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January 25th 2019

Don’t call it a come back (cause it ain’t)

Yea...... I haven’t given up on my journey but I’ve hit a coupe road bumps over the past couple of weeks. But I’m trying to persevere despite said road bumps.

The good (sort of):

I’ve decided to keep my meals simple and basically identical. So everyday I’ll be eating oatmeal, egg omelets, and some kind of chicken veg stir fry. I just don’t have the money nor the patience to find and cook healthy meals.

Drinking 18oz of water three times a day

I’ve joined a weight loss support group! Found out about it from someone I follow on Instagram and it’s great to finally have some people to talk to that understands me.

The bad:

I’ve decided to quit my fitness pal. The app is always crashing and again I’m too lazy to put in every single ingredient that I’ve eaten in a day. Since I’ve decided to eat the same thing everyday there’s really no need to track my calories considering I know I’m eating at a deficit. Maybe one day I’ll rejoin but not now it’s just adding to my stress tbh.

The ugly:

Because of financial reasons I can’t join a gym and then also, since I live on the third floor I can’t exercise at home because I’ll be making noise over my neighbor’s head. That happened today and I was so embarrassed lmao. I guess what I have to do find an alternative. So I guess running would be one but I’m so self conscious about running. 

Sorry to finish this so abruptly but I have nothing else to say lol.

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January 7th 2019

Hi~ I’m back and I didn’t quit! It’s quite the opposite actually.

Yea so I got the flu Thursday and I still haven’t fully recovered from it. Mostly because I kept going out during my sickest days and wasn’t giving my body the rest it needed. I had assumed that it was just a case of the common cold but my mother soon showed me that I had the full blown influenza. 

Not because of that, I’ll admit I was knocked off my game a bit diet wise. Mostly because I lacked any appetite and I was feeling sorry for myself. I wasn’t too reckless and I did still hold myself accountable by tracking my meals on myfitnesspal. My meals went as followed:

Thursday (1208 cal)

Breakfast: cinnamon raison bagel with peanut butter

Lunch: my mixed veggie bowl

Diner: a deli sandwich

Friday (1200 cal)

Breakfast: skipped

Lunch: a medium sized banana and ginger ale to wash it down

Diner: cinnamon raison bagel and a McDonald’s big mac

Saturday (961 cal)

Breakfast: skipped

Lunch: 2 slices of pepperoni pizza

Dinner: cinnamon raison bagel

Sunday (1120 cal)

Breakfast: a baconeggandcheese with Tropicana orange juice

Lunch: skipped

Diner: cinnamon raison bagel

Snacks: banana

Monday (1240 cal)

Breakfast: cinnamon raison bagel

Lunch: Chipotle bowl (romaine, cheese, tomato, chicken, and black beans)

Dinner: my veggie bowl with added brown rice and teriyaki sauce

Well I’ll write later about myfutnesspal settings because I think that is most important when looking back at my diet the past few days. I’m too tired to do it now lol

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January 2nd 2019

Here’s to day two of my journey!

So today I didn’t post any of my meals because nothing was special or new. I had a cinnamon raison bagel for breakfast, nyc deli sandwich for lunch (they put so much mayo tho smh), two medium fried plantains as a snack (fried in olive oil), and the my beef and mixed veg leftovers for dinner. 

I also rejoined myfitnesspal (for the 4th time) and added my meals to the app. Despite breaking my goal of only consuming meat once a day and eating both fried plantains, I’m happy that this is basically day two of not eating any unnecessary sweets or fast food. Lord knows I wanted to go to the chicken spot and but a three piece wings and fries but I didn’t! 

As I type this tho, I can like feel my stomach groaning. I can’t be real life hungry because I met my calories goal according to myfitnesspal. However, one thing on that: according to the app, I overindulged in fat and sodium. That makes sense since I ate those fried plantains. I guess the next time I eat it I’ll bake them but I’ve never been to fond of baked plantains.

Also I did eat a piece of my grandmothers roti and a chunk of potato. I won’t sweat it tho.

I want to work on controlling my cravings. I find myself making frequent trips to the kitchen at night because I feel peckish. So a new task for me will be curbing my cravings. 

Likewise, another goal of my is changing my diet. I don’t want to “diet per say to lose weight but I want to make better choices that will ensure that I am making gains at losing (want an oxymoron lol). So I want to take on a high carb low fat diet plan.

According to my research I have to:

Avoid

I won’t go cold turkey because I think that will make me crash very quickly. What I will do is try to slowly take these out of my diet. The only real challenges would be cheese (I love cheddar), butter, pizza, potatoes (I love them mashed, fried, and baked) and probably ice cream. 

I will try my best to find healthier alternatives along the way.

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Lunch time?

Since I woke up late my eating schedule it out of whack. Here’s what I made for lunch

One bag of Target-brand mixed veg

Two 3 oz beef burger patties

One can of Target-brand black beans

Season with cajun spices, lemon pepper, black pepper, and a bit of garlic powder

Also put in about 2 tablespoons of low sodium soy sauce and a drizzle of Sriracha sauce for an extra kick

I sprayed the pan with extra virgin olive oil

I split the end product in two separate bowls. 

This is really good. I think I’ll made it a staple but with less soy sauce (the serving size was supposed to be one tablespoon)

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First meal of the day!

Simple breakfast

wheat bread toast with a smidget of butter and about a teaspoon of grape jelly

two medium eggs with a sprinkle of garlic powder and about a palm full of black pepper

and of course a glass of water to top it all off

I cooked all this in a large skillet in about a tablespoon of extra virgin olive oil

Ate at 12:00pm, 1.5 hours after I woke up

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January 1st 2019

Today is the first official day of my weight loss journey!

I have no idea what my current weight is. Last time I checked it was around 190. But I’m pretty sure I gain at least 10 lbs due to stress eating. So alas here I am. I’ve always be fat and I’ve always wanted to loss weight for a lot of factors (school bullying, bullying be my [usually fat] family members, negative body image etc.)

It wasn’t until 2018 that I finally started making strides in my weight loss journey. I lost 20 lbs I the first four months of 2018 just by eating meat once a day, only eating one sweet treat a day (i.e. a snickers bar), and limiting my bread intact (so like bread only for one meal). I usually ate a green smoothie for breakfast or oatmeal, a grilled cheese sandwich for lunch, and a salad for dinner. 

Now, this was during the spring semester of my junior year. So I had everything at my disposal to put in work towards my goal. My dorm was right next to the campus gym, I was living away from my negative family members, and because of my job I had access to raw materials to make my food. 

Even though I would have like to have gone more, in between classes, usually in the morning, I would journey to the gym before my afternoon classes and walk on the treadmill for an hour. I was (and still am) self-conscious about going to the gym. They’re always filled with fit, skinny people, and here I am big as can be trying to lose weight. However, once on my machine I was able to ignore everyone else and just walk with my gym playlist blasting.

But then my journey came to an abrupt halt. For spring break I went to an aunt’s house and weighed myself secretly in her bathroom. I was so excited to saw that despite feeling like I was making no effort, I had managed to lose 20 lbs. It was then that I realized that because my clothes were getting looser and my belt was being buckled tighter, I was actually making progress.

Due to my 20 lbs weight loss, I reward my self by have a cheat day, which completely destroyed my newfound appetite for breakfast smoothies and oatmeal. 

Excited about my discovery I made another error: I told my family members. Of course I got the “I don’t think you should lose anymore weight”. That in combination with my discovery, I regressed. I was upset that I was still medically considered obese and was being told to stop losing weight.

So anyways here I am. New year, new me! I want the year of our lord mother and savior Beyoncé 2019 to be my glo up year! I deserve it for myself and only myself and I refuse to let other deter me! Here’s my route to 150 pounds!

Current weight (estimate): ~190

Goal weight: 150