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there's a certain tragedy in transformations

my best friend tried hard to be my boyfriend but didn't know how to

and i often missed my best friend

he turned into my husband and for a time i was so happy

but he didn't know how to be that either

animal bride, once you take them in the thing you loved them for vanishes

and you find yourself desperately trying to convince them to stay

like you know they don't belong here like this

i fell in love with a magpie

following him like a dog, blessed just to watch him fly

and when he landed and offered his feathers i took them

out of love

but i held them

out of fear

and i no longer watched him fly

he tried to do what husbands did

and i loved him for it

and both of us were miserable

for the days when i followed behind and watched him fly

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and another thing!

I’m a broken record, a broken broken record I’m a broken broken broken and I dont wanna hear that song again

so if you think making some shitty breakup album howling that she done you wrong will make you a better person by all means, then, be my guest

and if you think what you did to me made you better and taught you your lesson ask yourself why you also did it to her

if you think that you’re on your way to being a better person well I sure hope you’re right I’m happy for them when you’re done

but you should know that becoming a better person isnt something that’s ‘deserved’ it’s your duty as a human being and you should know that I dont tally debts and you should know that I wanted to love you and you should know that I learned how to love and forgive in a house of fucking nightmares and you should know I’m glad that I dont have to love you and you should know that I can breathe again and you should know we’re not your stepping stones to use and abuse and mistreat so you can feel like you’re finally growing up

and you should know that I’ve seen you try and you should know that it don’t look like this and you should know that she thought you were friends and you should know you sleep in the bed that you made you take and you break and you push us away you say you’re a product of how you were raised well so the fuck am i you dont see me complain growing up is work and it’s rotten at that you’re immature and toxic we dont want you back being a better person ain’t supposed to be your fucked up selfish pity party and you should know that twenty three god damned years you should know that the absence of “no” does not mean yes you should know that contracts can be broken you should know that grow the fuck up you should know that.

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witching hour wishes or (prayers for a small heart)

i wish i was taller and i wish i was stronger i wish i was smarter and i wish i was taller i wish i was stronger i wish i was smarter and i

i wish so bad that i was more just so i know that i’m enough i don’t even know why i’m so terrified of being mediocre and so i wish, so i wish i was more

and i wish that i had a purpose like some sense of reason or a sort of fate and i wish that i had the nerve to fight all of those that would hurt us oh i wish, oh i wish that i had a purpose

and i want blood and i want bones and i want a bite to match my bark and i wish i was taller and i wish i was stronger i wish i was smarter and i wanna be so much bigger than i am oh i wanna be so much more than i am i wanna be so much more

and i wish that i talked less so maybe my words will mean something more i want to stop being so goddamn afraid of becoming forgotten or ignored

and i want blood and i want bones and i want a bite to match my bark and i wish i was taller and i wish that i was stronger i wish i was smarter and i wanna be so much bigger than i am oh i wanna be so much more than i am i wanna be so much more

oh i want blood and i want bones i want to be a shield and a sword and a shelter a warrior, martyr, protector a force to be reckoned with i wish to be always ready to fight and i wish to carry a storm in my eyes and fire on my tongue and songs in my lungs and i, and i, and i, and i,

and i want blood and i want bones and i want a bite to match my bark and i wish i was taller and i wish i was stronger i wish i was smarter and i wish i was taller and i wish i was stronger i wish i was smarter and i wanna be bigger than i am i wanna be so much bigger than i am oh i wanna be so much more than i am oh i just wanna be more

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dendroctonus ponderosae

i think i fell in love when i heard her sing in her passenger seat with the windows down i think i fell in love when i heard her sing

well it’s just my luck to go and fall for a pretty girl, breathtaking smile, but she’s just a friend, not into me, oh just a friend, not looking for anything, oh i don’t stand a chance well i don’t know what to do now guess I’ll just eat my pinewood heart out 

it’s summer, but i’ve hopelessly fallen and i’m pining, pining harder than the black hills it’s summer, but i’ve hopelessly fallen and i’m pining, pining harder than the black hills

i think i fell in love when i heard her sing on a summer drive, passenger seat,oh she’s wildfire to dead wood, oh wildfire to dead wood and i, i never stood a chance well i don’t know what to do now guess I’ll just eat my pinewood heart out

Summers pass and seasons change and Little by little I will let this fade But when I’m in her car and we’re Singing oh I’ll let the music take me back to a

summer drive, passenger seat, and she’s wildfire to dead wood, oh wildfire to dead wood and i,

i think i fell in love when i heard her sing in her passenger seat with the windows down i think i fell in love when i heard her sing

well i don’t know what to do now guess I’ll just eat my pinewood heart out well i don’t know what to do now guess I’ll just eat my pinewood heart out

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L.S.D.S.T.A.B.

woke up in yesterday’s grave and wiped the dirt from my eyes who i was then is not the same as who i am now this time  around think maybe by sunrise i’ll be found

no use fretting over bad luck or what it does to best-laid plans i’ll do what I want, do it live, and fuck all these bastards i can’t impress fuck treating life like some kind of test i’ll add some color to my funeral best

you know we are all just passing through so who’s got the time to waste on worrying about what others think of you

(spoken):

my friend, the past is dead and tomorrow may never come, there’s no time for hesitation

be nice to each other and be nice to yourself i’ll try to make a good turn i’ll try to have a good time

so live in the moment, darling live in the moment and leave it better than you found it, because 

we’re all just living on borrowed time we’re all just living our borrowed lives so for godsakes try to be kind, have no regrets come morning, and don’t let your borrowed time be boring don’t let your borrowed time be boring

call me whatever you may like, asshole, lover, fool or friend don’t need your approval of my life yeah i’m gonna live happy and free you can’t take that away from me i’m kinda through with tragedy

you know we are all just passing through so who’s got the time to waste on worrying about what others think of you

so live in the moment, darling live in the moment and leave it better than you found it, because

we’re all just living on borrowed time we’re all just living our borrowed lives so for godsakes try to be kind, have no regrets come morning, and don’t let your borrowed time be boring don’t let your borrowed time be boring

so live in the moment, darling live in the moment and leave it better than you found it, because

we’re all just living on borrowed time we’re all just living our borrowed lives so for godsakes try to be kind, have no regrets come morning, and don’t let your borrowed time be boring don’t let your borrowed time be boring

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changeling

these strange-eyed children she left with not so much as a sign used up all of your patience and took up all of your time you wanted ones of your own but you decided to wait until these ones had grown

strange-eyed children used up all of your patience took up all your time, now it’s too late, too late, all gone too late, too late, all gone

these strange-eyed children she left with not so much as a sign used up all of your patience and took up all of your time you wanted ones of your own but you decided to wait until these ones had grown

is there no escaping? are we only Faye? selfish and deceitful wasting your days? strange-eyed children not the ones of your dreams disappointing and haunting they are not what they seem

strange-eyed children used up all of your patience took up all your time, now it’s too late, too late, all gone too late, too late, all gone

is this just my fate a motherless changeling am i just a rerun of your sister’s sins?

strange-eyed children used up all of your patience took up all your time, now it’s too late, too late, all gone too late, too late, all gone too late, too late, all gone too late, all gone, all gone.

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strange hours

oh darling we keep just the strangest hours blackout days and sleepless shaking nights oh darling you never wanted me to see this fight but so long as i’m alive your battle is now ours.

oh darling we wake in the strangest places forests, closets, burned out hospitals oh darling you never wanted me inside these walls but please let me walk the path that your mind now traces

my darling, my darling he’s been staying up all night oh but so have i, oh but so have i my lover, my lover he’s not been feeling quite right oh but nor have i, oh but nor have i

my friend, my dear, oh how i fear we’re losing ourselves out here but as long as we’ve got each other it doesn’t really bother me none

oh darling we see just the strangest things i’m losing track of reality and dreams oh darling it kills me to see you pull apart your seams if you must, then i must unravel with you into strings

my friend, my dear, oh how i fear we’re losing ourselves out here but as long as we’ve got each other it doesn’t really bother me none

but as long as we’ve got each other it doesn’t really bother

my darling, my darling he keeps such strange hours oh but so do i, oh but so do i

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cabin fever from getting stuck in my head

there’s a loneliness in my bones that leaks out with the cold every year

there’s an emptiness tugging at me from where my heart might have been and i feel like i’ll fold in on my self when a star collapses does it make a sound? when a star collapses does it make a sound?

there’s this despair that drapes over me like a blanket to keep out the warm and i feel like it’ll swallow me whole when a star collapses does it make a sound? when a star collapses does it make a sound?

winter brings out the worst in me the trees are bare but i am evergreen with envy i hope it don’t show too much but, oops i went and made it all about myself again and i’m reaching out, just to push you away oh i’m reaching out, just to push you away

what happens when you burn out of love? can i do anything but collapse? i’m lonely and restless and well i guess i just miss you when you’re not around winter gets so cold in this town

there’s a loneliness in my bones that leaks out with the cold every year

and there’s an apathy that takes over me like a blizzard when you are not near and it’ll freeze me over i fear i’m so full of myself i just might explode i’m so full of myself i just might explode

what happens when you burn out of love? can i do anything but collapse? i’m lonely and restless and well i guess i just miss you when you’re not around winter gets so cold in this town

i’m self immolating and bridges are threatening to all go up in smoke if i hit this supernova i’m self isolating and bridges are threatening to all go up in smoke when i hit this supernova  

there’s an emptiness tugging at me from where my heart might have been and i feel like i’ll fold in on myself

when a star collapses does it make a sound? i guess i miss you when you’re not around when a star collapses does it make a sound? wintertime’s so lonely in this town

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my last band broke up before we even named it (the friEND song)

i’m not ready to forgive you i’m not ready to forgive myself i’m not ready to hear those songs again

i’m not forgiving i’m fighting forgetting but i’m not ready to face it

if you give me the chance i’ll lay out all my grudges i’ll scrape the bottom for every slight every mistake and i’ll tell you about it all about it

i’m a broken record broken record broken broken broken and i don’t want to hear those songs again

i ignored this blister you gave me until it became a staph infection passive aggressive by design blame it on my midwestern disposition i’ve been forgiving and forgiving all the slights and slipups but this one got under my skin

i love you but i need you to never look at me again i love you but i need you to leave

we should have seen this coming from a mile away this falling out’s been in progress since we met that day took a year for me to trust you a week to make it awkward and just one night to make me sick if you ever touch me again i swear

i love you but i need you to never look at me again i love you but i need you to leave i love you but i need you to never look at me again i love you but i need you to leave

we should have seen this coming from a mile away this falling out’s been in progress since we met that day took a year for me to trust you a week to make it awkward and just one night to make me to make me i’ve been forgiving and forgiving the slights and slipups but they finally got under my skin

well i’m sorry i’ve got nothing to pawn and i’m sorry i closed myself off and i’m sorry i didn’t feel like cleaning up your mess i’m sorry i’ve got nothing to pawn and i’m sorry i closed myself off and i’m sorry that we’re both a mess yeah we’re both a mess yeah we’re just both bad friends