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Niles the sass-master (The Nanny)

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[½] these desperate times call for desperate measures…

↳ ned & chuck - desperate measures by @blacklolitarose

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Humpback Whale (Megaptera novaeangliae)

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commission work

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Something that I’ve learnt from my many years of struggling with depression is that it’s never really gone. Even at times when I feel good and healthy, I’m still always at risk of relapse. So far, I’ve experienced relapses every couple of years and one of the many reasons that happened is that I didn’t take my depression seriously enough. No one likes being mentally ill, so once depression doesn’t feel too present, I tend to ignore it. I quickly put myself under a lot of pressure, because everyone else does too, and since my depression isn’t acting up in that particular moment, I don’t feel like I have an excuse to take things easy. I feel like a liar and very disrespectful of other people’s hard work, so I push myself all the time to keep up with everyone. I don’t want to cause trouble because of something no one can see. While every single time seems still manageable to me, those situations keep stacking, until I can’t deal with the amount of stress anymore. Then I fall apart. This is a reminder to me and everyone else who’s in a similar situation: by accepting your depression and keeping it in mind, you’ll be able to live a healthier life in the long run. It’s difficult to miss out on certain things or to say “no” to friends because of something that isn’t an immediate problem. But every time you decide to take care of your needs, you will keep depression away a bit longer.

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First of all, I need to remind myself that one day I’ll see that colourful world again… However, there’s also another important depression related thing I want to talk about: changing in the eyes of other people. You often get to hear stuff like “your personality took a turn for the worse”, “you used to be so easy-going”, “in the past, you wouldn’t have reacted like that”, “you’re not the friend I once had"… and all those things make you feel horrible, because they suggest that you’re a bad person and that you choose to behave in this particular way. That’s what people see who know little about depression. Truth is, you don’t change that much. You still have the same personal values and you tell good from evil in the same way you did before. You react in a very similar way… but you react to a world that’s different from everyone else’s. Other people judge your actions with their own world in mind, but what would they do if they had to react to the world you see…? Personally, I find it very reassuring when friends let me know that despite not being able to see what I see, they understand my struggle. Being asked about my view is very helpful too - it helps people understand my actions but also helps me to discuss what’s going on and to re-evaluate the world I see. This allows me to gain a more healthy view on life and helps with recovery.

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THE HOBBIT HOUSE | simon dale / hat tip to llyod khan | s&thi instagram etc.

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Completed version of this pic. 

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Rough sketch by Glen Keane - The Little Mermaid 1989

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Cinderella & Cinderella, by Rodrigo Yborra

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“Con las manos en la masa”

Tinta, acuarela y café sobre papel #muertitosdehambre #bandidos #méxico #trescontodo

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trying to avoid responsibility like

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‘There are no women in video games!’

‘Women in video games are always sexualized!’

‘If their main outfit isn’t sexualized, their alternate costumes are!’

‘Women in sports games never wear appropriate clothes! They just wear sexy outfits!’

‘Women are always damsels in distress and never know how to fight!’

‘Women in games are never allowed to be feminine!’

‘Women can never be main characters in games!’

‘And if they are, the ratings are never good!’

‘Women in games can only be masculine, they can’t use feminine attributes to their advantage!’

‘Women are never valuable party members!’

‘Women in video games are only interested in male partners or friends!’

‘Women in video games always dress as men, but men in video games never dress as women!’

‘No one ever likes a woman in a video game!’

‘Women in video games -’

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