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2014 really was a year for me! No wonder December was a whirlwind of emotions from all these posts!

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Young Love (2014!)

Love. . .

We all need it, we all crave it, sometimes we abuse it but it's a necessity, something we all wish to find in this world. Yes, love comes in many forms but love in terms of a soul-mate, when you find it, you just know, based on all the feelings and emotions to follow, it's a level of euphoria that only love can help you attain.

  It started off like any ordinary friendship, young and innocent with little expectancy. We grew apart yet mutual friends always kept us connected in some way. Little did I know that eight hours from one day of my life, all spent with you, would change it drastically. We talked, laughed and opened up to each other in a new way, then and there I knew was in the process of falling in love with you. I lit up each time I saw you from then on, my heart always beating faster yet slower all at the same time, only you can make my heart smile like that, only you; always. I felt helpless yet I enjoyed that feeling, of getting completely lost in someone else. I fell for you more every second that went by, I never wanted our time together to end, one hour with you felt like one second...time just stood still, as though we were in a world where only you and I existed, our world; and what a beautiful world it is.

I still remember that grey sweatshirt from the first day I met you, just thinking about it raises all my pores, if only back then I knew you would be the man I'm in love with today. It has been such an amazing journey thus far, sharing my hopes and my dreams with you, sharing my fears and loving you endlessly. With you, I feel as though I'm invincible and I can conquer the entire world, you continue to light up my life in indescribable ways. 

As we grew together, we experienced so much in our young lives, but I won't give up any of it, for you I'd do it over and over again, a thousand times. Your smile, to die for, your touch, so gentle yet so powerful, your kiss makes fireworks go off inside my body, I crave every single part of you when I am away from you, you complete me without knowing it. 

Nights spent with you, perfect in every way. That feeling, of companionship with the person you love, nothing can ever compare. Waking up with you felt so right, my heart still bursts with excitement from all our adventures, the feeling of not having a care in the world because I'm with you, simply amazing; if only it was so easy yet again. We both know it, we belong together, yet the universe conspires against it.

TAKE ME BACK, back to when things were simple. Back to when we can spend days and nights just being lost in each other, back to when our love was the only thing that mattered. I love you, plain and simple, with every breath I take from the depths of my soul, my heart beats for you, YOU make me happy, take me back to when seeing you everyday was understood; back to when we were free to be us and be together as one. I miss you more than you will ever know, to me, you will always be worth the risk...I will risk it all for one night with you again, to experience that passion, to be in your arms and never have to leave.

No matter what may happen in the future, you will always be "the one" for me. I will be grateful knowing that I had the opportunity to experience love, to feel that way is one of the most amazing feelings in this world. We don't always get everything which we want, but knowing I had it all with you, will suffice.

It may be clichéd but nothing will ever change the way I feel about you for you are my true love, my first love, the only love I'd ever need and the only one that can make my heart feel all those emotions. . .all at the same time.

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Brazen Thoughts

It’s amazing how the remembrance of a core memory can spiral into a multitude of facets which don’t intertwine with each other. I sit here on this Wednesday night writing my first blog in over ten years, but my very first on Tumblr. I’ve always had a knack for writing my thoughts down, but before I knew it, adulting come along and what I once considered a save haven, became a chore.

Over the last few weeks I’ve contemplated re-starting to blog but I was (and remained) hesitant, until today. Why you may ask? The simple answer, Ms. Taylor Swift! It’s only fair I go back to tell this (not so) enthralling story of how the talented Ms. Swift gave me inspiration and motivation. 

It’s no secret Ms. Swift’s current tour has been all over the internet, Swifties are surely living their best life because of it, embrace it wholeheartedly! Seeing Ms. Swift’s clips from her tour thus far got me reminiscing on how I first really started caring about her music. 

Taking it back to 2014 (December), I found myself assessing my life, a habit I have when my birthday is approaching (December 27th), in that particular year I was about to turn twenty-six and felt somewhat stuck in a cycle which ultimately made me delve into a mild depression, the career aspect of my life was on track, but everything else just never seemed to align. 

I was never someone who zoned in on any one artist, when I heard something I liked, I just took a mental note of it. Nevertheless, Ms. Swift had already solidified herself into the music world, she was a name everyone knew, I knew her hits that played all over the radio but that’s as far as it went. But! 2014 changed that for me, 1989 was released and from hearing songs off it on the radio, I decided to purchase the album. It was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made to date.

While the whirlwind of emotions flooded my mind that December, I turned the music on and really took in word for word, that entire album. Personally, the track ‘Clean’ somehow made me feel that the struggle I’m currently facing will pass over time. Her way to put words together so beautifully, granted me some level of comfort.

Then and there, I became a fan of Ms. Swift and her mastery of the craft, what a talent she is to behold! Before I knew it, I was listening to all her previous albums, and without a doubt, for every mood, there’s a song! I’ve followed her musical journey and never regretted it. She became a role model, and nine years later for me, she still is. 

I was thrilled when her tour was announced (despite being from a tiny twin island knowing the reality of actually seeing her live is a far fetched dream), I’ve since lived vicariously through the videos posted and it literally makes my heart smile as her music continues to be my comfort. It still amazing me how an individual I know nothing about, wields such power with my emotions. (I’m not complaining though). I’ve followed her music, not her life. To each his own I presume? 

So, my inspiration today came from my TS playlist, which has ‘Clean’ on there and felt it necessary to share a summary of my story (for anyone willing to read this much). It was a great throwback for me, a welcomed trip down memory lane which led me to realize that people come and go, seasons change but never in my wildest dreams I’d think the constant in my life, is Taylor Swift’s music! And, I’d have it no other way. Cheers! @taylorswift