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That is a potty mouthed cat 

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this is about The Grinch

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how to get cats to stop, 2018

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scream

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Shelley Duvall on the set of Brewster McCloud, 1970

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Two girls in close embrace as they skate together. Addis Ababa, Ethiopia. ©Israel Dejene

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“My therapist told me that reading the news was causing my depression.  So I’ve managed to completely avoid it for the past five years.  I used to consume articles for four hours every day.  I’d always read the New York Times front to back, everything except the sports section.  But then the Times caused the Iraq war so I switched over to leftist websites.  I always thought it was my obligation as a responsible citizen to pay attention to bad news.  I guess I was looking for some sort of understanding.  If only I could learn enough, then maybe I could help organize something.  But all of it just sent me into utter despair.  I began to look at other people as brainwashed.  Every time I saw someone having kids, I’d get angry.  Don’t they realize how uninhabitable the planet is going to be?  Everyone thinks if we just make a few changes, we’ll be fine.  We won’t be fine.  The problem is systemic and there’s no movement capable of ending capitalism in time to save the planet.  But anyway, I’m trying not to obsess over this stuff anymore.”

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SOPHIE by Torbjørn Rødland

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but whatever i am, or have since become, i know now that slipperiness isn’t all of it. i know now that a studied evasiveness has its own limitations, its own ways of inhibiting certain forms of happiness and pleasure. the pleasure of abiding. the pleasure of insistence, of persistence. the pleasure of obligation, the pleasure of dependency. the pleasures of ordinary devotion. the pleasure of recognizing that one may have to undergo the same realizations, write the same notes in the margin, return to the same themes in one’s work, relearn the same emotional truths, write the same book over and over again–not because one is stupid or obstinate or incapable of change, but because such revisitations constitute a life.

maggie nelson

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you, normal: “believes” “things”

myself, brain damage from psychedelics and weed: suspects dozens of mutually exclusive possibilities and every permutation thereof simultaneously

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me: eating an appple

margaret atwood chanting in the back of my brain: male fantasy male fantasy

me: still eating an apple but crying now

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Her tuition so damn high she can wear whatever tf she wants

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bc that one post about attachment to womanhood is still hurting people’s feelings, let’s keep talking about it. radical feminist notions of gender socialization correctly frame it as a traumatizing process. a contradiction arises, in that case, when they assign positive moral traits to female socialization (and femininity by extension) because, much like society in general, they believe that an ideally traumatized woman is able to access moral high grounds that other people cannot. “i was socialized female” becomes an admission of guaranteed prosociality, a set of traits that are only ever harmful because they are at risk of exploitation via external forces. this is why many radical feminists view trans men as safer & more politically enlightened than trans women - because of their proximity (imagined or otherwise) to femaleness, to daintiness, to softness and benevolence. “male socialization” is synonymous with antisociality, and becomes lobbied at trans women as a whole when individual trans women do things that radical feminists deem “unwomanly,” from having controversial political opinions to committing violent crime. the gender socialization model becomes a way to moralize sex assignment by prescriptively linking particular experiences of trauma to particular personality outcomes. it is no longer a theoretical framework meant to honestly and meticulously analyze how children become gendered subjects. it is now used to reproduce the very gender roles that proponents of the framework claim to be against.

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Untitled (First abstract watercolor), Wassily Kandinsky

Medium: watercolor,paper

https://www.wikiart.org/en/wassily-kandinsky/untitled-first-abstract-watercolor-1910

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WIP

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