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Little Wolf || Jon Snow ||
A/n: AU where all the Stark are still alive cause I can't handle Robb, Ned or Rickon being dead. Idc it's my fic and I do what I want.

The snowstorm outside his home howled against the stone, but within Jon Snowâs chambers, the world had gone impossibly still.
He sat frozen at your side, his sword calloused hands trembling as they hovered awkwardly, uselessly, not knowing whether to touch you or the impossibly small bundle nestled against your chest.
You, exhausted but glowing, lifted your eyes to him and smiled.
That soft smile he loved oh so much.
âJon,â you whispered, your voice a soft breath against the chaos of his heart. âWould you like to hold him?â
Him.
He had a son.
Jon stared, as if the word was foreign, unreal. A son. His son.
His throat tightened, his chest aching with a pressure he couldnât put words to. For so long he believed he would never have this , never allowed himself to dream it. He was a Snow, a bastard, a mistake by birth. He was a sword in the dark, a man meant for duty, not softness. Not love.
And yet, there you were â his light, his impossible dream â smiling through your exhaustion, holding out everything he never thought he deserved.
With a slow, reverent motion, Jon slid his arms under the tiny, squirming form. The moment the babe settled against him, so impossibly small and warm, Jon let out a shuddering breath he hadnât realized he was holding.
He forced himself to not cry but a few tears slipped down his cheeks as he let out a shaky breath.
The babyâs tiny fist flailed weakly, brushing against Jonâs chestplate, and instinctively, Jon shifted, cradling him closer. Protectively.
The weight of him â the reality â shattered something inside Jon. All the walls he had built around his heart crumbled.
He lowered his head, resting his forehead gently atop his sonâs, closing his eyes.
âI never thoughtâŚâ he whispered, voice breaking. âI never thought Iâd have this.â
You reached out, your fingers curling over Jonâs wrist, grounding him in that moment.
âYou deserve it,â you murmured. âYou deserve all of it, Jon.â
He shook his head once, as if denying it, but he couldnât deny the fierce, bone-deep love thundering through him â terrifying in its strength, and yet the surest thing heâd ever known.
He kissed the downy hair atop the babyâs head, closing his eyes.
âMy son,â he breathed. âMy boy.â
When he looked at you again, there were tears in his grey eyes â but he was smiling. Not the small, reserved smiles you were used to. No, this one was wide, boyish, free.
It was the smile of a man who had been given a future he never dared hope for.
A future that had a name, a face, and now⌠a son.
Jon sat beside you on the narrow bed, his large form curled protectively around you both, as if daring the world to try and take either of you from him.
And as the storm raged outside the little home, Jon Snow âformer Lord Commander, warrior, once a lonely boy at Winterfell â knew with absolute certainty
The raven had been sent days ago, carrying the simple but extraordinary message: He is here. He is healthy. He is ours.
When the doors finally opened to the blinding storm, it was not enemies that poured through â it was family.
Jon stood in the courtyard, the tiny bundle wrapped snug against his chest, protected by his cloak. The snow whipped through the air, but Jon hardly felt it. His heart was hammering for an entirely different reason.
He watched them ride in â his family â strong and real and alive.
Ned dismounted first, his movements still as sure and steady as Jon remembered from childhood. The sword at his hip, the solemn set of his jaw â but when Nedâs eyes landed on Jon, on the small figure cradled against him, something broke in the manâs expression. The sternness melted into something raw, something tender.
Behind him, Arya leapt off her horse with reckless energy, nearly tripping over her boots as she ran through the snow. Sansa followed more gracefully but no less eagerly, her cheeks pink with excitement. Rickon bounded after them, gangly and wild, and Robb â Robb, who had once tussled Jonâs hair and called him brother without hesitation â grinned wide enough to split his face. Bran, bundled up tightly, leaned heavily on Hodor, but his eyes were bright with wonder.
Jon swallowed hard against the lump in his throat as they closed around him.
âIs thatâ?â Arya gasped, her eyes wide and shining. She reached out a gloved hand but stopped herself, hovering uncertainly.
Jon shifted his cloak carefully aside, revealing his sonâs sleepy face.
A collective, awed gasp filled the courtyard.
âSeven hells, Jon,â Robb said, breathless with a smile. âHeâs perfect.â
Sansaâs hands pressed to her mouth, tears welling in her blue eyes. âHeâs beautiful,â she whispered.
Rickon edged closer, craning his neck. âHeâs so small,â he marveled. âIs he supposed to be that small?â
âBabies start small, Rickon,â Bran said with a soft laugh.
Ned stepped forward last, slow, measured â as if approaching a sacred thing. His grey eyes, so like Jonâs, were locked on the baby with something deeper than pride, something almost reverent.
Jon adjusted his hold and, with careful hands, passed his son to Ned.
Ned took the bundle with a gentleness that belied his battle-worn hands. He stared down at the tiny boy for a long moment, his lips pressing tightly together as he fought whatever storm raged in his chest.
âYou have given this boy something priceless,â Ned said quietly. âA name. A home. A family.â
He looked up, meeting Jonâs eyes â and Jon felt himself stand a little taller under the weight of his fatherâs gaze.
âYou will be a better father than you ever knew,â Ned said.
Jonâs throat tightened painfully. He opened his mouth to respond, but the words stuck. Instead, he nodded once, fiercely.
The baby let out a soft, sleepy sigh, one tiny fist clenching in the folds of Nedâs cloak.
Ned smiled â truly smiled â and Jon felt the warmth of it like the breaking of dawn through the endless snow.
âYouâll have to teach him to use a sword,â Robb said, clapping Jon on the shoulder. âAnd ride. And hunt.â
âIâll teach him to fight better than you, Robb,â Arya cut in with a cheeky grin, her dark hair whipping around her face.
âPerhaps Iâll teach him to read first,â Sansa said primly, though her eyes were shining with laughter.
Rickon puffed up proudly. âIâll teach him to climb trees.â
Bran laughed. âOnly if Jon teaches him how to get down again, too.â
Jon stood there, in the midst of it all â the laughter, the teasing, the love. His son, so small and new, was already cradled by more warmth than Jon had ever dared hope for in his loneliest nights.
You came to Jonâs side then, slipping your hand into his, your eyes full of pride and quiet happiness.
Jon squeezed your fingers gently and with a kiss to your loves cheek you followed the others had gone inside, voices echoing with laughter and warmth through the stone halls of his home.
Only she remained, standing at the edge of the courtyard.
Catelyn Stark.
Jon stiffened the moment he saw her.
The memories were too old and too deep. He remembered the way her eyes, so kind for her trueborn children, had always cooled when they landed on him. A boy she had never asked for. A boy who wore her husbandâs blood like a scar.
He had braced himself all his life for her coldness.
Now, as he shifted his son protectively against his chest, that old instinct flared â the need to shield, to defend.
But Catelyn didnât speak at first.
She simply stood there, the wind teasing her auburn hair free from its careful braids, her hands clenched at her sides as if uncertain what to do with them.
Slowly, Jon turned to face her fully.
He didnât look away.
Neither did she.
âYou named him,â Catelyn said at last, her voice low and unreadable.
Jon nodded. His mouth felt dry. âYes.â
Her eyes flickered â not to him, but to the child in his arms. Jon saw it then â the tiniest crack in her composure. Not hatred. Not anger.
Hesitation.
Grief.
A longing so raw it startled him.
âMay IâŚ?â she began, but the words faltered, as if she herself couldnât believe she was speaking them.
Jon hesitated â just a heartbeat â before carefully, slowly, lowering the edge of the blanket so she could see.
The babe stirred, his little nose wrinkling at the cold, but he didnât cry. His tiny hand flailed briefly in the air, seeking warmth.
Catelyn stepped closer, one tentative step at a time.
Her blue eyes softened, and Jon realized with a quiet, gut-wrenching shock that she wasnât looking at him anymore â she was looking at the baby. Just the baby.
Something shifted in her face. Her lips parted, trembling slightly.
âHeâs beautiful,â she whispered.
Jon swallowed hard. âHeâs⌠heâs my son.â
She nodded, still staring at the tiny boy as if seeing something precious and fragile and entirely separate from the bitterness that had once lived between them.
âI have hated you for so long,â Catelyn said quietly, and Jon stiffened again â but she shook her head. âIt was never your fault. You were just a boy.â
The admission hit harder than a blade.
Jon said nothing. He couldnât. The words clanged against the iron shield heâd built inside himself, loosening things he had never dared name.
And for the first time in a lifetime of hardship and heartbreak, Jon Snow let himself believe â truly believe â that he was home.
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SERIES
HEART OF THE DRAGON
During a trip to Dragonstone, you suddenly find yourself in the era of the Game of Thrones. As all eyes fall onto you, the mysterious person that seemed to appear out of no where, what do you do? Do you try to find a way back to your time or do you gamble it all and play the Game of Thrones? (game of thrones x modern!reader)
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Wakatoshi didnât understand enough social cues to be a jealous man, but if that opposing setter said one more time that you, his wife, were obviously interested in him because you were kind enough to roll a ball back in his direction he might just throw a bench at him. Or at least send a spike right into his smug face.
âWakatoshi, letâs do drill runs. - Oi, Wakatoshi. - Oi! Ushijima!â
Hoshiumi had gotten increasingly impatient and at last yelled his name, making the ace look up - or⌠well, down - at this teammate.
âWhat are you glaring at?â
With an increasingly tense jaw, Wakatoshi only nodded curtly towards the guy who didnât seem to get the hint.
What? Was the Ushijima jersey not enough for that guy to back off? Or the kiss that you had blown to him, your husband, earlier? Or your wedding ring? He felt his hand ball into a fist as he saw you politely nodding along while the guy openly ogled your pudgy curves with a hungry grin. Wakatoshi knew you could handle yourself. But he really really really wished youâd let him step in for you.
âWhat are we talking about?â Hinata joined his teammates at the net, turning readily in the direction the other two were already facing.
âI dunno.â, Hoshiumi shrugged, following the line of sight of his fellow ace to land on the rival setter who did not seem to No for an answer. When he put two and two together he let out a quiet âEw.â
âCome on, Shoyo, letâs warm up. - Huh?â Atsumu halted next to Hinata, then crossed his arms and joined the staring at the other side of the court when no one reacted, quietly trying to figure out if they were collectively having a stroke or were posing for a picture. Just in case of the latter, he popped his hip.
Bokuto bounded over, Sakusa in tow. âHey! Coach says we should be moving!â, Bokuto called while Sakusa took one look at Wakatoshi, another across the net, and understood why his friend seemed so tense. Utilizing his years of experience in judging people he began to scowl at the setterâs back.
One after the other, the national team joined the wall of players at the net, some more for the vibes than for solidarity, and before long the power of their stares prompted the setter to turn around, finally taking his attention off you.
Confused at their intensity he looked left and then right, subtly checking who they were zeroing in on so hard, but with a cold shudder he had to realize the team was staring at him.
Hoshiumi took it upon himself to fix this very solvable problem, as the other guy apparently didnât understand what was happening.
âThatâs his wife!â, he yelled, voice twice as big as his body, as he pointed a thumb over his shoulder at Wakatoshi.
As if touching a hot plate the setter sprang back, bowed several times in apology to both you and the other team and scrammed.
Hoshiumi looked up at Wakatoshi. âCan we warm up now?â
a/n: Kageyama would take it as the greatest personal offense that it was the setter of all people.
Massive thank you to @haikyu-mp4 for brainstorming this one so hard and coming up with the ending for it.
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âI asked chatgpt-â yeah well I asked special agent aaron hotchner and he said the unsub is a straight white male in his 30s
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possibly the greatest asoiaf moment ever is when jon gets the letter about bran waking up and mormont expects him to grieve because âsorry kid :( itâs actually bad news :( heâs never going to walk again :(â but jon is all like âmy brother is going to live !!!â and then he races out of the room and tells everyone he passes that âmy brother is going to live !!!â and he gets back to the common hall and picks tyrion up and spins him around and makes him read the letter too because âmy brother is going to live !!!â and heâs so giddy that he befriends grenn and tells thorne to go fuck himself and then everybody laughs and jon is just so happy because âmy brother is going to live !!!â
meanwhile bran is back in winterfell listening to robbâs bannermen whisper about how death is a kinder fate than his, how they shouldâve just let him die, how heâs too broken to be aliveâwith no idea that his big brother is out there celebrating because bran is going to LIVE !!!
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Heart of the Great Wolf
1 - Wolves of the Lone Stag
Pairing: Jon Snow x F!Baratheon!Reader (slow burn), Robb Stark x F!Baratheon!Reader
Length: 16.1k
Warnings: Slow Burn, Strained parent-child issues, mentions of minor character death, secret relationship, arranged marriage, injured/sick child mention, smut, p in v, slight dom/sub dynamics, loss of virginity
Notes: Reader is firstborn daughter of Stannis Baratheon, based off the show but will include direct book elements, slight canon divergence. First Chapter is really long due to set up, subsequent future chapters won't be quite such a massive read. Chapter Two Here.
Travelling along the Kingsroad was far longer and more tedious with this company. Normally you would spend only so much time on here from White Harbour, most of the journey done on sea. Yet now, there were far too many people and itâs leader insisting on treating the journey as itâs own adventure. By the time you reached Winterfell it would be a month on horseback and no one to entertain your morose demeanour. Though perhaps you had to consider that it wasnât just the company of the others that was less then ideal.
You had the supposed misfortune of being the daughter to the less favoured of the three Baratheon brothers. Robert, King Robert to those in public company, was a more complicated man. A mix of a man who successfully kept the peace for over twenty years but also was as unhappy on the throne and was unafraid to show it. He did however, have enjoyment in wine, hunting, and did hold a jovial laughter that kept people around him.
Your other uncle, was much more agreeable. Renly was the youngest of them and was charismatic and well liked. He was naive, not really a man suited for leadership but he did the best with what he knew to do. Closer to your age, you often found yourself spending time with him and it was right now that you were annoyed he chose to stay back in Kings Landing. A month with the King, his own family and the entire royal brigade and not one of them knew how to get a smile from you.
That was a trait from your father no doubt. Stannis Baratheon was the middle child, and he was easily the most disliked. He was cold, distant, unemotional and seldom allowed laughter at his table. He took his job seriously, more seriously then the King did his sometimes. In his prime, he was a proven battle commander and he never lost that. Robert was a warrior and he was happiest as such, but Stannis had never stopped being a commander and whether it made him liked or not, it taught you to be who you were now.
A Lady of the House Baratheon, firstborn daughter to Stannis and heir of Dragonstone was your current position and you were taught to uphold that name. Often found with a flat expression, close to a scowl as you walked the capitol you found nothing to enjoy there. Not that Dragonstone was where youâd find happiness either. The only place that had never been your home was the one you felt it in.
You had turned eight when your father had begun sending you out. Brought up, he ensured you had a Lordâs education as well as what all girls were taught. If you were to take up the mantle after him, he wanted you to learn from those that would teach you to be like him. That was when he sent you to Winterfell for the first time. Not a friend of Lord Eddard of House Stark, but your father did respect him the most. Two men both stern with upholding honour and justice, always doing what is right and what is honourable rather then what they wanted.
You spent seven months in Winterfell, and it was the first time your mother and father hadnât been there for your name day. At the time, it made you sad but you had long since gotten over it. Over more then a decade had passed since your first stay in the north and many name days had been spent there with no word from your family. Well, at least your parents. The only family member you spoke too and more fondly with then Renly, was your baby sister. Shireen Baratheon was not just the light of your life but your fathers too. Some used to say that you were the only one who could make Stannis smile but you were nothing compared to how he smiled at that little baby.
You were fine with her being the favourite, she was your favourite family member as well.
Not long after baby Shireen had beaten a bout of horrific illness, your father had been summoned to Kings Landing. The King telling him that he was of no use to the realm shut away on Dragonstone, and he was to come to the capitol and sit on the small council as Master of Ships. He had taken you with him, and thus your new home was the wretched city full of backstabbers and manipulators.
Back and forth you went from Kings Landing to Winterfell, each stay growing longer and each stay you grew closer to the Starks then you did anyone in the Red Keep. Lord Stark was the perfect example of a good leader, warden of the North and inspired nothing but loyalty amongst the northerners and made you as welcome as anyone in his home. You followed him around most days, learning from him, watching how he handled diplomacy and made his lessons your own.
It was that how you got to know his ward, Theon Greyjoy. A rambunctious lad who listened diligently in formality and was crass and brash outside of that. You knew he would hate Kings Landing but often found yourself at your fathers side wishing the smart ass was next to you, nudging you with his elbow every time you were too closed off for your own good. It was easy to forget that he was technically the Starks prisoner, he fit into their family, the north as well as you did.
Not quite a leader as you were being taught to be, but you were confident once he had the chance to prove himself, youâd expect great things from him. Youâd gotten a raven from him while on the road, and in his usual style he spent some time making fun of you for having to be âshacked up with the lamest of the threeâ.
Right. The reasons your company headed to Winterfell. The King had one, you were being forced into another though. The news shocking you as Stannis told you of your new duty the night before you left was double. That he was leaving for Dragonstone and you were to return to Kings Landing with Lord Stark and serve as acting Master of Ships in his absence.
He wasnât just dumping his responsibilities onto you with no explanation of his distant behaviour and secrecy, your father had also dumped a marriage onto you and told you that you were to marry and come back. As if he didnât just dictate your entire life to be like his. âYou will marry the Stark boy, and with or without him you are to return in my place.â
Trying to reason with him, âYouâre expecting me to have, what? A night maybe two with my new husband and then leave for however long you decide?â
Not even the slightest change of expression, but there was a twinge of regret in his eyes that was soon covered up. âI didnât decide this alone. My brother, our king, has decided it with no room for question. Iâm sorry, but youâre a Baratheon. Youâre my daughter. And sometimes our duty requires us to marry not for love, but for the good of the realm.â
You had spoken to your betrothed since the announcement, but had yet to see him in person. A major reason as to why you wished Renly had come with you. Have someone to ease your nerves on the months ride, instead you were entirely on your own lost in what you were losing.
After all, you received a raven from not just Robb after the announcement. And it was that second one, and the finality of itâs contents that shattered the still remaining rosy dreams you once felt as if you had a lifetime to indulge in. Who your betrothed was, wasnât the upset in any way. It was the unavoidable conclusion of the love in your heart that simply wasnât allowed to be.
As the party approached Winterfell, your heart begun to race.
The crisp cool air on your face that once relaxed you, only stoned it further into a solid expressionless pose. Reminding yourself that you werenât just here as yourself, you were to represent your father and you wouldnât do so by falling apart. You rode into the walls right up near the very front alongside your craven of a cousin. He represented the luxurious royal side of the family, and you the steadfast duty and justice.
The House guard stood all around the courtyard as well as many people who simply worked close by or wanted to just see the King. Riding into the main area, you refused to look. The Starks all stood with their closest men behind them but you looked nowhere but above the heads of everyone with a straight back atop of your horse.
The carriage which carried the Queen and the other two of her royal children filed in and revealed the King following suit. Your eyes forcing to stay nowhere but him, and it struck part of you that his deep scowl seemed to just be a trait that was shared amongst much of this family. As your party stayed atop their horses, you watched everyone near kneel down as Robert was assisted off his horse.
Watching him make a straight line towards the Starks, he stood in front of the kneeling Lord Stark beckoning him with his hand to stand. Everyone around them rising in toe as you watched the two old friends look stoically at one another. The quiet in the courtyard as everyone waited.
King Robert, it seemed, left posing the stoic formality of the Baratheons to you. Looking down at his friendâs frame and casually commenting, âYou got fat.â
Two magnets, designed by the gods to be brought together your eyes met without any thought. His grey ones widened with a playful glint and a raise of the sides of his mouth as if to say, âHe got fat?â You, broke just as easily. Quirking your eyebrows up slightly, trying and failing to cover a smirk as you flickered your eyes in gesture to the King, agreeing with his silence as you both instantly looked away from the other. Knowing neither would smother such a begging grin if you kept glancing at each other.
Robert greeting each member of the family, making polite chat with the Stark parents you climbed off your horse. Your head angled enough to see your cousin, Joffery, staring at the direction you just had with a smirk you would describe in private as slimy.
You werenât the only one with a betrothal in mind for your King, but it was the other Stark which would suffer. Somehow whatever genes made the Baratheons so respected, had skipped Joffery in every single capacity. He was more Lannister then he was his father, and not even with the decency to be like the one lion which you could speak to without agitation.
You couldnât say Sansa was the one you got along with the most, but watching the way the prince looked at her, you pitied what she couldnât possibly know she was in store for.
âTake me to your crypt, I want to pay my respects.â
Cersei Lannister, the Queen, barley made an effort to toss any level of genuinity in her voice. âWeâve been riding for a month, my love. Surely the dead can wait.â
Her term of endearment sounding as fake to your Uncle as it did you, he ignored her and summoned Lord Stark anyways. The Queen glaring as they walked away, and directed it towards the youngest Stark daughter, Arya as she without any care of properness, asks where the âImpâ was. The Imp being the Queens younger brother, Tyrion.
Were you to be honest, as you unpacked some of your things from your horse you could only think of one place he would go. And he certainly would not find such a place inside the castle walls. Seeing the Queens twin brother, Ser Jaime of the Kingsguard to âgo and find the little beast.â Holding another smirk back, you heard footsteps approaching.
Not the ones you normally would expect, he wouldnât come to you here. Not now, not in front of the royal family, all these people, and certainly not after learning youâve come here to marry. Instead, the voice that spoke behind you was the only other person youâd care to see, calling your name.
Robb Stark, Lord Eddard Starkâs eldest true born son stood tall behind you. His northern accent deep and thick, and drenched in a soothing warmth that always felt comforting yet unfitting of the cold he lived around. Turning to face him, you could still see the trailing remnants of the Queen and her children in the distance.
Play your part, your fathers voice told you. With a slight nod of your head and a smile you clearly amused Robb with such a proper curtsy. âMy lord.â
A raise of his eyebrows, he had less care of hiding such a smirk. âIs that how we are playing it, my lady?â
You had to bite your tongue to keep from smiling, but still failed somewhat. Robbs smirk growing more playfully smug as he watched you lose your static composure. âI donât know what you mean, my Lord. I am here with the royal company, we are nothing if not with our courtesies at all times.â
Dropping the act, Robb rolled his eyes and stepped closer. âWell if youâre people have a problem with it, they will just have to get over it.â Pulling you into a hug, you felt part of your racing heart and screaming nerves settle a bit.
Youâve known Robb since that first visit when you were eight. No matter what you were both being shoved into, he wasnât anything near a stranger. His arms wrapped around you, pulling you to his chest as your face was snuggle tugged into the deep browns of his cloaks fur. Soft as anything, they helped sooth your heart more and he seemed to hold you for as long as it did his as well. His voice low in your ear this time, âWeâll talk in private.â
Pulling away with a deep inhale, you nodded. Face falling back into a stoic composure. It sometimes took you a little bit to drop the harsh demeanour you lived with once you got to Winterfell, but with this company in toe you felt bad that the Starks werenât going to really get you in any relaxed form. Nodding at Robb you fell quiet, but he was happy to take up the mantle with enough volume for those around to be satisfied with. âLet me help bring your things up, my lady.â
In the corner of your eye as Robb slung the heavier of your bags over his shoulder and you insisting on carrying at least the lighter one, you caught sight of his mother. Lady Catelyn Stark, originally born to House Tully, was something of a complicated relationship for you. You admired her in countless ways, and you saw her more as a mother then you did your own for many years growing up. But there was no mistaking the slight rift that was caused by the only other member of the family you were closer too then her eldest son.
That one though, was nowhere to be seen. You both knew full well that such a meeting was going to have to happen in private, and you hoped you would find time to sneak away from the feast tonight to get it. You two had to talk, you needed to talk to him before you marry or your resolve might crumble.
She watched you and Robb politely walk through the court towards the main doors. Describing their home as a castle felt odd after living in both Dragonstone and Kings Landing. The Starks castle in Winterfell was home in your heart, not a fancy collection of stonework designed to impress. Robb had written that the news came as surprise to all of them, that Lady Catelyn had tried to protest saying that the King shouldnât just force this on you.
Her husband had to remind her, that they married of duty and look where they are now. You hoped that your companionship with Robbâs brother had not soured her opinion of you being capable of being a good wife. Robb didnât have your heart the way he did, but he would be the one to keep it from now on and you hoped Lady Catelyn wouldnât hold it against you.
Falling in love with Robb was not the impossible, in fact he could make that quite easy.
Making small talk of the trip here as you and Robb passed a numerous amount of servers and maids scurrying about the halls, you were thankful for how well you knew him. That the tensity in his stature would only relax the second the door would shut and you both would drop this growing painful act.
Your room was in a corridor away from the main family, closer to where Theon stayed. Many times the main four of you would stay in either his or your room to drink, laugh and get into trouble all without the keen ears of the Stark parents. Your room in Winterfell was a place that you could stop being the daughter and first born heir of Lord Stannis Baratheon, and just be you.
The room had been freshly cleaned, new sheets draped on the bed frame as well as a cozy fur begging you to plop down onto it with a sigh and a nap to boot. Robb dropped your bag down by the window, holding his hand to take the one in your hands to join it. Turning to you, he watched as you let out a shaking sigh.
Your face dropping, finally free to shine in a tinge of shame and exhaustion as you sat down on the edge of the bed, your palms flat on your thighs. Opening your mouth to speak, he cut you off with a sharp edge. âDonât apologize.â Your brows narrowed in question, but Robb paced over to lean against the wall across from you. His arms crossed casually in front of his chest as he looked into your eyes. âYou were about to say sorry for all of this, and I donât want to hear it.â
Head dropping, you bit your tongue more and nodded. Hands clasping together in a fidget before returning to rest flat on your thighs. His eyes shined blue, and out of the sunlight his hair looked far closer to a Stark brown then it did a Tully Red, if your heart didnât weigh a thousand pounds you might have spent more time admiring him. âI just,â Sighing again you looked away, unable to cope with the unblinking seriousness in his eyes. âI only found out before you did. I donât want you thinking I asked for this, or am trying to force you into this.â
Robbs sigh wasnât defeated, but annoyed. You hadnât the courage to look again yet. Your name slipping from his tongue with a seriousness. âNo one here thinks that.â Glancing up at him, you felt your resolve slip even more. âNo one.â
Not that Robb would have any reason to suspect it, but you were desperately hoping that one person in particular didnât think that out of everyone. Robb took a few steps forward, hoping to beckon you to look up at him, but instead chose to sit down next to you. Enough space between you to not be intrusive. Your voice was small, quiet like a whisper and you knew this was not the words of a proud lady, but just a girl. âHe hadnât even brought up marriage in years. Not since..â
You faded off, both of you know what you were going to say but luckily Robb knew that reliving it would not make you feel any better. He leaned closer to you without breaking your personal space. âYour father has talked to you about marriage more then he has me, at least. In some ways youâre more prepared for this then I am.â
Laughing out, you didnât turn to see the soft smile on his lips at the sound. âOh I doubt that. You havenât had the pleasure of meeting my parents. Between them, and being around the King and Queenâs marriage? It it werenât for yours Iâd assume every married couple is bitter and unloving to the point of near contempt.â
A breathy laugh leaving him, you were thankful once more that at least your husband to be was someone whom you didnât have to hold you thoughts around. Robb leaned back on the bed, his palms outstretched to rest against the furs and look at you partially from the back and side. âWe could get separate beds if it makes you feel better.â
Your eyes narrowed playfully at the mocking in his tone. Quick to turn around with the intention of snarking back he took you by surprise. Lurching forward to wrap his hands around your waist and drag you back with him, both of you laying now back against the bed as he respectfully moved his hands from you. His eyes shined with laughter however, and it loosened yours enough to laugh out loud.
Playful words sat at the tip of your tongue, but what came out was far from it. âIt feels like heâs planning something,â turning to look at Robbâs profile against the light coming from the window. âMy father. He and Lord Arryn have been doing something in secret, and he kept me away from it on purpose. Both of them seemed to be worried about something, and then...â
âThen he died.â Lord Jon Arryn, Hand of the King and a long time friend of both the King Robert and Lord Stark had passed from a fever that took him in one night.
You nodded. Glancing up to the ceiling as your hands rested along your stomach. âHe was fine one day, and then he just...not even a day later was when my father called me to his office. Told me everything, about coming here, about your father, then just..ended the conversation with this.â Your eyes narrowed as you recalled the sternness of his rasp.
âYouâre to marry the Stark boy then return here in my place. I wonât have any more questions on the matter.â
Robb was lost in thoughts of his own, tone light yet distant when he spoke up. âHe wants my father to be Hand of the King. He hasnât even been in Kings Landing since the war.â
You understood why. Not just the horrors inflicted on Lord Starks father and brother, but it was a den of vipers all wanting you to play a game that a man like him would want no part in. None of the Starks belonged there, too good for a disgusting place the capitol was. Sighing yourself, you shrugged. âHeâll hate being there as much as my father does, as much as I do. At least Iâm the Kings niece Iâm supposed to belong there.â
Robb turned onto his side and you followed suit. Your dress hardly made for proper warmth like his attire was, but the Queen insisted that you dress properly to impress your to be husband. As if the man in question hadnât seen you covered in dirt, mud, bruises and knocked you into the dirt countless times over the years. You didnât feel like yourself anywhere but here, and yet with the royals all here you still didnât feel like yourself.
Just a plaything meant to look pretty and play the part. For once, you felt like a normal highborn lady you supposed. Born and bred to be a wife that's born to breed. You were looking at Robb, and yet you reminded yourself with a lurch of your heart to push back the other face in your mind.
Later you told yourself.
Robbâs voice was low, soft, and with an affection that at the very least, wasnât unusual for him. âYou havenât belonged there in a long time.â
Your tone dropped quieter then his. âWhere do I belong then?â
To his credit, it wasnât with himself that he said. âHere. You belong here.â
By nightfall you still hadnât seen him. Youâd seen many of the others. Arya being the first, practically running past Robb into your room and leaping into a hug with zero sense of formality. You knelt down somewhat to meet her with a loud laugh. With a zillion questions about if youâre staying, did you know, does this make you her sister, you were blissfully reminded of the only other girl who held your heart like that.
Shireen wasnât a trouble maker like Arya had a tendency to be, but they had a similar spirit. She felt as much like your sister as the one back on Dragonstone was by birth. Sansa had to call her away, annoyed as ever and with a fluster as she addressed you. The paintings of a crush all over her face from the blonde haired fowl faced cousin, and you wished it was any other boy Sansa was to be promised too.
Well, as Robin Arryn briefly popped into your mind you laughed to yourself. Maybe not any of other boy. Starling the handmaiden attending to your dress as you shook your head in apology. You could dress yourself easily for a normal night in the North, but alas the Queen insisted that you impress your husband to be. As if he wasnât someone you had known for over a decade as one of your very closest friends.
You did however, stop them fervently as they reached for your hair. The Queen could dress and paint you up like a doll and you wouldnât really fuss at the treatment, but you would rather cross the wall and throw yourself into a frozen lake before youâd let any of those southern up-dos go anywhere near your hair. If judging by the look you got from the Queen during the feast, she wasnât pleased in any way, but then again she rarely was ever pleased by anything.
Sat next to Robb during the feast, you were thankful that he and the other guys at the table treated you like they always did. To a degree, it was a bit off putting by your much more distant attitude but judging by the glances you made to the Queen they gathered enough that you were more on guard. The hall was filled to the brim with people, ale, music and laughter.
Off in the distance you could see King Robert laughing with a group of men, and his hands happily exploring a woman who was most certainly not his wife. Most didnât care, and the ones who did never would say anything. He was King he could do what he wanted. Lady Catelyn much to your sympathy was stuck up at the main table sat next to the Queen herself and struggling to find any conversation that didnât make the woman utterly miserable.
âOut of all the Northerns, you get stuck with this one?â Theons voice rang out, a lightness in his eyes and ale in his veins. You leaned your elbow on the table and pointed at him with a playful raise of your eyebrows.
âAt least this oneâs pretty, Greyjoy.â
Laughter from all around the table, and even finally sneaking one from yourself. Theon would sometimes flirt with you, but never in a serious manner. It almost was a game. He would start with a flirtatious comment and it quickly spun into who could jokingly insult the other more after you deny him with a snarky remark first. âAye, but youâd get some nice experience with me.â
Robb tossing a ripped piece of bread at him with a half hearted protest of his own experience, but you leaned back in your seat bringing your mug to your lips. âWhat experience is that, exactly? Paying women to pretend to moan for you isnât exactly what I had in mind for my wedding night.â
Pushing it back down, if you joked about it you didnât have to think about the reality. With no experience of your own, you werenât immune to the whispers of girls and women of their nights with pain and blood. At least you would get one single thing right come time for that part of the wedding. You almost didnât though, and the longer you kept trying to not think about it, the more you felt yourself looking for someone you knew wasnât there.
You had to talk to him, but the first day in Winterfell was just far too busy for it thus far.
Opportunity luckily, arrived in the form of Arya being unable to behave. You and Robb had been joking and laughing about something when the sight of food flinging from another side of the room caught your eyes. The food in question splatting directly onto Sansaâs face as she yelled out indigently.
The quickness of Arya smiling and going back to pretend as if she didnât do anything got a laugh out of you, but also drew the attention of Lady Catelyn. Gesturing to Robb over, his face fell more serious as he brushed a hand over your lower back as he stood up. Grabbing Arya around the sides and hoisting her up. âTime for bed.â
Glancing around the room, Lady Catelyns eyes elsewhere, as was the Queens. Lord Stark talking to who you recognized as his brother Benjen and now Robb gone you took the opportunity you really shouldnât have. Standing up, you made your way slowly to the entrance, downing the last of the ale before slinking out unseen.
Or rather, unseen by all but the watchful eyes of a golden Lion.
Alone for once, you allowed yourself to be annoyed. The chill of the air hit you with a sting as you were entirely undressed for the cold of the night. Not even graced with a seat at a lower table, no he was put out here as if his existence was so offensive to anyone but her. His birth wasnât his fault, and as much as you admired and liked her?
It never failed to chip away at something angering in you, how Lady Catelyn treated Jon Snow.
You heard his voice before you saw him, but it the second voice that took you by surprise. âDid I offend you? Sorry. You are the bastard, though.â
Lord Tyrion Lannister in your sights slowly walked up to Jon, who was faced away from you. There was a bluntness in his words but also a sympathy in his eyes. Leaning back against a stone wall, you watched in quiet.
âLord Eddard Stark is my father.â
And yet, just as so many liked to remind him, Lord Tyrions words were those that many have said in response. âAnd Lady Stark is not your mother. Making you, a bastard.â
Watching him with narrowed eyes, you held back any defence in your blood. Likely he was the only Lannister which you didnât entirely distrust towards him. Jon Snow had more then enough people ensuring him he would never be like his brothers and sisters.
Your arms crossed over your chest, and breathe visible in the cold you listened to the man tell him wear what he is like armour. Jon, however, did not seem to be in such a mood. His voice was low, a thick northern accent that came out more like an entrancing rasp then Robbâs warm soothing one. It also, was lined with that of a temper you knew the older Jon got, the more he struggled with. âWhat the hell do you know about being a bastard?â
Fingertips itching to reach out, but you stayed put. Listening to Lord Tyrionâs final comments before departing to whatever plans he had for the night. âAll dwarves are bastards in their fathers eyes.â
Jon wasnât heartless, nor stupid. Somewhere inside him, you knew he sympathized with the Lannister but being shut out of a feast in the cold, on top of what you knew was looming? Jon had little room left to care about simmering that temper.
Lord Tyrion caught your eye as he passed, a tilt of his head and question in his eye you simply looked flat and unblinking. He wouldnât say anything, but that didnât mean he didnât store his curiosity about your sudden watchful appearance for later.
Slowly approaching, you called out only once the sound of doors closing behind you left the courtyard in silence from the muffled party behind you. âThink heâs dead yet?â
Spinning to face you at the sound of your voice, you hated how unable you were to quell your heart looking at him. Walking towards him, you saw Jon put the sword away entirely before circling around to meet you halfway. It took less then second for both of you to glance around, watch for the no eyes any could see before he closed the rest of the gap.
Scooping you up into his arms, almost spinning you in place as you both held the other tightly. âI missed you.â Your voice muffled in this luscious dark curls, he put you down gently on your feet. His hands on your upper arms still before glancing up. Changing his mind, he turned. Pulling you along with him with a hand on your lower back.
Jon was the only man who could silently drag you away into a dark corner in the dead of night and you wouldnât question him in any way, shape or form. Neither of you said anything, but out of everyone Jon was the one person who you didnât need it with. Both of you were always on the air of more quiet, and it was never more appreciated then alone with the other, never worried about having to fill the air with talking to be comfortable.
Once you had reached far enough away, Jon led you into a small building, mostly empty save for some storage and one lit lantern. Door closed, he turned to face you once more with silence. His eyes begging to say too much, but neither of you could handle it in that second. Once more you found the others arms. This time, the desperation was felt both ways.
Both of you letting your eyes shut, and your hands rest freely and yet far to intimate to be platonic as you stood together. It was minutes before he pulled back. One hand resting on your waist and the other back on your upper arm. He watched as your hands wrung together, afraid to touch him. You hated how gently he always said your name, forcing you to look up and meet his eyes.
One of you had to say something, and you ripped the bandage off first. âYouâre really joining them?â
His nod was confident, and it broke your heart that much more. âThe St-â
Shaking your head you felt your eyes sting, you hated feeling this way. âDonât give me that.â Your fingers twitched wanting to reach out, and he caught the movement. âDonât tell me what you think everyone else wants to hear.â
Was his response a diversion from the truth, or an answer you didnât know for sure. âYouâre marrying Robb.â Like no other, Jon could tell right away that you bit your tongue in anxiety. The hand on your arm moving up to gently trace over the side of your jaw until he felt you relax under the touch. âIâm not mad at you. Neither of you really had a say in it.â
Ever so slowly, you hesitantly left your hands drift forward until the very tips of your fingers rested against his stomach. Much like earlier with Robb, were you not wracked with too much in your head, you might have paused to enjoy the feeling of how sturdy and firm his muscles had grown. Instead you let your head hang, knowing he wanted you to look at him. âAnd you feel like The Nightâs Watch is the only place you belong?â
Were you anyone else, Jon would have pulled away in frustration. But his time with you was limited, and his hands always ached to touch you when you were near. âIt is now.â Head rising up to look at him, your brows narrowed. âYouâll marry him, go back to Kings Landing with my father and sisters, and leave me what? Here with the brother who gets the one thing that used to be mine, and his mother who hates me?â
Something rushed up, and an anger almost yelled out instead of reason. âJon, Iâm not trying to leave you behind.â
He sighed, jaw clenching as his hand on your waist held you a slight tighter. âNo. Youâre doing your duty, and Iâm doing mine.â
For a while you both just stood there, looking at the other. In your heart, you felt stolen from, but your mind reasoned for the best. Just as the silence between you was too much, Jon slowly leaned in.
Your back pressed against the wall and he having moved to crowd you against it, his head dipping down enough as you exhaled shakily. The nerves in you, always managing to make him smirk. But just as you felt the others breath on your faces, a door in the distance opened. Music and laughter and the sounds of a group making drunken rackets paused Jons movement.
If it were any normal day, youâd just say not here.
But you and Jon knew better, in a few days, he would stand in the godswood and watch you marry his brother. And soon after that he would join a group that cut your love off from him for life. You couldnât kiss now, and not ever again.
It didnât stop either of you from seeing the other after the night was over. But with the royal company here, with you and Robb spending more time together, you only had time to see each other in the secrets of the dark. What made that much harder though, was how little suddenly anyone looked forward to a wedding.
Bran had climbed the walls and towers thousands of times with a firm grip. And yet, while climbing the one tower which no one use in decades, Bran somehow fell so far to the ground, no one yet knew if he would wake up.
And amongst all that, the Queen insisted, âWe still have a wedding to put on.â
The entire family was on edge. Maester Luwin has monitored him closely, and Lady Catelyn even closer having not left his side. You didnât blame her one bit. It was before anyone else was really awake when you went to go see her.
Slowly peeking in, asking if it was alright you come in for a moment and you were thrown back over ten years ago. Looking at your own mother, Selyse, and how broken and lost she was as Maester Cressen warned her to prepare herself for Shireen to be sent away for good.
Walking by her side, you sat gently on the bed beside Bran. It was cruel. Only a boy of ten, and with the softest, most adorable little face youâd ever seen and yet he lay in bed broken in too many ways. If he woke, heâd never walk again. You thought to yourself, maybe if you were to be a proper northern, you should start praying to the Old Gods. Because it certainly seemed like praying to the Seven had done nothing. It left your baby sister disfigured for life, and so far they seem to have left Bran a cripple should they even allow him to wake.
Laying on the other side was his yet unnamed Direwolf. Hardly more then puppies when you first arrived, you had been shocked to see how they had grown. Sitting asleep by his masters side though, you hoped he would bring little Bran any comfort.
Lady Catelyn was silent beside you, working away on something you hadnât quite understood. You didnât ask, you werenât a mother and you didnât want her to have to explain her grief to you. Your hand gently ran over Brans wrist, your thumb feeling his pulse weak but still beating if you pressed firm enough. âMy sister had greyscale as a baby.â
You felt her look up at you, but your eyes were trained on the adorable boy soon to be your brother. âMy father bought her a doll from a merchant, and next thing we knew it was spreading fast over the side of her face. She was just a baby she didnât even understand what was happening to her, but we all did.â
You felt your eyes sting, but forced them back with a harsh swallow. âIâve never heard my mother cry like that. She lost four boys in the womb, and yet that was the most Iâve ever seen her cry. And my father?â You stumbled. Voice coming out harsh, and cracked slightly from the pressure to appear steady. âPeople used to say the only thing that he would ever smile for is me, but they donât understand. They didnât see the desperation in his eyes, how far and hard he searched to bring people to Dragonstone just for a chance to save her life. And none of them saw the tears in his eyes when he was finally allowed to hold her again.â
Reaching up with your other hand you ran your hand over the side of Brans face, brushing some hair to the side. âIâm sorry. Me and Robb both tried telling them to put it off, but the Queen insisted that a wedding might do everyone some good.â She tried saying your name, but you interrupted her. âItâs okay if you donât come. If I were a mother, I donât think Iâd leave him either.â
Looking back at her, there were tears in her eyes and a soft smile that broke your heart. Your relationship with her was always complicated, but in this moment, all you saw was what no one had given to your mother when it was Shireen.
Leaning over to her, you hugged her tightly. The pain in her heart evident in how both weak yet tightly she hugged back. Pressing a kiss to her forehead you spoke quietly, âIâm sorry.â
Passing by the busy servants and suspiciously watchful Queen you paid no mind to the preparations that were to be for you tomorrow. At first it had felt like you and Robb were to be wed for some unknown plot of your fathers, but now it felt like a distraction.
Donât look at the broken boy in bed, look at the happy couple. For their own pain, you had to hand it to the three of them. Lord Stark, Robb, and Jon truly what Starks were made of. Strong willed, and keeping calm acting as a pillar for the much younger and more worried siblings. Arya clearly a big influence on her direwolf Nymeria, as the wolf was agitated and struggled to sit still the past days. On multiple occasions, you found the wolf almost trying to rile up her own siblings to varying success.
Her and little Rickons direwolf Shaggydog had the most energy. As if getting out their tension by chasing and play fighting. Sansaâs Lady was truly an apt name. Stuck by her side and was poise and put together, only getting in the way to provide any comfort to the redhead in what Sansa thought were moments no one was looking.
Grey Wind was as strong headed as Robb. Their mother gone, he had taken up the mantle of leader of the pack and seemed to be a calming presence for the others. Much like how Robbâs confidence in ensuring his siblings Bran would be alright, provided such comfort to them. The more time you spend with Robb during the day, the more used to Grey Wind you got.
He grew larger then the others, a gorgeous mix of greys and browns in his colour and the more comfortable with a new closeness which Robb grew with you over the past few days, the easier it was for Grey Wind to come to your side when not with his own master. Lord Stark had joked that they seemed to sense you were about to become a wolf yourself.
It was the final direwolf however that you enjoyed the most. Pure white with striking red eyes, Ghost was smaller then the rest but quick and silent. He made very little noise if ever, but was always aware of his surroundings. Keeping out of the way without sacrificing his watchful canine eyes from their view, and listened to his master better then any of them.
Jon and Ghost it seemed, were one in the same. From the same family, but not truly one of the pack as the others were. While the others followed their master like an animal companion, Ghost and Jon were almost like friends instead. Certainly he took Jons feelings around people seriously, considering that as you sat out in the godswood while the moon set itself up in the night sky, you were suddenly almost thrown off balance.
Looking down, the small white direwolf had leaped into your lap. Leaning up to give your cheek a lick before settling in. You scratched at his back, âI donât know what youâre asking for, but Iâm getting up in about ten seconds.â
âMaybe he just likes how soft you are.â Looking up, you utterly failed to fight back both the fluster in your eyes and the embarrassed smile that you tried to hide, turning away from him.
Jonâs curls looked more wild and free again, growing out quickly from the clean cut given before your arrival. The wilder look suited him better. His cloak around his shoulders had a bright closer to white fur around him that you knew first hand was warm and comforting. Coming to sit next to you, he reached over and ran his fingers over Ghosts ear, making him shake his head with a barley audible huff at being disturbed. You both laughed gently, were it not a wolf in your lap, a commoner would mistaken you both for that of a couple with their newborn.
You were to be married tomorrow, and in two days you and Jon would part ways for what could be life for all you knew. Two days, but tonight was your last. Tomorrow you would be Lady Stark, wife of Lord Robb Stark, and there was no room in that duty for another or fairness in your heart.
Leaning against his shoulder, you knew in the eyes of the old gods there was no judgment as you rested your head there. His arm coming to pull you into his side as he looked down to you, your own trained on Ghost.
More then once you and Jon had almost kissed, it would be too easy. To fall into it again. You didnât fall into it the first time, it was just a bond that always existed. The last time you had ever kissed, was when you came close to giving him something else.
The opportunity was right there, and no one would have been there to stop you, but neither of you were people who could so easily push past the honour you were raised with. Deep down in his mind, Jon knew you could never just marry someone like him, not for who you were. He just didnât expect to come to the finality of it all, only months after almost having you.
Not that he told it to you, but there was a smugness in Jon that said that at least if he had one thing over Robb, or two, was that he was your first kiss. Knew what your lips tasted like, and knew what a cruelly addicted sight your bare body looked like. Though, not if he asked you, youâd say that wasnât a perk.
Reminding Jon that he was muscle and you werenât. Only receiving a dark, undoubtedly lustful look as he muttered that your softness is exactly what he dreams about before kissing you, having pushed you back into the furs of his own bed.
A far off moment, sitting together now, cuddled with his cloak around you against the Weirwood tree for the last time. âWe never had a chance did we?â Pulling back, Jon tried looking at you with a slight question in his narrowed brows, but you just continued to run your fingers gently over the slumbering Ghost. âI mean, being with you is easy. Itâs always been easy, but being together?â
Resting his chin on the top of your head, he breathed in deeply. âNo. No we never had a chance.â
The truth didnât make it hurt any less. But you werenât children anymore. You would marry Robb, return to Kings Landing and serve on the small council at the Hand of the Kings Side, in place of your own lord father and Jon would become a man of the Nightâs Watch.
In what world did those two things have a chance at crossing over?
Turning your head, you rested further into his neck and his warmth was unyieldingly comforting. âYou know right? Even if I donât say it?â
Jon had enough, moving to pull your face up to look at him by your chin. âI know. And you do too.â
Your heart skipping a beat you smiled partially, âYou know itâd be a whole lot easier not to kiss you if you werenât so handsome.â
Smirking, Jon pulled you closer. Your back more pressed against his chest as he wrapped the edges of his cloak around your front, hiding the blissfully unaware Ghost from the cold air. âOh Iâm handsome, am I?â
Rolling your eyes, you relaxed in his touch. âIâm not blind, Snow. Itâs an unfair thing about you Stark men, you, Robb and your father, all way too handsome for your own good.â You had always done that. Included Jon when referring to the Starks without question. It was something that only his youngest siblings would still do, and that's just because they werenât yet mature enough to truly understand why he was treated different.
You were though. You knew why, but you and him were always the closest even before the messy feelings of early teenage hood started to take place, and since then you were only more steady in that belief. He was a Snow, but his blood a Stark. And no matter what he called himself, he would always have the blood and integrity of his father. âShould I be worried? Marrying my brother, and running off to Kings Landing with my apparently handsome father?â
Pinching your sides, you tried elbowing him but Jon was far stronger and held you still with a laugh, your voice high and defensive. âI didnât mean- sorry next time Iâll call your family ugly, alright?â With a pause, it slipped out before you could stop it. âJealousy another Stark trait I should be worried about?â
You could feel the smirk still plastered across Jons face in his voice at your ear, âWhen the girl looks like you, any man with half a brain would be jealous of letting you go.â
It was far later then you shouldâve been awake, but peeling yourselves apart for the last time was too difficult. It was quiet for a while, nothing but the quiet hums of the woods to pass the silence. His voice rasped in your ear, a small shiver down your spine at its closeness. âWhereâd we meet?â He chuckled at your blatant confused face. âIf we had a chance, in another life whereâd we meet?â
âAre we not still us?â
You enjoyed hearing him so light and casual, it felt like Iâd been months long amount of days since youâd seen such casualness. âNo, well I mean Iâm still me and youâre still you. But weâre not highborns, no titles or duties. Just two people somewhere in the kingdom, whereâd we meet?â
Eyes squinting in thought, you considered something that was the opposite of the horrible paranoia of Kings Landing, and far from the darkness of Dragonstone. âI hear Highgarden is beautiful in the summer.â
Jon nodded against your head, âAlright. So youâre a bar maid in Highgarden, and I-â
Laughing loudly you tried pulling away, âExcuse me, why am I a barmaid? Isnât this a fantasy?â
With such a tone of seriousness you felt light at how easily it came to him, as if it was something heâs thought of before. âYes, and if youâre a bar maid it means I have an excuse to pull this pretty little bar maid in Highgarden down onto my lap as she passes by.â
âThatâs aggressive of you.â
âMaybe this particular bar maid makes me aggressive.â
Back and forth you went, what is job was, how youâd fall in love, if you stayed in Highgarden or travelled the realm elsewhere. How many kids youâd have to which you certainly had protests as to how easily Jon kept raising the number each time he mentioned it. By the time you had planned out a new life, it was late enough that you needed to go back.
You needed some sleep, and Jon wasnât the only brother who you wanted to talk to before this was all over.
Ghost lept out of your lap and shook his fur out on the ground as you both watched him with a fond smile. Looking back at him, you held onto his wrists and he your waist. This time, neither moved in or even tempted the idea of a kiss.
Raising a hand to cup the side of your cheek, he ran a thumb over the soft skin. âDonât look for me in the ceremony.â Before you had a chance to spiral, he leaned down to meet your eyes more level. âIâll be there, but donât look for me. Youâre going to be Robbâs now, and I want you to be okay with accepting that.â
Nodding, he made you promise out loud. âI promise.â
He nodded once. âYouâll be each others tomorrow, and Iâll be at the wall. I want you two to be there for each other, no matter what. Besides, itâll be easy.â You tilted your head. âRobbâs easy to fall in love with, and I think itâs impossible not to fall at least a little in love with you.â
The hug you shared wasnât the last before you departed, but it was the last one just for you.
He sent you off first, not wanting you to linger with him on your mind. Jon needed you to be okay with being Robbâs, and he himself, needed to just get through these next few days. He had an entire life at the wall to grieve about you.
The handmaiden was quite mad at how you ignored her. Something about the Seven, not seeing the bride but you went towards Robbs anyways. You were to be married at the Weirwood under the eyes of the old gods, it didnât matter what the Seven wanted anymore.
Not quite dressed up, Theon looked you up and down as he opened the door. âDidnât think you were that much of a bore.â You pushed him out the way with a roll of your eyes, he laughed as he closed the door behind him. You were glad that the northerners werenât so dramatic.
With his mother tucked away with Bran, he escaped what wouldâve been her insistence of shaving and another trim. His facial hair growing thick and his curls much more Tully Red in the daylight. âI want to ask you a favour.â
Nodding once, he said anything. Taking a step to you as you sighed out shakily, hands ringing together, he said your name as he came into your space. Looking up at him, you sighed out again. âAre you sure youâre okay with this?â
Taken back, his eyes narrowed in curiosity. âThatâs not a favour.â
Somewhat flustered, you pulled away. Sitting down on his bed, unable suddenly to send away the thoughts of the very next time youâll be in this room. âI- I donât want you thinking I donât want this, or you, but we didnât plan this, or talk about it before it happened, and now weâre here and,â
Robb knelt down to your level, not yet touching you in your panic, but speaking slow and in a low, comforting tone until the edge fell from your lips. His steady energy slightly bringing you down a little bit as you tried again. âMy parents are miserable together.â Your hands started to wring together in front of you, âThey barley tolerate each other, Iâve never seen any love between them. And same with my Uncle. He and the Queen basically hate each other Iâm shocked they could stand each other long enough to have three kids together.â
His brows narrowed as you put it all together. âEveryone I know whose married for duty, married because they had to...I think your parents are the only ones I know who ended up happy, who actually love each other.â
Robb leaned in slightly, âAre you worried youâll never love-â
Shaking your head you felt the anxiety in your chest boil up like never before. âRobb, look at me. Iâm Stannis Baratheons child, daughter of the supposed most miserable man in Westeros in the most loveless marriage, are you sure youâre okay with marrying me?â
There it was. The first true hint of insecurity that youâve allowed yourself to be honest with since you had been told of this arrangement. Two out of three Baratheon Lords were in miserable marriages, and when you looked at Robb, you hated the idea that you were forcing him into just another of that cycle.
The girl in you wanted to cry at losing one love, and the woman in you hated yourself for possibly dragging another into something heâd come to hate. Youâve known Robb for as long as youâve known Jon, and you watched him grow into the man he is now. Both of you could do great things together according to Lord Stark, but what if you were too much like your father to ever inspire love?
Robb stood up, sitting down next to you as he turned his body close. Your name falling easily from his lips. âYouâre not your father. No- look at me. You are not him, youâre not any of them. Iâve known you since you were eight. Youâre stubborn, and strong willed and always willing to do what duty asks but that isnât all of you. Iâve also seen you laugh, get into trouble with me more times then I can count, you care about my little sisters and my brothers like their yours too. My father already sees you like your his own, and despite everything, I know my mother does too.â
Running a hand over your hair, he watched tension in your shoulders deflate ever so slightly. âIâm not worried about marrying you, because I know what Iâm getting myself into. And no one can tell me to be happy about it, but I am anyways.â
Gently you raised your hand, enough to slightly lay over the arm Robb had flat on the bed, your thumb finding this pulse, unlike little Brans, his was steady and strong. âYou shouldnât be. You get told your marrying me, and then the day after I get dragged back to Kings Landing with half your family for who knows how long.â
Your heart raced, as Robb twisted his arm, holding your wrist the same way you were his. An easy, charming, boyish smile on his lips. âAnd weâll have the rest of our lives to make up for it.â
Deep in your mind, you wished Robb would make this harder. You wished he wasn��t so easy to be charmed by, but you knew him too well to trick yourself into thinking he wasnât being genuine or honest. âSo about that favour...â
Narrowing his eyes, there was a flush in your cheeks that you hated was making him smirk. âWhat about it?â
You sheepishly tried pulling away, but he yanked you closed by is hold on your wrist. Looking down anywhere but his face you felt like a little girl again, only that time you didnât have to be the one to ask for it, Jon kissed you before you knew what was happening.
Robb though? Oh Robb knew exactly what you were trying to ask, but was almost sadistically enjoying the process of making you say it out loud to him. You flushed more at what other implications this potential side of him would bring. âI, okay Iâm not some innocent flower.â
He raised his eyebrows and you smiled indigently, âI mean, Iâm still- I havenât- shut up.â Robb was flat out laughing at that point but let you fail at getting this out with composure. âI know youâve been with women before, physically..â
âDoes that bother you?â
Shaking your head no, it was no lie. You may have to get used to the idea of being married to him, but again, you werenât blind. You had eyes, you knew exactly what women saw in Robb Stark. âWhat Iâm trying to say, Iâve kissed someone before but not you.â
Much more serious, Robb clearly did know what you were asking, but watched with his gorgeous comforting blue eyes intensely as you whispered. âI donât want our first kiss to be in front of all of them.â His family, the royals, all those you didnât know, the old gods, and even Jon. A first kiss in front of him felt too personal, to intimate.
Moving close, you felt his breathe on your skin. âDo you want me to kiss you? Here?â
The room slipped away though, Robbâs voice was so warm and so was he. The hand on your wrist moved to rest at your waist while the other hand slid to the back of your neck, holding you firmly. His lips would brush against yours if either spoke, but he waited for a single nod before kissing you.
His kiss was different. Soft, but coaxing. Like he knew what was holding you back, and just let you fall into it on your own. It was simple and gentle at first, but as soon as you let out a tiny sigh, something in Robb slipped for a moment. Kissing you again, harder this time. His hands tighter and his kiss a little deeper.
Leaning into his front, your hand found the back of his neck and into his curls, and your other against his chest as if they always knew what to do. It wasnât until you let out what might just have been a small moan, Robb close to pulling you into his lap did he pull away. Pressing a kiss to your forehead and running his hand once more over your hair.
âCan you live with that? For the rest of your life?â
Robb smiled softly at the very new venerability in you. Pressing one more kiss to your cheek, he knew you didnât mean only having a kiss. But was he happy with such a kiss was your question. âWait until tonight, Iâll tell what about you Iâve been fantasizing about living with.â
The grin on Robbs face as he pulled away wasnât the charming boyish one earlier. No, this one was far more that of who he was really, a wolf. A wolf who looked you up and down and made you realize that Robb Stark just might not be as dashing and honourable as heâs led you to believe.
A thought that shouldâve made you nervous, but as you walked back to your room, ready to let the girls doll you up and argue about not touching your hair, you started to think that maybe that wolfish grin, actually excited you.
Just when you thought you were going to die of a heart attack, your to be lord father gave you a reason to have a whole new panic. The ceremony was more fancy then any of you involved wanted, not the Starks nor you, but your own father insisted on marrying you off with the royals in toe.
He wasnât here. Your mother neither. Both of them, Lady Catelyn and Selyse were either sickly or caring for the sick and werenât here, but Ned Stark was. He was here, and your own father wasnât. Stannis was not a consistently comforting father, but part of you felt hurt that he wasnât here to see his oldest daughter, his own heir, marry for the first time.
Instead, the man who had seen you raised half your life here, the one who would be your father by marriage once this was done was the one who approached you. Looking out into the distant woods as you clearly struggled to hold your nerves back. âI didnât think this was the thing thatâd worry you so much.â
Spinning around, Lord Stark reached out to steady you with a chuckle. âIâm sorry, I just...this is a lot..was it this nerve wracking when you married Catelyn?â
Not pushing you towards the woods, he stood beside you an arm around your shoulder as he rubbed your upper arm gently. âTerrifying. Iâd rather face a thousand armed men then get married in front of all those people. I certainly wouldnât have wanted someone as delightful as the Queen at mine either.â You huffed a single laugh out and swallowed the rest. âAnd I know I certainly wouldnât want the person I love watch me marry someone else.â
Blood in your veins froze, your heart stopped and nothing but nausea flowed up your lungs. âI-â
He wasnât even angry, or disappointed. He chuckled with a fondness. âIâve seen you spend half your life here, sweet girl. Watched you grow up alongside my own sons, and Iâve watched Jon be in love with you since the first day you ever arrived.â If you cried, youâd mess up the annoying amount of makeup they insisted on, but you felt a sob in your chest. âYou made him happy, and he made you happy. For a time, a long time I thought that was enough. But I also know for a fact that Jon never saw marrying you as an option. He always was painfully aware of who you were.â
You felt the stinging, and you stood still in his hold. Forcing deep breaths to push away the panic.
âThereâs a good number of things I regret about how I raised him. It doesnât feel good knowing that heâs always felt inferior to Robb and now the woman he loves is marrying him too. If I could do it again, would I even be better. Force Roberts hand harder, be more honest with Cat, let him just be a Stark and thereâd be nothing in his way for you. But I didnât do that, nor do I know if I ever shouldâve.â
Looking down, your arms crossed over your chest. âI donât want you to assume Iâm just thinking of Jon while Iâm with Robb, itâs not that. Iâve known Robb for just as long, and weâve always been just as close, save for, you know.â His hand was soothing like a true fathers comfort running up and down what he could reach of your arm.
âHereâs whats going to happen. Iâm going to walk you out there to my son, youâll kneel together before the Weirwood and pray and when you rise youâll be a Stark. Part of you will always be a Baratheon, but youâll also be our family now. And no matter what, wolves always protect those in their pack. Iâm not going to assume the worst of you, because I know you better then that. You and Robb will be good for each other, and just because losing Jon hurts doesnât mean I donât think youâre not willing to love Robb.â
Looking up at him you frustratingly wipe at the tears, and he pulled you into a hug. One that you hadnât felt in a very long time. It had been too long since you felt the hug, the love of a real father. Muttering into your hair, you could feel the same smirk that you could always sense on both brothers. âBesides, I can tell you for certain, having one night with your spouse before being dragged halfway across the country will do wonders for your heart.â
You laughed a lot at that one. Pulling away he looked you over, gently wiping away the rest of the tears on your cheeks. âCome on, sweet girl. You have a wolf waiting for you.â
If you were being honest, it was a blur. There were so many people, and most of them youâd never want present at your wedding in any lifetime. The golden hair of the Lannisters mocked you, the bored and judgmental sneer of your cousin annoyed you, and the silent watching of an Uncle who you barley knew anymore, but you were thankful that this wasnât in a sept.
The crowd silent, no words spoken by anyone except you and Robb. He looked tall and fierce, curls shining more red in the peeking sun through the leaves, eyes bright and blue like the sea as he looked at nothing and no one but you. The fur around his shoulders making him look large like the wolf he was said to be, and soon it too would be yours.
Whatever small words you exchanged, you heard none of it but the blood in your veins. Thankful when Robb took your hand and knelt down with you, facing away from the crowd. The Seven was what you were raised to pray too, but you were a wolf now. And the wolves answered to the Old Gods.
A fate you were perhaps always meant to have, feeling much more heard in your silence of the Weirwood then you ever did in a sept. Eyes open, looking up the carved face at the same time, the crowd was silent, Robb grabbing both your hands to stand as he kept your eyes.
Draping the very fur he wore over your shoulders, he gently pulled you in with two fingers under your chin. This kiss was far softer and fairer then the one you shared in private, but this was also all your anxiety could handle. And Robb knew it.
Were it a more jovial occasion, it was tradition for a northern groom to carry the bride to the feast but Lord Stark had the sense to give you two a moment alone and King Robert was more then happy to direct the crowd to where the wine and food sat.
Your heart racing, Robb gently held your waist with his forehead pressed to yours. Eyes both shut as your hands rested on his chest. You left tomorrow, so all you had was now and tonight.
Itâs what he demanded of you, and what he wanted, but it didnât change the fact that it hurt Jon Snow a great deal to watch you marry his brother, and not once did he ever see the transfixing beauty in your eyes.
You didnât look at him once, and Jon couldnât get to the wall fast enough.
Truth be told, the first big laugh you had was at the sheer idea of your father here. Meals with him, there was no laughter or rambunctious behaviour. Just silence, diplomacy, and the mind numbing dings and clogs of Patchface. No joy in a meal under Stannisâs watch, except for the fool himself. Patchface there who was only lucky enough to be in a job, because gods help her, for whatever reason the fool made Shireen laugh.
You couldnât imagine your father here. The drinking, the laughter, the never ending line of food, talk, and fun. Truth be told, you and Robb spent little time there. You glanced nervously at him more then once, and in your bubble of privacy he would rest a hand on your thigh firmly and a whisper in your ear to at least eat something.
Arya tried many times to come and talk to you, but Sansa yelled at her each time. Telling her to leave the two of you alone, the three of you girls would be in Kings Landing together anyways.
King Robert, on now one too many drinks made an innocuous comment about beds, or sex, or something vaguely incoherent and you and Robb looked to the other. You wide eyed and nervous, but there was something in his that settled it. Leaning to your ear, his voice felt like a rumble. âNormally Iâm for tradition, but Iâll be damned if I let this lot see any of you like that.â
One of the men in the crowd had seen you like that, but with the way Robb looked at you, for once, Jon hadnât crossed your mind. Too much nerves, too much wine, and a fat load of worry about being in a mans bed proper for the first time.
By the time the crowd noticed, Ned just chuckled at Roberts comments about the bride and groom slipping away before a gods honest tradition. âI told Cat I wasnât going to let their be a bedding ceremony because I didnât want to hurt someone on our wedding night.â Shrugging one shoulder, he grinned almost proud. âGlad to know my sonâs the same.â
The worries of what was to come, ended up being broken slightly by the fact that as soon as Robb opened his door, Grey wind was sat in the middle of the bed. Large body splayed out like it was already bed time. Rising his head up at the sound of the door, you ended up bursting into laughter at Robb having to tell him twice to go.
Shutting it behind the growing direwolf, Robb shook his head something snarky on his tongue that died as he looked to you. Draped in his furs, furs that made you look far smaller and the gentle almost innocent look as you stepped around his room. Youâd been in here countless times, slept in here countless times, but never like this.
Trying desperately to hold back your nerves, you looked out the open window focusing on steadying your heart. But the warmth of Robb enveloped your back as he reached over you, closing the windows and sealing you both alone. The crackling of a fire almost enough to hide the shaky breathe as Robb gently ran his hands down your arms.
Resting both on your waist, Robb wrapped one around your stomach, pulling you into his chest. He didnât let you ruminate on the worry, dipping his head to level his mouth with your ear. âIf you donât want this, I need you to tell me.â Freezing in his arms, he spoke almost quieter but it raged so close to your ear. âWe donât have to do anything, but you need to be honest with me about it.â
You felt light on your feet. Youâve never heard this tone from Robb before, never so intimate in your ear and the deep rumblings of his voice felt as if something strong inside was being held back. The act itself scared you, it always had. But another part of you wondered if you should be fearful of the young wolf behind you, or if that fear excited you.
The arm around your stomach rose up, tilting your head to turn slightly to the side, enough that part of him was within your sight as he murmured your name. âI know youâve never done this before, is it just that, that scares you or is it me?â
Shaking your head fervently, you startled him. âNo, no itâs not you. Itâs just- I should know what to expect by now but,â Taking a deep breathe you shut your eyes. âThe girls in Kings Landing all talk about men and their first time like itâs painful, violent.â
Robb chuckled deeply, vibrating through his chest into your back and down between your legs. It was a dark laugh, and you felt overwhelmed at how little you really considered what he might be like. âItâs only painful if the man is a worthless, brute who thinks getting off is better then getting their lady off.â
Was your chest heaving with you hard you felt yourself breathing, your eyebrows raised and lips slightly parted you felt more waves between your legs and having it all be because of Robb was more then enough to leave you speechless. Reading your body like a book, Robb leaned down more, brushing his lips against your neck. Grinning at the sigh you unknowingly let out.
Turning slightly more you could see him a bit better. âWill it hurt?â
Smiling like a predator, he pulled you closer to him. âOnly if you want it to.â Laughing at your breathless expression, asking why some women would want it to hurt. He moved a hand to your hip and pressed his lips closer to your jaw. âDonât worry. If you want it, weâll get there. Tonightâs not about that though.â
Suddenly pulling away he yanked his cloak enough that it slipped from your shoulders and pooled onto the ground. Turning you in his arms, Robb gripped the sides of your dress tightly in his fists before pulling it up and off you. The fact that you let him do that, not telling him how little you had on underneath might have been a dangerous idea.
Usually such a dress was worn with layers underneath, and yet, all that remained on you was that which covered your most lower regions. Your softness, plush skin, and tits all on display. Holding your hips, Robb closed his eyes breathing deep for a moment. âFor a girl whose never done this before, this is awfully naughty of you.â
Indeed was the charming boy no longer here, but a man, a wolf looking at his mate like prey.
Swallowing the pounding in your heart, you reached up to Robb, slowly pulling layers up and off of him for yourself. His hands were much more confident then yours were currently, but he stood still watching and letting you undress him at your own pace.
Staring was impolite, and yet Robb didnât mind as you looked at his chest now totally free. Just as your fingers reached for his pants he snatched your hands. Raising them in the air as you gasped in surprise.
âThis is about you. Lay down for me.â
Watching you with dark eyes, you couldnât ignore how intensely he looked you up and down as you lay back on the top of his bed. Your palms bracing you up before being tossed back down as Robb suddenly climbed up the bed and over top of you. A hand on each side of your head as he leaned down to press a soft kiss to your lips. âDo you trust me?â
Without even considering it, you answered the raw truth. âAlways.â
One hand reached up, grabbing your jaw roughly as he pulled your lips back to his. This time he kissed you nothing like before. His kiss was rough, demanding and deep. Guiding your every move and commanding that you obey. He tugged your hip with his other hand up to press into his own and as you gasped, he slipped his tongue into your mouth.
Lightheaded, you surrendered to his touch. As if all will of your own bled out onto the bed leaving nothing but Robb to command you as he pleases, and yet the idea didnât scare you the way it was described by others. Your hands reached up and grasped his waist, a small sound leaving your mouth into his.
Switching between tasting you with his tongue and biting at your lips it, Robb let go of your jaw and ran it behind your head and grasped your hair tightly. Pressing his body down firmly, his hips naturally rutted into yours. He smirked as you gasped.
The rougher he kissed you, the more your hands moved on their own. Reaching behind his neck and wrapping around it to sink into his hair he ground his hips into you harder. A gentle moan leaving you, Robb left your lips, running the same ferocity down your neck. His lips and teeth no doubt leaving marks that a proper lady should be ashamed of.
He didnât quite stop, kissing down your neck more until he reached your breasts. Grinning at how hard you were breathing, he stopped that right in itâs tracks as his hands cupped your chest. A needy cry left your lips, turning to a longer moan as Robb ran this thumbs over your nipples. Just as one hand grasped one, did he lower his mouth to bite at the other.
Pleasure shooting through you, your back arched into his body and limbs felt like they seized from the pleasure. His teeth switching between a gentle nibble and a harsher bite just to pull a gasp from you, he played you like an instrument. Getting every sound from your pretty lips that made his cock that much harder.
Pulling away, he hovered over you looking down at the almost in awe expression. You werenât used to such a side to this man, and he seemed to reveal in your innocence over it. Leaning back more, you followed the sight of his dark eyes, parted lips and down his chest to where he hands slowly pulled at his pants.
Swallowing hard, he tilted your head up his a hand firmly at your jaw. âKeep your eyes on me.â Not letting you look down as he stripped himself bare. âGood girl, keep them on me and only me.â Slowly moving down the bed he pulled your hips to, grabbing your underwear and pulling them down.
The coolness of outside did nothing to take away how warm and wet you were between your legs, and Robb forced you to stay on his face. Making you look at his eyes, greedily pushing your knees apart and expression turning dark as he stared at you. A slightly whimper leaving you, he leaned back over you, one hand running over your thigh, first on the outside, then inside, and slowly upwards.
Just as he reached you, Robb bit at your bottom lip. Using the chance to slip his tongue inside you just as he ran his hand over you. Cupping you entirely and already he smirked into the kiss at how soaked you were. Lips brushing yours as he pulled back enough to speak, his fingers gently running back and forth across your soaked slit. âGood girls donât get this wet, do they?â
Shaking your head no, all you could do was hear his voice. Eye slipping closed as your legs shook and a coil within you twisted at such an easy touch. Robb continued. âNo, good girls are sweet and innocent. This doesnât feel very innocent to me.â Two fingers now soaked danced up and ran across your clit.
Jumping at the shock of pleasure, you grasped him by the shoulders with a whine. âItâs all for you-â
Stammering the words out as Robb now rubbed tight circles against your clit. Your muscles tensing and his own hips refusing to let you close them you had to just take it. His other fingers still soaking up whatever you drenched him with. âI know it is. You ready for me to open you up? Make you cum before you take me?â
Youâd say yes to pretty much anything Robb asked of you right now. Nodding, you leaned up to kiss him, making him smile into your lips as he slipped two soaked fingers deep inside to his knuckles. You gasped so loudly, were the windows not closed no doubt the outside world wouldâve heard you. Sinking them deep in one go, you writhed in his touch.
Robb slowly slid them out and back, the wetness between you making the sound obscene, but it was the only music Robb could stand to hear. He never picked up the pace, but he did, right as you tensed in his touch? Stopped rubbing at your clit, and slit a third finger down to sink inside you with the others.
You cried his name and he kissed down your neck as he slowly pumped them inside of you. Clenching around his fingers he bit your skin harder trying to force his cock to shut up. Screaming at him like a howling wolf to just take you already.
Pulling back from your lips he looked you in the eye, feeling you clench around him as your sounds grew higher. Something burned hot inside of you as the other twisted and turned so tightly. One free hand, Robb ran over your lips, and something sweet inside you, pressed a gentle kiss to his fingers as he did so.
In return? He ran his thumb roughly over your clit as pumped his fingers slow and deep into you as you came around them. You moaned his name, but muffled it as Robb gently sunk two fingers into your mouth at the same time. One hand grasped his wrist, and yet even as you came something inside you obeyed like you were a submitting prey.
Robb almost snarled at how well you sucked on his fingers, and how he wished you two had more time then tonight. He couldnât stop the thought of how beautiful you would look on your knees before him, obediently sucking on his cock with his hand guiding you up and down his length tight in your hair.
Pulling out of you Robb pulled your body up to press against his bare one and kissed you full of tongue and a greedy desperation. A desperation you yearned for back. It was a strained rasp of your own in his ear that had him shudder. âPlease, Robb. Please fuck me.â
It didnât even occur to you to try and be sweet or innocent about it. You could feel his cock pressing against you between your still shaking legs and you felt lightheaded at how thick it felt against you. Kissing your ear, he murmured much more gentle, âAre you sure?â As you nodded he bit your earlobe and hissed into it. âOut loud.â
Nodding again, your hands wrapped around his neck as you kissed him. âIâm sure, I want you.â
Kneeling up on the bed, Robb ran his hand gently down the side of your body. His dark eyes soft for just a little while longer, as you felt something in your chest at him. Pulling your hips more up into his lap you think you understood why he kept his eyes on you.
His chest led down to coarse, rough hair surrounding a long, thick cock that you wondered if it would even fully fit in your hand. Your chest heaved as you stared, and he slipped into a deeper tone. âItâs not polite to stare.â
Slipping a hand behind your head, Robb kept you looking down, watching as he ran the tip of his cock over your entrance, up brushing against your clit and back down. Barley sliding in each time until you begged his name once more. This time Robb watched your eyes, as he kept your head looking down to watch him slide his cock inside you.
He was thick, and the stretch itself stung in a way that made you gasp but not a pain that you had feared from it. No, the deeper he sunk the more you soaked his cock. Only halfway in, Robb tugged your hair to look up at him before he in a much more punishing thrust, bottomed out.
His face snarled at how tight, how warm and soaking wet you cunt was and he pulled you right back into an equally as rough kiss. He didnât go fast, but part of him reasoned to go more gentle, and yet?
Your cries, your begs of his name as each slow, rough fuck had your arching your back into his body all the more. Each pound of his cock inside of you slapped loudly in a way that had him grip your hips so tight, you could already feel the bruises.
Sweat built up on both your bodies and you ran your hand through his own increasingly damp curls, scratching his scalp with your nails that had him fuck into you harder each time. For all his talk, little thoughts came to his mind as Robb fucked you.
Like something of an animal took over and all he could think of was how much he wanted to fuck you more, harder, faster, fill you until his cum spilled out of you and then fill you more. You cried out, nails scratching down his back without even realizing you were doing so, but muffling each sound as you bit into the meat of his shoulder. Robb, fucked you harder and struggled to stay slow.
You clenched tightly, enough that he had to pound into your cunt roughly just to sink as deep as he could inside and pulling away enough he could see tears at the side of your eyes but you rather then begging for mercy, begged for more as you kissed him.
His hands held your knees, pushing as wide as possible as Robb lost composure. Fucking you faster and just as one hand moved to rub at your clit you came around him. Robb leaving your other knee to press his hand against your mouth at how little you could contain your cries.
Fucking into you once, twice, five more times he pushed inside as deep as he could sink and filled you with him. His cum warm and thick, it felt like there was so much more of it then a normal man would have but you let Robb pull you into another kiss, this one rough and sloppy as he filled you with his cum as his tongue did your mouth.
Never leaving, his hands eventually turned soothing, his kiss softer and his voice not commanding but assuring. Telling you how good you did, how perfect you were. Holding you in his arms and him yours, it was just the two of you in that moment and nothing more.
It was only when you started to laugh, did Robb laugh. Yanking you into his chest as he flopped onto his back with you on top of him. Kissing you gently as he ran a hand over your hair. âAye, a man could get used to this.â
He shouldâve let you rest, but he took you once more that night. This time, far less able to hold back how fast and greedy he wanted to be about fucking you. The only downside, was how exhausted the night made you.
Slipping into a deep sleep, that only meant morning would come quicker. And too quick it did.
That morning, you both stayed in bed as long as you could. Robbs back against the wall and you against his chest, far less worried about the lack of clothes either of you still had. âYou were born for this, Robb. Itâs not in you to fail.â
Kissing the side of your head, things were feeling a bit easier, a bit more normal between you even in such an intimate manner. âEveryone says that right up until they fail.â
Rolling your eyes, you turned. Leaving his grasp to gently face him, your body in his lap. Hands on his chest, your eyes often trailed over him. He didnât question your gaze, you had to get used to him as much as he was getting used to you. It was still new, no matter how much a decade and a half of friendship had formed the foundation.
No joke was in your face though. âIâm serious, Robb. Even if you donât believe in yourself?â Shrugging one shoulder you smiled softly, âIâm your wife now, so Iâll just do all the believing for you.â
Squeezing your hip, he rolled his own eyes. âAnd let you do all the work? Weâre a team, remember?â
Saying goodbye to Robb however, was easier then what waited for you outside.
Packing up your hose, you heard the two of them in the distance. âMy mother?â
âShe was very kind.â You tensed slightly, hoping no one noticed but you very much doubted kind was the genuine word Jon should be using. He didnât deserve her ire, not now, not ever.
âNext time I see you, youâll be all in black.â
âIt was always my colour.â
Your eyes closed, trying to tune their goodbye out. You had no right to invade their privacy.
Part of you hoped he would ignore you. You wouldnât have to handle this and you could ignore it, but Jon knew you way better then that. Youâd hate yourself if you left it at this. Reaching over you, Jon pulled part of your things up and secured it without even saying a word. Looking up, he was closer then you thought.
Looking at each other, the responsible thing would be to nod, shake hands, say a cordial goodbye. But Jon stood with his bright eyes, a grey so deep they looked black at times and you wanted to cry. You felt pathetic for being hardly able to hold back such a display of emotions, but the love that Jon had looked at you with for so many years was as strong as it always was.
You had no doubt that you looked just the same.
Jon pulled you into a hug, one too tight and too emotional for the company around and yet neither of you cared. Neither of you knew if this would be the last time, and both of you resented the world for forcing that as a possibility. His hand held you to him from the back of your head as you sunk your face partway into his neck and the other into the fur around him. âI miss you.â
âI miss you.â
Already, even in the others arms, the grieving already begun. Pulling back, you held at his shoulders and he shamelessly cupped the side of your cheeks. âThink I could get to the wall before they catch me, if I kiss you now?â
You burst into a laugh, one bordering too close on a cry. But you tilted your head. âNow or never, Snow.â
The kiss was pressed to your cheek, slow and unrushed before hugging you once more. For too many years you and Jon ignored the inevitability of having to separate like this, and it sat deep and uncomfortable in your stomach to do so. Like leaving the other behind would be a mistake in the long run, but you couldnât understand why your soul screamed at you to not make it. You knelt down, kissing Ghost on the forehead as he licked at your cheek, whispering to him. âProtect him, no matter what you hear me? Next time I see him, you better make sure heâs as healthy as you are now.â
Seeing the other Starks approaching, you two looked at the other one last time so close you could feel the other. You took off with the company as they all headed out to the Kingsroad, giving enough space for Lord Stark to speak to his son alone before they too parted ways.
You couldnât hear what they talked about, but you knew Jon Snow better then anyone to guess. As his father turned to leave, you and Jon looked from the distance at the other once more. You said nothing and neither did he. His life was up north now, and yours is both by Lord Starkâs side and your future with your husband. A future you wanted, and one Jon didnât want to get in the way of. But as you both rode off in opposite directions, that sinking feeling in your gut just screamed louder, the further away you both got.
Neither of you having any idea, what horrors would bring you two back to one another.
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Heart of the Great Wolf
Masterlist
Jon Snow x F!Baratheon!Reader (Slow Burn)
Robb Stark x F!Baratheon!Reader
Pre Series Content and Extras List Here
Part 1:
Wolves of the Lone Stag
Mouth of the Lion's Den
An Intrigue Drenched in Blood
Standing Behind a Betrayal
A War of Tragic Beginning
Part 2:
King and Queen in the North
Shadow of a Fiery Stag
Reunion of New Enemies
Pleasure of Conflicted Desire
The Sanctity of Children
What Lies Beyond The Veil
Part 3:
The Cost of Our Sins
Dragged Through the Violence
Only the Cold
Fire for the King's Blood
Part 4:
Ashes of Various Grey
Plans of Pain and Horror
Afraid of a Ravens Flight
Trust in the Gentle Rasps
Visions in Eyes and Flames
A Bastard or The White Wolf
Part 5:
Home of Bloodsoaked Stone
Blazing Fire of Storming Ice
Ghostly Dreams of Old
Sailing Through the Glow
The Last Dragon
The Winter Rose
Part 6:
The Clash of Three Kings
Shrouded Truth in Sickness
Winged Shadow in the Sky
Light in the Darkest Storms
Peeking the Realms Woes
Blood, Roses and All Lies
Broken Love of the Dead
The Souls Tethered in Death
Wolves of the Past and Back
The Crows and The Sight
Part 7:
A Brewing of New Mystery
Great Wolves of White Mists
Darkness Heavy in a World
Past Becomes the Present
The Thing in the Night
Waving Tides of Turmoil
Greenish White Boodraven
Dark Blood of Blinding Light
And Wait for the Snows
Part 8:
Into the Haunted Forest
Fist of the First Men
Through the Frost Fangs
News From the South
Lies Within the Sunlight
Night of Two Distances
Screams of Cracking Ice
The Final Marching Trek
Fear Overtakes a Night
Wolves Teeth and Claws
Part 9:
Forcing Past Our Safety
One Whirlwind to the Next
Court of the North
Glimpse into the Rains
Scattered Pieces of Truth
Reunions and Realizations
Laws of Gods and Men
A Mockingbirds End
The Cold and the Rats
Blood Filled Danger
Memories of a Dead Past
The Winterfell Sept
Young as Stained Red
Conflicting Boundries and Ties
The Stag Against a Dragon
Proposal Before the Crown
A Dream of Fire
Dancing Around Truths
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medicine
law
business
engineering.
these are all noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life.
but poetry,
beauty,
romance,
love,
these are what we stay alive for.
happy aniversary dead poets society. you make me bawl like a little baby every time.
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saw an elderly woman walking around with a tote bag whose design were the four AO3 fic category squares and she very excitedly asked if i was a reader or a writer bcs nobody else at the con had recognized it, and after telling her that i've been writing fic since fanfic.net, she solemnly nodded and explained that she'd been reading fic since "the days of personal websites" but that she only started writing fanfic when she was 47 and oh my god when i tell you that i genuinely teared up on the spot!!!!! like!!! HELL YEAH???? LITERALLY NEVER TOO OLD TO START WRITING. NEVER TOO OLD TO WRITE AND SHARE YOUR FIC.
her enthusiastic "i'm a very nice and bubbly person, i swear! but i love writing angst and major character death :)" nearly took me the fuck out.
icon. legend. diva. i wish her nothing but a kajillion million comments and kudos. i hope her fic updates crash AO3. i hope she knows i'm promoting her to my personal patron saint of AO3.
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Imagine being in the glade, trapped around by the walls that span high into the sky. Not knowing whatâs in the maze. Unable to sleep most nights, just like the others stuck with you.
One of the most unsettling parts of the glade is the sounds of the maze when the doors slam, shifting walls and grievers screeching in their monstrous voices.
So, on those restless nights, Newt stays with you in your cot. Laying behind you in his side, holding your waist as his hand traces circles on your hip. Whispering to you stories that he comes up with, even if heâs not very good at the creative stuff. (So he just ends up talking about the times Gally tripped on a root, or when Frypan spilled all the salt into his stew.)
Even if itâs a tab suspicious to share a bed, Alby doesnât mind letting you two cuddle up. Especially when youâre scared and his second in command is following you like a dog. Half whipped for you, puppy eyed. Other half willing to bite the heads off anyone who messed with you.
Youâre finally able to fall asleep in his arms, feeling protected from all thatâs unknown outside. But it doesnât matter so much when heâs with you.
Also, him waking up first to Minho teasing him while you lay passed out on his chest.
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do you ever fall for a fictional character so hard that when they are shipped with another character you wanna kill yourself
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fr tho why is everything smutđđ i wanna read angst that would ruin me, make me sick to my stomach and cry like there's no tomorrow bro i want a fanfic that is so devastating that i won't be able to function for the next few months
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opinion warning!
this might be a hot take but i HATE reading bimbo reader fics.
to be specific like hyper feminine reader who's literally the embodiment of a male fantasy and she's just stupid as fuck and has no self respect and is literally only used to furthur the plot by having sex with whoever the oneshot is about. its one thing when the fic actually has depth to it and is genuinely interesting to read, but when reader stops having a personality and good dialogue is when I drop the work because at what point does this become an excuse to literally write vile porn where a man degrades a woman for 6k words while plowing her from the back???? i don't mean to be that guy but we spent tewww long fighting for individuality just to give into the male gaze and turn our characters into literal fleshlights for the sake of kinks and horniness. I do understand the view of "well it's just writing" "well if you don't like it don't read it" "well degradation/dumbification kink" "well self-insert/self-indulgent", but in my personal opinion it gets to a point of being straight porn and feeding into the male fantasy of stupid big tiddy fat booty perfect body dumb bimbo porn bitches and just wanting to write about sex and being able to dumb down the reader to make it easier to write. yes I do dabble in bimbo reader fics sometimes they're cunty as fuck, I literally just read one the other day, but some fics do a very bad job at portraying a dumb sexy reader with a personality.
in no way AT ALL am I shaming writers by posting this because I myself am a mid ass writer and I rarely write anymore anyways so honestly feel free to completely ignore this because if you disagree then why should a random opinion matter to you :)
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