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I just want to wear baggy jeans but them actually being baggy and not getting stuck on my thighs :/

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I love Yolandi, she’s so pretty!

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Some kawaii thinspo for today :)

(not me)

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list of safe foods

Fruits:

grapes (2 cal)

mandarin (45 cal)

watermelon slice(40 cal)

pink lady apple (50cal)

peach (35 cal)

blueberries (20cal per 25 berries)

raspberry (1 cal)

strawberry (3 cal)

Veggies:

cauliflower (25 cal per 100g)

cucumber (15 cal)

spinach (23 cal per 100g)

lettuce (13 cal per 100g)

carrot (25 cal)

Other:

coles oatmeal (100cal) 

Popcorn (110 cal ¼ Cup Unpopped)

egg whites (17 cal)

rice cakes (18 cal per cake)

sugar free gum (3 cal)

Flavouring:

Tabasco sauce (6 cal per tbsp)

pepper (6 cal per tsp)

lemon (17 cal)

chicken/vegetable stock (5 cal per tsp)

Turmeric (1 cal per tsp)

coco powder (4 cal per tsp)

cinnamon (2 cal per tsp)

Drinks:

diet coke (2.5 cal per 250ml)

coke zero (1 cal per 250ml)

raspberry sparkling water (5 cal per 250ml)

black coffee (0 cal)

green tea(0 cal)

vodka (75  cal) 

whiskey (80 cal)

WATER 

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~Low Cal Single Serve Coffe Cake~

(Adapted from BlogLovin’)

This is suuuper tasty for when i’m craving sweets, which is ALL the time! Tastes just like the ‘real’ thing

Stay safe 💕

[Submission by @youcancallmepurpleskye​]

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recipes via dailyburn 

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MY LIST OF THINGS TO DO INSTEAD OF EATING

Watch Instagram edits

Make lists of goals, things I’m thankful for, things I’m looking forward to about being skinny

Look at thinspo

Go online shopping and fill wish list with stuff to wear when skinny

Watch clothing hauls of skinny people

Drink water

Drink Diet Coke

Drink hot tea or coffee with Splenda

Watch weight loss YouTube videos 

Go to the gym 

Put on makeup

Curl or straighten hair

Write happy poetry

Look through Snapchat memories or camera roll

Write stories 

Masturbate

Go on tumblr and talk to people or diary

Text friends

Look at memes

Add to list of stuff to do instead of eat

Plan out meals and ways to hide/avoid food

Trace pictures on iPad 

Post on spam account 

Deep breathing

Paint nails

Shower

Brush teeth

Wash face

Pick out outfits

Try on jewelry and hats

Do homework

Reorganize 

Watch Netflix (Degrassi, American Horror Story, Riverdale, etc)

Sunbathe in backyard

Go on a walk

Internet games or phone games

Make music playlists

Dance

Sing

Clean room

Text and joke around with friends 

Write a song or poetry

Do laundry

Help mom clean 

Organize room 

Dust surfaces in room and clean mirrors

Take a nap

Drink sparkling water

Eat ice

Drink ice water

Read fan fiction

Write out what I like about myself and don’t like about myself etc.

Make random pros and cons lists

Make an appreciation letter or text for friends or parents or other family

Take a shit

Put on lotion

Shave

Make to-do lists

Stretch

Talk to parents or grandparents

Spin in circles

Chew sugar free gum

take a cold bath or shower

Weigh self

Look at self naked

Do a few simple exercises

Do a face mask

Put on lipstick

Smell perfume or a candle

Color in a coloring book

Make and use an exfoliator or lip scrub

Draw 

Paint

Get a mani pedi or foot massage or some other kind of spa treatment

Go on a run

Pop pimples or put on acne medication

Make a funny video

Make collages of favorite things

Buy a gift for someone like flowers 

Plan future birthdays 

Write out wish lists

Post something funny on Instagram 

Write a positive message

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✨ ED Songs✨

Akasian Peace - Anamia

Atmosphere - Vanity Sick

Angelspit - Skinny Little Bitch

Anorexia Nervosa - Mother Anorexia

Augustana - Coffee and Cigarettes

Batteries - Anorexia Poster Girls

Beach Bunny - Prom Queen

Beartooth - Ignorance Is Bliss

Birdy - Skinny Love

Black Bell - Anorexia

Blind Melon - Skinned

BMTH - Hospital For Souls

Boyinaband - Empty

Broken Social Scene - Anthems For a Seventeen Year Old Girl 

Cex - Stop Eating

Catatonia - Bulimic Beats

Carbon Carousel - Skinny

Cherry Glazerr - Ohio

Craft Spells - Nausea

CRIM3S - Stay Ugly

Daddy Issues - Ugly When I Cry

David Howard - Anorexic

Dead Celebrity Status - Somebody I Once Knew

De-La Wonk - Anorexia

Die Cheerleader Die - Anorexic Nation

Drag - Anorexic

Edith Backlund - Skinny

Eleanor McEvoy - Sophie

Elysiansoul - Dark Descent

Elysiansoul - Decadence and Disorder

Elysiansoul - Dysmorphia

Elysiansoul - Girl Within the Ghost

Elysiansoul - Immune

Elysiansoul - Midnight Run

Elysiansoul - Pull Me Under

Elysiansoul - Sticks and Stones and Bones

Elysiansoul - Sugar & Ice

Elysiansoul - The Smile Underneath

Elysiansoul - The Voice Of Anorexia

Elysiansoul - Waiting To Be Weightless

Emily Wells - Becomes The Color

ETHS - Détruit Moi

ETHS - Bulimiarexia

Evaline - a Protest In Lines Too Thin To Be Read

Fakebestfriend - Anorexia

Fakebestfriend - Skinny

Felicia Goodman - Ana Mia

FFUG - Alcoholic Anorexic

Fiona Apple - Paper Bag

Firewater - Caroline

Fireflight - He Weeps

Florence + the Machine - Hunger

Florence + the Machine - Leave My Body

Flyleaf - I’m So Sick

Foo Fighters - Skin and Bones

Garbage - Bleed Like Me

Gem Club - Spine

Geri Karlstrom - Starving For Attention

Haim- Let Me Go

Hole - Jennifer’s Body

Hole - She Walks On Me

Hole - Skinny Little Bitch

Huntingtons - Annie’s Anorexic

Iron Curtain - Anorexia

Katy Rose - Lemon

K.Flay - Rawks 

Kent - We Need To Eat

Kevin McCollough - Anorexic Beauty Queen

King Adora - Big Isn’t Beautiful

King Adora - Born To Lose

Kitten On The Catwalk - Pro Ana Party Slama

Kutless - Down

L7 - Diet Pill

Lady Gaga - Donatella

Lana Del Rey - Boarding School

Lil’ Bo Weep - Confined

Lil’ Bo Weep - Untitled 

Lisa Loeb - She’s Falling Apart

Los Campesinos! - The Sea is a Good Place to Think of the Future

Lorn - Until There Is No End

Lunachicks - Binge and Purge

Manic Street Preachers - 4st. 7lbs

Manic Street Preachers - Anorexic Rodin

Maria Mena - Cause and Effect

Maria Mena - Eyesore

Maria Mena - Self Fulfilling Prophecy

Marina and The Diamonds - Teen Idle

Melanie Martinez - Mrs. Potato Head

Melanie Martinez - Orange Juice

Melanie Martinez - Sippy Cup

MGMT - She Works Out Too Much

Mi - Weightless

Mickey Avalon - So Rich, So Pretty

MikelWJ - Dear Diary

Mother Mother - Body

Mother Mother - Fat Kids

Mother Mother - I Go Hungry

Mother Mother - Oh Ana

Myah Marie - Starve Bitch, It’s Hollywood

Mystery Jets - Someone Purer

Natalie McCool - Size Zero 

Nausea - Anorexia Nervosa

Nice Flaws - Thinspo

Nicole Dollanganger - Angels Of Porn II

Nicole Dollanganger - Please, Eat

Nicole Dollanganger - Ugly

Nirvana - Anorexorcist

No Frills Twins - Dying To Be Thin

Olivia O’Brien - Empty

One-Eyed Doll - Bulimia

Outcast Youth - Genevieve

Picture me Broken - Skin and Bones

Pompeii - Numbers

Portishead - Biscuit 

Pro - Beautiful 

Pulp - Anorexic Beauty

PurelyDef - Anorexic Queen

Radiohead - Creep 

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Porcelain

R00k - Eat

Rufus Wainright - Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk

Sadistik - Russian Roulette

Sainthood Reps - Run Like Hell

Sara Lov - My Body Is a Cage

Schoolyard Heroes - Battlestar Anorexia

Silver Chair - Ana’s Song

Skating Polly - Ugly

Sky Flows - Hollow Shell

Sonic Youth - Tunic (Song For Karen)

SPECTRA*paris - Size Zero

Squishy Squid - Anorexia

Stage - Live Happy, Live With Anorexia

Super Chick - Beauty From Pain

Super Chick - Courage

Svavar Knútur - Emotional Anorexic

Tamara Dearing - Bulimia

Ted Leo and the Pharmacists - Me and Mia

The Blue Violets - Anorexic 

The Blue Violets - Diet

The Dollyrots - Skinny

The Network - Hungry Hungry Models

The Trews - Ana & Mia

Today the Moon, Tomorrow the Sun - Old Monster

Tura Satana - Down

Unaloon - My Roots

Utero Ecuador - Anorexia

Wale - 90210

Where Angels Fall - Thinspiration

X-Fusion - Anorexia Nervosa

Zeeza Love - Anorexia

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Reasons For Me To Not Eat

So I thought I would make a list of the things that I'm looking forward to and thoughts that prevent me from overeating/ binging like a lot of people have done so before me too.

I might go back later and add some things to this list and hopefully I will remind myself to look at it in case I need to.

To finally fit into all the clothes I have I bought in the smallest size

To be able to look into the mirror without disgust

So that nobody makes jokes about my weight anymore

So that I don't compare myself to other girls 24/7

So that I don't mind people taking pictures of me

To enjoy sex without sucking my belly in

To not feel judged when someone sees me eat

To have something to look forward to

To actually go swimming at a public place without having to find excuses not to

To look good for him

So that he can pick me up without me worrying about his back

So that my legs don't touch while I walk

So that I don't have a double chin in selfies - no matter which camera angle

To look fragile

To have a slim face

To have a small waist

To have dainty hands and small wrists I can easily put my hands around

To get visible collar bones

To wear oversized sweaters and look cute in it

To wear oversized shirts as dresses

So that my bras aren't cutting into my skin

So that my mother can be proud and I can be proud pf myself too

So that I can finally worry about other - probably way more important - things

To save money

To save time

To see the number drop on the scale

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my reasons for losing weight

so i can get a tattoo when i turn 16

so i dont feel ashamed when i meet my idols next time

so i can take cute pictures

all those cute girls will like me

i will be able to wear crop tops

mom jeans!!!

rings looking cute on my fingers

people looking at how tiny i am

people being worried about me

being the smallest in my class

having the control about what i eat

no double chin

skirts and shorts

my hands would be so small

looking so small in sweaters

size medium will be oversized

not having to worry if the tshirt im ordering online will stick to my skin and my belly fat will pop out

flat stomach

cute bralettes

thigh gap

everyone complimenting me

no boobs

small tiny butt

i can go out without a bra

messy bun will look cute because my face wont be huge

clear skin

being able to wear bikinis

not having to worry if my fat is sticking out anywhere

so the people who bullied me would feel guilty

“i havent seen you in a long time, have you lost some weight?”

“you should try a smaller size”

“im sorry, but this is the smallest that we got, its still too big on you”

less skin to shave

no more gross sweating

my thighs wont rub together

no more jelly on my arms

“why are you drinking coke zero, youre so tiny?!”

hair ties wont leave red marks on my wrists

makeup would look so good on me

necklaces looking so cute

belly piercing

booty shorts!

no anxiety on the beach/pool

not having to worry will anyone see me in shorts that i wear only when im at home

nobody looking at me when i order a burger

seeing the scale dropping down

being able to borrow clothes from my friends

new cute clothes

no more salads at mcdonalds

being someone elses thinspo

being your own thinspo

RIBS!!!!!!!

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my reasons to lose weight

crop tops

being a cute short girl instead of the chubby one

I get to be the hot friend for once

I can finally let my boyfriend carry me around without worrying

cute photos for Instagram

compliments from strangers

"wow you look so good" comments

fitting into an extra small instead of a medium

dainty fingers

hip bones😍

visible collar bones😍

confidence

sex without it having to be pitch black and have a blanket on to hide my body

piggy back rides☺

cute clothes

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💛Trigger Warning💛

When the COVID crisis slows and the world reopens, don’t you want your jeans to be a little looser and your belt a little tighter? When the weather warms and stores reopen, don’t you want to buy new shorts because last year’s are too big? Don’t you want people to look at you and comment on how you’ve lost weight since the last time they saw you? So, I guess what I’m really asking is do you want that more than you want to bored eat your way through quarantine?

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Sharon Tate (1968)

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✨✨✨here’s jungkook’s upper body workout routine*✨✨✨

💮8 biceps curls 💮10 front raises 💮 8 wide pushups** 💮 8 diamond pushups** 💮 12 pull aparts 💮 12 lat pull downs 💮10 shoulder presses 💮12 lat raises 💮12 bent over reverse flies 💮12 vertical front raises

*the way it’s structured it’s this: he repeats 3 rounds and during each round of the weighted exercises he decreases the weights and increases the number of reps. he didn’t specify in the vlog how many reps for each exercise/round so i’m going off what is usually do, which would be 3 rounds of this without changing weights/number of reps. if you aren’t sure if the weight you selected it’s right for you, generally if you get to the second to last rep about ready to give up then it was a good choice. **those handles are meant among other things to take the stress off the wrists so they are not essential. if you don’t have enough strength for a proper pushup yet here’s a video on how to progress towards it.

if you don’t have any equipment you can use bottles of water/canned food as a substitute for dumbbells/barbells/resistance bands. if you feel like you have outgrown the 2l bottles of water you can always fill those up with sand/stones until they reach the desired weight!💫

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probably gonna start this workout tommorow, people are getting results from this and my fatass needs to workout.