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lowkey just a ramble feel free to ignore !!

bruh this might be a bit of a rant but the key to living a good life is taking away whatever inhibits your sense of self, whatever stops you from feeling like you're living a life you're meant to. like this summer i graduated high school and i realized that a lot of the time i hung around with people not because they made me feel like ME but because they made me feel less alone. and when those fake friendships fell apart, it was like everything came together and i met my people. i acted more authentically and blessings poured in because i was no longer pretending to fit a certain life that was catered to a completely different person than who i truly was.

i used to have debilitating anxiety and insecurities in general, and the moment that i stopped indulging in habits, patterns, and people (who were bad for me...not necessarily bad things in general) i started feeling so much better. do the things in your life really make you feel better or are they just the illusive options that you settle for because you're scared if you let go you won't get anything better?

my suffering came from the belief of permanence and my desire to hold onto it. had i not dropped that idea, my 'permanence' right now would be full of desperate, broken things. the emptiness hurts but afterwards, it does fill with beautiful things. it's like soil, becoming richer. a seed bursts open, a plant grows, it dies, and the soil consumes it, therefore becoming richer once more. that might be a shitty analogy but that's what i mean. of course as humans it is hard for us to chase after the idea of anything BUT permanence, for that equals security in our eyes, and we value stability more than things that are temporary, but in reality, the things that don't last forever are actually the greatest blessings we have.

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A man that wants you will make time for you

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daily mess pt 2

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𝖧𝗈𝗐 𝗍𝗈 𝗅𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗅 𝗎𝗉 𝗌𝗈 𝗁𝖺𝗋𝖽 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝖿𝖺𝗌𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗂𝗍 𝖿𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗌 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝖼𝗁𝖾𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀?

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Bringing to you - your no bullshit level up guide. Push yourself to live by all that I’ve written down and watch your life change for the best 💋.

⊹ ! ೀ Pile 1 ꒱

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Right away, anyone who wants to start a small business, go for it.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Do you know that Michael Jackson used to get up and jot down song ideas as soon as he got them, even if it was at 3 a.m. because he used to believe that if he didn’t, God would give that idea to his rival Prince? You’re being told to jot things down too especially ideas and revelations.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Look for problems everywhere you go, write them down and think of ways to fix them. Start from something small and go from there because that’s how you’ll build this skill overtime.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ You’re being told to start even if you start small.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ “The world doesn’t only reward when you do well, it rewards you when you just… do.”

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Some of you tend to really like book/movie characters who display courage, bravery and leadership. Typical Gryffindor traits if you’re into Harry Potter. The elder brother from ‘the Chronicles of Narnia’ and Keith Powers’ character in ‘Uglies’ are coming through too. You’d be attracted to such people in real life as well but you’re being told to figure out what it is that you like about them and try to develop those qualities within yourself. If you don’t know where to start, you can start by making a list of all these characters and their traits. Then, look for similarities and think of ways to inculcate these qualities within yourself.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Remain active mentally because “an idle mind is the Devil’s workshop.”

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Prioritise physical activity as well.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ You are attracted to people who are unabashedly themselves. Some of you might have a fire sign ruled seventh house, fire venus or mars. Also, great leaders like I stated before because you might feel like despite wanting to handle things, you sometimes lack the capacity to manage things properly. For some of you this is because you are unsure and question yourself so you sort of freeze? Like, you wait for someone to tell you the right way to do it or want to see someone else do it first. You’re being told to identify ways in which you are unsure, shrink and limit yourself, and to break free from all of that.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ If there’s any toxic attachment making you feel like shit and draining you off your energy, sucking your life force out of you, get rid of that first.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ I need you to be really self assured, confident and unwilling to diminish yourself in any way, and under any circumstances. You’re very sensitive to little details and changes. You notice everything - their body language, passive aggressive comment, the way someone talks down to someone younger than them, when their energy towards you even subtly shifts. You might be confused as to whether it’s real or imagined but the thing is, you’re not supposed to be nonchalant, you’re supposed to be passionate with a big aura and when you, and your aura take up so much space, people might feel insecure causing them to be annoyed at you for no reason. Due to how sensitive you are to energy, you might get uncomfortable and shrink yourself to make yourself more digestible to others, you need to stop that.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Also, keep in mind that power dynamics are a very real thing. We live in a generation full of wannabe celebrities so if you approach people or reach out to them first mostly, they’ll get comfortable being in that position with you. Enjoy the joys of being pursued and if/when you’re not, focus on your own goals. When people do come forward to you and treat you well, treat them well too and remain loving, and nurturing. However, if anyone comes in, disappears, comes in and disappears again, and you don’t like it, get rid of them completely. To do all of what I’ve mentioned, it’s important to develop comfort in being alone.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ You’re being told to love and nurture without attachment. If you try to look at people, truly look at them, deeper than what’s on the surface, you’re going to find cracks that you can fill with your love but you need to be able to do so without any attachment or expectation at all. So, if you don’t want to do it, you don’t have to do it. In fact, to channel this love and nurturing, I suggest you extend yourself to either kids or those in need who you don’t seek personal connections with so that you don’t feel at a loss of any sort. Observe people so that you can figure out when, where and how they need you.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Stay observant and if you are the type to sneakily draw information out about people through indirect sources without anyone figuring out what it is that you’re doing, continue.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ You are likely to receive information intuitively, through fears, paranoia and dreams, DO NOT IGNORE THEM.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ There are certain toxic patterns and issues that you need to heal. In order to do so, you need to delve into your psyche and expose yourself to your fears, ugliness, darker, and dirtier sides and truly see yourself. You’re going to have to face many illusions brought about by strange and intense feelings that you’ve never felt before, and it’s going to cause you to know yourself deeper and step into your power. Explore your depth because as scary as it may be, it is beautiful. In fact, I’d go as far as to say that it’s a privilege because so many people go through life without knowing themselves.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ To not have attachments is not to be unloved but to be free. You can love without attachments and in fact, that’s when you experience the true beauty of love because it comes from a place of wholeness rather than need, and it doesn’t trigger fears and insecurities. Please know that you control your mind and not the other way around. Anytime that feelings of need, possessiveness and fears about losing someone come up, remember that it is not a healthy energy for you to be in. Rather than expecting eternity from people and connections, try to understand their present moment and support them through it. If they leave, let them, you’ll be fine. DO NOT STEP OUT OF YOUR POWER FOR ANYONE. I just heard “no attachment or connection is worth losing yourself over.”

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Love moves people and personal connections are where this love is expressed so train yourself to not feel dutiful, and be present in the daily lives of those who do not try to do the same for you. Don’t be loyal to people without a title and always seek to know your place in their lives so that you don’t overplay your part.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Don’t see a long term future with just anyone you meet. Always be willing to leave potential as well as actual long term connections even if it means being alone in case of any disrespect, disloyalty and unreliability. Obviously, people cannot be a good friend or lover a hundred percent of the time because they are individuals with different temperaments than your own. For example, sometimes you might say that you need space because you’re overwhelmed but might actually need someone to hug you while you cry your eyes out. They might give you space but that doesn’t mean they don’t care, it just means that they’re different from you. However, if they love you, they WILL try. They might try to cheer you up with your favourite sweet treat later or might try to crack jokes to pull you out of that energy. If they’re more of the emotional type, they might try to figure out what’s up. So while you should be understanding of people’s individual tendencies, you should also know that love moves and if they loved you, they would try. So if becoming absent becomes a pattern, if it remains continuous for longer than you’d like, you can and should choose what’s best for you, and that is to walk away.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Learn how to be alone and expose yourself to the struggles of others i.e. those who actually need you and not those who you want to form personal connections with. Try to help them and when you’ll do so, you’ll feel better about yourself, develop better leadership skills, develop more culture and compassion, and will overtime feel so needed, loved and valuable that you won’t have the kind of mindset to stay attached to people, and connections that aren’t as real as they come.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ You’re meant for deep interpersonal connections that are ride-or-die in nature. You’re the type to stick with people through thick and thin, and help them in any way that you can, you deserve the same. Do not settle for anything less.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Look to take care of yourself and enhance your appearance, and do things that make you feel pretty because that’ll enhance your aura, and help you express your personality more confidently. Take a bath with essential oils, light a scented candle or any candle for that fact, you can try affirmations while bathing and looking into the mirror or just look into the mirror while taking a bath, feel good about yourself, your naked form. Take your wellness and beauty routines seriously, and do not slack off.

Focus on staying disciplined regarding all of the above. Make it your own personal mantra and watch your life shift. Anyone who wants to report back on their progress may do so at any time. All the best 🩷.

⊹ ! ೀ Pile 2 ꒱

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Some of you seem to be considering leaving home or some institution that involves a community. For some of you, this either never was or is no longer the right space for you to be in. The only way that I can describe how you might feel in this environment is by saying that you might feel like you’re left out in the woods, unaware of what’s there. There could be anything - coyotes, wolves, ANYTHING and you have to constantly worry about your safety. For some of you, you simply just want to leave despite the above not resonating. I would say, if you have sufficient funds, go for it.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ You are a highly responsible person and are carrying the burden of home, and family heavily on your shoulders. This isn’t even new, you’ve been doing so ever since you were a child. Some of you might literally have a bad posture due to it. If not a bad posture, some of you have asymmetrical shoulders. You’re being told that it’s about time you let go of these burdens.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ You deserve the space to grow and pursue your goals. Take that space.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Take care of yourself, your health and appearance.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Become self sufficient and avoid making excuses regarding it. “I want to start a business but I don’t have enough money.” Okay, save. “I want to learn basic life skills but don’t have the time to do so.” Okay, do it on the weekends. “I wish I was good at ___.” TRY TO LEARN AND DEVELOP THAT SKILL THEN. Just… do it, please.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ If you take care of yourself and feel good, think good, look good, you are going to feel more self assured.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Pursue your goals and if you don’t have any, get some.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ If you aren’t already. Please create some movement in your life, I’m begging you 🙏🏼.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ For some of you, you are going through an unstable time and need to rebuild. Even for those who aren’t, there was something that you’ve rebuilt from, and are still rebuilding from. In life, there are going to be many moments that will push you close to breaking. Make sure that you’re so stable, grounded and have so much going for you, and in the best way that you do not break and fall.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Romanticise life and flirt with it, and not in a ‘sad girl’ way but instead a ‘girls just wanna have fun’, ‘successful’, ‘high hopes’ and ‘hall of fame’ kind of way.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Never question your worthiness for romance and commitment, and don’t expect it out of people but instead, have an active life in which you stay winning, are focused and others naturally gravitate towards you.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ If any of you are worried about disappointing your family, becoming a black sheep and ‘what will people think?’ Kindly, get over it.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ You are being told to go after your dreams, build a life that you’re content with and let go of what’s familiar.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ It’s extremely important that you are fine by yourself and happy with the life that you build for yourself, independent of others.

Your reading was very to the point and I would say that it’s good because you don’t have too much that you need to keep in mind. Focus on staying disciplined regarding all of the above. Make it your own personal mantra and watch your life shift. Anyone who wants to report back on their progress may do so at any time. All the best 🩷.

⊹ ! ೀ Pile 3 ꒱

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ If you’re considering hyaluronic acid for the face, you should go for it.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Retinol, vitamin c and niacinamide for the body would help too. Possibly for the face for some of you but I’m hesitant to recommend the first one to all of you because some of you have really sensitive skin or really dry skin. Some have hit the jackpot and have both.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Be a loving and empathetic person, and present yourself softly but maintain your power by not letting your compassion override your judgement. Do not let yourself feel trapped into any situation.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Some of you have many insecurities causing you to overwork and overdo for people, and there’s often a mismatched level of dedication. Like, even when you do a lot, it doesn’t get you the kind of results that you want causing you to feel insecure but you’re being told that certain connections are supposed to come to an end. Think about it, love moves people, why would you want to be with people who are not moved by you then?

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Humans are creatures of habit so as long as you’re around, and connected to people who bring out this side of you, it’s going to be near impossible to change. You can still do so but you’re being told to end something for real.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Life is too short, if something or someone makes you feel bad, just get rid of it, just get rid of them.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ If you continue stalling, the universe is going to trigger these endings for you whether you like them or not. For some of you, you are already going through this. You’re being told that you are going to have to be in survival for a while, try to remain ever gentle with yourself.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ You are going to go borderline insane for a while but that’s how you’re going to tame yourself and reclaim your power.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ You’re being told to let go of attachments and to not put in too much effort into connections. Instead, extend back where you receive.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ What happens when you do a lot for people who do not return it is that you start questioning yourself and initially, it’s just one question regarding “why aren’t they?” But overtime, it turns into insecurity, limiting beliefs and feeling trapped because you’ve invested so much but unable to leave for the very same reason. Just, stop it okay? Put in effort only where it’s deserved.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Focus on your own money, family and provision. Investing into your own life will never betray you. Being stable and having stable finances will never betray you.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ You’re being told to develop an almost stoic approach to life. Also, to maintain hope where and when it may seem impossible.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ If there’s a long term, no commitment or low effort connection, GET OUT.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ You’re someone who literally cannot do anything casual. You’re not meant for it.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ There seems to be some situation that is clearly not showing any growth and hasn’t in a while but instead of being curious about the future, some of you are remaining committed to this situation, and are putting effort into it while the other person is manipulating and using you, and honestly might have always been. Some of you have gotten out of it but are going through a really unstable time.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ You know, salt never gets infested by ants but sugar does. Due to how much you tend to do, you attract manipulative people who try to use you. You need to seriously start gatekeeping yourself.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ You possess a youthful and curious charm in which you have a lot of eagerness to learn but you come off a bit naive. So some people think that you’re dumb? You aren’t. You’re someone with interesting insights and randomly get revelations out of nowhere. You’re being told not to share this with just anyone but to continue being curious and learning from people, and life itself.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ You have the ability to outdo and manipulate your manipulators. Use it in your favour if you’d like.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ However, you possess a lot of integrity and love, and are not one for games. So, you should just continue operating as is when it comes to this part of yourself.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ You need to develop a backbone. You don’t have to speak up for yourself physically (though, you can if you want to) but you need to assert yourself action wise.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ You deserve and require protectors, and providers in your circle. If you can’t find that, be that for yourself.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Focus on your own stability, happiness and passion. Also, if you find a community, do for them without expectations. It’s going to help you become more self assured and develop leadership, and whatever other entrepreneurial skills are there.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Take care of yourself and your appearance. It’s important for you to build your self worth back up.

̷ ♡ㅤ ๋ Look for the finer things in life, not materialistically but in terms of abundance, connection and comfort. Go where you’re happy, leave where you’re not, go where you’re respected, leave where you’re not.

Your reading was very to the point and I would say that it’s good because you don’t have too much that you need to keep in mind. Focus on staying disciplined regarding all of the above. Make it your own personal mantra and watch your life shift. Anyone who wants to report back on their progress may do so at any time. All the best 🩷.

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　　 ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ˚　　 ▒ ‎ ‎ why people love you . . . [pick-a-pile!!]

why the people around you value you and treasure you. can be specific, non-specific, romantic, platonic, etc. as always, if it doesn't resonate, don't force it to, i may not be the tarot reader for you. enjoy and take care of yourself bby 💋 much love.

p1.

you're very outspoken when it comes to talking about things that matter, but you do so in a very stable, non-fiery way. you're very calm most of the time, patient, and soft, but you're able to use your voice in a very powerful way when it needs to be used like that. people value you because you have a very naive-like view of the world; that is to say, they like how you hope for the best, however they worry because sometimes you wear your rose-colored glasses a bit too much. many people in your life may be pessimists and realists, and they want to protect you from your view of the world, which can easily leave you hurt. a lot of you are also catalysts; living, breathing ones. you bring change forward to other people's lives, not just lovers; friends, family members, etc. you change things without even noticing it. this can cause both positive and negative reactions in people, but for you, the right people have overwhelmingly positive reactions to this quality of yours.

others also appreciate your dependability. you're a person who has strong morals, yes, but if need be, you're willing to sacrifice your beliefs to help someone out (not in like...a murderous way. but you're very loyal, if that makes sense? you don't drop someone when it gets hard). people also like you because you make them feel like the chosen option out of many. you're very careful with who you let into your life, so your priorities are always very visible, which makes people feel happy-go-lucky because when someone as closed off as you chooses someone, it's a very good feeling. people also love you because you're not rigid. you go with the flow and you're not the kind of person to panic when something goes wrong, and in turn, this calms other people down. being with you is like sitting next to the ocean, watching the waves hit the sand. you're at peace because you know that while you may not see it, this beauty exists somewhere, somewhere you can always reach.

this is another thing i'm channeling, but it's kind of hard to put into words, but i'll try - a lot of people are aware that you're someone temporary in their life meant to serve a specific purpose, so they are truly, genuinely grateful for everything they have with you. many mourn your absence when your presence disappears. you're not easily forgettable, and many people from the past still think about you very fondly. a lot of you are also treasured by a large amount of people, diverse - you leave footprints on anyone and everyone. much love, pile 1.

p2.

LMAOAOA you give wife energy. not depending on your gender. but people wanna take you away because you have a very grounding, stable presence. people can tell that you're damn special, so be proud of it. it's not just a feeling of ego in you; you deserve to feel that way. the empress, the high priestess. also, a lot of you don't talk to a lot of people about vulnerable things, so when you do? people know it. and they wanna keep all that for themselves. you're isolated a lot of the time and you genuinely prefer alone time over spending time with others. you guys give morticia addams vibes. a lot of you struggled with making space for others to love you in your life, but recently, you healed that, and now many people are like damn so i can love you fr? platonically, romantically. people just want to have you because you show that you're someone who is ready to be steady.

you guys are also good at giving advice and just caring about people in general. big giver energy. you're someone who listens to others problems and you give advice without expecting anything to return to you. some of you also have a rebellious streak and you might argue easily, but this is a very endearing quality. you can appear childlike and whimsical, but that's what makes you *you*. even if it seems a bit silly or offputting to people - those are the WRONG people. so be yourself. that's why so many people adore you and want you in their life. you are literally such a rich person to be around, and you don't even realize it. it makes people confused and if you ever notice someone being weird, it can be cause of jealousy, because a lot of y'all genuinely don't understand how beautiful you are.

a lot of you are also very deep people, strongly intertwined with your emotions, the spiritual, moments in life. you don't like making temporary connections and this leaves you with a strong impact on the people that you do keep in your life. simultaneously, you feel like home to others, but also exploration. your ability to be with people no matter who they are and find joy in moments even if it's as 'lame' as grocery shopping makes other people fall in love with you (platonically, romantically). you make the moment itself special with your presence, even if it's something that's dim or simple. never doubt your beauty. much love, pile 2.

p3.

most of you have like. something in your features that gives off a specific vibe. like dead eyes, angular cheeks, beautiful hair, etc. something specific that is like your niche. and people go wild for this. a lot of people value you because they know that you've worked very hard to get to where you are now, and they understand that you're a very wise person. people can see how tired you are sometimes and they just wanna hold you and support you. there's something here about other people wanting to support you, like pillars; they wanna give you things and give you a good network because many of you had dark pasts that you CLAWED your way out of, because you were brave. still are, by the way - keep your head up, love.

people also love you because of your unwavering belief in your future. you daydream a lot, and you genuinely believe that people will get good in their life. you also treat everyone very sweetly despite all of the horrors you've been through, and people like how your love feels like. very motherly; like those faint memories of being a child and seeing your mother's face blur above you, knowing you're safe. you have very special energy, for those here who are of the feminine collective; you make masculines feel very like. present in their own energy. if that makes sense. for the masculines, vice versa. people also love you because of your ability to express yourself so widely and carefully. you're very open, and everyone can see all the fractures in you split apart to create pretty stained glass.

you also offer many opportunities to others. people can see you as anything in their life, just as long as you stay. people are terrified of losing you. your whole aura leaves behind a trail, and a lot of the time, unfortunately people only realize how much you meant to them when you leave. which is a good thing. don't look back. real people recognize your worth from the beginning and they do their best to show you that you're appreciated and loved. people also love you because of the way others love you; they can see how others carry so much feelings for you, and they mimic that, because after all, that is a human instinct. much love, pile 3.

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guys so much is happening in my personal life like i think i'm gonna be in a situationship or something , some family issues, college, etc...and i'm totally nottt gonna lose my marbles 😛😛 i might be in a hiatus for a while because it's a lot...but i'll be back around august 20th!! i may upload a pac between that but don't expect me to be as active as i am now. thank you so much angels, much love to you all 💗

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last time i made a poll about this i accidentally made it last a short time and also i had less followers so i'm doing it again !! (sorry to those who have already responded). since i'm 18 now, i will be offering paid readings once i find a good platform (no refunds though, so if you do end up getting one, make sure that you are okay with that). the readings will be 1k-2k words each, and i think i will make them either 6.50 or 7.00 (ya girl is going to college and i need that cash but i'll still be uploading pacs so if it's not affordable for you, dw.)

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　　 ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ˚　　 ▒ ‎ ‎ ‎ fall 2025. . .[pick-a-pile].

a pick-a-pile reading about what lies ahead of you. yes, i know it's only august 2nd...but i'm pretending it's already autumn i am tired of burning alive. pick an image; mavis, elvira, or raven. enjoy, and as always, if this doesn't resonate, don't force it to.

p1 ; mavis.

first off, your intuition about the vibes of this autumn is probably on point, so reach within and think about what you're seeing. not what you're HOPING to see, but what you truly feel, deep in your gut. a lot of you will be completely breaking away with everything you have from a place. can be a toxic mindset, toxic environment, toxic person. whatever it is, it's worth it. you're gonna try and (physically, spiritually, emotionally...etc.) try to take everything away with you to leave, but some of the things you're carrying are dead. leave them in the past. you'll get new things in a new beginning, but certain aspects of your life cannot move forward with you. you will NOT be able to start a new beginning until you have space for new things. right now, you may feel a sense of fear or curiosity for the upcoming season, and what you don't know is not meant for you to know. the universe is being mysterious on purpose. don't obsessively keep reading pick-a-piles for ANY topic. there's a lot of duality in these cards, so i think that you'll be in a very emotion-heavy season, then. a lot of experiences that may change your morals, your worldview, or the general perception you have of literally everything. a lot of you may be fearing this new start and you'll be scrabbling to get away, but i think you'll be taken away. many of you may stumble upon a new person who is more...extroverted than you, or affectionate, and they'll take you with them. they might be protective over you, or want to help you with your issues, but you'll be very hesitant to give that kind of power/control to anyone. you may have grown up in a tumultuous family where love was something that didn't exist, and you perceive all kinds of unions as something evil, something controlled by lust, greed, etc. never love. the truth is that these are your worst thoughts coming up, and they're not stable. the stable answer is that things vary. i'm just a tarot reader, and i can't promise all of you that this autumn, you'll meet some hot dude or chick and your problems will fall away. but things are rarely as bad as we want them to be. many of you may have a 'problem' that you have to fix by/in autumn, and this is all in your head. it's not as hard to fix as you think. don't try to scramble to keep your head up above water when the water ain't that deep anyways. and let yourself feel that vulnerable feeling. let yourself connect with people. not everyone wants to hurt you. you don't need to keep hiding because you're scared of abandonment. there are genuine people out there and this season will force you to see that, force you to let go of all those old fears you have. you are a better person than you think, and you're fair, and you're beautiful, smart, unique - so don't give up on finding love. and when it finds you, don't push it away. much love, pile 1. don't lose hope.

p2 ; elvira.

a lot of you will be more confident this autumn. you guys will be feeling very vulnerable but also much better than you have before. a lot of you may have felt a bit insecure during summer for whatever reason, but this new season will be like a cleansing shower. a lot of you may also lie low during autumn if that makes sense - hustling more, taking care of yourself, and being generally careful about who you interact with. despite your tendencies to keep to yourself, you will be absolutely bright to other people. get ready to get noticed. you may think that's nothing happening when it comes to it, but that's because you're very inwardly drawn and you rarely care enough about fleeting interactions to read into them so deeply to discover what they mean. many of you may feel overwhelmed with the future, either right now, or in autumn - it'll feel as if so many opportunities present themselves to you, but you already have your hands full, but also, you're the kind of person who's generally unable to relax. you guys have a lot of issues with that. day free from work? nah, i'll not rest and i'll do something else instead. many of you, when stressed, push yourself into toxic masculine energy. you escape the problem by drowning it out until you realize it's all around you, so keep in mind that the answer never lies in anything else but itself. you won't feel better by killing your thoughts with however you cope. you will also be freed of some sort of responsibility this autumn, something you've been awaiting for. a lot of you will realize that in some situation, you're needed, but not wanted. and you'll realize that you deserve better as a person, and you'll leave. a lot of you need to stop thinking that the world will fall if you don't do something. let people suffer if they are unwilling to do something as simple as being grateful for you. i don't think that's ego, necessarily. also, i feel like a lot of you may meet your match; either self-realization and you start to truly realize who you are, or you meet someone else who exhibits the same exact tendencies as you and you're like 'yo what the hell is this'. a lot of you have yet to realize who you truly are because while you are a very contemplative person, you hesitate from truly looking deep inside yourself because you are terrified that someone will perceive you as hideous and disgusting, and you try to not think of your self-image. however, you'll be forced to see it, this season - and this won't be a bad thing. it may feel like a lot then, seeing who you are - through yourself or a different person, but at the same time, you'll feel much calmer, because you'll understand that no matter what, you cannot be taken away from yourself. you'll find a home in yourself, or in the other person. this can be a friend, a lover, a mentor, yourself, etc. it's very different for each and every one of you. much love, pile 2. don't give up.

p3 ; raven.

this will definitely be a more fruitful season for a lot of you. many will feel as if a large weight has been lifted off of their shoulders, and you'll be able to release the perpetual anxiety that may have been haunting you for the past weeks. those of you who have been having difficulties managing different aspects of your life will be able to wield them with a less heavy hand, and many of you may be staying up late, either for your job, or simply because you're a night owl and enjoy the alone time. some of you may make new social media accounts because you need to physically be assured that there's a 'new beginning'. overall, this is a very good season for you, is what i'm getting. you'll be happy, and you may not have felt this happiness in a while, and you'll be sitting down, watching the sunset, and reminiscing about how good you have it now. it takes hard work. so remember that everything you're doing now sets you up for the next season. that doesn't mean that you shouldn't take breaks and you should keep working until you're a shell of who you used to be, but you need to take a deep breath and realize that sometimes, you can't do more than you already are. a lot of you also struggle with processing emotions and in the start of autumn, i think many of you might cry a lot, or sit down and just let yourself feel. you can't ward off pain forever, and it's not even pain, in your case. just pent up thoughts that you pushed away due to fear of feeling too much or breaking down. after this, you'll feel much better, as if a sense of calm had washed over you. decisions are very important so don't do bad things. don't fall into bad habits. talk to someone. people treasure you very deeply, and they don't wanna have you suffering. got it? and stop trying to appeal to people who you wouldn't take advice from. i think a lot of you fail to realize that you are the kind of person who will end up okay because you're willing to stand strong, to not give up. that's all we need to succeed. but you guys have very bad control issues that will be broken by the end of summer, maybe through a small act or a big one, and it'll make you let go. this autumn you'll feel more refreshed largely due to the fact that you took a deep breath and didn't let yourself try to hold everything together. no one is strong enough to do that, and breaking down is a sign to not hold onto things that strongly. something will have fallen away from your life by the end of summer, however, in autumn, more things will fall into place. new people. new jobs. new places. you won't have to constantly torture yourself with visions of the past that aches in your belly. right now, just now it'll end up better. keep being you. keep your chin up. much love, pile 3.

[rotagnus]

"Remember that tarot readings are not definitive answers. Cards offer guidance, but at the end YOU have the power to shape your future. It is important that you take care of yourself, and that you act consequently."

[rotagnus]

READING FOR AUGUST 2025

Hello there! This is your monthly tarot read. Pick a pile, from left to right, and take whatever reasonates with you the most.

𝐏𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝟏 — 🅃🄷🄴 🄿🄸🄽🄺 🄰🄽🄶🄴🄻

You’re in a place right now where everything is boring to you. Offerings are not good enough, the weather is not good enough, people around you are not good enough, your appearance is not good enough, even your ideas and work are not good enough. Everything feels stale and in the same place. You could be young, like a teenager or someone below the 20s, and I feel that you thought things were going to change once you hit a certain age. Naturally, you and the world around you were going to change, or so you thought, and that didn’t happen. And as much as you want to be frustrated about it, you’re just disappointed. So you just sit back, almost giving up on everything, and are not confronting the truth. The truth is: things are going to remain the same if you keep doing the same things. Choosing the same safe option, staying in the same place or being with the same people. And the people that you hang out with, do they bring the best out of you? Are you not surrounded with too much noisy and unnecessary gossip, and conversations that lack logic? Maybe that’s what is draining you. Maybe that’s what’s fogging your mind, and making you feel like a coward sometimes. Because if you’re not confronting the truth, you’re avoiding it and it feels like cowardice.

However, you have an idea or you will be given an offering. I feel like it’s something so small you’re not going to give it much thought. Something casual that is not part of your daily routine. Maybe you say hi to a person that’s always there and you only started noticing them now? Perhaps you rearrange something about your appearance, styling your hair, putting on makeup, experimenting a new style of clothing? Attending a new coffee spot, or something that opened recently where you can eat and drink during the day, either by yourself or with a new person? And somehow, that little action, whatever it might be, will start to change things in your life. Or better, will prompt you to want to start changing stuff.

The cards’ advice is for you to grab on to that action and opportunity, don’t stay stuck in boredom and don’t do reckless things just because you’re bored.

𝐂𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐬 𝐏𝐮𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐝: Ace of Wands (upright), Page of Swords (reversed) & Four of Cups (upright)

𝐏𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝟐 — 🅃🄷🄴 🄱🄻🅄🄴 🄽🄰🅁🄲🄸🅂🅂🅄🅂

First of all, are you an Aquarius sun sign? Or do you have an air sign in your big three (sun/moon/rising) or your mercury sign, in special Aquarius? You’re giving vibes of being someone totally in control in terms of your mind and your emotions, and knowing when to be cool-headed and when to be compassionate. Being focused comes easy to you, you rely more on your head than your heart, although you still see the importance of balancing your intellect with your feelings. You seem to be a person mature for your age, but not from trauma or a need to be so, but it’s just your personality. You’re the voice of reason and you know how to hold your ground with composure. I feel like the next month has abundance, creativity and pleasure in store for you. You’re going to be collecting the fruits of what you planted, and the results are going to satisfy you. Maybe next month you have planned to return to your hometown or the place that is really meaningful for your inner child, either for vacation or to live there. You’re going to have a lot of nostalgia and childhood memories, in particular the golden memories, hitting you hard. You might get a little emotional next month as a result. I feel like children are quite important as well, either you’re going to connect with your inner child a lot or you’re going to be surrounded by children. Maybe you’re going to reconnect with someone meaningful from your past, or just meet them by accident and catch up on, and in conversation you’ll realise both your lives are so, so different from what they were once, and maybe there is almost nothing that you identify in that person with you, and this can go both ways, and that is okay. You’ll have a glimpse of what could have been for you in that conversation. I see that this person has golden brown hair and a sunny personality.

If you’re actually going on vacation, it might be a honeymoon or a friend group vacation. I see lots of pleasure, both physical and mental, but specifically your pleasure, like you are being pleased in some way. You’ll be really fertile next month, and although it can be physical too, I see that is mostly mentally for you. Lots of ideas, your creativity is going to boost a lot. If you’re an artist and you're currently in a creative block, it will pass.

The cards’ advice for you is to be free, relax and enjoy your time. You deserve it.

𝐂𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐬 𝐏𝐮𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐝: The Empress (upright), King of Swords (upright) & Six of Cups (upright)

𝐏𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝟑 — 🅃🄷🄴 🄱🅄🄱🄱🄻🄴 🄲🄰🅃

You have a fear of letting go of something, someone or a situation. You currently have this mindset where you trap and hurt yourself over and over again, and you don’t let go of this pattern because it’s familiar to you, it’s sort of a comforting zone to you. I feel like you have been in this cycle for a long time, which makes it even harder to let it go. An unhealthy attachment. And the thing is, you are a very compassionate, lovely and generous person. You have so much love to give and thoughts to share, a golden heart and a child soul. I feel like you are a highly empathetic individual, and highly aware of others behaviours and quirks, and maybe you may be a little bit of a people pleaser. So, it’s very unfair for you not to be compassionate and empathic for yourself as you are for others. You are a person too, remember that. You may feel like a victim right now and it is probably because you are, and I feel this is caused by a person or an event that occurred in your life. But you can’t let guilt and fear gulp you alive. This is no way to move on, heal yourself and live. And the following month has liberation and freedom for you. It feels like it would come easily to you, you’ll open your eyes this time, take the veil off your eyes, and realise that there is an escape to this situation. The thing you need to know is that you have or you will have people that will support you, but you need to do it yourself first and take the first step to help yourself. And in helping yourself, you’re allowing others to do it too and take care of you. Just know that you are a sensitive and emotional person and there is nothing wrong with that. It’s just how you are, and there is strength and beauty in that.

The cards’ advice is do not fear release, do not fear the change that will come, it’s coming for the best even if it’s terrifying. You’ll see.

𝐂𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐬 𝐏𝐮𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐝: King of Cups (upright), The Hanged Man (reversed) & Eight of Swords (reversed)

𝐏𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝟒 — 🅃🄷🄴 🄴🄻🄴🄲🅃🅁🄸🄲 🄳🄰🄽🄲🄴🅁

I have a feeling that you are in a grey cloudy day for a long time now. Like, it’s not even grey, it’s just been so colorless for so long you don’t even know what the sight of color is like anymore. Maybe you have been grieving someone or something, or maybe you have been locked with your depression and dark thoughts alone for some time. But now? It’s going to be time to move on. To recover, regain the reins of your life, and start heading to that bumpy healing journey. You don’t have to force yourself, just one step at a time. Treat yourself kindly and don’t compare yourself to others. Not every person is the same. And not every person’s healing journey is the same. I feel major bad vibes around you, your intuition might be clouded and failing you or maybe there are too many big mouths around you. If you feel inclined to share personal stuff, don’t do it. This is time for secrecy from your part. Focus on yourself. Forgive what you have to forgive in order to make peace with yourself and move on. Your inner world needs attention right now. It’s not time to be stagnant, otherwise you’ll start growing roots and it will be harder later to uproot yourself.

You have been saving up and protecting your money pretty heavily, very close to your heart. You have the power to be secure and financially stable right now, you don’t have to worry about if you’ll have enough money at the end of the month. You know you will. But make sure you don’t use your money to shield your heart and block your heart chakra. Remember, you are heading towards healing. There is no need to jump or overlook steps, or make the road even bumpier. The thing is, I feel like you don’t give yourself enough credit for stuff you went through and things you accomplished. Or, better written, you don’t validate them. At all. Maybe that is a good way to start healing. The parts of ourselves that we don’t look at or acknowledge are the ones needing all our attention.

The cards’ advice is to take your time to figure things out, and know that, through your healing, colors will slowly return to your sky.

𝐂𝐚𝐫𝐝���� 𝐏𝐮𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐝: The High Priestess (reversed), Four of Pentacles (upright) & Five of Cups (reversed)

[rotagnus]

i wanna be soul to soul

[rotagnus]

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　　 ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ˚　　 ▒ ‎ ‎ ‎who you are, in this person's eyes.

a pick-a-pile about how this person has decorated you within their imagination. the good, the bad; the accurate, the inaccurate.

p1.

signs: black cat. vultures. 333. purple clothing. meditation. canaries. frutiger aero. childhood nostalgia. anything to do with the number 6. eating food late at night. acceptance of life.

they definitely think that you went through something tragic. you ever look at a person and you're like "yeahhh they got that empty gaze in their eyes" or you see some sadness within their face that's perpetually there? that's what they see you as. to them you're like a martyr, and they may not see you as someone who's positive, and if you are - to them, that's a facade. i don't think many of you interacted with this person deeply, and majority of what they know about you are what people around you have spoken about. they may dream about you and they themselves may be spiritually attuned, so if you have gone through something, then they're simply very intuitive as a person. they're not an obsessive type of person, because they have their own shit to go through; in fact, they may have some sympathy to you because pain recognizes pain. they think that you wallow in your grief, however, they also see you as a go-getter, building everything from nothing. an alchemist of sorts, because you seem to attract people very easily. they can also tell that there's more depth to you than you let on, but they're generally hesitant about you as a person; they're not usually distrusting, but with you - you don't show what you feel very easily, and they can see you change faces between interactions. they understand that there's a lot more to you than you like to let on, which is why they're hesitant. they may be envious (not in a toxic way, but the normal way, if you understand) of you but they don't understand how hard you built yourself up. a certain quality they may be jealous of is your success, or they may be proud of you regarding something. the energy is unclear and i don't know if it's positive or negative, but they definitely don't have a deep-rooted envy towards you.

p2.

signs: birds. elevated areas. insects. silverfish. difference in eating patterns. unicorns. elegance. diamonds. tanks. brutality. dancing. 27, 26, 41, 14, 9.

they think you're a very sleek individual. you may appear to be having features that go well together; either very sharp features, or very soft features, y'know what i mean? you look very put together. they may think that you have a good demeanor and similarly to pile 1, that you have worked very hard for what you got. they see you as someone who's a very interesting person; perhaps you're a foreigner or you have different qualities to them, because they perceive you as rather unique, in their eyes. they think you have a lot of passion for something. maybe a hobby, maybe politics. they also think you're lucky. some may daydream about you; you're a very charming individual to them, even though they most likely don't know a lot about you. they also think you have your hands full; either that your life is fulfilling, or that you're always busy, hustling and bustling. they also see you as smart and innovative, with offers to give. some can perceive you as vengeful and someone who keeps grief tucked in between their teeth at all times. there's this feeling they have about you, where they see through you, and see the parts of you that you really hate. they're a very perceptive person and they see right through you, so i would not recommend trying to lie or play out a fake persona around them. be honest. that's the quickest way to get this person's attention, don't try to pretend you're special. ANYWAYS. they think that you win easily, or that you possess strength. some may go to the gym, or are in a position of power at a job or are simply the eldest child or even a parent. you guys exude strength, but they also wanna let you break down, a little bit, if they've read that much into you. they know that people can't be strong all the time, and it's a little bit confusing how you haven't crumbled. resilient, yes. balancing emotions, yes. but everybody needs a break.

p3.

signs: aquariums. bladerunner 2077. dc comics. halloween time. sugar fixations. rice. nightgowns. white blossoms. appointment coming up. leaps of faith. wind. monsoons.

ahaha they think you're a very valuable person. not in a specific way, other than that you exude such a strong energy of stability. they may think/assume that people are attracted to you very easily, or that your life is relatively easy. however, they do think that this is deserved; they see your morals and your justice, and they understand that you deserve the greatness that you reap day by day. many of them think that you do this with ease; the way that you move may be fluid and soft, and you guys may have a physically softer appearance, with features that aren't extremely sharp. a lot of you have a lot of feminine qualities, not necessarily physically, but you may be motherly or have it balanced/more of those aspects than the divine masculine. however, you guys also know when to speak up, and you don't let your desire to be a good person break your right to talk about things that upset you. they like how you have strong boundaries, but that's also something intimidating for them because for a lot of their life they didn't have that. they may have gone through shit through their childhood and their parents didn't really raise them the way yours did, which can mean many different things depending on who's reading this right now. they may come off as a troublemaker/rebel and they have the impression that you're a balanced person, even if you're not. they also think that you hold way more power than you do (no offense) to the point of idealization (keep in mind this isn't necessarily platonic or romantic). you are this great emblem in their eyes, because you curate your presentation very easily. you may post a lot on social media and they're very influenced by whatever you put on your page, y'know? they may be a bit chronically online.

[rotagnus]

question

guys this may be a bit odd but i dont have anyone to ask as my parents immigrated to the u.s. and didn't attend uni or anything but how easy is it to get a job in college when it's like. a college town? i know this may be a bit niche so if you don't know it's okay!! i'm trying to decide when i should apply for some because i move in on the 20th of august and idk if they're competitive or not

[rotagnus]

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR A THOUSAND FOLLOWERS!!! this is the best day-after-birthday gift ever 😊😊 i love you all very much. please make sure to take care of yourselves very much. my schedule starts to get hectic mid-august but prior to then i'll try to make enough pacs to keep u guys happy <3 moving to uni and lookin for jobs to pay loans may be hard so i dunno my uploading schedule but i'll do my best to balance life

[rotagnus]

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　　 ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ˚　　 ▒ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ₊ general + next phase pick-a-pile.

hiii guys!! i hope you're all doing well. this pick-a-pile will go into depth about the next phase of your life, as well as general things you may want to know. if it does not resonate, don't force it to. i may not be the reader for you.

pile 1.

shadow card: the hierophant.

cards pulled: the hermit. 10 of pentacles. 8 of cups. knight of swords.

a lot of you seem to be tired of always having to be the strong one, the smart one. because of this, you tend to feel isolated from everybody else. being highly aware, spiritually and also just simply by itself, is no easy job. during this phase, you're probably yearning so badly for someone (could be a general figure - could be a specific person) to just hold you and let you be vulnerable. you feel as if things would fall apart without you; which is partially ego, and partially the truth. but i think you have to turn back from bringing so much wealth to everybody else. of course, some of you may deem this to be a cowardly thing to do. it does not matter what untender souls see your actions as. those who truly are meant for you will see your actions as realistic, not as unfair. i think many of you are currently fulfilled in one sector of your life, but with the rest, you're feeling very hungry for something else. many of you may have more-or-less stable jobs, or maybe a stable figure in your life; a friend, a parent, a coworker, someone who fulfills their certain aspect, but that's not what you're craving right now, and it's completely eating you alive. i think a lot of you daydream about being able to just let go and not do anything anymore, just so you can stop caring so much about holding everything together no matter what. what i'm understanding is that a lot of you really do need this period of life, no matter how tasteless it is. a lot of you refuse to actually think about yourself when it comes to a period of isolation, and instead, you're waiting for it to end. take a deep breath, take a journal, and see to it that you write down all you want for the next phase of your life. this isn't moving quickly for a reason. the universe has not betrayed you. just because others have connections that are flourishing before yours doesn't mean anything. you are damn successful, damn talented, and the reason you feel so lonely isn't because you're the person you are. maybe the people coming into your life are unready themselves. don't rush timing that is divine. i know it makes some of you furious and angry, despite your love for the spiritual and the universe, but you guys have to reign that in and channel it to something good. i don't think it's a wise idea for you to keep stressing so much about things you know won't move on until you finish that certain lesson. and i'm sorry for disappointing those of you who were hoping for some new romance, or something that's more reassuring than this, but perhaps the next pick-a-pile you pick up will have that in it, after you've recovered this lesson. don't try to rush through phases. others will disappear just as quickly if you shoo this one away. much love, pile 1.

pile 2.

shadow card: the devil.

cards pulled: queen of pentacles.* 5 of cups. 10 of cups. 2 of wands.

hello to my passionate, fiery people. i see you and i hear you. you guys want a lot but you will work hard for it, and you understand that to get good things, you must work in a good manner. many of you are struggling with having faith in the universe right now. things don't seem to be giving you reassurance and you may be binging tarot readings and asking for signs left to right. so. relax. listen. one sign is enough. and you need to actually rest instead of panicking. i know it's hard, but the end outcome is good. but you can't destroy yourself over worries all the time. take a deep breath and relax. write down why you're worrying. i think a lot of you are recovering from a time period where it seemed to you that you have it all, and it disappeared. you're not recognizing that good things are coming for you, albeit slowly. you're self-sabotaging and self-isolating, and maybe some of you fell into bad habits again. sure, you have some things you want. people may be calling you pretty. they may be wanting you. just not in the soul-deep way you crave. you guys feel desperate and heartbroken and it seems like life is just not for you. here's a big hug from me to you, pile 2.

some of you may wanna cling onto the past that actually hurt you way more, because you're scared that the next part of your life won't work out. maybe you're not sure if you should leave your current, draining job because you're not certain when you can get the next one. maybe you wanna transfer homes. maybe you wanna end a bad relationship. the answer to this (and listen, with big decisions...make sure you don't entirely trust tarot readers. trust your gut first) is to LEAVEEEE. no matter how scared you are. i mentioned you were hardworking. this will do you good in the long run. you guys know you're fully capable of fixing situations, you're just scared because from your viewpoint, it all seems a little murky and terrifying right now. but you know you can't stay as you are, so you should go before you're pushed to. i think that the outcome you want is entirely possible, entirely realistic. but you were not meant to have an easy life. you as a soul crave difficulties because you wanna grow. and not everyone wants to. so that's a good thing, and i know how tired you are, babe, but you got this. baby steps. some of you may be getting a new job or financial opportunity soon. i think that many of you may take it. also, there are some things coming up that i can sense, however they are not meant for you to know right now, my dear. much love, pile 2.

*(pile 3 also had that card pulled so maybe some things from there will resonate with you! don't judge i didn't do the readings in order 😭)

pile 3.

shadow card: temperance.

cards pulled: ace of swords. page of wands. queen of pentacles. four of pentacles.

i think most of you have a pretty stable phase of your life, currently. it's not exactly good, but it's not exactly bad, so you're just going with the flow. i feel like you guys are able to find beauty in everything, in the slight moments of today, even if it's literally one of the most painful, terrible days you've went through. many of you may resonate with the saying 'this too, shall pass'. as people, many of you can come off as somber and quiet, very guarded, but once someone gets to know you, you're very loving, doting, maybe even obsessive to a certain degree. you hold yourself to a high bar and you cannot disappoint yourself by rejecting someone in need of help, which has led you to be used and abused. your inability to say no hindered a large part of your life. anyways, that was channeled, so take it as you do. but i think the most important thing for you to do right now is to let go. let go of the outcomes you're so strongly expecting, especially the bad. let yourself dream. that's the beauty of life. everyone experiences miracles, and yet people do not often speak of them. that is why everyone is so convinced nothing good happens. let yourself think about the things you want that seem unreachable. stop trying to force yourself to settle for something realistic; but don't shy away from what you immediately deem as that, either. things change once you get to know them. people, too. this is a new beginning that will be serving justice for each and every figure in your life; mainly yourself. so think about the past. realize that one cannot be entirely bad, nor entirely good. we are all memories melded together into a structure made of several different things. many of you try to force a certain experience or certain people to be entirely angelic or entirely devilish, and this quality will not serve you during this phase of your life. also, some of you seem to deal with insecurity. chin up, honey. you're all that and more. stop worrying about trying to be smaller so some stupid shitheads can accept you for less than what you are. let all that love and authenticity pour out of you, don't just hold it for yourself. the truth is that you shouldn't care about the opinions of others as heavily as you do. people come and go. the insecure ones put confident, beautiful ones down. you don't need certain qualities to be confident, you just are. so stop being so sad. you're absolutely breathtakingly gorgeous, smart, and just have that spark within you. so no more of that, honey. people will pour love into you once you break through all these phases, in the next part of your life. start to try to let yourself be a bit more free. this cage is one you built, therefore one you can get out of. much love, pile 3.