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Depression,anxiety,introvert

My mom wants me to be a honor roll student again. Thats not gonna happen. Because homework is a big grade and i cant do that. Why? Because im an introvert. Ontop of that im depressed. Ive also had axiety for over a year. I get anxious and depressed waking up. Remembering i have school exhausts me. I dread getting ready. I dread getting out of bed. I dread acting like im a social person. Ive acted sick to get out of school before. Why? Because i got so depressed and anxious knowing i was gonna have to interact with people i couldnt physically and mentally make myself go. My mom yells at me for asking to stay home. Because she cares. She wants me to get good grades. Get into a good highschool. Get a good job. But i cant even do my homework. She thinks im lazy. Because i get home and go on my phone. My phone relaxes me. I dont have to socialize with people if i dont want to on my phone. I can watch YouTube videos that make me forget. That im depressed, anxious, and an introvert. But im sorry mom. I cant do my homework. So i cant get good grades. Im not lazy i promise. Im just depressed. Anxious. Introverted. All three of those make me exhausted. It takes alot out of me. To go to school. Answer questions. Argue points i strongly believe in. I have a voice. Im just scared to use it. When i do use it. I get so anxious i regret anything i just said at that moment. Even if im right. My teacher. They do this thing. Theyll tell you this one point. And try and get you to agree with them. Even when they know theyre wrong. Because they want you to be able. Be able to do things that im afraid to do. Argue. Defend what i think. Have an opposing view point. But my teacher wont know. They wont know how much stress that brings me. To the teachers. That make their students read out loud. Stop! Its not fun. To panic if youre gonna get picked. If you mess up on a word. If you accidentally drift off. It fills students with so much anxiety. That its exhausting. Parents. If your kid tells you. That they have. Any type of mental illness. It being. Depression. Anxiety. Adhd. Or even them thinking. That they have an eating disorder. Drop everything. Focus on your child first. Because they could be going through alot. They’re gonna need you. To make appointments. Be there. Let them spill everything out. But dont DO NOT judge them. Dont yell at them. Dont Add negative comments. They’re working up the courage. To tell you this. Dont swat away. Their mental illnesses. Their drama. The issues bothering them. Them wonder. Worrying. That they might have an eating disorder. That you dont love them. They their friends hate them. That their partner doesn’t love them. Anyone that has a mental illness. Like anxiety. Or them just being an introvert. Might just need to be reminded. That their loved. That you care. That youre there. That theyre not alone. That liking being alone is okay. That being lonely isnt. That being not okay sometimes is normal. That being not okay all the time isnt. That its okay to see a professional. That theres help out there. That things do get better. That the end is far from now. That theyll live a long life. That theyll live to see a comet at 100. That disorders dont last forever. That its okay to be an introvert. That its not okay for the introvert in you to control you 100% of the time. That they can order that pizza. They can pay for something. Its okay to have different opinions. That they need to speak out if they disagree. That being wrong is okay. That offending people sometimes is fine. That whatever job they pick. Youll stand by them. Let them cut their hair if they want to. Let them wear what they want. Because your job as a. Parent. Friend. Teacher. Is not to shame them. For things that are fine. But to teach them. What fine and what’s not. That different is okay. Your job is to also. Look after them. Maybe even. Hear what they have to say. Their points on a subject. And oppose the subject for them. If they cant do it themselves.

Anxiety, depression, ect. Dont last forever. You can get past it. The exhaustion from. Depression. Anxiety. Being an introvert. Ect. Will fade. You wont be exhausted one day. But you gotta fight for it. And the hardest thing to fight is. Something thats a part of you. Depression. Anxiety. Being an introvert. Will always be with you but. It all depends how you take care of it. Or if you let it take care of you.

If you read til the end thank you im sorry this is such a long post i just needed to get some stuff off my chest.

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Depression sucks anxiety sucks being an introvert can suck having all 3 is absolutely exhausting

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Your religion is just an opinion, just like all the other opinions. No facts to support them.

(via onision)

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I like pineapples on pizza :3

PINEAPPLE ON PIZZA: Civil war

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Me, when I haven’t written anything in a while: Well, I guess I lost the motivation to do anything and will never write anything again. Goodbye, future career. It’s been nice knowing you.

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Awww @markiplier we're all proud of @therealjacksepticeye 💜

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Cannon

Me:oh tell me it's gonna be cannon

Friend: cannon?

Me: oh my sweet child you have things to learn

Friend: what's cannon?

Me: when two people that have been shipped finally go out because it's took them long enough

Friend: wooow

Hi I'm tumblr trash

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All I learned was that Mark owns 3.5 shirts *adds to notes*

Your fave is problematic: markiplier

- owns like 2 shirts - is the type of person to write about dicks in google docs - memes???? (not even good ones) - once compared his butt to his friend’s - scared of mannequins - cries about dogs - most likely not wearing pants right now

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Feels good to be working with watercolour again :)) thanks @markiplier, for giving me inspiration to make this. I really needed to get rid of my art block WHEW

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Why is it 

Every time I see Mark

Take photos of himself

In high places

I’m reminded of this?

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Am I too late for this? @markiplier

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did someone say tiny dark tim? because i’m here for that

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Keep calm, nothing to see here. Alright, please move along. No need to stare now. You take care, ok. Eat healthy. I’m chill. Stop it. M'kay. I’m. No. Eh…

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@markiplier don’t notice me

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What is the definition of "smol"

Not me, I am super manly man man

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your fave is problematic: crankgameplays

thinks pineapple belongs on pizza