rosejphoenix

[rosejphoenix]

I hate that I'm happy for finance triggered weight loss

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Finally I'm down to 120.5lbs (54.6kg)

Due to difficult financial times so I haven't satisfied any cravings, even if I wanted to. Only spending where absolutely necessary, and mainly eating bead, jam, and coffee.

I've been trying since 2023 to loose weight by eating healthy and exercising at an attempt to improve overall as a person. But financial struggles are causing restrictions on my eating. Unlike my ed calorie or health based restrictions, it's based on costs and how long it'll last. Bread was a fear food because of the calories, but now I eat it because its 39p

I want to eat vegetables and fruits and proteins. I want calorie/health based restrictions not because it's all I can afford. My ed restrictions is an internal mental factor. But this is an external factor

I cannot help but rejoice over my weight loss despite going against my wishes to be healthy and improve overall. My ed is too grateful for being broke, that wishing that it happened years ago, and that it'd stay this way. Despite stressing over rent, bills, and travel, and despite how desperate I've become it get any money.

My ed is willing to do absolutely anything if it means I loose any amount of weight. Seeing such determination put into practice, honestly scares me so much.

But I have been successful in loosing weight

[rosejphoenix]

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Went back to the family home for my brothers birthday (after having only been away for about 18 days) and my Nan said that she thinks I lost some weight. I hate when she mentions anything on the subject tbh. But I denied it because I honestly thought my weight hadn’t changed. I hadn’t weighed myself since the summer (about 6 months ago) when I was trying to eat 3 meals a day while helping my depression. Since I was eating more it was triggering for both my Ed an depression to see myself hit my highest weight again, hence why I stopped.

But I weighed myself this morning, still doubtful, but I couldn’t help it. But I have. I’ve lost weight. I’ve lost 10lbs from HW to CW and I’m so surprised and happy

[rosejphoenix]

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Just realised that I’ve lost almost 10lbs from HW to CW

With my unofficial daily weigh ins it’s exactly 10lbs :) but my official weigh ins that I take note of only happen once a week so... I hope I don’t gain at least until my next official weigh in

[rosejphoenix]

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Some handspo that'll be going on my instagram 💙💙💙

#handspo #handthinspo #handinspo #instagram

#proana #thinspo #anorexic #anorexia #ed

[rosejphoenix]

Look at my art and calligraphy skills 💙💙💙

#art #calligraphy

#proana #thinspo #anorexic #anorexia #ed

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Some pink pastel thinspo 💕💕💕

#pink #pastelthinspo

#proana #thinspo #anorexic #anorexia #ed

[rosejphoenix]

Coffee thinpsooooo

💜💜💜Love me some coffee💜💜💜

#proana #anorexia #thinspo #coffee #coffeethinspo

[rosejphoenix]

When I gain weight due to my period 💜💜💜

#bts #kimnajoon #rm #rapmonster

#proana #thinspo #anorexic #anorexia #ed

[rosejphoenix]

Beautiful hand thinspo💙💙💙

#proana #thinspo #anorexic #anorexia #ed #handspo #handthinspo #piano

[rosejphoenix]

Drawing to distract from eating 💜💜💜

#bts #v #kpop #kimtaehyung #fanart #chibi #chibiv #drawing #dnabts #dna

#proana #thinspo #anorexic #anorexia #ed

[rosejphoenix]

What I did to distract from eating 💜💜💜

#bts #blackpink #kpop #suga #minyoongi #lomocards #kurokonobasket #tokyoghoul #assassinationclasssroom #kimsohyun #bleach #hitsugayatoshiro #anime #manga

#proana #thinspo #anorexic #anorexia #ed

[rosejphoenix]

In a moment of logic, I realise what I eat is lower than recommended 💜💜💜

#bts #jungkook #jungshook #jeonjungkook

#proana #thinspo #anorexic #anorexia #ed

[rosejphoenix]

Just some kpop thinspo 💙💙💙

#kpop

#proana #thinspo #anorexic #anorexia #ed

[rosejphoenix]

Some Gugudan Kang Mina weightloss thinspo 💙💙💙

#Gugudan #Kangmina #produce101 #kpop

#proana #thinspo #anorexic #anorexia #ed

[rosejphoenix]

Some IU thinspo 💛💛💛

#kpop #iu #leejieun

#proana #thinspo #anorexic #anorexia #ed

[rosejphoenix]

Some blackpink guess thinspo 🖤💕🖤

#blackpink #kpop #lisa #rosè #jennie #jisoo

#proana #thinspo #anorexic #anorexia #ed

[rosejphoenix]

When you loose a pound despite binge eating... 💜💜💜

#bts #jin #kimseokjin #worldwidehandsome

#proana #thinspo #anorexic #anorexia #ed