sad-aching-soul-blog

[sad-aching-soul-blog]

your heart

is a gift

do not

give it

to the

reckless

~shan

[sad-aching-soul-blog]

“Because despite it all, despite everything you knew to be true, you trusted him, didn’t you? You trusted him”

— But that turned out to be a mistake

[sad-aching-soul-blog]

[sad-aching-soul-blog]

Just listen,

I seek love and someone who cares. I look for it in guys I date. I want the attention of my one and only. When I was younger my dad was always away on trips and my mom acted as if she hated me. I don't know what I did to her beside being born. She never really showed me love or that she cared. The words "I love you" never reached her lips. Growing up there was a lack of support. She showed me more anger than emotional support. I needed the emotional support. She worried more about her image than what I was going through...my dad just let her do whatever...i feel so disconnected from my parents. I just wanted my parents to show me they cared and love and attention but they only attention they gave me was negative. I still til this day don't understand what I did to my parents for them to hate me so much. I understood that I would never will get emotional satisfaction from my parents so at a young age I would date a bunch of guys to get emotional satisfaction. I still felt empty inside. I still feel empty til this day. No I'm not dating a bunch of guys no more. I stopped when I was a senior in high school and just became really depressed. Things just got worse and worse with my parents. Communicating with my parents are out of the question. It was brought to their attention by my counselor that I've been feeling depressed and of course my mom put on and act in front of my counselor. When I got home it was a different story...I don't want to get into too much details on anything. I just feel like in my present time I still lack emotional support. I mean I have the love from my boyfriend but he never really pays attention to the things I really go through. He knows what I go through. Communicating is hard for me and he knows it but he doesn't make it any easier for me. He knows I have depression and aniexty and he likes to throw it in my face sometimes when arguing. He wants me to be more open but how can I when he doesn't listen. No one takes the time to actually listen. Just listen please.