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2023 is a year:

When I independently discovered myself

I could stay financially better off

I am more than grateful for the family and friends who I was lucky to spend time with and get support of

Where I academically finished things well off

I have worked with amazing professors

I could bring my mother and sister to USA

I have seen Sadhguru in-person and started Shambhavi Mahamudra Kriya

I have stronger body, health and better skin

Mentally, I can take things more lightly and my expectations are not sky high

I can stay happier and choose not to struggle

I PICKED UP GUITAR!!

Love to my year!!

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Shambhavi always brightens me up and gives me better energy to go forward.

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My day was so good managing up everything - mental and physical health. A call which I was looking forward to ended up draining my energy - because of me. How obsessed I am with my own stories? I don't want to be annoyed to anyone - specially giving information to people which are not helpful to them. Also I don't want to absorb emotions as well. It's okay, but looking forward I will get better and this time I could minimize the time I suffered. That's my success. I will be keeping my expectation veryyyy lowww and keep minimizing the time and effort and attention I give, probably the level of efforts I am giving are becoming unnecessary in some extent.

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(1) Discovery of myself in completely new and different environments

(2) “Naturally” or “organically” what comes to me and what does not come to me?

Continued..

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There exist helpful people in this world. The couple who helped me carrying my luggages from the train with the stairs and finally the ride to bineeta’s house - nothing expecting the return. I will never ever forget their help in any way. Also char and wayne for storing my bedding as well. Bineeta for letting me stay for two weeks in her house. All of these are making my life so easier.

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Lesson of the year: I intensively love to learn things consistently like love playing badminton, table tennis, playing guitar in the exact right way 🫨 how do I do it better

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Shekhate parar khomota ar shikhte chawar agroho ei duitateti shikkha ghote

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I built or carry an academic confidence that amake jeta korte dibe ami shetai korte parbo, I need to choose what I want to do and what I want to learn

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A clear sky with flickering stars and a lake with flickering water fills my heart to the fullest

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Amar lokkho thakte hobe uchu onek uchu, not down to people. Don’t get down to another faltu emotional turmoil

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I am so grateful for the life that I can lead now, the body shape that I have now is so much better. I eat twice a day and feel so better. Did not eat any medicine throughout whole semester... Not facing any respiratory problem - I have far better skin now. I could commit to Shambhavi Mahamudra twice a day for straight 20 days and beyond. I have overcome the mental compulsiveness which was intense in the middle of the semester. I have danced, played sports weekly - regularly with my friends. Even with friends who don't have classes with me and important for me - I did not lose contact with them.

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Instead of thinking randomly generated tape recorded thoughts, what about I prompt my subconscious mind to think about something which probably someday will help solving a problem? Trying...

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I don’t want to suffer in this winter break AT ALL.

Food, Sleep, Guitar, Life Direction, Shambhavi, I think I know what I want to do

There will be time coming so emotional for me, so hard for me - but I won’t suffer. I will successfully with mental peace and joy overcome all sorts of compulsive behaviors and conclusions and focus on what’s well in long term for me and for people around me. I will spend time with absolute involvement and do works on the things I always have wanted to search. Everyday will be to set a direction.

It’s on me how I want to create the experience around me and most importantly within me.

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my friend teaching me how to know if someone likes me/is attracted to me:

1. Eye contact (shyness)

2. Attention seeking/ Show off

3. Physical closeness proximity

4. Confirming if you see the achievement or not

5. Trying to stay in the same group?

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One day I will find the right words and they will be simple - Jack Kerouac

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What can I learn as a teacher this semester taking a break from teaching?

The first thing which I need is an open mind which can learn the right things from the people without hurting ego.

People don't like listening in a stretch - so try giving some time to them to work or engage and then show the solution (probably that catch people's attention more)

It's better to use hand written things on a pre-outlined structure which kind of takes students through the material

Preparation is important

Understanding any mistake and taking feedback - having mental energy to change is important

I enjoy learning a material and then teaching it

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Conversations with Ruby is different - I say things more in a concise way, in a better way.

How to deal with the different way to interact / reaction from people

"Missing people" how and when?

Finals!

And the feeling of talking without getting judged