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im in so much pain

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i hate being so fucking fragile

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why do i beg for people to stay in my life

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it got worse, i dont know what to do with myself anymore.

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puchne par bataya kar lodu

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wtf man why are guys like this

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Constantly avoiding triggers just to relive it all through nightmares every single night.

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Ignoring the red flags because you wanna see the good in people will cost you later.

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I can't die yet. I haven't told you that its not ok... I'm not ok, that i was never the one to resent you, that i cared about you even when I didn't show it. even if it was for a short while, i didn't get the chance to thank you for being by my side. despite all the harsh words that I didn't mean, i still love you. you were the reason i wanted to live even more. i thought that i still had time to improve myself, I thought that "I can't die yet" for you.

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"and there will come a time when you would want to go "home" but even home will not feel like home... no fucking other place will feel like home and you're just left with gnawing anxiety eating you from within... and you'll feel sad and lonely even when surrounded by people"

"what do i do then?"

"you try to not run away i suppose... to not make the mistakes i did"

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getting hit is better than the foul words your parents throw at you.

getting hit is better than the foul words your parents throw at you.

getting hit is better than the foul words your parents throw at you.

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you know that something's awfully wrong with your family if not a single conversation can end in peace without the thoughts of killing yourself and a sea of self doubts.

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I have an exam tomorrow and I just threw up. I swear the universe wants me dead

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i hate it when characters go like "but i had no other option" bullshit. there's always an option. maybe you're just scared to make that option your choice.

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"just wanted to hear your voice" actually means a lot.