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It would be so funny if at the end of it all, I was to return to university and actually get a degree.

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“Education gives people power to improve their conditions.”

There’s a reason these people are fucking stupid and proud of it.

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And just like that, the journey in professional services is done. I had a plan to complete to get a qualification and I was scheduled to do that this year. That didn’t happen,

I had a plan to move back to rewards and incentives. That didn’t happen.

My plan to make other teams pay for my studies to keep me interested didn’t work out. I gave it a shot and wanted to do a specific job but I was given two. The second one I don’t care about enough to continue until the end of the year.

No point in continuing drudgery work. Yes the money is helpful. But if finances can’t support me, it’s time I moved into a field that can actually help me with my dreams and making them a reality.

Whether that be journalism, tv show creation, film creation, or leadership. Definitely looking to train again.

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I am going to pass this plan. By any means necessary.

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Sometimes I wish I was a girl born into nepotism with money so I wouldn’t have to work that hard.

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Almost Over

I have two more exams to sit and then this Tumblr will be no more.

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When I turn up to the library study session without my books

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gentle soul

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I will complete my ACA qualification and move back into the rewards and incentive practice.

I will complete my ACA qualification and move back into the rewards and incentive practice.

I will complete my ACA qualification and move back into the rewards and incentive practice.

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I had a chat with my aunt today about my reluctance to give up studying because I didn’t care anymore.

I was due to complete my studies in January 2025, but because of other reasons, I’m likely to complete my studies in 2027. This bothered me a lot and I sometimes feel disappointed when I speak to friends who have already completed their studies and now have the qualification.

I know they want me to get it but sometimes I feel so ashamed that I had challenges along the way. My aunt has told me that it gives me more options and she doesn’t want me to give up as I’ve come so far.

I think I need to speak to my future boss soon and say that a move to his team is inevitable. The team that I’m currently in doesn’t prioritise my studies and I’m basically wasting away.

I need to refocus and that only comes from being in his team. I really thought throwing away my chances at gaining the qualification was the best one, but I guess not. I don’t regret it now but I might in the future.

I’m just saddened because I know what’s ahead of me. The fatigue that I constantly display won’t satisfy my future boss and I’ve grown comfortable in my current job that doesn’t have as many requirements.

I think the future of my tumblr account is basically a journey of strength and stamina. I type this exhausted for my future self but it’s probably a good thing. No one can grow in their comfort zone and maybe it’s time I got out of mine.

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Don’t give people your time if they don’t deserve it. Don’t give people your time if they don’t reciprocate it.

If they act like you’re replaceable, to them, you are. And in that case, leave. You’re a human and you’re loved or admired by someone. You don’t need people in your life who make you question where you stand.

If you have to question where you stand, then you know where you stand. No-where.

Side-note as I get sidetracked from revision.

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We believe in you.

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I’m taking it easy today.

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Hey you. How’s revision going?

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I want to feel that feeling you get when you find out you’ve passed an exam again.