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Caroline Murta

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Carmilla, by Caroline Murta

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Ever since I learned that the butterfly, just like the moth, is a symbol of vampirism due to them being known for consuming blood, I've been thinking of this quote by Carmilla to Laura:

Dying to live together (as butterflies) in the summer specifically.

Beyond the metamorphosis theme here, of Laura transitioning from girl to woman through Carmilla, there is a connection between transforming into a butterfly and the summer. The story begins in summer.

At the beginning, Laura is talking about a summer breeze,

Carmilla arrived in the summer, to transform Laura from a caterpillar to a butterfly.

When Carmilla begins feeding on Laura it's almost three months since her arrival, and the summer is ending. Beyond aiming to transform her from human to a vampire, Carmilla has been transforming Laura in every sense. From maidenhood to womanhood, from innocence and virginity to experience and sexuality.

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starting a collection #blackmold

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I sent my inner child to work at a steel cable plant to make some extra cash and it got mangled in an industrial accident and died in the hospital so I really don't have to protect it or whatever anymore. good luck with your self care stuff though

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baby. gouache watercolor painting

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deadbeat daughter

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Maurice girlies (gender-neutral) it's my duty to inform you that a Vietnamese LGBT movie channel have made a fan reconstruction of the 1987 movie, by adding all deleted scenes (which include establishing wayyyy earlier that Alec works at Durham's, establishing Alec's bisexuality, Maurice's beautiful ending monologue to Clive, and many more) resulting in a movie that's almost 3 hours long, and uploaded it to youtube (with English subtitles!) here!

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callisto (2024) & daphné (2021) by armelle blary

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yeah it's called my mutuals circle on tumblr

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SUSPIRIA (1977) • dir. Dario Argento

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one of the other reasons it’s so hard to find someone to genuinely talk to about sa and or abuse is because people have stakes in your survival story and the way that you talk about and relate to it. they’re not interested in your actual journey; their investment extends only so far as what they can find politically useful in what happened to you. listeners who experience genuine curiosity and nonjudgmental empathy are possible to find but first you have to kill everybody who’s only there to project their agenda onto your experience.

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Workshop of Lucas Cranach the Elder - Suicide of Lucretia (1520-1540)

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downhearted by Ada Limón

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the biggest mistake people make is assuming that weird sex with women is about mommy issues and weird sex with men is about daddy issues. wrong. a woman can be your father too. #feminism