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Don’t you hate it when you have regrets but also those regrets shouldn’t be a thing? Like yea it happened but why do I miss that time when it hurt me so badly

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When those sweet abandonment issues™ run so deep into your personality that you’re not even capable of giving a simple hello to someone, just from the fear creating such an intense anxiety that you immediately n instinctively dissociate

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i’m so scared. what if i’m the abuser? what if i’m the violent one? what if im the oppressor, the perpetrator? what if i traumatise and destroy the mental health of everyone around me? what if that’s me?

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I’m on the verge of a

✨💫⭐️ Panic attack ✨💫⭐️

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I wanna sleep forever, I love sleep. I'm just tired of waking up.

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You hate yourself so loudly. You hate yourself at the top of your lungs. Your loathing for yourself permeates your speech. “Sorry I’m just rambling.” “Don’t worry about it.” “Just ignore me.” “Sorry if I’m annoying you.” “Sorry I don’t make sense.” “Sorry about that.” Sorry, sorry, sorry. You act as if you have to beat everyone else to the punch. As if the punching bag is you. If you hate yourself first, if you hate yourself loudest, then nobody will hurt you. You clapped your hands over your ears and shut your eyes and balled yourself up so that you’d never have to experience people’s loathing for you. And it meant you never heard their love. You drowned it out. You screamed your hatred over it. And you never got to hear it. 

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I’m so embarrassed to admit I want things and I’m like damn u silly bitch it’s ok to want it’s ok to be disappointed

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Been feeling much more positive the past few days despite my lack of sleep so let’s hope it stays this way and I can keep posting about positivity uwu

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You're so important and strong. You matter. No matter how hard things get, or how much it may seem like you don't, you do matter and you are worthy of self love and care.

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Sweet dreams my love, for tomorrow is a new day. 🌙

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The air smells like flower, the sun is soft on my skin and every time there’s a gust of wind my garden is showered in white petals.

Take a deep breath everyone.

We’re gonna be ok.

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warm feelings: april

sleeping on soft grass warmed by the sun, watching milk swirl in your coffee, watching the clouds, making a wholesome meal, quiet afternoon walks, eating hot cross buns, catching up with an old friend

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