ronyj1988

[ronyj1988]

FIRST SIGHT OF HER

Okay this will come out as creepy. But my intension is far from that. Do you remember the first time you saw her? The first sight of her. I do…

The jacaranda trees bloom in spring, the classes get closer to revision for exams.

She was seated a few students from my right side. God! I will never forget the first sight.

What was it that attracted me to her? Don’t know she had a grace that few had, on a chilly but not so cold September morning.

She sat pen to her lip, going trough her work, thin lips and a stare that said “o well I did my best”. She has a huge forehead sign of intelligence, but she looked hopelessly innocent. Big cat like eyes, you can get lost in them, brown and clear. Slight amount of make-up, but not too much. Her hair was just below shoulder height, neatly cut, looks cute. She breathed a sigh which said here we go again and…… o shit she is looking this way, quick act like your thinking of something and node, few…. got away with that. She might think I’m an idiot, later on she said she knew. Cute dimple on her left cheek and a smile that make grown man melt. She pulled a thin line of hair just behind her ear started twirling it and flicking it, staring out of the window, a hopeless dreamer. Like me dreaming of meeting her.

The lecturer came in and said good morning and just like that I was awake from my daze. She turned her book and started learning and I did the same. I will say hello one day. But I will never forget the first sight of her.

[ronyj1988]

The strings that bind us

“I am capable of the amazing” Why do I have to prove myself to the world? When it is the world that should fear me. I in my short period on earth have learn mostly the cruelty of man. I can’t hide away from it, its all around me. Discrimination, poverty, socio-economic gap, socio-cultural prejudice etc. I see a world bound by strings.

Back in the not so distant past, there were slaves. Slaves had chains around their hands, ankles and sometimes necks. The slaves obeyed their master and was only rewarded by their master. They lived in fear and loathing. They were off poor spirit. Later on, slavery was abolished. But my question is, then why is it that we still have such disparity in our society? The chains are no more but they still live as if the chains still exist.

What the ruling elite or the powerful have found out is that not to put chains on our body but put the chains on our minds. Now the chains are invisible to the human man. By dictating to them what to see, what to think, the rules that govern them, the ideas, theories and socio economic and cultural bonds that they put upon the mind of the innocent (for lack of a better word) are the chains that bound them to their reality. These are the strings that bind us. For example, the rulers of India oppressed the people by controlling knowledge. They held vital knowledge to themselves, created laws that are favorable to themselves, and propagated the idea that black is bad. This caste system and physical discrimination of the poor mostly Dravidian community have held and stunted the growth of the minorities of India for generations and thus the innocent have grown with complexes and discrimination which have left a mark on their psyche. If by the simple realization that one is powerful on his own strength so given by GOD and the belief in his own ability, that he not only is capable and that the reality is squid against him, would be enough to break the strings that bind him. The belief in oneself and the desire to uplift himself from an unjust world that looks to enslave him and the realization that the chains are not on his body but in his mind is enough to make a man reach his true potential and become a king in his own regard. Awaken my fellow man. If you say, or they let you to believe that you are only capable of x then you will only be capable of x-1. The law of diminishing returns still applies.

So fellow mortals I say, don’t be put to the sword by lies and words of rulers or people who don’t believe in you. Believe in yourself when all man doubts you. Prove all wrong and fight for what you believe you deserve. I live by the knowledge that I am all powerful I can achieve anything and I will achieve everything I set out for, as GOD as my witness and GOD willing. It is not where I’m from, its where I’m going.

[ronyj1988]

21 forever

How do I put it into words? A feeling or a state of being. My memory maybe a bit faded and I may color in some parts. Words won’t give it justice. A mental picture.

I feel in love. Society gives us the notion of sexual lust, cardinal desire based on looks, only fulfilled by sex. This is not that.

I fell in love. And a day I will never forget was slight drizzle hitting the window. Made an excuse to see her, “o ja I needed new music” a lie and she knew it. Spending time with her was all I wanted, it made me feel warm and gooey. Randomly playing on her laptop, she on the other side of the bed. Slight drizzle on the window, rain no thunder. She has a glow on her face as she plays with her hair, her cloths have my favorite colors, coincidence I think not, her best dress. I place the laptop so that as I look up, I see her face, shyly looking downwards with a smile. We had said some words but we were, what felt like all of a sudden, brought to silence. We both had a warm glow in a cold rainy winter evening as the sun set. And in that silence, I had all that I ever needed.

Why do we lose that? As time marches on. Sweet, innocent, untainted Love. Keep me there forever. 21 forever.