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// Okay so… I’m going to post a very vague explanation of why my activity on this blog dropped off a few months ago. And most my blogs in this fandom. I’m hoping by sort of explaining a little bit of it, it’ll sort of make me feel better about things. I’m not going into detail about stuff, I am not saying names, but this has been a massive source of anxiety for me since it happened. I’d say a great majority of you that I talk to already know about it. And while it is against my way to list people in my rules page to say I refuse to interact with people who are friends with certain people, I do have the right to cut people out if they interact with people that make me uncomfortable. I will not post anything attacking anyone for what happened, even if I think that it is unfair because I didn’t do anything wrong and was low-key being gaslighted by a ‘friend’. That person gets to go on and have fun with their friends while I am too anxious to write my favorite oc in the fandom lol. And then, to make it worse Tumblr KEEPS RECOMMENDING THEIR BLOGS TO ME. This person that I didn’t block because I had HOPED they would eventually realize they were wrong and maybe try to be friends with me again. Well, fuck it. If anyone wants more detail they can IM me or w/e. I have caps and all that because I was fucking floored by all this when it happened. It was a few months ago. 

  So basically I had been talking with this person since I first started in the fandom. They seemed super sweet. We plotted on my other blogs and had some threads going. They invited me to their in-game linkshell and stuff. I played the game with them and their friends a few times. So I basically talked to them one night and everything was fine and dandy. Next morning, they sent me a message accusing me of stealing from them. Why? Because Zerah and their OC both had the Echo and left their tribes. Despite the situations being incredibly different. Despite their character leaving because something happened that they didn’t agree with and my character being attempted murdered and left for dead because he couldn’t bring himself to murder someone for his leader. The tribe in my story is basically a cult. Very very different. The ONLY things that were similar were the fact that they both had the echo and are no longer with their tribe. Personality and everything, totally different. They even accused me of stealing something a friend said in the linkshell about their character that I never even saw, which I had posted a headcanon about WAY before anyway. 

  The weird thing about this is that we had been mutuals for quite a while and even had a thread. So they must have read my about page before and never thought it. But suddenly they did? Not to mention how fundamentally different the characters are in every single way aside from them both having the echo. After talking with them about it, the agreed that they were different. Only to hours later tell me that they still didn’t believe me. They told me they didn’t want to associate with me anymore and removed me from everything. 

 I thought of Zerah before I ever even started talking with them, and even after that I was afraid to do him on Tumblr because of how fucked up his backstory is. One of my good friends on the site convinced me to try him out and even helped me out with him. 

I instantly went on hiatus because, despite literally everyone I talked to agreeing with me, I was really scared that people would believe this person because they seemed so sweet. I think they realized that they were wrong because they deleted their account and remade, they also never said anything to anyone that I know of. But I worried I wouldn’t even be able to defend myself if they did. Because like even if I know the truth, even if I know they were wrong, who would ever believe me? I was newer to the rpc. They also low-key gaslit me and seemed like they were trying to convince me I did it. Even though I didn’t. Zerah is 100% a character born from my trauma and my brain. It hurt really bad that someone would have such little respect in me. To not trust me despite being a friend. That they seemed like they were trying to convince me that I was guilty of this thing I knew that I wasn’t. 

 In a panic, I capped the entire conversation because I was terrified I would need it to defend myself. I know I did nothing wrong. Zerah is my favorite oc because he is a comfort character for me. He is a character I worked on for a long time and kept to myself out of fear of upsetting people. But it helps me work through my own issues to write him. And it just upsets me that someone was basically able to bully me away from him. I still don’t know how or why they thought this. If it was an anxiety attack or them just… deciding they didn’t want to talk to or write with me anymore and not caring at all about how much damage they did to me to cut me out. it’s literally the reason I remade roi since they were like one of my only partners there and seeing their blog made me upset. 

Update: I wrote this post a very long time ago. I don’t care about people not liking me because of this anymore so I’m just going to post it. I am also going to remake this blog and completely redo my rules and change my about to be more faithful to my original version of this character. Some people may not like the new rules. I don’t care. Zerah is one of my favorite OCs and I haven’t been able to write him. I’m finally posting this and come what may. I want to start fresh with this character. Too much baggage. Too much me not doing what I want and/or being a pushover. I’m done with it. If you have anything to say, my ask/IM is open. I’ll post a link to the new blog when I’m done. or maybe I’ll just start following people. Idk. Thanks for listening if you read all of this. It’s been a wild ride. I refuse to let these issues ruin this fandom for me. 

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So the new blog is done basically. I went pretty lazy on the theme and stuff but rewrote the entire about page to be more specific. Zerah’s age is also different and there are a few new rules. I’ll be following people over there sometime very soon. 

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// Okay so... I’m going to post a very vague explanation of why my activity on this blog dropped off a few months ago. And most my blogs in this fandom. I’m hoping by sort of explaining a little bit of it, it’ll sort of make me feel better about things. I’m not going into detail about stuff, I am not saying names, but this has been a massive source of anxiety for me since it happened. I’d say a great majority of you that I talk to already know about it. And while it is against my way to list people in my rules page to say I refuse to interact with people who are friends with certain people, I do have the right to cut people out if they interact with people that make me uncomfortable. I will not post anything attacking anyone for what happened, even if I think that it is unfair because I didn’t do anything wrong and was low-key being gaslighted by a ‘friend’. That person gets to go on and have fun with their friends while I am too anxious to write my favorite oc in the fandom lol. And then, to make it worse Tumblr KEEPS RECOMMENDING THEIR BLOGS TO ME. This person that I didn’t block because I had HOPED they would eventually realize they were wrong and maybe try to be friends with me again. Well, fuck it. If anyone wants more detail they can IM me or w/e. I have caps and all that because I was fucking floored by all this when it happened. It was a few months ago. 

  So basically I had been talking with this person since I first started in the fandom. They seemed super sweet. We plotted on my other blogs and had some threads going. They invited me to their in-game linkshell and stuff. I played the game with them and their friends a few times. So I basically talked to them one night and everything was fine and dandy. Next morning, they sent me a message accusing me of stealing from them. Why? Because Zerah and their OC both had the Echo and left their tribes. Despite the situations being incredibly different. Despite their character leaving because something happened that they didn’t agree with and my character being attempted murdered and left for dead because he couldn’t bring himself to murder someone for his leader. The tribe in my story is basically a cult. Very very different. The ONLY things that were similar were the fact that they both had the echo and are no longer with their tribe. Personality and everything, totally different. They even accused me of stealing something a friend said in the linkshell about their character that I never even saw, which I had posted a headcanon about WAY before anyway. 

  The weird thing about this is that we had been mutuals for quite a while and even had a thread. So they must have read my about page before and never thought it. But suddenly they did? Not to mention how fundamentally different the characters are in every single way aside from them both having the echo. After talking with them about it, the agreed that they were different. Only to hours later tell me that they still didn’t believe me. They told me they didn’t want to associate with me anymore and removed me from everything. 

 I thought of Zerah before I ever even started talking with them, and even after that I was afraid to do him on Tumblr because of how fucked up his backstory is. One of my good friends on the site convinced me to try him out and even helped me out with him. 

I instantly went on hiatus because, despite literally everyone I talked to agreeing with me, I was really scared that people would believe this person because they seemed so sweet. I think they realized that they were wrong because they deleted their account and remade, they also never said anything to anyone that I know of. But I worried I wouldn’t even be able to defend myself if they did. Because like even if I know the truth, even if I know they were wrong, who would ever believe me? I was newer to the rpc. They also low-key gaslit me and seemed like they were trying to convince me I did it. Even though I didn’t. Zerah is 100% a character born from my trauma and my brain. It hurt really bad that someone would have such little respect in me. To not trust me despite being a friend. That they seemed like they were trying to convince me that I was guilty of this thing I knew that I wasn’t. 

 In a panic, I capped the entire conversation because I was terrified I would need it to defend myself. I know I did nothing wrong. Zerah is my favorite oc because he is a comfort character for me. He is a character I worked on for a long time and kept to myself out of fear of upsetting people. But it helps me work through my own issues to write him. And it just upsets me that someone was basically able to bully me away from him. I still don’t know how or why they thought this. If it was an anxiety attack or them just... deciding they didn’t want to talk to or write with me anymore and not caring at all about how much damage they did to me to cut me out. it’s literally the reason I remade roi since they were like one of my only partners there and seeing their blog made me upset. 

Update: I wrote this post a very long time ago. I don’t care about people not liking me because of this anymore so I’m just going to post it. I am also going to remake this blog and completely redo my rules and change my about to be more faithful to my original version of this character. Some people may not like the new rules. I don’t care. Zerah is one of my favorite OCs and I haven’t been able to write him. I’m finally posting this and come what may. I want to start fresh with this character. Too much baggage. Too much me not doing what I want and/or being a pushover. I’m done with it. If you have anything to say, my ask/IM is open. I’ll post a link to the new blog when I’m done. or maybe I’ll just start following people. Idk. Thanks for listening if you read all of this. It’s been a wild ride. I refuse to let these issues ruin this fandom for me. 

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//If I unfollowed or softblocked you and you aren't sure why, you can send me a message and ask. I'm currently doing this to a lot of people for various reasons.

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I might post an actual rant about why I haven’t been on this blog or active in the fandom recently. But I don’t want to start anything. 

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Pale blue eyes lifted ever so slightly towards him as he speaks. His voice, such a warm tenor, overlaid upon her like a blanket, even when he wasn’t singing for her. Admitting something that she was scared, that when her mind was shattering with each rush of Light within her, it was something she refused to do around the other Scions. They would worry, make her stop, but she couldn’t. Not when she had people to protect and this world to save. Pushing herself further, it was only with Zerah’s small reassurances here and there, his presence, being near her, that she had been able to last as long as she could.

If one had asked her why he made a difference, she would have never been able to say. But it might have been something to do with how she rested against him, letting her guard down. How she wanted to see his smile with the Amaros. Now that everything was over, it was easier to be around him and not feel the need to be constantly strong.

“Nothin’ would happen to me.” She muttered softly, tilting her gaze down towards the grass instead of at him. “G’raha wouldn’t’ve let it happen, and even still.” She flickered her gaze back up, grinning enough to attempt to goad him into a smile. “I’m the strongest Hybrid ever, not a little or a lot of Light gonna change that.” Her fingers reached out slowly, finding his own to fiddle with. Something to distract her. “You…You’re not gonna lose me that easily, U’Zerah.”

The small motion for him to lean against her caused a flush of crimson to paint across the bridge of her nose, her eyes darting away purposefully now. Her hand had also stopped it’s ministrations on his fingers, instead just gently laying upon them, heart hammering. “D-dunno where that is though.” She closed her eyes forcefully, the small rush of goosebumps along her arm dismissed with a small shift against him.

“We’d have to search far and wide across both the First and the Source.” Taking in a deep breath, she could make herself relax. Zerah hadn’t done anything to warrant her panic; he was only resting. “So, you’d have to come with me and travel around. What do you think?” She couldn’t help but smile. Traveling sound too much fun. “Think you could stand m’ snoring, once…one we can go and explore on our own?”

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   A bard was meant to support his allies. Reassurance was something he was only good with in song. That’s what he believed. His own vulnerability could be a blessing and a curse. In short, maybe it was easier for Koya to feel at ease because he was so open about his own weaknesses. His own flaws that he saw as obvious. 

It always surprises him, how casually she refers to the Exarch. To think that the two were old friends. He doesn’t really understand the Exarch’s existence. The talk of time travel and moving through the rift. He got the basic concept but... It all sounded so confusing. Regardless, he nods just a little. Koya had faith in the other miqo’te so he saw little reason to doubt him. 

 “I’m glad.” He says softly. Losing Koya would be impossible for him to recover from. He would do anything to stop that from happening. If it came down to it, he’d gladly lay down his life for her. And not just because she was a hero, because she was dear to him. One of the first people he’d ever gotten close to. It still shocked him that she shared such moments with him of all people. 

  He takes a small breath, his eyes shutting as he relaxes. Her blush goes unnoticed for now. The comforting touch of her fingers remains despite being still now. It feels nice. He never realized how pleasant touch could be. How comforting. He still wasn’t used to gentle and kind touching. 

 “I’m an adventurer you know, traveling is something I enjoy.” He hums a little. “I could make all kinds of new songs, seeing new places.” He laughs quietly at her comment about snoring. Just a chuckle. “I’ve slept with worse noise, trust me. I am certain I would fair just fine.” 

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The quiet writhing of black earth beneath winter’s soundless embrace // Part 27

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“Blessed those people who manage to have a soft heart and a peaceful mind despite of the cruelty of the world.”

— (via darlingstarlets)

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//When will I get someone teaching Zerah how to read?

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/bread

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1-800-pls-don't-yell-@-me

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                                                                         FRAGILE:

                                                                HANDLE WITH CARE

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my heart is a soft & sensitive mess

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i’m ok

i’m ok

i’m ok

*starts crying*

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me @ me: um, calm down