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( 2K RECORDS / JULY QUESTION ) How do you think others perceive you? What kind of person do you think other people think you are.

Taehyun paused for a moment, really thinking about the question. It was something he asked himself a lot but he didnt really ever come up with an answer. Partially because he was scared of what the answer might be. He knew how he wanted people to perceive him, but what he wanted and what others really thought were completely different things.

Running a hand through his hair, he sighed. “I think....people see me as the little brother type. I’m not just talking about Koemi but i think a lot of people see me like that. I think they see me as someone to have fun and goof around with. I tend to come off aloof and carefree when I first meet someone. I’m trying to mature more, honestly. I want to sort of change the way people see me. I want to be able to be someone that others can come to with real issues. Someone serious and mature. But I still want people to be able to have fun around me. Kind of contradictory, isnt it?”

Another pause as Taehyun composed his thoughts. The second question was one he was really scared of. It was one he had worked on most of his life. 

“I think....well, more like hope.... that people think i’m a good person. Someone they look up to and aspire to be. I want to be....good enough for someone to see me like that.” He gave a nervous smile.

“So, yeah. I think people see me as a good guy.”

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KOEMI BIT her lip as the younger spoke. She could rationally understand his emotions————-Taehyun was younger when Aaron first appeared in her life–in both their lives. He was impressionable, and it was clear the male left a bad imprint on the then-fifteen year old. Admittedly, his words hurt her, her heart twinging painfully in her chest, causing an outwardly reaction of fingers curling against the fabric of her shirt.

She could understand why he said what he had—-Taehyun knew more bad than good. He was there during Koemi’s tumble when they had split; her downfall in emotions and the reason for such an aggressive album to be released later in that year. She sucked in her lower lip slightly, biting the flesh as thoughts raced through her mind. 

“He’s changed,” she said again. “But you’re never going to see proof if this is how you react every time you see or think of him. You know that, Taehyun. If you look at something negatively, then all you’ll see is exactly that.” It disappointed her that she had to repeat these words——these words she had been telling him all his life—all through his growth. Through school, through friend problems, through training…It was words that always rang true, no matter the situation. “Aaron may have had a lot of issues when I first met him, and you may have seen those issues…But that doesn’t mean that’s still how he is.”

A pause. “Back then was ugly, but…There’s a reason he was gone for almost two years, Taehyun. Don’t you trust me ?”

“Of course I trust you. Its him i dont trust. I just...” He sighed, shoving his hands into his pockets. It was hard for him to think about Aaron as anything besides the guy who had hurt Koemi. Trying to give him a second chance, to even be pleasant to him, was going to be hard for him. 

“I dont want you to get hurt again. Seeing you that low? It honestly scared me. I was scared you were going to hurt yourself. I know...i know you cant kill yourself but some small part of me always thought ‘well, what if she finds a way to, what if she does?’. It terrified me. I know he means a lot to you and, sure, maybe he’s changed, but I cant let go of the past as easily. ” He paused briefly. He’d been avoiding her eyes this whole time. 

He knew if he looked at her, he would do as she asked. He always did. She mattered that much. So when he looked at her, finally, that warm brown gaze of hers that had been with him all his life, he caved. “I’ll... I’ll give him a chance. If that will make you happy, i’ll do that.”

Maybe he really was being unfair to Aaron. He had never really knows the guy personally, only through stories that Koemi had told him. Maybe getting to know the guy was the first step in forgiving him.

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NOW OFFICIALLY OPENED: 2K RECORDS

Though it has only been a little while, we finally announce the re-opening of Double Kill, but in a new jacket! There have been a lot of changes made, from the look to the name but this is all for the better! So we officially announce the opening of ‘2K Records’! Not only does this mean 2K Will have many new features, it also means that we will restart on a clean slate in order to give you a more clear picture of how everything works!

2K (Double Kill) Records Corporation (Korean: 2K 엔터테인먼트) is a South Korean entertainment company established by Kwon Byungjo in 1998. The company operates as a record label, talent agency, music production company and music publishing house. The label is on it’s way to the top as it houses popular artists and groups of various genre’s and offers a home to passionate  artists  looking  for a place to begin  their  career.

IMPORTANT: EVERYONE MUST REAPPLY!

Because we have updated many rules and have added a lot of new features, it is necessary that all our members reapply so we have their latest information and so that we can update the masterlist with solely members that are really interested in the positions they are holding. We have noticed there are positions held by members who barely show up or haven’t shown their face in a while, this will help us clean out the inactive members!

01. Go to @2krecords​ and follow the new account, we will be here from now on! 02. Check out the new features and read our updated rules! 03. Once you have read everything, find the application form and reapply! 04. Our current members are given THREE days to reapply for their position. 05. After these three days have passed, we will officially open for everyone. 06. If you are not able to apply before the third day, you can reserve your spot. 07. Make sure that you read everything because a lot has changed! 08. We will work harder to become a better and more interactive directory 09. If you have any questions, message the new blog @2krecords 10. We hope you will enjoy the new updates and will see you again!

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“It’s ok. You didn’t scare me. I was raised on horror movies so it takes a lot to scare me. I was more reacting to the outfit itself. It is a bit....you know white.” He motioned to the other’s clothes. He didn’t often see a full white outfit off of a stage. Though he did have to say, it didn’t look bad on him. He pulled it off nicely. 

"Wow, I can't believe it..." //welcome to 2k!

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ㅡ 。 he looks at the other male, confuse shimmer in his eyes. “why are you so surprised? did you actually thought I was a ghost?” fine, the full white attire maybe a little too much, but taekwon really didn’t mean to walk in the midst of the dark alleyway to hurt, or scare other people. it is not his fault that there’s a minor power outrage, and that he so happens to be passing by. “I’m sorry if I scared the crap out of you.”

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SHE BIT her lip at the confession, dark hues lowering slightly in thought.  She hadn’t told the younger the full story, and perhaps that was a good thing, but she did know that Taehyun had seen her in a moment of weakness in the past. Nevertheless, she put on a smile, trying to give a dismissive wave of the other’s thoughts. “Don’t worry too much, Taehyun,” She assured. “It’s all okay, now. You know .. He really changed and cleaned up in the year or so he was gone.”

“I don’t know if i can believe that. Or if i can trust him. Not yet. I need to see it for myself. I need the proof. He hurt you before, who’s to say he wont do it again.” In truth, he hadn’t seen Aaron in a long time. He didn’t even know if Aaron would remember him. It was brief and Taehyun hadn’t really paid attention. Besides, Aaron had been there for Koemi, not some fifteen year old sitting on the couch doing homework.

Even so, he wanted the proof. He wanted to see Aaron be good to Koemi. He needed to. If not, he knew he would never forgive Aaron for what he did.

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and all at once, every statement, every word, every thought the younger had uttered saturated. 

this had to have been some kind of sick joke, this all had to have been a setup. an expensive one, hell, he’d find some sort of comfort in this if he knew the entire world was sitting back laughing at their screens knowing that the host of the show would pop out any second. but this was no show. 

the only one laughing was whatever GOD there was out there. 

this fucking kid really had nerve enough to say that, and to his face. he was bold, there was a grin on his face      malicious and sinister, and he wanted to feed into that grin. every fiber of aaron’s being wanted to resist, to give into his old ways. a shroud of darkness wanted to envelop him,

 [ this kid has you corned. taehyun is stepping closer. he’s mocking you, he’s testing you. pass his test. ]

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Taehyun swallowed hard, his anger rising up even more. He shouldn’t shout. Don’t shout, you’ll get thrown out of the room. You make it physical, you’ll get thrown out of the hospital. But he wanted to. So badly. He wanted to yell, scream, go at.... Aaron? Maybe. But he wanted to go at someone. He wanted someone to blame and, fuck, Aaron was just such an easy target for his anger. He already didn’t like the guy. It took all he had to not lose his temper any more than he already had. He had to think of what could happen. 

To him. To Koemi. 

Koemi would likely be angry with him for yelling at Aaron like he just did anyways. He didn’t want to make her even more disappointed in him by throwing a punch. 

Not to mention something like that could end his career before it even began.

So, Taehyun took a deep breath and let it out slowly, backing up to allow Aaron to move away if he wanted. “Fine. But only for Koemi. Making things louder or even physical, which believe me, i’m this close to doing, isn’t what she needs right now.”

He rubbed his face and ran a hand through his hair aggressively, the pent up rage he was suppressing making every move hard and angry. Taehyun wanted to hurt Aaron. Wrap his hands around the  other’s throat until he stopped moving. He know he couldn’t kill him, but it would satisfy the animal part of him that wanted violence to show dominance.

A frustrated noise escaped his throat and he quickly moved away from Aaron, going back to the chair by Koemi’s bed that he’d been sitting in since she was moved to that room. Watching her simultaneously made him scared, and even angrier. Though at this point, he couldn’t tell what he was angry at. His emotions spun in a million different directions. 

He took her hand gently, strangely afraid that he would break her. She looked so fragile and he realized how small she was. Sure, he teased her about it constantly, but her presence made her feel a lot bigger than she actually was. With her unconscious like this,and the fact that she hadn’t been eating properly, she just felt....delicate. 

At that thought, the tears he didn’t know he’d been holding back since this all started began to fall from his eyes. His thoughts were a mess. Most of them focused on Koemi, what had happened, how he should have known or gotten there sooner and hoping for her to wake up. But, strangely, one was about Aaron. He shouldn’t have snapped, shouldn’t have yelled, accused, blamed. He was just so scared.

His head bowed and his shoulders shook with held back sobs, the hand holding Koemi’s tightening slightly.

“I’m sorry....”

Though, he didn’t really know who he was saying it to.

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his initial thought process was rational. 

how long had she been in here, how could he find out how she was doing, who was she with, what the hell happened? 

why didn’t she tell me?

no, no, that’s not an appropriate question. she’s your best friend, the love of your life, her emotions are strong and sudden ( A LOT LIKE YOUR OWN ), and she has a lot on her plate. suitable reasoning allowed him to take comfort in knowing that she didn’t tell him because she physically couldn’t. she didn’t want to worry him, she didn’t want the pressure of feeling like a burden for her friends     

and his fist collided with the buttons on the elevator because he couldn’t make it any more clear that she was his life, and he wanted to make sure he could do whatever was in his ability to keep it sailing smoothly. it was the first time in a year he had become physical, the first time in a while for him to act out on his emotions.

it was not the first time he had found himself apologizing to an inanimate object. 

that was a normal reaction to finding ou someone you loved was in danger. 

it wasn’t his new usual behavior. it was a buried instinct. the room was empty aside from himself, luckily. no more scenes.

a ding and the door had granted him access to the floor and he practically flew into the room. 

permission to enter was granted, but he had hardly made it in before he could catch the bits of an open threat and an accusatory finger being pointed at him. the other male had backed him into the wall, fire in his eyes and a pain he knew all too well in his voice. aaron could hardly listen, his focus was trapped in two places. koemi was strapped to the flatbed, cords and such connected to her and a paleness, not unlike the dead that would haunt him, in her face. she was tired, the proof sagged under her eyes and provided the only source of color to her skin. unmoving, silent, it was a terrible sight, and he tried to bring his attention back to the other while his mouth remained open, trying to form a response ahead of his thought process.

taehyun was yelling, he was hurt, and aaron wanted desperately to calm him down because the entire environment was becoming too much to handle. his senses were flooding and his blood was boiling, he heard one statement that floated above the rest. 

A FUCKING DRUG ADDICT, YOU DID THIS TO HER! 

he couldn’t tell if his mind was putting those words in his mouth, or if the other had really just accused him of such. shoulders tensed, lips pursed and a redness flushed to his cheeks while a whiteness graced his clenched knuckles,

“ the fuck did you say   what the fuck just came out of your mouth kid? “ 

and gone thus, the rationality. 

In some ways he felt numb. In other ways, he felt too sensitive as to what was going on around him. He stayed in the corner, out of the way of Koemi’s dad and the other hospital staff working to care for Koemi. The last thing he wanted was to get in the way. He would just wait. Wait until they were done so he could sit by her side and just....wait. 

That was all he could do. Wait. 

Taehyun went on his phone from time to time, distracting himself, checking the news, seeing if there were any well wishes. Anything really. To get his mind off of what was happening. An overdose on painkillers. He knew she would be ok. He was just so scared.

Finding her like that, on the floor, not moving, looking dead, that was the most terrifying moment of his life. And the time he felt the most helpless. He didn’t know what had happened. If she was injured, if he could move her, if he could do CPR, nothing. He didn’t risk touching her in case it made what ever was wrong worse. His calls to the paramedics and Koemi’s dad were sort of a blur. As was the ride to the hospital. He had made the paramedics let him ride in the ambulance. He wouldn’t take no for an answer.

And now here they were. Koemi still unconscious, but stable. Him, sitting by her bedside. 

And then the person he least wanted to see walked through the door. 

He was on his feet in seconds, moving towards Aaron so fast the other had no choice but to be backed against the wall. 

“What the hell are you doing here. Why the fuck did the guards let you in? The only people that should be here right now are family. Matt is the exception because he’s her bodyguard. You shouldn’t be anywhere near Koemi right now.” Taehyun’s eyes glistened with the tears he’d wanted to release since this all began. They were just angry now. 

“You shouldn’t be here! Get out! Not after what...what you did to her! You gave her those pills didn’t you?! Of course you did! Why am I not surprised! Koemi told me about you, you know. You’re just a...a fucking drug addict! You did this to her! You did this to Koemi!”

He could see the way Aaron reacted to that. Whether it was anger or disbelief of what Taehyun had just said, he didn’t know. But some smug part of him took great satisfaction in what Aaron said to him. 

‘what the fuck just came out of your mouth kid?’

Taehyun couldn’t help but step a bit closer. He wasn’t too much taller than Aaron but he used that, a slight sneer forming on his face.

“You heard me.”

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CREEP’S  KOEMI SEEN RUSHED TO HOSPITAL.

DISCLAIMER: the contents of this post are purely fictional.

Earlier today, several eye witnesses reported seeing Koemi hastily rushed into Seoul National University Hospital, claiming she was  attached to a stretcher, unconscious and taken quickly to ICU.

It was believed that she had suffered from an overdose of prescription drugs, albeit not a high enough count to do any fatal damage. Reports from Doctor Jung Youn Soo later revealed that the girl showed signs of not eating a proper meal in at least 3 weeks, having lost a considerable amount of weight and bodily strength. He assumed that her body had sent pain signals to take a break from working, or to eat, and she merely took prescription pain killers to subdue them. There were also traces of anti-depressants in her system. Koemi’s unconscious state was the result of extreme fatigue, and her recent dose of pain killers being too high. It’s possible the mix of pain killers and anti-depressants could have caused a negative reaction. While it’s unsure how high her last pill dosage had been, or how long the gap between the one before it was, doctors know it was a high enough amount to have an effect on her consciousness.

Currently, she is heavily guarded in ICU, and it’s been reported that her father, Namgoong Hyun, a well known surgeon in Busan, had traveled to see her and aid in bringing her back to health. He reports that currently she is not responding to stimulants. 

It’s a known fact among fans that Koemi will work herself to the limit. Recently, the girl had been making preparations for a comeback scheduled in August. Fans began to assume her comeback was the reason she had been working herself too hard, and now worry when she will wake.

We will continue to keep Koemi in our thoughts.

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[+210 -15] She isn’t awake ?! This is so scary … How did no one notice this ? [+150  -85] Ever since her debut she’s always been known to overwork herself. We were all scared a day like this would come, but now that it’s here, i hope it goes away quickly. Please wake up soon, Koemi. [+205 -17] I’m glad her dad was able to rush out so quickly. He must be feeling awful, having to aid his own kid … [+15 -198] Wow, how stupid do you have to be to accidentally over dose on pain killers? There’s instructions for a reason. [+102 -98] What has Double Kill been doing with their idols? There’s a lot of issues coming from them … Seems so sketchy. Do they not care about their idols at all? [+5 -298]  I bet she did this for attention. Apparently a come back isn’t enough time in the lime light. With Creep being so inactive lately, I won’t be surprised if they’re going to disband after this.

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given the predicament, he couldn’t help but shift uncomfortably. he was here to see koemi, and had instead been greeted with… well, whoever this was. he knew the figure before him was a friend of hers, but he couldn’t help but feel like the feeling wouldn’t be mutual between the two of them. this guy looked like he had some type of grudge against aaron, though he was almost one-hundred percent positive he had never met him. 

before the silence could drag on any further, he extended his hand, “ i’m aaron. and you’re       ? “

Taehyun looked at Aaron silently. Technically they had never met, but he had learned enough (or what he thought was enough) from Koemi. He wasn’t too happy that Aaron was here and he wanted to let him know. Passive aggressively. In one way, Taehyun didn’t want to upset Koemi by not getting along with Aaron but in another, Taehyun didn’t like Aaron because of what happened in the past to Koemi. 

“Taehyun. I’m a friend of Koemi’s. A close friend. What can I do for you?”

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“I...don’t really like him, noona. When I think about him i just remember the times you told me about when he hurt you. I don’t want anyone hurting you. Ever. So...I’m not too happy he’s back...”

"So.... Aaron's back.... That's a thing...."

“WELL, YOU’RE not wrong, Taehyun. Why don’t you sound too thrilled though ?”

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The first 10 Horrific Head Canons

✘ Have they ever committed a murder?

“No, if course not!”

▼ What is their greatest fear?

“Not being good enough”✿ Would they ever trust dark or wicked magic?

“No. Besides, ideally, doesnt good always win?”

△ Name one thing from their past that they regret.

“Not sticking up for myself with my dad sooner.”

✂ If they had to choose one weapon to carry forever, what would it be?

“Maybe a small knife. One that meets the standards of the law of course”

☣ Would they kill someone close to them if they had to?

“No, never. I could never kill anyone”

☢ Would they survive an apocalyptic situation?

“I like to think i would. But in reality, i would probably die in some stupid way.”

❣ If someone had the power to bring them back after death, would they want them to?

“Given that I dont know what death is like, i’d have to get back to you on that one. Through some kind of medium or something.”

☠ Do they fear death?

“I fear dying before i can do something with my life.”

♱ What do they think awaits them after death?

“Hopefully fucking with people a little bit as a ghost before moving on to whatever is next. Maybe reincarnation.”

¿ Are they easily frightened?

“I havent been genuinely scared since I was maybe eleven. I blame Koemi and her horror movies.”

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Horrific Headcanons

Send a symbol for a headcanon about my muse. All horror/angst/scifi related.

✘ Have they ever committed a murder? ▼ What is their greatest fear? ✿ Would they ever trust dark or wicked magic? △ Name one thing from their past that they regret. ✂ If they had to choose one weapon to carry forever, what would it be? ☣ Would they kill someone close to them if they had to? ☢ Would they survive an apocalyptic situation? ❣ If someone had the power to bring them back after death, would they want them to? ☠ Do they fear death? ♱ What do they think awaits them after death? ¿ Are they easily frightened? ╳ How would they react to seeing a loved one become possessed? ☹ Name one person they would kill for. ☼ If they had the choice to be immortal with one other person, who would they choose? ☎ How would they react to receiving a phone call from a deceased love one? ★ Do they have a favorite scary movie? Book? Show? ♣ Do they believe the world is made up of good and evil? ♥ Have they ever acting out of heartlessness? ☾ What is their favorite and least favorite thing about the night? ψ Do they think they deserve punishment for their wrongdoings? ϟ Have they ever gotten pleasure from causing others pain? ♚ Do they consider themselves to be evil? ♒ If they could choose how to die, how would they want to go? ™ Are they possessive? ✔ Are they holding a grudge against anyone? ◯ Do they believe in ghosts? ✦ Who is their favorite villain? ☄ While watching a scary movie, are they the one clinging to a friend or being clung to? 웃 Do they believe in aliens?

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"You're so nice," he said with a grateful smile.

“Thank you! I just like to make people feel happy.”