rottingwiththebugs

[rottingwiththebugs]

well, well um.. you can push me away all you want Ali, but I won’t believe ya until i learn about you for myself! i don’t just believe everything i hear, silly. gotta do my own research, hah- ya know? and hey, even if you do humor me out of sheer boredom, at least I’m entertaining! like your own personal jester in your asks. x-D

terrifier just seems dumb.. though, i guess a lotta horror seems that way to me!! it makes sense that ya like it, though. ack— in a good way, ‘f course!! it’s over the top and unrealistic. a good way to face your fears in a controlled environment, yah know?

and I’m sorry that you don’t have money to buy silly things! but- but friends buy each other stuff- so maybe uh, maybe we could go shopping one of these days!! and I could buy ya stuff. and we could hang out. if you want to be friends, that is!! hah, unless that’s stupid. sorry-

oh! oh yeah!! strong flavors tend to keep me grounded which is why I offered that. spearmint is STRONGG, keeps my brain occupied. though I tend to forget I’m chewing gum, so I end up chewing a piece of rubber for hours at times!! pain uh- I think pain would bring anybody outta their head. im hoping you don’t hurt yourself too, too bad. have you tried that uh! that thing where you flick your wrist with a rubber band! or does that not help?

and - and thank you! I try. to stay empathetic, I mean. I don’t wanna loose myself ‘cuz of what I’ve gone through. I think I’m empathetic, i feel other peoples feelings so strongly, and hell- I feel for inanimate objects. i know they’re not actually going to get upset if i leave them, but I still feel guilty!

hawkmoths are some of the interesting moths, and you’re one of the most interesting people I’ve had the pleasure of speaking with! they also match your whole aesthetic , with the skull on its neck n’ all!

HAH! i meeaaan, maybe, if i know you’re not gonna spend it on dumb shit! gotta make sure I’m making a good investment, ya know? still, I’m not as cool as you! 🐜

but- I don’t understand. I don’t follow. it doesn’t compute— you are a good person!!!!! you listen to me talk when nobody has for fucking years! you answer every question, you actually like me, and make me feel like my words are worth something, and I feel like that in itself makes you worthy of kindness and care.. for dealing with me. loneliness is scary, and it makes ya think ya dont deserve connection—, but let yourself have this without thinkin’ there’s ulterior motives!! if I didn’t wanna talk to to ya, I wouldn’t!

too sappy, antsy! roll it back, reverse—

the terrifier films are a bit boring to me if I’m being honest,, I watched the first 20 minutes of the first terrifier and turned it off because I felt like the real horror was the braincells I was loosing!! @_@

ahh, but I’m not gonna yuck your yum!! you’re havin’ fun with them and that’s good! that’s okay!! do you own any merch from that franchise?

OOH !! what was your favorite movie as a kid? do you still like it now? i dont think i can ever stop liking something once I start, i still love the The Nightmare Before Christmas as much as I did the first time I watched it as a lil’ kiddo!!

and- and I think gum counts as candy, actually!!! my favorite gum flavor is strawberry. funny how it’s a opposite to yours, huh? oh , ya- I like spearmint gum whenever I need to feel grounded. its such a strong flavor, it pulls me outta any itchy scratchy yucky thoughts and makes me feel more in-tune with my surroundings!! maybe you should try that. ^_^

I have a stupid amount of stuffed animals, all thrifted!!! i buy all my clothes from the thrift, so sometimes i’ll see a cute little stuffed animal peeking out from the toy area , and then i feel bad leaving them behind! like, im not a monster!! somebody left them behind and i’ll take em home!! i have too , too many. my bed’s completely overtaken by them!!

my favorite stuffed animal I’ve got’s of a death-head hawkmoth. i think that you’d like them, they give off a similar vibe to you!!! the moth, not the stuffed animal. they’ve got a skull on their backs and they’re black-brown n’ yellow!!! you’d think they’re rad. they remind me of you.

and, woah— right on the money ,, I didn’t know I was that obvious! I didn’t mean to spam-like your stuff. you just.. you’re cool and I got overexcited about learning things about you.

- guess anonymity is over,, @rottingwiththebugs 🐜🐜

nah, i'm not a good person. if you actually knew me, you'd know i'm the vilest piece of shit disguised. just because i let you talk and i answer your questions doesn't mean i'm a good person. it means i'm...lonely. bored.

yeah, the terrifier films aren't to everyone's taste. they're actually stupid as fuck. but the gore keeps me from disassociating, so i like it. i don't own any merch, i'm too broke for that. i'd love to, like, dress up as art the clown one day. that'd be funny. and i'd actually feel okay going outside for once. people would be scared of me instead of the other way around.

sure, i'll try the spearmint gum thing. i don't know if it'd help, though. pain is one of the things that keeps me the most grounded. kind of ironic. since pain is the whole reason i have this fucked up brain in the first place.

it's cute you have so many stuffed animals. you're hella empathetic, you know? i mean—i think you are. don't know if you'd agree. if i'm making it up or something. we're talking through a fucking screen. but, yeah, the hawkmoth thing is sweet. i don't know how i remind you of them—again, the fucking screen thing—but it's nice to actually be thought of.

right on the money, huh? does that mean i win some? only half joking. but i've looked at your blog and your pretty cool, too. i mean, you're talking to me so you must be awesome. joking.

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i’d.. I’d like that, a lot actually. would you want to, caiti? i’ve got my camping van , I’d be able to get us everything we need!! I- I think it’d - it’d be fun! :-D

i fucking hate jersey

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mhm,, the woods are my home. if i had it my way, id live there for the rest of my life. I feel so out of place in Jersey.

i wish.. i had a person to call home. maybe then I wouldn’t wanna run so bad.. :-(

i fucking hate jersey

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i don’t think anybody likes it here. do you ever…

do you ever yearn.. for a home you’ve never had?

i fucking hate jersey

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no! nonono!! talking is good! rambling is good! showing emotions is good!!! all these things are good , caiti! that, i think i can promise!!

what happened? to make you feel like talking is a bad thing??

i'm so fucking desperate, can i shut the fuck up for once? what is wrong with me???

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do we never escape the drop-kickable puppet?

well uh.. I sure did get a new car!! was scrollin’ through facebook marketplace and somebody was sellin’ a camper van for 8000$. i sold my rustbucket car and scooped that thing UP!

i think it’s a lindy camper? that’s what the guy told me. i called off of work tomorrow so i can decorate the interior and make it mine!! ive been collecting fun bumper stickers and little car decorations for whenever i got a better car.

with this van.. I could actually travel the world and do somethin’ with my life.. hm.. or maybe i’ll just make it live-inable .. maybe somebody’ll need that comfort one day!!!

I’ve got silly ghostbusters bumper stickers, and bug bumper stickers, and those “honk if you ___!” stickers. i had no idea you weren’t supposed to honk !! :-((

I hope people honk when they see mine. that’s a more fun reason that those bumper stickers exist!!!

[rottingwiththebugs]

well uh.. I sure did get a new car!! was scrollin’ through facebook marketplace and somebody was sellin’ a camper van for 8000$. i sold my rustbucket car and scooped that thing UP!

i think it’s a lindy camper? that’s what the guy told me. i called off of work tomorrow so i can decorate the interior and make it mine!! ive been collecting fun bumper stickers and little car decorations for whenever i got a better car.

with this van.. I could actually travel the world and do somethin’ with my life.. hm.. or maybe i’ll just make it live-inable .. maybe somebody’ll need that comfort one day!!!

I’ve got silly ghostbusters bumper stickers, and bug bumper stickers, and those “honk if you ___!” stickers. i had no idea you weren’t supposed to honk !! :-((

I hope people honk when they see mine. that’s a more fun reason that those bumper stickers exist!!!

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i think- i think nobody’s pure, but- but we can be!!! to somebody we’re pure, to somebody we’re worth adorin’!!

beauty is what’s closest to the earth, I think. each body part, every insecurity, looks just a little bit like a bit of nature! the rivers- the rivers run down the silent earth like stretch-marks run down stomachs and thighs, the deer have freckles , the trees are tall and the rabbits are short.

anger is held by the ferocious lion and sensitivity is held by the softest fawn. everything anybody could hate about themselves is connected to Mother Nature herself. after all, how is beauty that is living anything but true? physical or personality wise, every possible thing somebody could hate about themselves is something found in the beauty of the woods!!

ain’t that what beauty is? something we can find in everything ? :-D

hi tobi. i like your name. maybe i'm a bit biased with names ending in 'i' though, huh?

-( @waitforcaiti)

hie!!! thank you thank you!!! if i were as cool as you id be biased to names like my own , too!

i like your name as well… do you know if it means anything? do you think that names have to have meaning to be pretty? what’s your idea of beauty?

because- because beauty is subjective. and i want to know what’s beautiful to you!! humans are funny like that. all these words have meaning and all these meanings are so irrelevant as well because meaning is subjective too!!

funny how things work, right?

im sorry for rambling.

[rottingwiththebugs]

hi tobi. i like your name. maybe i'm a bit biased with names ending in 'i' though, huh?

-( @waitforcaiti)

hie!!! thank you thank you!!! if i were as cool as you id be biased to names like my own , too!

i like your name as well… do you know if it means anything? do you think that names have to have meaning to be pretty? what’s your idea of beauty?

because- because beauty is subjective. and i want to know what’s beautiful to you!! humans are funny like that. all these words have meaning and all these meanings are so irrelevant as well because meaning is subjective too!!

funny how things work, right?

im sorry for rambling.

[rottingwiththebugs]

Do you like oatmeal cinnamon cookies?

i like oatmeal in general! so, ya!!! ohh those sound good. i could go for those about now..

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.. okay.

yeah.. if you want to, I’d like that. to be friends, I mean!!

are you REALLY okay, Tobi Roach?

… i can tell when people are trying to push me out . i can never tell if it’s a trauma response or a hatred for me…

im not as stupid as people think i am..

i want friends. i have so much to say, so many ideas, so much love, but I don’t think friends want me.

maybe it’s for the better…? that people are off-put by me?

maybe i ask too many questions. maybe i talk too much. maybe i say the wrong thing too much. maybe there’s logical reasons to hate me…

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yellow spotted isopod for invertober on Instagram !

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glimpse into my beautiful imaginary world where arthropods are really big and we domesticated them

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you .. want to be friends? with me? are you sure? i’d- i’d talk your ear off, tell ya’ things you probably already know, annoy you to death— im a pest, really!!!

are you sure? i know I can be a good friend even if I don’t have many, but I have so many qualities that people perceive as off-putting. i don’t want to upset you by being me..

are you REALLY okay, Tobi Roach?

… i can tell when people are trying to push me out . i can never tell if it’s a trauma response or a hatred for me…

im not as stupid as people think i am..

i want friends. i have so much to say, so many ideas, so much love, but I don’t think friends want me.

maybe it’s for the better…? that people are off-put by me?

maybe i ask too many questions. maybe i talk too much. maybe i say the wrong thing too much. maybe there’s logical reasons to hate me…

[rottingwiththebugs]

are you REALLY okay, Tobi Roach?

… i can tell when people are trying to push me out . i can never tell if it’s a trauma response or a hatred for me…

im not as stupid as people think i am..

i want friends. i have so much to say, so many ideas, so much love, but I don’t think friends want me.

maybe it’s for the better…? that people are off-put by me?

maybe i ask too many questions. maybe i talk too much. maybe i say the wrong thing too much. maybe there’s logical reasons to hate me…

[rottingwiththebugs]

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favorite music artist? personally I dont pick favorites because it’s really just to hard for me to even try to pick a favorite when there are LITERALLY so many songs oit thereblike what?? what do you mean who is my favorite actually what the fick do yog mean how should i choose rhat!!!!! no but anyways i know some people CAN pick favorites so who is your favorite?? or your top five or top ten or top fifty or whatever idk also i think you would really really enjoy giraffe weevils because wevils in general are funy guys but why does he look like that? in a good way i mean! like buddy who told you to come out here being rhe insect world’s long necked menace??? come on now, that’s rediculous in every way possible stop why are you black and red you weirfo. okay anyways yeah favorite song favorite artist something like that !

HIII HI HI HI HIIII !!!!!!! ^_^

MYYY favorite music artist is !!!! chapppelll roaannnn anddd haley heynderickx aaaanddd the beatles AND THE SMITHS!!! and phoebe bridgers she’s cool too. their music all have different vibes from each other but it’s fun!!! my favorite songs from each!!!! are!!! okay so so - so I like guilty pleasure by chappell roan aaaaand no face by haley heynderickx and hey jude by the beatles aaandddd AND !!! and this night has opened my eyes by the smiths aaanddd kyoto by phoebe bridgers!! picking favorites is so super duper hard but I know i liek these guyz over other music artists !!! tickles my ears betterer than the resta em. but im like a bird, ya know??? a silly parrot who bopsss his head to everything!!!!! i listen to everything and bop my head round’ to most anything ever at all. i think if i were a parrot I’d be a green cheek conure because they’re silly . OOH OR A LOVEBIRD!!! birds are cool. I feed a little army of crows near my apartments and they follow me around. it’s great. uh- um- oh yeah!! music.. what was my original point.. I’ve been listenin’ to the radio rather than my cds more on the way to work and i really like please please please by sabrina carpenter. and that darn taylor swift character’s tunes are boppin!!

i enjoy all bugs !!!! i am unbiased to most bugs but weevils and isopods have a extra special place in my heart because they’re just extra silly and especially interesting! i guess beetles by extension would have a special place in my heart!!!! giraffe weevils actually fight with their extra long necks , precisely like the animailia they were named after!! curiously , their color does not indicate danger!! they can’t bite or sting, they’re completely harmless to us!! also best mother of the year award goes to these guys, for wrapping their eggs in a leaf so their baby gets food in their first moments for existing!! nomnom

thank youuu for your questions!!! I appreciate you. is this what they call matching your freak?