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my dad passed away this morning

I hope now he knows how much i love him

Let my continued existence and kindness be an extension to how much of a great father he was.

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Loving a beardy-boy is an adventure. Those beards hold secrets. In Lucanis’s case, it’s a jawline that could cut glass. In my hubby’s… it’s a sudden incredible twin-like resemblance to his big sister 🤣🤌✨ (Though to his credit, he’s steadfastly kept some type of facial hair in all the 15+ years I’ve been with him. And I LOVE IT.)

Much like my Rook, either way, that’s my sweet boy 💜 (Spite just thinks beards are COOL so he’s super salty here lol)

How about y’all? #teambeard or #teamcleanshave?

Next commission will be up soon! Just needed to get goofy brainrot out of my head.

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friendly reminder that solas' goofy hat in halamshiral is the helm of the drasca, the hats an anti-imperial rebel group wore fighting against tevinter and against the orlesian empire AND possibly modified it to make his elf ears stick out too

because even if nobody catches the reference, the Rebel Wolf is committed to saying fuck you to empire

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Spite doesn't know how to style Lucanis' hair, that's my headcanon now

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Banal nadas. Ar lath ma, vhenan. Vir shiral malasa, bellanaris.

There is no fate, but the love we share, my heart. We make this journey together, always.

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I'm making myself cry and I AM going to try and write this into a fic. But lately I've been chewing on Solas's opinion towards his body.

I made a lot of points about it in a prior post, and so many people smarter than me also touched on this. But just the resentment he must feel surrounding his body?? Makes me so sad?

A body he never even wanted. A body that trapped him in the waking world. How guilty and selfish he must feel to take any kind of pleasure, especially sexual pleasure, when it caused suffering for him to manifest. He doesn't deserve to take the benefits of a body....

How he could learn to accept his body through Lavellan. Learn to let himself have pleasure with someone who doesn't expect something from him? Someone who hasn't bound him? Who just loves him?

But all of that WITH the idea that Andruil...assaulted him. As described in one of her stories. That he's a victim of SA.

That part of the reason he resents his body is because it was used against him. By Andruil for her benefit and Mythal for hers too (though by different means)

That loving Lavellan isn't just about accepting what he's become. But overcoming what was done to him. He's always giving, but through a patient Lavellan he could reclaim his sexuality that he both never let himself have and was also ripped from him.

I just...ugh HE MAKES ME SO SAD

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old stuff

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yeah im super busy but i'll be here forever <3

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Moment of solace

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Emmrich was the only one aware that rook was just a nickname 😔

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Veilguard: Everything you've done has been accounted for, everything you are is consciously by design. You are a pawn in a game far greater and longer than anyone could have seen approaching. Every choice you make is under the illusion of free will.

I truly do love how the dragon age games are just:

Origins: you're dead. You have been since the beginning. You should be by the end.

Dragon age 2: you failed and there's nothing you can do about it. You lost your home twice.

Inquisition: you're erased. You are the most important person in the world and nothing you are matters.

And it fucking slaps!!

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Weird spirits…..

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apostates

REDBUBBLE

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ok bear with me but au where felassan survives solas's murder attempt and shows up at skyhold months later and proceeds to spend inquisition psychologically tormenting him while posing as a fellow apostate

i cannot take credit for felassan's outfit, it was taken from a masked empire design by christina kraus

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dread snoot

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some sketches!

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