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Demon Felix redesign??

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Farleigh: he follows you around like a little lost puppy

Felix: I know! Isn't it so hot?

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Sometimes it is "jaja felix penesote" and sometimes it is "my love for Felix beats with the force of a thousand suns, I hope heaven and Olympus take pity on my impious soul that moans and fervently desires a forbidden god"

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"You will live a long life yet Oliver, an eternity without me you will look into the faces of passers by hoping for something that will for an instant bring me back to you. You will find moonlight night strangely empty, because when you call my name throught then there will be no answer. Always your heart will be aching for me and your mind will give you the doubtful consolation that you did a brave thing, but that would be a lie, like everything else you ever said to the people around you, or everything else you ever tell to yourself"

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I'm actually in love with Felix, it's not a joke, I do love him.

I know he's not real, but I cannot stop thinking about how the sun's rays passed through his hair in the scenes where you had to admire him, I couldn't help but get lost in his dark gaze every time he smiled at the camera, or notice the lines of the muscles that were marked in certain positions, body carved by a Greek god, a divine demigod representation of the sun, the son of Apollo and Dionysus come to earth to bring joy to mortals who rot in misery, an object of desire, an unattainable goal for me or anyone else.

Every time I think of him makes me understand why people make music or write poetry, Felix makes me create art cause I want to show the world with my doodles how my heart is his and no one else.

I can't help but understand Oliver's obsession over him, cause I can't understand the people who don't fall in love immediately at the moment he is shown to us for the first time; I always believed that you cannot understand Oliver's character if you're not in love with felix too.

I don't think we know him well, his interest, his dreams, part of him is hidden and kidnapped for Oliver, cause he was selfish since the beginning, giving us just crumbs of what Felix really was, just brushstrokes of what he was and how he thought.

Naive kindness and selfish actions, Felix was so complex to my eyes.

I cannot express with words how much I loved him since the first time, how I cried when he died, how part of me hated Oliver for taking Felix's life before he could even grow to be better or worse.

I just know that his existence infested my thoughts in a cruel manner, I just had him for two hours and I resent his loss like I was knowing all my life, I'm still asking myself how Oliver could live years without him after having him for months.

How can a person live without the light of the sun?

That's why I love writing with his perspective, because even with my conflicted emotions I can find a way to adore Felix with his mind.

I'm crying and desiring someone that never was real and that I barely know. And this is embarrassing so I will stop.

Oh dear Felix my heart is yours, squeeze it and make me bleed, i don't care, it's yours and yours alone.

With love and always yours, El⨳⨳⨳⨳⨳⨳ M⨳⨳⨳⨳⨳⨳

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Different meeting

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too cringe to talk to my mutuals so i just like their posts

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I like to draw Felix with a monster cock and every time someone complains or even says something mean about Felix it gets bigger

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Writing a cattonquick fic

How long would you try to pretend that nothing of this is real Felix?

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Late birthday gift for my Felix, from my demon Felix au btw!

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Okay so, I was suddenly busy today, so I'll just make one post about Felix's birthday akhfjd

Idk, I have been thinking a lot about it, and I do believe Felix was genuinely kind and nice (no I don't believe he's a good person, but he's not a bad/horrible person either, shades of grey) and some sort of semi-sadist, self-centered guy at the same time, cause it was obvious, at least to me, that he genuinely cared for Oliver(I mean, even in the maze with all the confrontation, Felix ask Ollie if he was fine after de vomit, hell, Felix when sing happy birthday to him) , but, im sure its obviously too that he found some sort of sick fascination on Oliver's "tragedy"( the "it was terrible?" And the trip, that I actually believe that didn't come from a bad intention, like, I feel like he genuinely thinks he could help Oliver in his "situation" and I also think that he had some sort of sick curiosity for know how actually was idk)

Anyway, I just ask people to see Felix with layers

I also have been writing lots of stuff of him in boarding school mostly, cause I feel like it is something very interesting to explore, also I remember that someone say that he is actually very clever but he didn't really use it cause he doesn't need to, and I believe that's canon IDC(he literally study at oxford please)

Happy birthday to this beautiful and perfect boy, tomorrow I'll make a draw cause I'm too tired now.

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TODAY I'LL BE ANNOYING AS FUVK

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SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY HUSBAND WHO IS PRETTY ALIVE YEAH

Happy happy birthday to this cutie!! 💖💖

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Oliver felt for Felix love at first sight

That love grew fueled by desire and contaminated for frustration

Infected slowly by obsession

Consumed by desperation

Oliver ate more than he could chew, tainted by the desperation and greed of wanting more and more

He ended up the same he started, alone

But he got what he wanted

Right...?