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Do you ever go “ wow ok” and shut down entirely

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listen. clutching your stupid head to my chest and stroking you. you're not a bad dog. idc what they told you, they were wrong. you're a good, sweet, brave little puppy and you've experienced things that nobody should ever go through. i'm so proud of you for making it this far and still having a heart overflowing with this much kindness. i love you so much.

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So, this was chilling in my drafts.

I never finished exploring the thought as other life took precedence.

And having now undergone top surgery (back in September, woot! 🥳) I find it interesting to look back on.

Without including my repetitive forays into weaving, braiding, and knitting as a child, I've been working with yarn and fibre for over 15 years now.

Akin to many fibre artists, making a sweater is well up there in the "goal projects" list. I have made two heavier weight cardigans and a baby sweater, but I've yet to make one for me. (Well, technically the one cardigan was officially meant for me, but I ended up gifting it to my mother for reasons I still don't know. Maybe someday my brain will enlighten me 🤷).

I've just never been able to commit to making one for myself. It's not that I can't find patterns or yarn I like. I thought for a while it might be a self worth thing (I don't tend to make myself things), but have since realised that's more because I prefer to craft things that aren't to my fashion taste (I like making 'interesting' patterns but like to wear simple things).

I'm trying once again to settle on a pattern for some yarn I have that I'd really like a lightweight pullover from, and I'm realizing: I'm hesitant because of chest dysphoria.

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Without including my repetitive forays into weaving, braiding, and knitting as a child, I've been working with yarn and fibre for over 15 years now.

Akin to many fibre artists, making a sweater is well up there in the "goal projects" list. I have made two heavier weight cardigans and a baby sweater, but I've yet to make one for me. (Well, technically the one cardigan was officially meant for me, but I ended up gifting it to my mother for reasons I still don't know. Maybe someday my brain will enlighten me 🤷).

I've just never been able to commit to making one for myself. It's not that I can't find patterns or yarn I like. I thought for a while it might be a self worth thing (I don't tend to make myself things), but have since realised that's more because I prefer to craft things that aren't to my fashion taste (I like making 'interesting' patterns but like to wear simple things).

I'm trying once again to settle on a pattern for some yarn I have that I'd really like a lightweight pullover from, and I'm realizing: I'm hesitant because of chest dysphoria.

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This is how I am with kids, too.

Partially as a natural way of being, partially because the year of Behavioural Science I took in college.

Yet when you explain it bluntly like this to "kid people" so many of them get, like, offended?

It's tough being a kid, trying to learn the world for the first time ever. Having people be very clear about what is and isn't okay makes it easier!

Making the punishment fit the severity of the issue and not drawing out the emotional punishment after the behaviour is changed makes it clear that what they were doing was the problem, not them.

Plus being clear on exactly what the issue was and why, in a patient way? And returning to normal when they do?

The kids appreciate the clarity and consistency. I definitely did as a kid.

I want to apologize to my friends and family who have children for low key treating their kids like dogs but the standard methods for training dogs are even more effective of them because they actually understand language and are better at reasoning.

Positive reinforcement is amazingly effective, like I saw my nephew poking their cat so I sternly told him no, he stopped and I immediately changed my demeanor and cheerfully told him thank you and how happy I was that he listened to me instead of staying angry at him and he got this strange “Oh…It actually does make a difference wether I’m naughty or not” and later my sister in law asked why he’s so polite around me.

That’s literally what works best on dogs. Let them know when you don’t like what they’re doing but also let them know when you’re happy with them even if that means changing your demeanor on a dime (and even if you’re still a bit mad at them for doing it in the first place).

Oh and little treats. I skipped the aunt phase and is already turning into a grandma who has candy in her pockets for the kiddos for good behavior.

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c0mmissi0ned regional/convergent applin line, based on dragonfruits. dipplin and hydrapple are also based on rotting fruits and eastern dragons

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I realized the other day that, by many metrics, I'm at the best point in my life so far. I may not feel great all the time, but there is no point in my life I can look back on and say "I wish I was there again".

In contrast, both my partners are currently experiencing struggles that make them look fondly on points in the past, when things were easier and/or better, in various ways.

It's a strange place to be in. Trying to empathize with them, validate their experiences and struggles, while at the same time having this background noise in my brain. This feeling of...

Dismissive envy, I suppose?

The world kinda sucks, and it's always sucked for me. So I've adapted to the experience of the world sandpapering my soul pretty much constantly.

They haven't adapted to these particular kinds of sandpaper yet, because they didn't have to before/for a long time. I'm envious of the ease they experienced in those ways.

And it makes me feel dismissive of how difficult it is for them to adapt, because I've been doing it for so long. It's just how the world *is*, as far as my experience goes. Why make a big deal about it, it only increases your suffering.

But it's new to _them_. So of course it's hard.

I'm glad my patience and cognitive empathy runs stronger than this feeling, because it isn't one I'm proud of or want to encourage. But I need to acknowledge it.

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We respect all types of work boots in this house. Like to charge, reblog to cast

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automated text reply that just says YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY PERSON I AM LETTING DOWN

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Did you know

If you perform action Harmlessly Bother Cat you can receive Sounds

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Could you do a compilation of grebes ? My friend group likes to send grebes to to our server and "grebe" each other, as though these birds are some sort of memetic hazard, so I'm looking to do the Ultimate Grebening

Guys, guys, check out my new band A COMPILATION OF GREBES, our new album drops soon, on Podicipediformes Records.

Red-necked Grebe (Podiceps grisegena), family Podicipedidae, order Podicipediformes, Canada

photograph by Missy Mandel

Little Grebes aka Dabchicks (Tachybaptus ruficollis), female with chicks, family Podicipedidae, Purbasthali Bird Sanctuary, West Bengal, India

Photograph by Mainak Halder 

Least Grebe (Tachybaptus dominicus), family Podicipedidae, order Podicipediformes, Los Barriles, Mexico

As the name would suggest, this is the smallest species of grebe.

photograph by Curtis Zutz

Great Crested Grebe (Podiceps cristatus), adult carrying chick, family Podicipedidae, Podicipediformes, Australia

photograph by Ricky Goodyear

Horned Grebe or Slavonian Grebe (Podiceps auritus), family Podicipedidae, order Podicipediformes, Finland

photograph by Teemar Vaino (@teemar72)

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once you start thinking "idk if I want [transition related surgery] but if I could magically just have the results from it I would agree to it in a heartbeat"

then you gotta acknowledge that you actually do know that you want that surgery. the thing you're not sure about is whether or not you can endure the process of getting and recovering from the surgery.

and you'll never know the answer to that actual question unless you start seriously looking into it and researching what that process is like and what things you'd need to do in order to make it happen.

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Actually it isn't very productive to push past your limits for so long that it eventually triggers mental and physical health issues which it'll then take you years of forced rest to start recovering from...

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Why don't they make stained glass fish tanks? Give those fish Catholic guilt

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Why don't they make stained glass fish tanks? Give those fish Catholic guilt

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Best advice I’ve ever been given was righty tighty lefty loosey

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