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Boba tunnel

I was in 9th grade, lockdown was going on, and I was in my terrace sitting with someone. It was august so it was one of those days where the weather was windy, a little bit cold, but no one could tell if it was going to rain or not. The person who was sitting with me picked up their phone and played boba tunnel. They said that the first time they heard the song was when they were in high school. So of course amongst every other teenage kid, this song was a sensation in 2014.

That day in august I was just enjoying the weather, too young to understand the lyrics. I was going through my wannabe English song listener phase in 9th grade so this song wasn’t appealing to me at all. Last year during august I listened to this song again, and for me it was like I’ve found a gem. Every word, every tune of this song makes my heart shiver a bit, i have no idea why. This song talks a lot about wrong timing, which scares me a lot, because what if I held on to something for a painfully long time only to give up right when I’m about to get it? Also the lines where he says that the love is incomplete, how do you realise when the love is complete? Can you ever really get void of love? And the part where this song says, so much love came to me only for it to leave. Why does everything have to come to an end? Perhaps to make us feel its worth, but what if we understood its worth without it being taken away from us?

I feel a thousands of emotions while listening to this song, but the one line that haunts me the most is, “আমি তোমার কথা বলবো কাকে?”.

Who do I tell about you? What if there’s no one to listen to me anymore? What if I forget things about you? what if I forget what your voice sounded like? What if I don’t know anything about who you’ve become? What if you try out a new snack and I don’t get to hear if you liked it or not?

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Real

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Kya faida esi zindagi ka jis mein tum na ho :)

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Kaash.

Kaash bhagwan ji ne meri kismat mein usko likha hota .

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kuch intezar aise hote hain jinme,shaam nahin umr guzar jaati hai.

-unknown

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"aur kya dekhne ko baaki hai,

aapse dil laga ke dekh liya"

- Faiz

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“Agar main ruk gayi abhi, toh ja na paungi kabhi

Yahi kahoge tum sada, ke dil abhi nhi bhara”

When I said that I had to leave, he did ask me twice, to stay for a little more time

But I couldn’t, I knew I shouldn’t.

He offered me thrice to drop me off at my home, but I said no, possibly the hardest no I had to say, as if I didn’t literally beg to god for him to ask me this at least once in this lifetime

Because I knew if I said yes, I’d be doomed.

I thought that by rejecting the ride, I saved myself a lot of hurt, oh, but did I? I thought that it’ll be easier to move on if I start saying no to him. I thought that all this pain, hurt, joy, love, would end if I could just stand to my ground but above all this, all my heart said was

“Jo khatam ho kisi jagah, ye aisa silsila nahi”

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Just someone please explain to me "How not to feel anything for him?".

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Boht duniya dekhli bhai

Merese aur nhi hora ab

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Boht hogya randirona ab sirf healing hogi

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"Tum pyaar krne dete, toh tumhe kitna pyaar karte"

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<3

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Aurat apne pasandida mard ke liye hi intzaar karti ha

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zindagi mein itne breakdown nahi hue honge jitne science lene ke baad ho chuke hain

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“Kehti hain duniya mujhe, ek tarfa aashiq tera

Chahun tujhe doorse, itna toh haqq hai mera”

:)

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Keep telling myself that I’m better off alone just to feel that deep hollow feeling in my heart at 3am