is looking, you lead him back to the coat check closet at the front, thankfully left vacant by whichever freshman had been roped in to the thankless job. With a final glance over your shoulder to make sure youâre unseen, you push the door open and tug Jimin inside after you.
As soon as the coat check door closes again, he has you pressed against it, his tongue slipping hungrily into your mouth. His hands skirt up the curve of your hips as he slots a thigh between your legs, firmly pushing up the hem of your dress to grind into your clothed center.
You both freeze where you are at the sound of a moan, one that very distinctly does not come from either of you.
Jimin tries and fails to suppress a nervous laugh. Unable to make out anything in the dark, you reach your hand out, smacking aimlessly at the wall next to you until you find a lightswitch and flip it on.
âWhat the fuââ The man who made the noise in question flings a hand over his face at the sudden intrusive wash of fluorescents, but youâd know him from his voice alone. Kim Taehyung still has one hand gripped tight to the metal bar of a coat rack, back arched and legs spread for whoever his latest victim is, with his pants and boxers shoved down to his ankles.
Before your alcohol-soaked brain can put together a smug comment about how Taehyung needs to get his ass eaten at home like a normal human, Jiminâs voice surprises you.
âHobi?â
You clap a hand over your mouth as you realize the man on his knees, pulling his tongue off Taehyungâs rim with a look of utter confusion, is none other than Jung Hoseok. His eyes are wide as dinner plates as his head snaps up to take the two of you in.
âJimin?!â
âOh my god.â You start to laugh so hard your knees buckle, and Jimin has to wrap his arms around you to keep you upright. âHow the fuck did you two even meet?!â
âDo we really need to have this discussion now?!â Taehyung growls, and it only makes you laugh harder.
âCome on, come onââ Jimin is collapsing into giggles himself as he fumbles for the handle behind you. He simultaneously attempts to pull you off the door so he can swing it open. âLetâs leave them to it.â
You smack the lights off again as you make your escape, Jiminâs grip still hugging tight around your waist as you laugh until your lungs nearly give out. The lobby is thankfully empty, all the attendees pressed deeper into the gallery, so you loop your arms over his shoulders as you recover and pull his mouth back down to yours, unable to stop yourself.
âLet me take you home,â you manage to say in the space between kisses. Your tongue feels heavy when you speak; his is champagne-sweet. âJoon and Yoongi will be here for a while.â
Jiminâs agreement hums, buzzing on your lips. âWanna take the train?â
Youâre grateful the subway car you stumble into is empty, because the pull of Jiminâs mouth is too magnetic to be ignored. You donât think you could stop kissing him if you tried.
Itâs practically a race back to your apartment once you emerge from the station, partially to get out of the cold night air, though you hardly feel it with Jiminâs jacket slung over your shoulders and your body flushed hot from alcohol and desire. As you climb the four flights to your walk-up, both of you giggling and gripping tight to the banister, the spiral of the stairs sends your world spinning. You feel dizzy-drunk on wine and laughter and lust alike, and maybe something more. Something you donât have words for yet.
It takes you three tries to get your keys in the door, and when you finally manage to get it open, you kick your shoes off and make a beeline for your bedroom, dragging Jimin along after you, hand-in-hand. Thankfully he has the foresight to remember to shut the door behind you, because all you can think about is him: the rich musk of his cologne, the taste of his tongue, the warm blush of his skin under your palms.
The leather jacket hits the floor and you step over it, walking backwards as he licks into your open mouth, shameless.
You nearly fall over when you bump up against the bed and almost lose your balance, and then you reach for the buttons of his shirt at the same time he goes for your dress. The two of you laugh your frustrations against each other as your arms tangle and get in the way.
âYou first!â you insist, and he relents, lets you unbutton the starched white fabric of his button-down so he can shrug out of it. Your fingers move to undo his belt and then he takes over, impressively coordinated enough to be able to kiss you while kicking his jeans the rest of the way off, stripped down now to his black boxer-briefs. He pulls your dress up over your head, and then your barely-clothed bodies press together all the way down, the ache in your core now an undeniable throb.
Jimin takes your face in his hands and kisses you again, and you slip one hand between your hips and his to palm at him, earning an appreciative hiss. You rub at him over the front of his briefs, teasing, then dip your touch beneath his waistband.
His cock hangs heavy between his legs, but heâs not quite hard yet, maybe from the cold, so you take him in your hand and start to pump. For fear of too much dry friction you try to go slow, and he groans into your mouth as you twist your wrist a little to circle your thumb over his frenulum.
He buries his face in your neck, and you can feel the heat of his embarrassment bloom against your skin. âSorryâ gimme a second.â
Tilting your head, you press a kiss to his temple. âDonât apologize. Dâyou wanna try laying down?â
When he nods, you release your grip on him so he can sink down onto the bed, crawling backwards up to the pillows. Knelt down on the mattress, you settle in the space he makes for you, thighs spread and knees tipped open, and you push his briefs down enough to free all of him.
You hook your thumb and index finger under the head of his dick to pull it flush against his stomach, allowing you better access to drag your tongue in little kitten licks up his shaft. Your other hand moves to massage gently at his balls as you take his tip into your mouth and let it bulge against your cheek, let him slip against the soft wall there to make saliva pool on your tongue, sloppy on purpose.
Itâs still not working, not really, and when your gaze flits up to him again, Jiminâs face is pulled into a grimace. Heat rushes up your neck, and you pull your mouth off him and immediately right yourself. You shift backwards a little on your knees as your pulse starts to race. Does he not want this? Did you misread some sign, or push him too far?
Jimin must be able to read the look in your eyes, because he groans as he presses his face into his hands. âItâs not you. Think I drank too much, I donâtâ i-it feels good, Iâit justââ
Youâre not exactly sober yourself. The receding white noise of panic makes it hard to think, hard to know what to say. âI-itâs okay. Itâs okay.â
âI justââ he tries again. âI really want to do this, I donât know whyâ itâs fucking embarrassing.â The blankets muffle the sound as his palms smack flat against the bed on either side of him in clear frustration. You move out from between his legs, still trying to catch up, and a muscle in his jaw jumps as he pulls his boxer-briefs back over himself.
âJimin,â you murmur. The bed creaks when you shift to lay next to him, to tuck into his side, and you reach up to run a hand through his hair, a little sticky with the product holding it in place. An anxious, thrumming quiet settles over both of you as his eyes flutter closed.
The words finally come to you in the silence; you can only hope theyâll reach him. âI had so much fun with you tonight. That doesnât go away.â The crease between his brows softens a little, so you keep talking. âItâs not your only chance, okay? Iâm not leaving. Iâm staying right here.â Your free hand slips into his on the bed next to you. âAnd I want you with me.â
He sniffs a little, so quiet you nearly miss it, then turns in towards you. Your noses bump together and your mouth turns up at the corners as you continue. âItâs late, and I⊠canât promise there isnât more ass-eating waiting for you at home. Do you want to sleep here?â
Jiminâs eyes blink open, glassy, and then he nods.
âCome on,â you say softly, sitting up and tugging on your still-joined hands. âHow about we shower?â
In the bathroom, you run the water scalding hot, and when you both step in you nudge Jimin forward to stand under it first, then press against him from behind. Your hands wrap around his waist to slide over his stomach as you tilt up to reach his ear when you speak. âThis okay?â
He nods, hums a little, and you move your hands up over the whole of his body. Hard lines and soft curves, a work of art you know so well, you can see it when you close your eyes as you map his skin with your fingertips. You nuzzle into the place where his neck and shoulder meet, then press a kiss there. âIâm right here,â you say again, not even sure if he hears you.
But his head turns, and you feel one of his hands slide over yours on his chest. âWill you wash my hair?â he asks softly, and you tip forward to bring your mouth to his, convinced youâd do anything he asked of you.
Itâs intimate, the way you take your time running shampoo and then conditioner through his silky pink strands, dragging your nails over his scalp and applying gentle pressure that makes him sigh prettily in response. Jimin steps further under the showerhead both times to rinse the product out, and if a few tears slip down his cheeks, theyâre lost to the spray of the water where you canât tell the difference.
But he does manage the ghost of a smile when you reach to grab your washcloth and he gets there first. âYour turn.â
Once your body and then his are scrubbed and rinsed clean, you shut the water off and grab thick, fluffy towels that you dry off and wrap up in. In the dim light of your room, you pull on an oversized t-shirt and boyshorts, then dig out a pair of sweatpants from your dresser. Theyâre fairly baggy on you, but they fit Jimin perfectly, and the image of him in something of yours makes your heart squeeze tight in your chest.
You run two glasses under the kitchen tap that you set out to ward off any potential hangovers, and you even manage to find a spare toothbrush for him to use. When he emerges from the bathroom again, still absentmindedly toweling his damp hair, youâre sitting on the bed with your feet tucked under you.
âDo you want to watch something?â you offer gently.
He shakes his head as he stifles a yawn. ââMtired. Think I just wanna sleep.â
You pat the bedspread next to you, an invitation. âThen letâs sleep.â
Under the covers, you curl up together, soft and warm from the shower, scented lavender and mint from your body wash and toothpaste. Jiminâs legs tangle with yours, an arm wrapping over your waist, and you press your cheek against the hard plane of his chest with a small sigh.
You listen as his breathing slows, each inhale a little further apart from the last, to the point where you think heâs fallen asleep. You feel yourself start to follow after him, and the last thing you hear before youâre dragged all the way down is Jimin inhaling deep, then mumbling softly into your hair. âThank you. For everything.â
~*~
Light streams in between the cracks of the window blinds, painting warm shapes over your eyelids that gently wake you. You sigh and stretch as you slowly come all the way up from dreaming, your eyes still heavy-lidded. When you roll over with a soft grunt, you find Jimin fast asleep there, his face smushed into the pillow, one arm slung lazily over you.
The corner of your mouth pulls up, and you have to fight the urge to dot kisses all over his face, deciding to let him sleep instead. It takes some maneuvering, but you manage to roll out from under his arm without waking him and slip quietly out of bed, easing the bedroom door closed behind you.
Itâs early, and the apartment is still, washed in morning gleam and the gentle hum of New York City traffic on the streets outside.
You stumble into the kitchen with a stifled yawn, swinging open the fridge and leaning down to retrieve a pack of bacon and the half-empty carton of eggs. Humming quietly to yourself, you dig a pan out and set it on the stove to heat.
Arms slide around your waist, making you jump a little before you melt back as Jimin nuzzles into the crook of your neck. You can feel his body through your t-shirt, still warm from sleep and bedsheets he mustâve only just crawled out from under.
Not quite graceful, you turn in his arms and loop yours around his neck to seek a kiss. âGood morning,â you murmur, your voice hoarse on your first spoken words of the day. âHow are you feeling?â
Jiminâs mouth is still slurred from waking up when he answers. ââMgood. You look good.â His gaze roams down your body and back up, as if to take in your oversized shirt, your bare legs, your hair still messy from sleep. âSo cute like this.â
You scrunch your nose slightly as you smile up at him. âWant breakfast?â
A heat starts to pool between your legs as his hands slide further down your back. He pushes your shirt up so he can grip your ass, the thin fabric of your underwear the only thing separating his skin from yours.
âIn a bit.â
You canât help but squeak when, in one swift move, he bends his knees and lifts you off the ground. Impulsively, your legs spread to wrap over his hips, thighs squeezing tight to hold on, and your arms cling around his neck as laughter flutters in your chest. Before you can act on the urge to bury your face in his shoulder, his mouth finds yours again, and the way he kisses you, hungry and deep, makes nothing else in the world matter.
He carries you back to bed, nudging open the door he didnât quite close all the way with his shoulder, then using a foot to push it shut again. Your muscles unclench when he sits down with you in his lap, and you unwrap your legs from around him, your knees sinking soft into the bed.
You canât quite shake the thoughts of the night before. âJimin,â you start, âwe donât have to do this if you donâtââ
âWant to,â his voice is low, ragged edges from sleep. âDoing it âcause I want to. I want you. Do you want me?â
You nod, leaning back to look at him, your arms still twined over his neck. âMore than anything.â
Thereâs no rush this time as he shifts backwards up the bed and you crawl over him to settle into his lap again. No tension thatâs been building all night, no alcohol buzzing in your systems, no urgency. Just your bodies, half-dressed in sleep clothes, intertwining like they were made to fit together.
Your kisses are sweet and unhurried as Jiminâs hands slip beneath your oversized t-shirt, delicate fingers tracing up your waist. He cups your breasts in his palms, squeezing gently as he licks into your mouth. When he rolls a nipple between his fingers, your breath hitches, sparks of arousal shooting all the way down to your toes. A weight blossoms in your core as you reach for the hem of your shirt to pull it over your head, and you shiver a little in the morning air.
âBeautiful,â Jimin says quietly, reverently, and you take his face in your hands.
âYou are too,â you murmur, your eyes searching his. âSo beautiful.â Your hands slip down his body as he kisses you again, your fingertips outlining the contours of his chest, gently brushing over his nipples to make him groan into your mouth.
Jiminâs hands come to rest at the curve of your hips as your mouths move together, where he teases his touch under the band of your boyshorts. He pulls back just far enough to ask, âCan I take these off?â and you nod.
You shimmy the thin fabric down your thighs, dropping onto your ass with a laugh so he can tug them the rest of the way off, one ankle at a time. As you sit up on your knees again, his hands come to grip your thighs, and he shifts lower on the bed until heâs laying flat on his back next to you.
âWanna eat you out,â he murmurs softly.
âYeah?â You bite down on a small smile.
He hums. âCan Iâ will you please, uh⊠sit on my face?â
You canât help but giggle. No one has ever asked so politely. âYeah, okay.â
Itâs slow, languid, the way his full lips close delicately around your clit when you settle over him, how he alternates with lazy passes of his tongue, not unlike the way he kisses you. The pleasure pulls your spine arched and your head tips back, palms pressing flat to the bed beneath you.
âJimin,â you gasp, âbaby, feels so fucking good.â
His tongue is heavy as it drags down your folds, thick when he sinks it into your cunt to taste the slick arousal that pours out of you and drips down his chin. Your hips rock into his mouth, his nose inadvertently bumping against your clit as he licks you like he doesnât want to waste a drop. Your walls cling tight, crammed up full of him.
With a slurp and a gasp for breath, he withdraws, his tongue made hot from being buried inside of you, trailing wet warmth as he licks back up your pussy to lap at your clit again. Your arms threaten to give out when he sucks the sensitive bud into his mouth, lips pulsing an insistent rhythm that makes you moan and writhe above him.
âJimin, Jimin.â The pleasure is decadent, thick, wine and honey, made sweeter by the beautiful boy pressed between your thighs. Emotion bubbles up inside of you to twist with your pleasure, and you tighten a hand in his rose-blush hair as you moan again, nearly a sob this time, a dam breaking.
Jimin hums against you, fingertips digging into the soft skin of your thighs, like he can tell youâre at the edge without you having to say a word, and itâs enough to send you tumbling over it.
âOh fuck baby, yes, fuck.â Your toes curl tight over the bedsheets as your pussy flutters, throbs, gushes. Your vision whites out as you come hard enough to make your thighs shake, hard enough that your stomach muscles tremble with the effort of holding you up. Jiminâs mouth works you through it, tongue stroking flat and slow to coax pulse after pulse out of you, until everything melts into shaky aftershocks and your thighs clench around him, over-sensitive.
He pulls back when you start to squirm, lips smacking wetly on a final kiss to your pussy, and heat flushes your face at the sound of it. Your limbs feel heavy as lead as you slip off from on top of him and collapse down onto the mattress with a floaty sigh, your pulse still thudding brightly in your ears.
Youâre only distantly aware of the way the bed shifts as Jimin slides down next to you. You follow his touch on instinct, turning into him when he pulls you close and presses a kiss to your hairline. Heartbeat still slamming in your chest, mind hazy with morning orgasm glow, you hum contentedly as your eyes flutter open to find him palming at a thick bulge tenting hisâ well, your sweatpants.
âLooks like itâs cooperating today.â Jiminâs voice is equal parts relieved and embarrassed.
With a lazy smile, you hook a finger in his waistband, tugging playfully. âWhat do you want to do about it?â
He laughs hoarsely. âI would love to finally fuck you, if youâll have me.â
âI donât want anybody else.â The thought spills out before you can worry if itâs too soon to say it, but he just smiles and leans in to kiss you.
At Jiminâs guidance, you lay back against the pillows, a couple of which he grabs to slot under your hips. âThereâs condoms in the nightstand,â you say softly, and anticipation thrums in your chest, twinning with your still-racing pulse as you watch him retrieve one, then step out of his sweatpants to roll it on.
He climbs back onto the bed to hover over you, and your breaths come shallow into each otherâs mouths. You kiss quietly at the precipice of this moment, like youâre afraid it might not be real, a dream you could wake up from at any second.
âThank you.â Jiminâs low voice sends a ripple through you. âFor waiting for me.â
You press a hand to his cheek, your eyes trying to take all of him in at once. âIt wasnât waiting, Jimin. Really. Iâve loved every second with you. It doesnât matter what weâre doing.â
âIâm so glad I met you,â he murmurs.
The head of his cock teases your entrance, and you spread your thighs wider, pulling your legs up towards your chest. Still sensitive from your first orgasm, you canât bite back the moan that spills out of you as he sinks into your tight heat with a cock thick enough to split you open. âFuck, Jimin.â
Thereâs a pause when heâs pressed all the way in, his body covering yours, your hands clutching at the broad sweep of his back. He exhales a soft, disbelieving laugh as he looks down to see himself buried in you to the hilt. âGod, youâre so tight. Does it hurt?â
You shake your headâ youâre so soaked from his tongue and your arousal that it all just feels like melting, a pulsating heat between your legs. When he presses another kiss to your lips, he circles his hips, and you both groan at the feeling.
Jiminâs hands grip your thighs as he shifts and starts to move, starts fucking into you with long, slow strokes that make your pussy flutter, as if to urge him in deeper.
âItâs good?â he checks in again, voice tight, clearly holding himself back.
âSo good, baby,â you breathe, âplease fuck me.â A smirk flashes over his mouth at your manners, so polite when you ask to take it, and then he snaps his hips into you and you keen. âFuck, please, just like that.â
He does it again and again, hands pressing down on your thighs to keep you folded up under him as he fucks you. The angle is just right for the thick head of his cock to pound into your g-spot with every stroke, and your back arches as your walls grip tight to him.
Jimin echoes your gasps with his own, swearing under his breath as you squeeze around him. Heâs thrusting deep-deep now, and your hips shove up towards him for all of it, your thighs trembling as you take every inch. Youâre dripping down his length every time he pulls back, wet enough to soak the sheets beneath you.
The pleasure, the pressure as he fills you up is so overwhelming that your hands reach, clinging to anything they can find. A pillow, the bedsheets, the flexing muscles in his forearms. Your moans come unabashedly now, underscored by the slap of skin on skin, the thud of the bedframe knocking into the wall. âJimin, Jimin, baby.â
âYeah,â he pants, choked up like heâs close. âLove it when you say my name.â
You sit up a little, folded legs shifting to wrap over his hips, and your hands come to his face to pull his mouth down to yours. His movements stutter as you kiss him breathlessly, and the brush of your tongue over his must be just enough to make him come undone. With a grunt of effort, he thrusts hard into you one final time, and his shoulders shake as he fills up the condom.
You kiss him again and again, your lips pulled into a smile against his as you tangle a hand in his hair, made messy from sleep and sex. Jiminâs body weighs heavy on top of yours as he drops his head to your shoulder, breath coming in short heat-bursts over your collarbone.
âFuck. Been a minute.â He presses a kiss there, another to your neck, a third to your jaw. âDo you want to keep going?â
Your eyes widen at the question. âIâ can you?â
A soft flush paints color in his cheeks, and heâs suddenly a little shy. âYeah, I can. If you want. Or we can stop.â
You wrap your arms over his shoulders, your noses bumping. âI kinda felt like I was getting close again.â
He smiles. âThen let me finish what I started.â Thereâs a bit of shuffling as he moves to the edge of the bed to remove and tie up the used condom, then reaches for the box to retrieve another.
As he tears open the foil and rolls it on, you watch and consider all of him. This body that you know from every angle, that youâve studied like a textbook, that holds the boy who stepped onto the subway and changed your life and made it better. This body, made to be adored, to be respected and cherished and filled up with love. This body, chosen to be shared with you, to be held by you, to be near you.
Thatâs all you want, you realize as he rolls over, brown eyes blinking sweetly at you. This body, and all that it holds: the darkness and the light, the pain and the beauty, the soul that so perfectly fits with yours.
âTurn over for me?â he asks softly. âI want to spoon.â
This round is easier, slower, your bodies molding together, shaky from effort and sensitivity. You twist over your shoulder, tipping your head up for a kiss that turns into a shared gasp as he presses into you again. Your walls are swollen enough to be tender, and the stretch of him, the way he fills you up entirely, makes your eyes roll back.
As he starts to grind his hips into you, his hand snakes down between your thighs before you even have to ask. You hook a leg over his to allow him better access and gasp when his cock slides even deeper into you from the new angle.
âSo good,â you manage as two of his fingers work circles into your clit, matching the same slow-stroke pace. His tongue slips into your mouth, and with his cock rubbing insistently against your front wall, it doesnât take much. Pleasure overwhelms you in a hot rush as he so easily pulls you apart again.
âJimin.â Your voice is nearly a whisper, your walls starting to pulse. Your head tips back against his shoulder as he fucks and rubs you through it, his hums of encouragement buzzing through your body, your hips shuddering. âBaby, oh god.â
Jiminâs strokes start to falter, and then he goes still, your cunt aftershock-fluttering around him as he comes again, groaning your name.
A brush of daylight through the blinds makes your eyes heavy, and they drop closed as you lean into him and breathe through the comedown. You donât know how long you lay there like that until his kisses pull you back earthside, dotting over your forehead, cheeks, nose, jaw. You tilt your head up and he finally finds your lips again.
With a deep grunt of post-sex effort, he rolls over, leaning off the edge of the bed to deal with the second condom. A shiver dots up your spine at the loss of his body next to yours, and you tuck into his side when he lays down again, throwing an arm over his chest to better nuzzle into the crook of his neck. The heat of his palm makes you sigh as his hand rubs gentle circles against your back.
Something cracks open inside of you, warm like his touch, like the sunlight bleeding through the window. You can feel the rapid pace of his heartbeat under your hand, and itâs everything, all of him, that makes the words rise up in your throat, undeniable.
âJimin,â you breathe, âI lââ
A loud bang on your bedroom door makes you flinch, and you roll over with a grimace as Yoongi shouts from the other side. âIf youâre finished, just so you know, you left a fucking pan on the stove. Couldâve burnt the house down while you were in there deflowering each other.â
Your jaw drops open and Jiminâs eyes go wide, and you collapse against each other in a silent rush of laughter. Youâre surprised when Yoongiâs voice comes back, a little softer this time. âAlso I brought some bagels back from work. If you want any, better hurry before Namjoonie eats them all.â
The charged moment has passed, and the words sink back down inside of you. Making a promise to tell him soon, you wrap yourself tighter around Jiminâs side with a smile. âWhat do you think?â
He nods thoughtfully. âIâll never say no to a bagel.â
âCome on then,â you murmur, tilting up for a final hit of affection. The kiss he leaves on your lips makes your heartbeat flutter, like the shudder of a subway car.
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Yoongi fingering u till u squirrttttttt
my god, anon. i don't know what to tell you. this was supposed to be a short lil drabble like the rest and then..... that that live yoongi happened and i. uh. my brain short-circuited. the thirst for this man overtook me. i think i just wrote the nastiest porn of my whole career lmao.
so anyway uhhhhhh - HOPE YOU ENJOY đ€Ș
pairing: yoongi x reader wordcount: 4.8k DO NOT FUCKING @ ME contains: my first ever OT7 scene :') ft. an incredibly dumb conversation abt squirting, best friend's friend to lovers (? idk what else to call it lmao), squirt god min yoongi (yes that's a warning), yoongi is in his that that live outfit bc i'm a menace to society, a lil bit of edging, multiple orgasms, overstimulation, and obv. a whoooole lot of tongue and finger fucking and SQUIRTING đŠđŠđŠ
âRemember that girl I took home last night?â
You just know Taehyung is about to say something gross by the look in his eye, the way he bites down on the edge of his red solo cup as he glances around the circle of his friends.
Well, his friends and you. Thereâs a clear distinction.
A few heads nod, shoulders shrug. You brace yourself.
âFucking geyser, Iâm serious. Soaked my whole bed. I had to sleep on the couch.â
Hoseokâs loud cackle rings in your ears, and he has to cling to Jiminâs arm to stay upright, clearly already well past tipsy. âI was wondering why you were washing your sheets! Thatâs typically a once-a-year activity for you, Taehyung-ah!â
You make sure Seokjin doesnât miss the death glare that you aim in his direction. He dragged you to this stupid party, said otherwise heâd spend the whole time in the corner reading webtoons on his phone. And now you have to tolerate the absolute fuckery of his nasty friends.
He grimaces a silent apology back at you, bringing one hand up to smack Tae firmly on the back of the head.
âShe peed?!â Jungkookâs eyes are wide as he pauses with his own drink halfway to his mouth.
Everyone reacts at once: Hoseok quite literally doubles over, Taehyung fights to keep the corners of his mouth from turning up, Jimin gives an aggressive side-eye, Seokjin covers his face with his hand. Even Yoongi reacts, smiling a rare wide smile, shoulders shaking a little with laughter.
Namjoon takes the educational opportunity, clapping a hand firmly to Jungkookâs back. âDo you know what squirting is?â
You watch as Jungkookâs eyes flit across the circle. âI thought it was pee,â he admits, voice a little quieter this time.
âYou are so fucking dumb,â Jimin says, shooting Jungkook a look of utter disgust. Hoseok is literally on the floor at this point.
âItâs, uhâŠâ Namjoon makes a face as he searches for the right words. âFemale ejaculate.â
âGirl cum?â Jungkook translates.
âI donât care if it was piss, it was fucking hot,â Taehyung says as he downs the last of his drink.
âYouâre disgusting,â Seokjin says with a shake of his head as he offers a hand to help Hoseok to his feet. Taehyung sticks his tongue out, waggling it side-to-side, which just sends Hoseok right back down again with another peal of laughter.
âIâve never hooked up with a squirter,â Jungkook says softly, like heâs a little disappointed.
You open your mouth to speak up, as the only person with a vagina currently partaking in the conversation, but Yoongi beats you to it. âYou just donât know what youâre doing.â
His words surprise you for a second, but you shake it off and continue. âNot every girl can squirt. Most canât.â You shrug slightly.
âThatâs not true,â Yoongi counters, and you whip your head to look at him.
âWhat the fuck do you know, Min Yoongi?â The words leave your mouth before you can stop them. You donât know why Seokjin thought it was a good idea to bring you around his friends, when he knows you have no filter.
Yoongi raises a hand, as if to signal that heâs not trying to fight. âIâm just saying. Once you learn what to do, anyone can get there. Just takes some patience. And a lot of foreplay. But Iâve never not made a girl squirt.â
You roll your eyes. âWell, Iâve never squirted.â
It takes a moment for you to realize what youâve set yourself up for, and you have to fight the urge to clap a hand over your mouth. The same response ripples through the group a millisecond later: eyes widening, lips pursing in silent expressions of shock.
âI think I need another drinkâ should we all go?â Namjoon asks, extremely unsubtle.
Before you can scramble to even think, let alone say anything, heâs got his arms around Taehyung and Jungkookâs shoulders and is shoving them towards the kitchen. Seokjin and Jimin work together to peel Hoseok off the floor and quickly follow.
Which just leaves you, Yoongi, and a very interesting proposition.
âSo, are we doing this?â You ask bluntly.
Yoongi shrugs. âOnly if you want to.â
You shoot him a look. âDonât act all shy now, squirt god!â He exhales a soft laugh, and you gesture to the stairs. âLead the way.â
Itâs only once youâre perched on the end of his bed, eyes roving over the minimal, clean space of his room, that your nerves start to betray you. Yoongi sets his drink on the dresser next to yours, then drops down beside you.
You stare at the floor, unsure of what to do next, vaguely aware of his bent knees poking out of the large holes in his light wash jeans. He gently rests a hand on your thigh, and youâre wound up enough that you flinch at his touch.
âWe seriously donât have to do this.â
âWhy do you keep saying that?â You ask, feigning ignorance and trying to keep your voice from shaking.
âMight have something to do with the fact that this is the first one-on-one conversation weâve ever had.â
You meet his gaze, a little surprised by the open expression on his face. Youâve always seen him as so reserved. âYou donât exactly say much.â
Yoongi shrugs like he canât disagree. âHard to get a word in with those guys sometimes.â He pauses, like heâs debating whether or not to keep talking, then continues. âAnd I figured Jin was playing some long game with you, so I was trying to be respectful.â
You make a face of sheer disbelief. âWhat?! Seokjin is my best friend, Yoongi. Period, end of sentence. Itâs not like that and never has been.â
âHuh.â
Heâs quiet for a moment, and you canât read the expression on his face. You turn towards Yoongi, pulling one bent leg up on the bed to fully face him. âWhat was that noise supposed to mean?â
âThatâs just⊠interesting.â
âStop being cagey.â You drive a finger into his side and he squirms a little. âWhatâs interesting?â Does he know something about Seokjin that heâs keeping from you?
âWell, I was clearly operating under false pretenses. Otherwise I probably wouldâve acted differently around you.â
âDifferently how?â You quickly chase his vague statement, pushing him, trying to understand. Yoongi doesnât respond immediately, but the bed shifts as he mirrors your position, turning to open himself up to you. âWhat would you have done, Yoongi?â You try again, getting frustrated.
A shiver runs down your spine as he brings a hand to gently cup your jaw, his touch feather-light. His thumb strokes over your cheek and you swear your heartbeat falters.
âThis,â he says simply, his voice deeper than youâve ever heard it. And then he brings his mouth to yours.
His lips are soft and warm as they brush over yours, if a little tentative, like he expects you to pull away at any second. But the heat of his mouth ignites a spark in your belly that youâre suddenly desperate for more of.
You move your mouth against his, chasing the feeling as you bring a hand to the nape of his neck. Your fingers wind through his dark hairâ youâd noticed when he walked in the door tonight how long itâs gotten, had thought absent-mindedly to yourself that it looked good on him.
Your head spins. Min fucking Yoongi. How is this real life? Youâd honestly never thought twice about himâ just lumped him in with the rest of Seokjinâs dumb friends. Itâs starting to occur to you that maybe overlooking him was a mistake.
That suspicion is confirmed when he slips his tongue into your mouth to slide expertly over yours.
You run your other hand up his chest, fingers tracing the buttons of his overshirt, then the smooth cotton of the tank top beneath it. The wet heat of his mouth is already making you dizzy.
Yoongi brings a hand to the small of your back, moving the other from your jaw down to meet it. He shifts a little, but he doesnât break away from you, and you gasp softly into his mouth when both hands drop to your ass to pull you into his lap in one smooth motion. Your knees press into the mattress on either side of him, your hips settling on top of his.
He kisses you for a second longer, tongue stroking over yours deftly enough that you can barely suppress the whimper it works out of you. Then he finally pulls back to glance up at you. His lips are full and pink, his chest heaving with shallow breaths. The unbuttoned linen shirt heâs wearing has slipped off one shoulder, exposing smooth skin and solid muscle.
Thereâs a look on his face, mouth dropped open slightly, like he canât quite believe this is really happening. You can relate.
âStill want to do this?â Yoongi asks quietly, voice still low and a little hoarse now. His hands are pressed to your hips, thumbs tracing light patterns over the fabric of your jeans.
You can hardly find your voice to speakâ when the word comes out, itâs a whisper, and one you canât say emphatically enough. âYes.â
He tilts his head up towards you and your lips find his, needier this time. Thereâs an undeniable ache in your core now, desire spreading through you like a licking flame. Yoongiâs hands start to move over your back, dragging the hem of your shirt up, and you break away from him only for as long as it takes to peel it over your head. You press your mouth to his again before the fabric has even hit his bedroom floor.
Yoongiâs kisses are sloppier now, tongue tasting yours with added urgency, momentarily rendering you breathless. You follow his lead, hands grasping to push his overshirt down his arms, then reaching to tug at his tank top. Itâs like you canât move fast enoughâ youâre shaking a little as he leans back, raising his arms to allow you to pull it off. You feel the heat of his touch at the center of your spine, and then heâs slipping your bra off, too, everything tossed off the edge of the bed to join your shirt.
The brush of his hands over your bare skin, running up the curve from your hip to your waist, is enough to make you shiver under his palms, nipples tightening.
Yoongi licks his lips as his eyes roam appreciatively over your body, but then his gaze meets yours again, and in a way this moment of anticipation feels more intimate than anything youâve done tonight. You in his lap, both of you naked from the waist up, faces flushed with heat and want. Hovering at the precipice of something you donât have words for.
âLay down for me,â he says quietly. The darkness of his voice thrums through you.
You do as he says, thighs shaking slightly as you slide off of him and move to settle against the soft pillows with a slow inhale. You can only watch, dazed, as Yoongi gets to his feetâ you swallow hard at the sound of his belt hitting the floor. He slips out of his ripped jeans, down to just his black boxer-briefs.
When he crawls up the bed to join you, youâre transfixed by the way his silver necklaces dangle, catching the dim lamplight. He kneels to one side of you, hands coming to unbutton the fly of your jeans and push them down your thighs. You do the rest, peeling them all the way off and tossing them to the floor.
His hands slide up your thighs, one encouraging your legs apart while the other rubs gently back and forth, his touch sending sparks through you. You can feel your heartbeat at the center of your ribcage, swear you can see it in the rise and fall of your chest as you glance up at him looking down over you.
âStop me if youâre going to come, okay?â
You nod your understanding, but he must be able to read the confusion painted on your face. He shifts up the bed to lean over you, his breath ghosting along the shell of your ear.
âSave it for me, and Iâll show you what that pussy can do.â
Yoongi chases the words with a languid stripe licked up your neck, and itâs enough to make your brain short-circuit.
Never in your life has a man preemptively warned you to not come. Most of them have struggled to make it happen at all. You canât help but wonder if you really did underestimate Yoongiâs abilities.
It certainly feels that way as he continues to press hot, open-mouthed kisses down your neck and chest, bringing one hand to gently cup and massage your breast as he goes, the pad of his thumb circling your nipple. His mouth catches up to his touch, and he sucks in the bud of that breast while his hand moves to work the other just the same.
âFuck, Yoongi,â you breathe.
Everything heâs doing is intoxicating, enough that thereâs now a steady pulse emanating from between your legs. When he shifts to pull your other breast into his mouth, tongue swirling over your nipple in a way that makes you whimper and arch into him, he drops one of his legs down onto the mattress between your thighs.
You take advantage of the opportunity presented to you, thighs squeezing and hips canting up to drag your core over the smooth muscle of his leg, desperate for contact, for friction. Yoongi releases your nipple from between his teeth, giving a self-satisfied hum that you can feel buzz in his throat against your skin.
âGetting worked up already?â His words are punctuated by the kisses he trails down the valley between your breasts. âKeep going,â he urges.
Your mind is swimming with arousal, and each pass of your cunt over his thigh is enough to further dampen your now soaked-through panties. Youâre not sure how much more worked up you could get. But Yoongi is clearly determined to find your limit.
When he shifts to move his mouth further down your body, he quickly replaces the thigh youâve been grinding into with his hand, cupping over your center, his whole palm rubbing circles into the lace of your panties that make your clit twitch. You writhe under him as he sucks a mark into your hip bone, pulling sounds out of you: a mixture of heady groans at the welcome friction and soft whines at how indirect the pressure still is. You need more, moreâ you lift up to press your hips into his touch in search of relief.Â
All too quickly, the motion of his palm stills, and you canât help the strangled noise that escapes you. Both of his hands slip down your body, coming to rest at your hips, and his thumbs hook under your panties to push them down your thighs.
You fumble for a second, lifting your knees up to your chest to finish pulling your underwear over your ankles. As you fling your last article of clothing off the side of the bed and attempt to lower your legs down, youâre surprised to feel Yoongiâs hands pressing firmly into the backs of your thighs.
âStay just like that,â he instructs, and you listen, crossing your ankles and following the encouragement of his touch to keep your legs pulled up, your bare cunt fully exposed for him.
You donât know what to expect nextâ his fingers, maybe his tongueâ but itâs certainly not what he does, which is look up at you and calmly ask, âHow do you feel?â
Your answer is not a word in any language; itâs somewhere between a moan and a noise of pure frustration. Folded in half for him like this, you swear you can feel arousal starting to drip out of your pussy.
âThatâs pretty good,â Yoongi remarks, lazily bringing one hand up to encircle your ankle in his grasp, enjoying his free rein over your body as itâs offered up to him. Even that gentle touch is enough to make your cunt clench around nothing. âBut I think we can do better.â
You nod your head in a silent request as you watch him lean down onto the mattress, lowering himself to be eye-level with your pussy. âHavenât even tasted you yet.â
âPlease, Yoongi,â you gasp, and you can feel his breath over you, the heat and anticipation sending a bolt of electricity straight to your core.
âJust remember to stop me,â he warns, and then he leans forward to lick a thick stripe up your cunt. You cry out at the sensation, the wetness and warmth of his tongue sliding through your folds, and your head kicks back against the pillow as you feel his fingers gently part your inner lips for better access.
He pulls away for a fraction of a second, just long enough to hum softly and murmur âso fucking wetâ under his breath. Your hands grip the bedsheets as he dives back in with even more enthusiasm, spreading you wide open.
The heat heâs been building up in you all night is coiling devastatingly tight in your core nowâ your head is spinning, your nipples so stiff that they ache. The thought of asking him to stop, and probably soon, from how deliberately heâs eating you out, feels nearly impossible.
Yoongi seems to settle in as he falls into a pattern with his movements: lazily circling your entrance a few times before delving in and fucking you all-too-briefly with his talented tongue, enough to make your walls squeeze greedily around him. After a few more thrusts he withdraws, using a long lick to drag your collected wetness up, his tongue pressing flat and heavy. When he reaches your clit he flicks gently over the sensitive bud a few times, eventually pulling it into his mouth to suck, eliciting a loud moan from you.
âOh fuck, fuck, Yoongiââ
You swear you can feel him smiling smugly as he returns to your entrance to start again, somehow both sloppy and precise, humming a little in a way that sends a devastating wave of vibrations through you.
He keeps everything so slow itâs nearly torture, building up the tightening pressure inside of you a little more with each pass, but purposefully never staying so consistent that you tip over the edgeâ just leaving you wet enough to drown in. You canât stop the moans and whimpers he pulls out of you now, the way your hips jerk under his mouth.
Heâs fucking good at this.
You lose track of how many times he goes through the process, until youâre wound so tight with arousal you think you might burst.
âYoongi,â you whine, and he must be able to hear the change in your voice.
Yoongiâs mouth freezes, lips still wrapped around your clit. His hands move to your thighs, gently ushering your feet to return to the mattress on either side of his head, your legs still spread wide, so he can see you. He hums around you as if to ask a question, and your hips shudder beneath him.
That must be a good enough answer, because he pulls off of you, reaching up to wipe an errant strand of slick from his bottom lip. Everything about him in this moment makes your pussy throb: his mouth, nose and chin are all coated in your juices, the results of his efforts, and his pupils are blown black with lust and something that looks like determination.
You have no idea how long itâs been since you disappeared up the stairs together. Hours, maybe days. Yoongi certainly looks like he could do this forever.
âGonna come?â He murmurs, nuzzling his cheek absent-mindedly against your inner thigh as he holds your gaze.
âIââ He hasnât let you get that close yet, but you feel so fucking full, like your core isnât capable of holding onto any more pleasure. âI canât take any more,â you say, and the desperation in your own voice sounds so ridiculous to you that you let out a crazed laugh. âIâm gonna fucking die, Yoongi.â
âYeah?â Thereâs a glint in his eyes, like heâs not going to let you tap out that easily. âWhat if I do this?â
His tongue returns to your clit, but this time heâs no longer teasing. His rhythm is consistent now, lapping against you in short, deliberate strokes, over and over. You can feel every muscle in your core tensing as he works you relentlessly towards your peak.
When your back starts to arch, it takes everything in you to say his name. âYoongi,â you gasp, and he knows youâre about to come, must be able to tell by the way you start to shake underneath him. You cry out a sound thatâs nearly a sob when he pulls back quickly and everything comes to a screeching halt. Itâs like you can feel your orgasm being ripped out from under you.
âOh my god,â you whine, hips grinding down into the mattress, desperate for any possible friction. âIâm so fucking close, Yoongi, please.â
His eyes linger hungrily over your pussy, the mess heâs made of you. Keeping his touch light, he gently traces a finger over your inner lips, clearly admiring the way it makes you tremble.
âSeems like youâre ready.â
Youâd almost forgotten the point of all of this, the initial conversation in the kitchen, the fact that the man now lazily running a finger through your dripping folds is supposedly capable of making anyone squirt and that you are putting him to the test. You already believe it wholeheartedlyâ youâre just not sure youâll survive long enough to see it.
Yoongi sits up, shifting to kneel to one side of you, hands encouraging your legs to spread even wider. When he starts to speak, you try as best you can to focus on his words, dizzy as you are with overwhelming need.
âIâm gonna press pretty hard, okay? When it feels like you have to pee, push it out instead of trying to hold it in. I promise, itâs not pee.â He pauses, laughing softly to himself, then adds, âAnd if it is, honestly, I donât give a fuck.â
You look up at him, your mind reeling, and youâre not expecting it when he ducks down to kiss you. You taste yourself on his lips and tongue.
âDonât be nervous,â he murmurs as he pulls back. âJust relax and let go. Iâll go until you tell me to stop.â Your heart flutters a little behind your ribs at the softness in his voice, and you nod.
Your breath hitches as you feel Yoongiâs hand return to your center, two fingers moving down slowly to tease at your entrance. The fire in your belly ignites at the soft squelching noise he makes as he circles, just shy of entering you, dampening his digits with your juices.
Relief washes through you as he presses in, and you tip your head back on the pillow with a soft groan. Your lashes flutter as you fight to keep your eyes open, heavy-lidded with lust, to watch him at work.
âShit,â you hiss as he curls his fingers up to press against your front wall, finding your g-spot like someone who knows exactly what heâs doing. He pushes harder, falling into a steady rhythm, and the pleasure feels like a heavy weight in your gut now. A tingling sensation starts to hum through your limbs.
Youâre panting, nearly gasping for breath as he rubs against you, each thrust of his hand accompanied by the slick sounds of your cunt. Your abdomen tightens as the pressure in your core builds, and you really do feel like youâre going to burst, overflow completely.
âYoongi,â you breathe, âIâIâmâ Iâm gonnaââ
âPush,â he reminds you, and you do just that as the wave crashes over you. A release like nothing youâve ever felt before rips through you, and youâre so overcome by the feeling that it takes you a few seconds to remember to look down. Shakily tilting your head up, you see clear fluid gushing out of you each time Yoongi pulls back.
When he sees youâre watching, he withdraws entirely, bringing four soaked fingers to your clit to rub fast circles that make you moan loudly as your muscles spasm again. Without his hand there to block it, you watch as an unbroken stream of fluid rushes out of you, spraying over the sheets of his bed.
âOh my god,â you whine, and you have to tilt your head back and squeeze your eyes shut for a moment just to focus on the feeling alone. âOh my god.â
Yoongi makes a little noise of appreciation, fingers returning to your entrance, the wet sounds of your cunt now obscene as he pushes in again. âFuck yeah. So fucking sexy.â
You arch up into his touch as he resumes the firm stroking of his fingers, pounding into your g-spot, hard enough to make your legs shake. When another wave of pleasure rolls through you, you donât even have to think about it this time. Your body instinctively remembers Yoongiâs instructions, bursts of arousal shooting out of you as you moan softly with each pump of his hand.
âFuck fuck fuck fuck,â you gasp in time with his movements.
âHoly shit,â Yoongi rasps as he draws his fingers out again, and you hear him groan when he returns to your clit and easily works even more wetness out of you. âYou just keep fucking coming. Gonna soak my fucking sheets.â
You can barely process what heâs saying. âM-more, Yoongi, please.â
âYeah,â he breathes, âIâll give you more.â He adds another finger, driving the thrust of his hand deliberately into the weight at the center of your core, and the stretch only makes you come that much faster. Your pussy starts to quiver as he fucks you through it.
âYoongiiiii,â you groan, dragging out his name as you squirt again and again. He keeps alternating, fingers slipping into you and working up more, then pulling out to press his hand flat against your whole pussy, rubbing indirectly over your clit. Wetness splashes out of you in endless spurts, soaking your cunt, his hand, the bed. It feels like you're coming for hours.
âNo more, no more,â you finally gasp, and when you bring your hand to close over his wrist, Yoongi takes the cue and withdraws.
Your pussy, thighs, even the muscles in your ass are all trembling from overstimulation. As your knees drop in towards each other, you take a moment to let your eyes close, your pulse still racing. You feel absolutely spent.
You canât believe you just did that. You had no idea your body was capable of such a thing. And before you can even think to stop it, you start to laugh, bringing both hands up to cover your face.
âOh my god,â you manage to choke out between giggles, your voice muffled in your palms.
Youâre vaguely aware of the mattress shifting beside you, and when you pull your hands away, Yoongi is seated next to you, running one hand gently over your arm. âJesus, are you okay?â When you nod, he seems to relax a little.
âYeah, but holy shit,â you gasp. âI shouldâve taken you more seriously.â Your limbs feel like jello, your mind absolutely goneâ youâve officially been fingerfucked into oblivion. âI nearly died.â
âThat was fucking insane,â Yoongi admits, looking mildly dazed himself. You follow his gaze across the bedspread, and your eyes go wide.
âOh fuck, Yoongi,â you press a hand to your mouth, attempting to hold back more laughter, as you take in the extent of the damage. âYour sheets!â
A sizable wet spot has bloomed under your ass, right in the center of the bed and extending nearly half a foot down towards the end, clear as day against his gray-blue sheets.
âWhy didnât you stop me?!â
âAre you kidding?â He practically growls, free hand palming at the bulge in his briefs. âIâll take watching you gush like that any day. I can sleep on the couch, I donât give a fuck.â
It takes all the strength you can muster, given that your limbs still feel like theyâre made of lead, but you manage to roll over onto your side to face him. You catch his working hand by the wrist with yours. âThereâs always⊠my bed.â
âYeah?â A smile plays at the corner of his mouth. âThink your pussy can recover on the ride over?â
You laugh softly, glancing down at the mess heâs made of you, the lingering sheen from his mouth and your own fluids. âIâm honestly not sure. She might be out of commission.â You do your best to feign innocence when you meet his gaze again with a coy smile. âBut my throat is very available.â
Yoongi is already reaching for his jeans. âLetâs get the fuck out of here.â
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this is so fucking hot i can't-
babygirl (explicit)
genre: the most plotless porn to ever porn, aka SMUT
pairing: jungkook x reader
summary:Â your boyfriend claims the outfit was just for a tiktok - until you realize you're both very into it.
word count:Â 5k
contains: explicit sexual content ~*~*~ established relationship, jungkook is a tiktoker đ€Ș, reader is bisexual, jk wears a crop top/miniskirt/knee socks and makeup (and butterfly clips đ), EXCESSIVE use of petnames especially 'babygirl', feminization, jk is literally the "i'm soooo shyyyyy" tiktok sound, đš kink discovery/exploration/mild kink negotiations during sex đš virginity kink/role-play (they pretend jk is a virgin) đš daddy kink (reader is daddy) đš gender swap role-play including terms for genitals (they call his dick a pussy and her pussy a dick ok ??) đš praise kink and extremely filthy dirty talk, no condom use but idk assume protection bc they're dating and in lurve, also features nipple play, a blowjob, dick riding, cunnilingus, and come eating for good measure đ
A/N:Â oh hi! it's been a minute since i've written something TRULY self-indulgent (or outrageously bisexual) so it feels good to return to my brand. i am going to ask that you please please PLEASE take a long hard look at the content warnings up there ^ before you pop this bad boy open. like i really do not wanna get one single rude ask about this story because i will go fucking nuclear đ for those of y'all who are into it- i love you, and i hope you fucking enjoy because reading this back was so embarrassingly hot to me that i had to hide my face in my shirt. gahhhhhh okay BYEEEEE
oh also: THIS is the tiktok that inspired this whole thing lmfao. it gave jungkook energy and so he basically makes his own slightly different version in this fic. kbye âš
will be on AO3 soon !
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The apartment is dark when you slip back in the front door, the way Jungkook likes it.
Ceiling lights make him cranky and overwhelmed, so your path to the bedroom is painted only in warm glow- a purple LED strip, a switched-on end table lamp, the blue cast from a forgotten PlayStation controller and the swirl of the screensaver over the TV.
You drop your boots at the door, socked feet padding down the hallway.
âJK?â Itâs quiet enough to make you imagine an echo in your voice.
Youâd promised your boyfriend an evening alone tonight while you went out with friends, which meant a morning of frustrated, huffy sighs, his bottom lip taking up permanent residence jutted out from his mouth in a downturned pout. You decided to let this one run its course, because they always do with him, the dips and swells of his fickle moodsâ he knows how to right himself again if given enough time and space to complain about it first.
By the time you were hovering over the dresser to put earrings in, Jungkook had seemingly worked the issue all the way out, smiling softly with his cheek smushed against the largest of the plushies on the bed.
âThink Iâm gonna have fun tonight. Film some TikToks, maybe get a new video game.â
Youâve hardly been out an hour, so you know you should leave him to it, retrieve your wallet from the purse you forgot to switch it out ofâ the reason for the intrusionâ and let him be.
But you love him. The thrill of sharing space hasnât waned, even after nearly six months, and you want to steal a little affection before you head back to girlsâ night. You can be needy, too.
âBabe?â
At the end of the hall, the hinges of the bedroom door creak as it opens just wide enough for Jungkook to poke his head through.
âYouâre back early.â
âForgot my wallet.â
His eyes are wide and blinking, glittering black in the dim light.
âIs everything okay?â You try a few steps towards him.
âI was making a TikTok,â he mumbles, said sorely, as if itâs a justification for bad behavior. And then the door swings open all the way and you take in the rest of him.
A short, flippy miniskirt sunk low, biting into his hips. A crop top, meant to be small, but obscenely so when stretched across the broad expanse of his chest. Long black socks hiked up over his knees, white stripes at the hem starting to slip, pushed down flexing muscles in his thighs as he shifts, legs crossing, one foot pointed to toe at the floor unsurely. Heâs pretty-all-over and nervous.
âJungkook,â your laugh stutters on an exhale. âAre those my clothes?â
The small silver hoops in his earsâ those arenât newâ sway with a hesitant nod.
Youâre close enough now to see the way he sucks his lip ring into his mouth, an anxious habit. Thereâs a rosy pink wash to his cheeks, the same color kissed over his eyelids when he blinks. Lashes that were already envy-inducing made darker and longer with mascara. Gloss dabbed in the center of his full, pinched mouth. Butterfly clips twined through wavy, artfully messy hair.
âIâm sorry I didnât ask,â he says quickly, lashes fluttering when his gaze drops to the floor, staring at his socks. âI didnâtâ I swear Iâve never done this before.â
âIâm not mad, baby.â Your hands find his, clenched in unsure fists at his sides, and coax them open. âYou look so good. This is for a TikTok?â
Jungkook nods, punctuated with a squeeze of your hands. You squeeze back. âWanna see?â
His phone is on the nightstand in your room, plugged in to charge (âI was editing it on 1%â, he admits with a giggle), so you end up crowding in on his side of the bed, sharing one pillow, legs tangling together without thought. You tuck into his side, grateful for the absurdly long charging cord as you prop the phone between your bodies and press play.
At the start of the video, heâs in much more typical Jungkook attire: a baggy black t-shirt, tattoos peeking out under one sleeve, hands stuffed in the pockets of equally oversized cargo pants. Heâs barefaced, too, pushing a mock-hurt expression beneath the text caption: Babe, Iâm going out with the girls tonight.
When the beat drops, you immediately start to giggle as this skirted, made-up Jungkook takes his place, throwing up a peace sign, blowing a kiss, and at the last second, flexing his biceps as if to send a warning signal.
You press your smile into the crook of your elbow as you let the video loop once, twice more.
Jungkook opts not to watch, instead staring up at the patterns his star projector casts across the ceiling, hands folded behind his headâ but once you pause the video from looping again, you catch his eyes roaming over your face. You recognize the look from when heâs shown you certain movies, the way heâll regularly steal glances down at you on the couch curled up next to him, as if heâs seeing his favorite parts for the first time again through your eyes.
âI love it,â you announce as you place his phone on the nightstand and then roll back against his side, pushing up onto your hands. You use the vantage point of your kitten stretch to take in all of him, the long hard lines of his body, the exposed honey skin that he usually keeps hidden under shapeless black.
âWow, JK. Youâre so pretty, baby.â
Heat blooms in his cheeks, deepening the makeup there, tinting the tips of his ears pink. His feet point and flex restlessly at the end of the bed.
âDo you really think so?â Jungkook asks the question so timidlyâ itâs rare to hear him this unassured about anything.
âI mean it.â You trace a finger delicately over the hem of hisâ well, yourâ shirt, where it rests under the firm structure of his chest. His eyes drop closed as you run the whole of your palm down, admiring his duality: boyish and beautiful, defined muscles with an itty-bitty waist. âI feel like I just won the bisexual lottery.â A dreamy laugh bubbles up in him, his abs fluttering under your hand. âAnd this skirt looks so much better on you than me,â you murmur as you reach the band of it and keep going, your touch smoothing over the pleated fabric to get a good look.
A noise gets stuck in the back of Jungkookâs throat. âFuck.â He laughs like heâs gasping for breath.
You drag your gaze back up his body, and his eyes are shut tightly, crinkling at the corners for the effort. âJungkook?â
The flush in his face is now an uncontrolled burn. Heâs outright squirming, thighs flexing to cinch together, knees lifting off the bed so he can press the soles of his socks flat to fidget against the sheets. His fingertips tug at the hem of the skirt as his motions cause it to ride up, just barely. âI donât know whatâs wrong with me. Iâve been hard since I put it on. Was hoping it would go away by now.â
âBaby.â You say it softly, and you watch him untwist a little, long eyelashes flickering open again. âWhy do you want it to go away?â
âIâI donât know. Itâs weird, isnât it?â
You reach up to brush a loose strand of hair off his face, careful not to disturb the glittery clips. He chases after your hand to lean into your palm, and your thumb strokes over his cheek as he nuzzles in. A warmth has started to pool, low in your belly. âI donât think itâs weird at all. I think itâs hot.â Jungkook hiccups another laugh, attempting to hide his face between your hand and the pillow.
âCan I touch you, baby?â
The question stills him. Big moon eyes blink up at you as he nods.
When you curl your fingertips under the band of his skirt, Jungkook gasps through parted glossy lips and nearly chokes on a hard swallow. You pause, considering. Your boyfriend is far from the silent type in bed, but youâve never seen him like thisâ youâre usually the one coming apart at the seams at his filthy stream of words as he splits you open: thatâs it baby, take this cock, so fucking tight for me, god fucking damn.
âOnly if you want it,â you remind him, in case he needs to hear it.Â
âI do,â he breathes. âI reallyâ I donât know why, ahââ His sentence dissolves on another breath in when you gently scratch your nails over the curve of his hips. ââw-why Iâm so nervous.â
âItâs cute,â you admit with a giggle. You flatten your palms to slide back up the narrowing slope of his waist, smooth tanned skin shivering under your touch, until you find the hem of his crop top again. âI really like you like this, JK. All nervous and blushy. Babygirl is shy.â
The way Jungkook tips his head back on the pillow and whines at your words makes you think you might be onto something.
âDo you like it when I call you babygirl?â
He bites down on his bottom lip, hard enough to deepen the shade of it, and nods.
âTell me,â you coax, teasing at the hem of his top, encouraging him with the promise of a reward. âI wanna hear you.â
âY-yeah. I like it. Like being your cute babygirl.â
The words go straight to your core, and you throw a leg over his hip to properly straddle him, bracing your arms on either side of his head to swallow up his responding whimper in a heady, open-mouthed kiss. Jungkook answers just as fervently, tongue sliding along yours, his hands clutching at your shoulders as if to plead for more.
Heâs panting when you pull away, shuddering gasps punctuated by a moan as you suck at the underside of his jaw, a purple bruise blossoming beneath your teeth. âMy babygirl,â you echo against the hollow of his throat. âAll mine.â Your hands move eagerly, pushing the thin strip of fabric across his chest up to reveal soft brown nipples framed by the swell of his pecs. âAnd you have such pretty little tits, baby.â
You cup one in your palm, dipping down to lick a lazy circle over the nipple of the other. Jungkook full-body shivers, feet kicking softly down on the mattress, and you suck the bud between pursed lips, working gently with tongue and teeth until it hardens in your mouth.
âF-fuck,â he whines, arching up into you, fingertips dragging down the bedsheets. âFeels so good.â
You drop the stiffened peak from between your teeth, shifting to kitten lick at the other and taking advantage of the opportunity to grind down against Jungkookâs hips, already restlessly horny for this new side of him. âSo sensitive,â you purr between flicks of your tongue as Jungkook whimpers beneath you. âAre you a virgin, babygirl?â
He hiccups on a moan as you tease his other nipple to attention. âOh my god, fuck. Is it bad that thatâs hot?â
You pull away to climb back up his body and seek a kiss from his pretty pouty lips. âNot bad, baby. Youâre perfect, okay?â He makes a soft noise of acknowledgement and you gather up his chest in both hands to lovingly squeeze at his barely-there tits. âMy dream girl. Canât believe nobodyâs ever touched you like this before.â
The swirling colors of the star projector on the ceiling of your bedroom reflect back at you like galaxies in his eyesâ itâs enough to make you dizzy. The question comes out paired with a dazed, love-drunk giggle: âWould you let me fuck you, babygirl?â
Jungkookâs brow furrows slightly. âIâI donâtâIâm not ready. For anal,â he says quickly.
Coming out of the role-play a bit, you bring both hands to cradle his face between your palms, thumbs rubbing at the hinge of his jaw to encourage him to relax, to breathe. You can feel the hummingbird thrum of his heartbeat under your fingertips. âThatâs fine, baby. Not asking you to. I just said it âcause itâs hot. Weâll fuck like normal, okay?â
A shy smile returns to his face as he blinks up at you, wide-eyed, lips parted. âYeah, okay.â
âDo you want to keep going?â When he nods in your hands, you duck down to leave a kiss on the tip of his nose. âIâm so lucky, I get to fuck such a pretty girl.â
A hand slips between your bodies to tweak one of his nipples between your fingers, and Jungkook throws his head back and cries out at the feeling. His hips roll up as he squirms beneath you, and you tighten the grip of your thighs around him at the welcome friction. You can already feel that youâve soaked through your panties.
âJust, hnghââ Jungkook whimpers, wrecked and needy, jerking up towards you again when you give the same nipple another soft tug. âGo s-slow with me. Since itâs⊠my first time.â
You shift to one side and he willingly splays open for you, knees bent and legs spread wide. You can hardly hold back your own groan at the state of him: mouth full and pink, eyes heavy-lidded and black with lust. His palms are pressed innocently over the fabric of his skirt, but you can see the way heâs starting to desperately rut up into his hands.
You bite down on a devious grin. âYeah, and youâre such a good girl. I bet you kept it nice and tight for me.â
âFuuuuuck,â he whines loudly.
Teasing a hand under the hem of his skirt, youâre surprised to find nothing but smooth, bare skin all the way up. âOh, no panties?â Your gaze trails along his body from where youâve settled on the mattress between the heat of his thighs, until you find his eyes with yours. âAre you a little slut?â
Thereâs a flash of something in Jungkookâs eyes as he goes still, whimpers softening to uneven breaths. He tugs his lip ring into his mouth in that familiar way, then gives his head two quick shakes, firm enough to shift a few waves in his hair.
âNo?â You try again. âYouâre a good girl, huh? You want praise?â When he nods, you gently caress the muscles of his leg under your touch, giving a loving palmful squish to the soft skin at his inner thigh. âTalk to me, baby. Please?â
âI want praise,â he murmurs. âWanna be good for you.â
âYouâre so good, baby. Thank you for telling me.â As if in reward, your hand finds his cock, fully erect and pressed obscenely into the flimsy fabric of his skirt. He hisses when you run a finger delicately up his shaft, tracing the fat, sensitive vein there. âYou just wanted to make it easy for me, is that it?â
Jungkookâs eyes flutter closed, painted lashes nearly dusting his cheeks. âYeah. Iâm good. Your good babygirl virginââ He gasps when you wrap your hand around him for one slow pump, and itâs like your touch opens up something inside of him. ââwith the tightest fucking pussy.â His cock throbs in your palm when he says it.
The filthy words spark a licking flame in your gut and a drip between your legs. âFuck yes you are.â
You canât spend a second longer teasing himâ your free hand moves quickly to flip his skirt up over his hips and you drink him all in, hard and thick and pressed flat to his abdomen. âGod, and your pussyâs just as pretty as the rest of you, baby.â The head of his cock is slick, glossed shiny with precum, and you run your thumb along his slit as more beads up, threatening to spill over and pour down his shaft. âYouâre so wet for me. Can I eat you out, babygirl?â
âPlease,â he moans.
You lean down to drag your tongue over the tip, to lick up the sticky-sheen there. With a little noise of appreciation, you take him into your mouth, suckling at the head of his cock and enjoying the warmth and weight of it on your tongue.
Jungkook is a whimpering mess, coming undone underneath you, and he throws an arm over his face to smother needy sounds into the crook of his elbow. As much as youâd love to see his wrecked expression, something about the way he tries to hide from the pleasure is working for you: it adds to this blushy-squirmy-shy virgin babygirl thing that has your thighs sticking together with how much itâs turning you on.
âAh, that feels so fucking good,â he gasps, and you suck down more of his cock, hollowing your cheeks as you go. Heâs emboldened now, either from not having to look you in the face or from the heat of your mouth enveloping him, the firm rub of your tongue over his frenulum. âYour mouth on my pussy, on my pretty little cunt, hngh.â
The way heâs talking has you practically humping the bedsheets beneath you, slow jerks of your hips that have the added benefit of pushing his cock into the back of your throat. You gag slightly around him but refuse to let up, humming around his shaft in a wordless request for more.
âOh fuck,â Jungkook groans as you take him deeper. âFuck yes, so good, daddy.â
It takes a second for you to process the word, and then you pull off with a wet pop, swiping away strings of drool with the back of your hand. âMmmâyou want me to be daddy?â
At first he can only manage a soft whine, legs shifting restlessly over the bedsheets at the loss of contact. He nods his head, then finally whimpers his answer. âY-yeah, I want that. Please, daddy.â
âGod, youâre so hot.â You pause to press a kiss to the sharp jut of his hip bone, purring your question against the blush in his skin, glowing warm all-over. âDo you want to take daddyâs cock now, babygirl?â
Youâre already starting to strip, discarding your shirt and then your bra off the edge of the bed as he bites down on his lip and nods. âWant it so bad, daddy. Iâm ready.â
Horny enough to be nearly delirious, you both dissolve into giggles as you fight to get your jeans offâ Jungkook helps you wrestle them over your ankles, your ruined panties following in quick succession while he peels his pushed-up crop top all the way off.
You crawl up the bed to capture his mouth in another kiss, sucking on his bottom lip as you straddle yourself over his hips and take his cock in your hand.
âNice and slow, okay?â You murmur as you start to stroke him, and he nods again, head tipping back against the pillows. âWeâll stretch that pussy open. Hold my hand?â Your free hand reaches for him while the other keeps working his cock, and your fingers intertwine. âI want babygirlâs first time to be special.â
Jungkook looks at you like you hung the moon. âI fucking love you.â
With a small smile, you brush your lips lightly over his ink-dyed skin, pressing a kiss to each of his knuckles, his thumb, the back of his hand. âLove you more.â
Then you push up to hover over him, use the hand wrapped around his cock to guide him to your entrance, and start to slowly sink down.
Heâs thick enough that youâd have to take it slow at first even if he wasnât playing virgin, but youâre so slick with arousal that the stretch is only delicious. âFuck, baby,â you groan as you bottom out on him, your knees bracketing him to sink into the mattress. âHow does it feel? Doesnât hurt does it?â
âN-no,â he whimpers, hips lifting eagerly up towards you, clearly desperate for friction. ââSgood.â
âCan I move, baby?â
âPlease. Fuck me, daddy.â
âYeah, baby, youâve been so good to save it all for me. Gonna give you daddyâs cock like you deserve, my good girl.â You flatten one hand against his chest and start to move, your other hand still laced in his.Â
Jungkookâs eyes roll back in his head as you rock along his length, your pussy flooding stored-up wetness down his shaft and making an audible squelch with every stroke. You canât recall ever being this turned on in your life.
When you find the angle where his head rubs firmly over your g-spot, you gasp, squeezing his hand tight.
âShit, baby.â You start to ride him rougher, lifting your hips to bounce on his cock, right there, again and again. The pleasure makes your head spin and your mouth run wild. âYour tight little pussy takes daddyâs cock so well. Itâs gonna be a custom fit by the time Iâm done with you, made to take me whenever I want it, fuck.â
Jungkookâs whimpers have blossomed to full, airy moans, and he flattens his feet against the bed so he can buck up into you, meeting you thrust for thrust. âOh my fucking god.â
His cock twitches inside you on a particularly hard thrust, and you can tell by the way heâs fisting the bedsheets that heâs already close, his eyes crinkling at the corners as he desperately tries to hold off his orgasm. Youâre so desperate to see him come all the way undone that you canât even care to wait for yours.
âYeah,â you groan, âI can feel your pussy squeezing me, babygirl. Gonna come? I want you to. Wanna feel you come all over daddyâs big cock.â
His words slur together in a fuck-drunk rush. âOh my god, y-yeah, please fuck me, daddy, fuck me, fuck meââ His thrusts grow sloppy as he reaches his peak, and you refuse to let up, untangling from his grip so you can press both hands into the mattress to fuck him relentlessly.
âTake it, baby,â you practically growl. âBe a good girl and take this cock and come for daddy. Come for me and then suck me off.â
âDaaaaaddy,â Jungkook wails loudly and throws his head back, hips jerking violently as he comes. You can feel his cock pulse through his orgasm and the thick, warm ropes of his cum that spill out inside you with every throb of release.
You donât even get a moment to still yourself and catch your breath before he lunges: he hooks his hands under your knees and yanks you onto your side so fast that you hit the mattress with a yelp of a laugh.
âJesus, Jungkook!â His only response is to spread you open and attack your pussy with his mouth like heâs hungry for it. The flimsy miniskirt is still pushed up over his hips, so you can see the pert curve of his bare ass in the air as his tongue dives into your entrance.
Heâs clearly still too deep in post-orgasm haze to start off precise as he drinks his own cum out of you with long, sloppy licks, grunting and gasping into your pussy like breathing is an afterthought.
âOh my god,â you moan, your hips jerking against his mouth as he drags his tongue along your sensitive walls.
Once he's cleaned you out and his nose, lips and chin are all shining with slickness, he drags his tongue up through your folds to circle your clit, and three of his fingers find purchase in your cunt, replacing the loss of his cock. He starts to rock them fast and hard against your g-spot, and the mess of his cum that was fucked up too far for his mouth to reach dribbles out of you, running down his wrist, all wet and noisy as he pushes it back in again.
The pleasure is immediate and overwhelming, and when he sucks hard on your clit, arousal blooms heavy in your gut, enough to have you babbling.
âMy god, fuck, baby,â you groan, back arching off the bed and fingers twisting in the sheets. âYou got s-so fucking good at sucking cock while you wereâ hnghâ while you were saving your pussy for me, huh?â
Jungkook whines loudly, open-mouthed against your cunt, the pace of his tongue and fingers only getting more insistent.
Your orgasm starts to crest hard and fast, and you tighten a hand in his hair, knocking a few butterfly clips loose in your urgency, in how fucking close you are. When you glance down at him, just the sight of how eagerly he's working your pussy is enough to send you over the edge.
âMy pretty perfect girl,â you rasp as he pounds into you over and over, lips and tongue relentless on your clit. âPerfect pussy. Perfect mouth. So fucking good for daddy. Gonna come in your mouth, pretty girl, so you can swallow my loadâohhhh fuck, fuckââ
You cry out as your climax hits you full-force, makes your thighs shake and your toes curl and your pussy pulse around Jungkookâs fingers. It feels like youâre coming forever, in endless shuddering waves, until you start to writhe with overstimulation, and he finally pulls back when you release your grip on his hair.
You canât do anything but collapse against the mattress with your eyes closed, completely dazed, and attempt to remember how to breathe.
âHoly fuck,â you manage to gasp.
Thereâs a soft shifting sound, and then you feel the weight of Jungkook laying down next to you. Youâre both sideways, feet dangling off the edge of the bed, but you roll towards him anyway. The AC kicks on, and a shiver ghosts over the sweat thatâs gathered behind your knees as you press your cheek into his chest.
âYou really did like it?â Jungkookâs question surprises you, and you blink your eyes open and look up to take in the nervous expression on his face.
âI loved it, JK. That was so hot. I didnât even know you could get like that. All⊠sensitive and responsive. But like, shy. Oh my god. I meant it when I said I liked this side of you.â You hitch a leg over him as he pulls you closer into his side, and you continue, bringing a hand up to cup his cheek with your palm. âIâm literally bi. That means I like you as my boyfriend, or girlfriend, or anyone in between.â
You can feel the heat under your hand when he blushes. âI think I maybe want to be both, sometimes. But, agh, I donât know.â He squirms unsurely, and you brush your thumb over the line of his jaw.
âItâs okay. You donât have to know. We can figure it out.â
âThank you,â he murmurs, and then he promptly turns away from you, rolling over in an attempt to bury his face in the mattress with a soft giggle.
âHey, donât hide! Come back here,â you laugh, rolling yourself on top of him, so your bodies press together all the way down. You grind your hips against him a little to tease, jolts of stimulation jumping through your still-sensitive center, and your eyes widen.
âBaby, are youââ you glance down and confirm it, the thick outline of him pressed tight under his skirt and dripping a wet spot into the fabric. âAlready?â
Jungkook pulls his lip ring into his mouth for a second before he admits it. âAll that cocksucking stuff you were saying.â Even the tips of his ears are red now as he blushes all over. âJust⊠crazy fucking hot. It made me get hard again so fast.â His feet kick softly down on the bed. âNgh, itâs embarrassing, stop looking.â
You swallow his whimper with a gentle kiss, your tongue swiping lightly across his pouty lower lip. When you pull away, you dust a few loose strands of hair off his forehead. âDo you want to keep going?â
He nods, and you breathe a laugh.
âWell, give me a second and we can go for round two.â A hand snakes under his skirt, and you do your best to cup his ass beneath you, eventually having to settle for scratching your nails lightly over the outside of his thigh. âJust want daddyâs cock all the time now that youâre not a virgin anymore, huh?â
He outright moans into your mouth when you lean in to kiss him again, before turning his head away to mutter shyly as you lick a stripe up his neck. âGonna make me come in my fucking pants.â
âYouâre not wearing pants,â you giggle, and then you gracelessly roll off of him. âLet me just text my friends first so they know I didnât die.â
At the mention of your friends, Jungkook whines and forces a small pout as you fumble for your phone on the nightstand. âI feel bad. You were supposed to be with them tonight.â
You scoot back to sit next to him on the bed and rest one hand on his thigh as you pull up your group chat on your phone. âDonât, baby. Iâm where I wanna be.â Your hand sneaks a little higher, cupping at the firm bulge between his legs over the fabric of his skirt, and you canât help your nasty grin. âIâll just say something came up.â
âStoppppp,â he persists, grabbing a pillow to hide his face in, but you donât miss the way his cock twitches under your palm.
With the text quickly composed and sent, you drop your phone back on the side table and proceed to crawl on top of him again. He pulls his shield away to stare up at you, blinking those wide, bottomless, good girl-fuck me eyes.
Your adoration of all that he is hits you like a fucking train. âThere will be other girlsâ nights,â you murmur, eyes roaming over his beautiful face. âThereâs only one girl I need tonight.â Itâs fucking corny, half role-play and half serious, but you mean every word, and it seems to melt away some last bit of reserve in Jungkook that you couldnât quite reach before.
He blushes all over, wraps both arms around your neck, dots every inch of skin he can reach with soft, glossy-wet kisses. âLove you, love you, love you.â
âLove you more, babygirl.â
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hard liquor | myg. (m)
â” summary: your dull evening at a bar becomes hopeful when your mysterious, handsome boss min yoongi shows you the ropes on everything alcohol, but shows you much more when he ends up buried deep inside you.
â” pairing: executive boss!yoongi x employee!reader
â” genre: business!au, age gap!au (5 years), smut, pwp
â” rating: 18+
â” word count: 8k
â” warnings: alcohol consumption, teasing, explicit sexual content, pussy fondling, semi-public fingering, exhibitionism, humiliation, dry-humping, begging, titty sucking, marking, manhandling, dirty talk, elevator sex, tipsy sex (consensual), cum-eating, impregnation kink, creampie <3
â” a/n: HELLOO THIS FIC IS FINALLY HERE!! thank you endlessly to everyone whoâs patiently waited and shown support for this before it was even written, i hope it reads well!! đ„ș a million thank youâs to my wife @amourtaeâ for beta-ing!! your feedback is always appreciated <3
âOne more sangria, please.âÂ
âHavenât you had enough of those?âÂ
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concrete king. (m) jjk
part two here.
pairing. skaterboy!jk x reader genre. fluff, smut, himbo energy word count. 16.7k âŠ.donât look at me warnings. sweet summer romance, blonde!jk, brief depictions of drugs (marijuana usage), alcohol, lots of making out, messy car sex, fingering, spit kink !! (duh), light tit play, playful dirty talk, protected sex, overall cute, jungkook is a big fking dork and a softie! summary. when a cute boy in a tacky hawaiian shirt lands a trick in your honor theres no way you could ever say no to him note. thank you to @cutechim @jungkxook for indulging my thirsty rambles as well as @coepiteamare for beta reading this for me like an absolute angel âŁïž ily babes !! ps. @jjkxlaâ come get ur mans ! (i also made a bby playlist for the fic here !)
leave some feedback, send a message, tell me u love me pls u know the drill <3
The California sun beats high from itâs spot in the sky, zero clouds coming between the harsh rays that bounce off the concrete and warm up Jungkookâs body in an almost uncomfortable way. He can feel the sweat accumulating on the back of his neck, leaving the blonde strands damp with moisture, ends curling up as he ruffles his hands through them.Â
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this is how you fall in love | jjk
After years of drinking and clubbing most days of the week and leaving every gig with a different girl on his arm, Jungkook feels what itâs like to want someone with his entire being.
pairing: jungkook x f!reader
genre: rockstar au, established relationship, fluff, smut, light angst
playlist: listen here <3
warnings: not-so-linear storytelling, my attempt at writing soft giggly sex đ€, slight sub!jungkook, big dicc!jungkook, unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it folks), riding, multiple orgasms, overstimulation, creampie, brief cockwarming, hint of exhibitionism kink if you quint đ, mentions of insecurities and anxiety. i think thatâs it! lmk if i missed anything
word count: approximately 9.3k (i thought it was gonna be 11-12k at one point lol)
note: here she is, my first proper oneshot !!! the title is from jeremy zucker and chelsea cutlerâs song âthis is how you fall in loveâ lol how creative, but you should listen to it while reading this bc i feel like it sorta adds to the experience. also my first time writing smut lmao bear w me đ« anyhoo this jk in particular is so special to me i enjoyed writing this so much !! btw itâs not as edited as i would like but oh well lol
â as always, iâd appreciate any thoughts or comments you may have, and please drop a like and/or reblog if you enjoy reading âĄ
Jungkook commands the attention of every room he walks into; and just like right now, heâs basking in all the attention, all the screams of his name from dozens of girls and boys alike in this packed bar. You knew he was a charmer since you first met him, and you had known from the start that no matter how hard you try to resist, you would succumb to him eventually.
Sometimes, you feel as though he doesnât belong to youâhe canât possibly, right? Not when people are shouting along to every word falling from his lips and you are⊠well, youâre just you. Heâs destined for the world, for bigger things than just your two-bedroom apartment. Loving him is a privilege, and the thing about privileges is they can be taken away.
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sidewalk talk (3tan) | myg
title: sidewalk talkââ pairing: 3tan!yoongi x reader(f) series: masterlist | three tangerines | fireworks | house party | basketball | stay rating/genre: pg ; brotherâs best friend au, implied age gap au, ; slight angst/fluff summary: a glimpse of what happened during the last timeskip in âstay (the weekend, pt. 2)â  warnings: nothing major. just many thoughts<33, and yoongi<333 note: surprise! so technically this is an april foolâs prank bc this isnât 3tan6 !! thatâs right: this is 3tanS, the drabble before the next part :D if you havenât gotten around to three tangerines yet, i highly encourage you to read the series first since this is from the same universe :D it would make more sense! word count: 2.6k drop date: april 1st, 2022, 7:17pm est
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ââ LOVE TALK.
â i mean, i want to eat your pussy? you know, give you... oral sex? â
â PAIRING: jungkook x fem!reader.
â RATING: +18
â GENRE: smut, fluff, tiniest bit of angst.
â AU: established relationship, pwp.
â CONTENT: oral sex (f. receiving), dirty talk, praise, fingering, teeny tiniest bit of overstimulation, very inexperienced and painfully shy!oc, pussy eating enthusiast!jk.
â WORD COUNT: 3,1k.
â NOTE: this was my first request :â) i donât remember much, but it was specified that oc had to be very inexperienced and awkward, so if you donât like that, KEEP IT TO YOUR DAMN SELF. i kinda like her, i wanna protecc. OKAY KOONIGHT ANGELS~âĄ
check out my masterlist here.
Itâs your typical Sunday night-in with Jungkook; you lie in bed covered by blankets and resting on too many pillows watching whatever movie, tv-show or anime one of you chose. To be quite frank, you never pay too much attention to the anime Jungkook picks, not because he has bad taste or anything, but because everything happens so fast you canât even begin to process whatâs going on. Still, when it comes to anime, you always let Jungkook choose, no matter how many times he says you can read the descriptions and pick one yourself. You donât care if you donât understand the animes he likes, not when he canât spend more than thirty seconds without chiming in an excited commentary about it; you act as if it annoys you, of course, but sometimes you think that it is the best part of spending your Sunday nights with him.
Surprisingly, Jungkook is pretty silent tonight, but you donât question him or think too much of it because finally, finally, youâre watching an anime that you can sort of understand. This time, youâre the one who is so immersed in the story that you donât even realize youâre the only one paying attention, too focused on watching in horror how the lanky, awkward main character turns into a cynical psychopath splashing blood everywhere as he takes his revenge on every single person that ever crossed him. With your heartbeat ringing in your ears, you cover your eyes and peek through the space you left between them while you wait for the scene to be over; you were never a big fan of gore.
The bed dips next to you, distracting you for a hot second before you assume itâs just Jungkook trying to get into a more comfortable position, so you donât give it much thought and focus on the show again, but your eyes betray you once again when, out of the corner of your eye, you see Jungkook staring at you, his face slightly illuminated by the screen of his laptop.
You jump and let out a comical squeak when Jungkookâs warm hand pushes yours away from your face. One of his slender fingers lifts your chin and tilts your head, leaving you both staring at each other face to face. You look back at him with curiosity, raising your eyebrows as if to silently question his actions, but you only get the same silence and a dreamy smile in return.
âYouâre so fucking cute,â he whispers, his eyes sparkling under the artificial light.
You groan and roll your eyes at him, opting to look down at his chest in hopes he doesnât notice how quickly four words and a faint smile from him can affect you. âI was paying attention, you ass.â
"No, no, I noticed!" he says with a mischievous edge on his voice. You huff in mock offense, pouting when he leans down and press a fleeting kiss on the corner of your mouth. "But wouldn't you rather I gave you all my attention instead?"
Oh no, that's his bedroom voice.
A tiny and stubborn whimper escapes your parted lips despite you trying to suppress it. You begin to panic. You still don't get what exactly it is that Jungkook sees in you; you never got out of the shy and awkward phase from your teenage years; you still laugh, involuntarily, like a small child whenever he flirts with you; you don't know how to flirt back, even worse, you donât even know how to woo him with your best assets that took way longer to appear than they did to your friends.
You just donât get it, but no matter how you see yourself, Jungkook has always looked at you like youâre the only thing he desires.
You snap out of your thoughts when you notice him staring at your lips and you mimic his actions, looking at his parted lips before you give in to the heaviness of your eyelids, closing your eyes and waiting for him to take the first step as he always eagerly does. But seconds pass and his lips never meet yours, causing you to release the breath you were holding in and leaving you embarrassed when he kisses your cheek instead.
You open your eyes and let out another groan, this time out of pure exasperation, half-heartedly hitting his chest as he laughs at your expense.
"If you want a kiss that bad, you have to come and get it," he teases. "I'm not going to kiss you unless you do it first."
You huff, knowing damn well heâd never give in to you, so you let out a shaky breath and cup his cheeks in your hands, feeling the barely-there stubble tickling your palms. Jungkook waits patiently, staring back at you with challenging yet welcoming eyes as yours take one last look at his lips before you close them and press your lips against his in a chaste kiss.
His hands rest on your lower back and press you tightly against his hard body, moving his lips against yours and swallowing your ragged breaths. His tongue licks your bottom lip and bites down on it gently, sucking it and then licking the flesh to soothe the bite, inviting you to open your mouth for him.
He pushes your hair away from your neck and rubs your soft skin before letting his hand fall to your waist, squeezing it through your shirt and using his grip to grind your body against his. Youâre so lost in the kiss that you barely noticed when his hand moved from your waist, gasping into his mouth as his hand cups your breast and squeezes it gently.
âJungkook,â you call out his name in a whimper. âWhatâ"
"I want to make you feel good," he purrs in your ear, his hand leaving your chest and resting on your neck. You know that he is giving you time to decide whether to consent or not this time as well. "Is that okay with you? Do you want to?"
His eyes, though hooded and dark, never leave yours. Jungkook has never pressured you into doing something you donât want to, much less coercing you to do something he wants but you donât.
You nod your head and let out a small yes, closing your eyes and as he tilts your head to nuzzle his face on the crook of your neck. He breathes in your scent and presses his tongue against your skin, licking a fat stripe before closing his mouth and sucking a small, painless bruise on it. You feel your underwear sticking to your folds, you're so wet you should be ashamed.
Abruptly, Jungkook detaches himself from your neck and slams his laptop shut before pushing it away. He turns his attention back to you and pushes your inner thigh with the back of his hand to position himself between your legs, covering your body with his. His strong hands help you settle your head on the pillows, the hard bulge in his sweatpants unintentionally grinding against your crotch, making you moan at the sweet friction of the head of his cock nudging your clit.
You wonder if Jungkook can feel how wet you are. You find it embarrassing knowing your soaked panties are staining the crotch of his sweatpants, but Jungkook looks at you with so much lust that the shame turns into excitement in a matter of seconds.
He presses his forehead against yours, his eyes pleading with yours to keep looking at him. You smile, endeared by his sparkling doe eyes, but you flinch as a reflex seconds later when his hand cups your breast, kneading it softly over the fabric of the t-shirt you borrowed from his closet earlier.
"I don't want you to get nervous, alright?" You look at him and nod your head. "I want to eat you out.â
You frown at the foreign words, feeling stupid as yet again your naiveness puts you to shame. Still, Jungkook smiles and looks at you like you hung the moon just for him to see.
"I mean," he trails off as he tries to figure out what to say to make you understand better. "I want to eat your pussy? You know, give you⊠oral sex?"
Your breath gets caught in your throat at his obscene choice of words, ashamed of how much they turn you on.
You don't understand why he would want to do something like that, surely it wouldn't be pleasurable for him. "But you wonât feel good," you pout.
He gives you one of those smiles where he wrinkles his nose and his eyes sparkle. Talk about duality. "Don't worry, baby," he assures you. "You don't know how many times I've imagined how you taste," his voice gets an octave lower to leave you hanging to his every word. "How many times I jacked off thinking about how you would react when my tongue finally tastes your sweet folds and I have you at my mercy playing with your pussy however I want. I promise you, baby, it will feel just as good for me as it does for you."
If your life were an animated movie, you're sure your cheeks start comically burning in flames and your heart pounding out of your chest.
The truth is, you've only had sex with Jungkook twice, having given him your virginity after a year and a half of dating, but up until now, youâve never heard him voice out his fantasies before, let alone talk to you in such an explicit way.
"Please," you say confidently despite the tremor in your voice. "Make me feel good."
Jungkook leans into you and kisses you slowly, trailing his palm from your chest to the hem of your shirt, lifting it to reveal the warm skin of your stomach. His tongue plays with yours as his hand sneaks under the fabric of your cotton panties, his mouth swallowing the gasp you let out. His fingers collect your juices and he uses them to massage your sensitive folds.
"My sweet girl...You're dripping," he mutters against your lips and smirks when he hears you moan. He presses your foreheads together and looks down at where you unconsciously started rubbing your cunt with his hand. "You're going to like it so much," he says as the pad of his middle finger finds your clit and plays with it. "I'm going to make you cum so hard. I'm going to swallow everything your pussy gives me."
He gives you one last, long kiss before he takes his hand off your underwear, lowering himself until his head is in between your thighs. Your fingers curl on his fluffy hair to keep your hands from shaking, but when he looks at you through his eyelashes, he smiles and you instantly relax. His lips leave kisses on your inner thighs while his finger presses down on your clothed clit, barely rubbing circles on it and making you tremble even more. His eyes never leave yours as he licks the wet patch in the center of your panties before he pushes them aside to take a look at your glistening cunt.
âYou're so pretty,â he says as he drags his thumb across your slit, collecting your juices and spreading them on your folds. "So, so pretty."
The tip of his tongue licks a fat stripe on your slit, teasing your folds before closing his lips on your clit and rubbing it gently. You sigh and throw your head back against the pillows, covering your face with the inside of your arm to escape his burning gaze.
His lips leave your cunt with a popping sound and he says, "I want to see you," he murmurs against your pussy and traps your clit with his lips again, suckling on it and drawing out moans from your mouth before pulling away again. "Please show me your face."
You hesitantly move your arm away from your face but refuse to open your eyes. Still, you can feel him smiling against you and you hope he doesn't notice the gush of fluids dripping out of your pussy and wetting the sheets because you're imagining him like that.
âMy baby is always so good to me,â he praises you, calming your nerves a little. There's something about the way he holds your thighs apart, something intimate and just right. "I'm going to take your panties off now, âthat okay?"
You nod your head and let out a small yes, lifting your hips to help him slide your panties down your legs. He spreads your legs again and admires the way you shudder under his touch. "It's okay, baby," he whispers and places a kiss on your inner thigh. "It's okay, I got you."
The way he holds you, his hands steady and confident, and the sweet tone of his voice overwhelms you in both a good and bad way, but you try to relax and opt to grip the bedsheets in clenched fists. You feel stupid when hot tears escape from your closed eyes; you know you have nothing to be ashamed of, Jungkook knows that you are inexperienced because of how shy you are yet he loves you, wants you, and would never judge you.
Jungkook doesn't move at all, giving you as much time as you need to calm down. You inhale, exhale and look at him. His eyes stare back at you and don't wander anywhere else, he keeps them focused on you even when he kisses the back of your hand, taking advantage of your fists unclenching for long enough to grab your hands with his and intertwine your fingers.
âDo you want me to keep going? If you want me to stop I will,â he kisses your knuckles and looks at you tenderly. "I will not get mad. I promise."
âI want you,â your voice comes out small and you're afraid he hasn't heard you. "I want you. Please."
And just like that, Jungkookâs tongue is back on your cunt, gathering your juices and swallowing them before sucking and pulling your lips. You whine in embarrassment at the sounds that come out of his mouth when he tastes, slurps, and drinks your juices. But he doesn't give you much time to complain when his right hand leaves yours and he uses it to part your lips with his index and middle fingers, exposing your cunt to him and having him groaning at the sight of your glistening folds.
You can't hold in the sounds coming out of your mouth, moaning and crying as Jungkook gets back to devouring your soul through your pussy. You look down and whimper pathetically at how focused he looks; his eyebrows are furrowed, his eyes shut tight, and his hips thrusting against the bed as if letting him eat your pussy was the best thing that has ever happened to him. He's enjoying this almost as much as you are, alternating between sucking the juices out of your entrance, licking your velvety folds, or drawing messy figures on your clit at the perfect speed.
You feel dizzy, your body trembling as his mouth works wonders on your body, making you regret the time you pushed his head away from between your legs the second time you had sex.
Jungkook delights himself with all the juices you're gushing out, slurping and drinking it all before closing his lips around your clit and flicking his tongue from side to side as fast as he can. Your free hand grabs his hair and pulls him even closer to you, moaning loudly, and he seems to like that cause he growls and his mouth works even harder.
Tears stream down your cheeks, this time because of how good it feels. You close your eyes and you arch your back at the pleasure, squeezing his hand tightly and gasping when the tip of his middle finger prods into your hole.
He pulls away from you to say, âBreathe baby,â you do your best to relax and let out a pitiful cry. He just smiles to himself and pushes his finger in. "Feels good, hm?"
Any trace of shame leaves your body as he resumes his task on your clit, adding the stimulation of his finger curling inside you and rubbing that sweet spot only his cock has reached before. Your walls clench tightly around his finger and he lets out an airy chuckle, his breath hitting your cunt and making you whine more.
"âS so good," you whimper. âMaking me feel so good, Jungkook. âM c-cumming, ohmygod."
Jungkook doesnât stop sucking or moving his tongue on your clit for a single second, not when he can feel your pussy throbbing in his tongue and clenching around his finger. He knows you're close, he knows exactly what you look like when you start to fall apart, so he curls his finger harder and faster inside you and keeps moving his mouth on your pussy even if his jaw is begging him for a break.
You barely notice when you started to cry and try to close your legs around Jungkookâs head, but he just let go of your hand and uses his free arm to lift your legs up from behind your knees, almost bending you in half but leaving your pussy in perfect display for him to devour it until youâre crying and cumming for the first time in his mouth.
Time seems to stop for the two of you, the sound of your heavy breaths being the only thing you can hear until Jungkook gets back to sucking on your entrance and lapping at your folds, not wanting to waste a single drop of your sweet juices.
âI'm sorry,â he apologizes when you start squirming and complaining about how sensitive you are. "Pussy tastes so good."
When heâs finally satisfied, Jungkook lowers your legs and spreads them apart to position himself in between them with no ulterior motives. He grins at you as he licks his lips and sucks the remains of your juices off his fingers. Your stomach clenches and you swear if your face could get any hotter it would, so you hide it with your hands.
"Hey, don't get all shy on me now," he teases, getting up and sitting on his knees in front of you to grab your wrists with one hand and pull your hands away from your face. "Thank you for trusting me."
âThank you for loving me,â you reply and push him down with you.
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stay (3tan) (m) | myg
title: stay (the weekend, pt. 2) pairing: 3tan!yoongi x reader(f) series: masterlist | three tangerines | fireworks | house party | basketball  rating/genre: m (18+) ; fluff , smut ; brotherâs best friend au, implied age gap au summary: after almost a whole weekend of misses, you and yoongi finally hit your stride. and after almost a whole year of almosts, you finally capture those moments youâve been waiting for. warnings: cursing, choking, protected sex, penetration, more overthinking, fingering, restraints (his hands), cunnilingus, body worship, spanking, cockwarming, his hands yall donât say i didnât warn you, breast play, sl*t mentions, light slapping, âŠa mirrorâŠâŠ., a jk appearanceâŠ, min yoongi in general, does fluff count as a warning bc i think it rly should lol note: uhh. surprise? >:) happy start of minmarch ig lolol. thank you to my lovelies @sugakookittyâ @yoon2kâ and @joheunsaramâ for being amazing betas as usual and putting up w me !! :â)) and a huge thanks to everyone thatâs been encouraging and supportive along the way. this part is the biggest yet and i wanna say so much here but i will refrain. there will just be lots in the authorâs note at the end :) and yoongi? screw you for spoiling everyone way too much this time around LMAO note 2: oh! if you havenât read the rest of the three tangerines series, i highly encourage you to read those before this one! it would make more sense. drop date: march 2nd, 2022, 7:17pm est word count: 18.6k!!! HUH..
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give yourself a try | myg | teaser
pairing: yoongi x plus-sized female reader
genre: colleagues to lovers, angst, smut, mutual pining, coffee shop au
summary: Youâve got an enormous crush on Yoongi, the machine tech, and, if Jimin is to be believed, the feeling is mutual. A broken espresso machine and a snow storm are all it takes to bring everything crashing down around you. Can you put it all back together yourself? Or will you need some help?
rating: 18+ for complete work
word count: 20k+ (still in edits! this will be released as a two shot!)
teaser wc: around 1.3k :)
warnings for completed fic: frequent POV changes. reader is insecure about her body and has a lot of internalized fatphobia. depictions and conversation about mental health and insecurity. panic attacks. conversations about angsty back story that includes medical issues, infertility, and break-ups. sexual content including but not limited to: making out in public, soft dom yoongi, oral sex, unprotected penetrative sex with other birth control in place, creampie. be sure to read the complete warnings before each part!
warnings for teaser: swearing, content is lightly edited and subject to change in the final posting
notes: What a labor of love this story has been to write. Everything is kind of a dumpster fire right now and Iâve been processing some shit over the past few months, and thatâs when this story happened. It was supposed to be a 6k romp in a coffee shop with lots of crack, messy public sex, and abundant health code violations!!! And something happened and now itâs a 20k soft and feelingsy angst fic??? And like maybe the second best smut scene Iâve ever written?? Thereâs so much I want to talk about with this fic, but I want to let it speak for itself when the time comes. Itâs nerve wracking; Iâve never written anything like this before. This is also the first time Iâve written an overtly plus-sized reader, so I hope Iâve done her justice. Drop me a comment or an ask if youâd like to be on the tag list for this! Part 1 will be coming next week!
Oh!! Last thing! The title comes from a song by The 1975. Theyâre one of my favorite acts of all time; they sit on a shelf inside my heart, right next to BTS and Sufjan Stevens. Enjoy!
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Itâs already been one of those days. The holidays are always a fucking mess; busy, messy, and stressful as hell. The stretch between Christmas and New Years is the messiest of all. Your customers were typically harried, your own personal lives probably stretched thin. Equipment breaking was just whipped cream on the seasonal latte. One of the heads on the machine kept overheating, even after you tried letting off heat from the boiler by running the steam wand and the grouphead. None of it worked, it just kept getting hotter and hotter.
âY/N,â Jimin turns his head, speaking over his shoulder, âWeâve got a problem.â
You blink at him, glancing over his shoulder as he gives the pressure dial on the machine a tap.
âHuh,â you frown as you hand the customer in front of you his change, directing him to the pick up counter. No one left in line. Thatâs good. You walk over, pointed the stream wand out, and flip the lever to run it. The gaugeâs little arm doesnât move, staying stubbornly in the red. At least it had stopped rising.
âIâll make the call, use the other head for now. There are two boilers in that thing, I think. Iâll be right back.â
You step into the back storage room, pull your phone from your back pocket, and call your boss. You already know what heâs going to tell you, but you always made sure to talk to him first. Mostly because you want to make sure he knows what a pain in the ass this fucking machine was, despite his insistence that itâs top of the line.
The line rings and rings, and that fucker just wonât pick up the other line. Itâs a pity he pays so well despite being the most absent boss youâd ever worked for. It means you canât completely hate his guts.
You hang up the call and pop him a quick text:
::: machine seems to have a boiler issue, iâm calling the tech.
boss::: đ
You roll your eyes. Fucker canât answer a phone call but can send an emoji. Figures.
You poke your head out of the back room to make sure Jimin is holding his own before making the call. Thereâs a lull, heâs already finished his drink queue and is leaning against a counter, detail cleaning a portafilter. God, you could have kissed him right then and there just for that. With a little smile playing on your lips, you duck back into the back and search for the barista techâs phone number, and press call.
It only rings twice before he picks up: âYoongi Min speaking.â
Ugh, his voice is like melted chocolate, or a freshly made ganache. Dark. Velvety. Rich. You just want to dip your finger in it and suck.
âHi Yoongi, this is Y/N from KnockBox.â
âAh, I thought it might be you. Iâll make sure I actually save your number this time. I almost didnât pick up.â
Weird, he answered after two rings. Almost didnât pick up your ass. âI donât blame you for not saving it. The hope would be that I donât have to call you this often.â
âMm,â he grunts, âAnd yet, here we are. Whatâs the machine doing this time?â
âBoiler issue I think, itâs heating up and staying in the red. Wonât go down after letting steam run, nor the grouphead.â
âHm.â Yoongi is silent on the other end of the line for a moment. âDonât use it, but donât turn it off yet. Youâve got the double boiler machine right?â
âYes.â
âKeep an eye on both of them. These machines often have faulty switches that donât trip when they overheat. I can recalibrate them but thereâs enough wires and shit that I canât talk you through it.â He pauses again, and then continues with a sigh. âI can be there in two hours. I know thatâs not ideal because you close in an hour âŠâ His voice is low enough that it makes your skin tingle. Waiting for him is no problem; at least you get to look at him for a few minutes during the trade off.
âYeah, but we need a functioning machine. I have no problem waiting for you.â Cruel, ironic laughter echoes in your skull.
âThis time of year is a bullshit season for coffee, I get it. Maybe you could just wait around to let me in, and then lock the door so that it locks behind me when I leave? That way you donât have to wait on me and you can go home.â
âYeah, I think we did that last time.â
âAlright, cool, see you then, Y/N.â
âThank you so much, Yoongi. See you in a couple of hours.â
The line disconnects, and you sit with your head in your hands for a moment before heading back out to the front. Fuck. He was so attractive you can hardly stand it.
âHow was the dreamboat?â Jimin asks, trying to play it as cool as he can. His lip quirks when you throw him a look; he knows exactly how attractive you find the machine tech your boss contracts out, and he will never let you live it down.
âHe must be out at another job. He canât be here for another two hours.â You said the words as plainly as you could, not trying to give your coworker the satisfaction of seeing you squirm.
âFuck, seriously?â Jimin pushed himself off the counter and placed the portafilter on the machineâs drip tray. âYou want me to stay? I donât have class tonight.â
âNah, itâs fine, I think itâs supposed to snow,â you say, casually. Like hell if you were going to miss seeing the man whoâd haunted your dreams since youâd first had to call him. âIâll just let him in, then leave.â
âOr, hear me out, you could fuck him in the back and then let him work on the machine and leave.â
âUgh, Jimin, next to the mop bucket? Thatâs fucking disgusting.â
âAnd so is this crush youâve had on him for the past few months! Itâs so obvious even the babies have started to talk about it. Jungkook has plotting about how to get you two together since he caught you staring at Yoongiâs dump truck ass!â
âHeâs what??â Jungkook is one of the student baristas, typically an opener because most of his classes are in the afternoon.
âHe and Sarah AND Mercedes! Shit, Mercedes is about ready to put the moves on him just so you suck up your feelings and make your move to stop her.â All three of your little baby baristas are traitors?! Since when?
âThose little punks, Iâm going to make them scrub the back splash bricks with a toothbrush.â
âThatâs an empty threat and you know it. Youâd rather do it yourself.â
You pinch the bridge of your nose and sigh. You thought youâd been stone cold about this crush, that youâd been nothing but professional and courteous. Instead youâd gotten caught by four of your five coworkers. How had they even known you were staring? You were trying to be as inconspicuous as possible by doing cleaning tasks!
âDoes everyone know about this, Jimin? Is nothing sacred anymore?â
âYes. Literally everyone knows. Even regulars. The cute little old guy who brings in his newspaper every morning? Heâs asked me about it, and how could I lie to him? So he knows.â
âGod, Jimin, I get it, everyone knows.â
âSeokjin, that hot dilfy lawyer? He knows. He ships the shit out of yâall.â
âIâm going to end every single one of you.â
âHe says that when yâall get married heâll give you a discount on your wills and powers of attorney.â
You groan, âYouâre all dead to me.â
âLook, all Iâm saying is that if a guy like Seokjin can see it happening, anything can happen. You know how jaded that guy is about relationships. He wouldnât just say something like that.â Jiminâs voice is almost serious now, heâs speaking more earnestly in spite of your obvious irritation.
âOh please, Yoongi only knows I exist because of all the times Iâve had to annoy him with maintenance calls.â
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posted: 2.16.2022
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basketball (3tan) (m) | myg
title: basketball (the weekend, pt. 1) pairing: 3tan!yoongi x reader(f) series: masterlist | three tangerines | fireworks | house party rating/genre: m (18+) ; angst , smut ; brotherâs best friend au, implied age gap au summary: running into yoongi after weeks, you realize that you finally get to see him again. at least, you thought so.  warnings: cursing, tension, angst yall lmfao i am so sorry but trust the process ok, also a bunch of stuff happens in this one, protected, breast play, fingering, so much overthinking, orange yoongi is always a warning in itself, did i mention angst? note: the amount. of times. i wanted to talk about his chapter LMAO just know that itâs been ROUGH. more screaming in the authorâs note at the end but yeah. lmfao. as always, thank you to my lovely betas @lavienjinâ and @joheunsaramâ for putting up with my many drafts and for the incredible support!! :â)) note 2: if you havenât gotten around to the other three tangerines fics yet, i highly encourage you to read those first. it would make more sense! drop date: february 8th, 2022, 7:17pm est word count: 14k !
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Idiotđ [7:02pm]: Are you home?Â
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house party (3tan) | myg
title: house party pairing: 3tan!yoongi x reader(f) series: masterlist | three tangerines | fireworks rating/genre: pg ; angst ; brotherâs best friend au, implied age gap au summary: what happens at a house party. and what happens afterwards. warnings: pov switch (just one), house party, pining, alcohol consumption, cursing, timeskips, angst, i am so sorry but yeah thereâs angst again, stress, min yoongiâŠ, a brief brother appearance??, the ending :)) note: and we are onto the next part! i⊠already apologize for whatâs in here but donât hate me too too much until you read it all ok thanks :) huge thanks to @joheunsaramâ @kookskingdomâ and @sugasbabiieâ for being super last minute angel betas!!  note 2: if you havenât gotten around to the other three tangerines fics yet, i highly encourage you to read those first. it would make more sense! drop date: january 16th, 2022, 7:17pm est word count: 10k !!
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fireworks (3tan) | myg
title:fireworks pairing: 3tan!yoongi x reader(f) rating/genre: pg ; brotherâs best friend au, implied age gap au, new years ; angst summary: both you and yoongi hit up the same cul-de-sac for new years, and realizations flood in - one of them being that you really canât do fireworks. warnings: house party, pining, alcohol consumption, weed mentions, angst.. i mean yeah lol thereâs angst but donât hurt me!, fuckboi!yoongi is a warning in itself note: surprise! i got this idea while ringing in the new year (and itâs incredibly fitting since i also started 3tan on january 1st, 2021.) if you havenât gotten around to three tangerines yet, i highly encourage you to read that first since this is from the same universe :D it would make more sense! event: â
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hosted by @bangtanbathhouseâ †spaces: I5, J5, G9, H9, I9 word count: 4.1k drop date: january 3rd, 2022, 9:27pm est ℠three tangerines masterlist
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three tangerines (m) | myg
title: three tangerines pairing: yoongi x reader rating/genre: m ; smut ; brotherâs best friend au, implied age gap au summary: throughout high school, you sometimes caught glimpses of your brotherâs older friends: some of them were sweet, some of them were smart. but the one closest to him? that guy was a total f*ckboy from day one. after a foray of horrid relationships spanning years - ending with one that broke up with you for an alarming reason - you needed advice on what the hell you were doing wrong⊠and this wasnât a conversation for anyone sweet or smart. (loosely based off one part of âthe windowâ by silvershine) warnings: pov switch (just one), age gap implied, cursing, dirty talk, choking, hair pulling, thigh riding, oral (m/f rec), sl*t/wh*re mentions, spanking, size kink, hand kink, pussy slapping, penetration, protected sex, rough sex, fingering, breast play, slight ass play, daechwita yoongi should be a warning in itself.. i think thatâs it? he keeps the chains on so thereâs that, too lmao note: this is a super late birthday present for the wonderful @sketchgukâ <3 ily, teresa and i hope you have fun with this one lololol. and thank you endlessly to @taesinfernoâ @chateautaeâ and @lavienjin for being angel betas! you all mean the world to me and you know i got you if you need anything in return. note 2: ALSO.. thank you all so much for the level of interest bc that taglist was popping. i did not expect that turnout (or to laugh so much at all of your answers and screams LOL) so you gave me incredible motivation to keep writing. iâm also trying something new which you will see if you get to the end. seriously, ty ty! total word count: 12k drop date: november 16th, 2021, 7:17pm est 20/11/2021 update: also posted on ao3 04/01/2022 update: â„ masterlist
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