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[romyism]

i will literally adore you if you send me one

1. Last kiss

2. Last phone call

3. Last text message

4. Last song you listened to

5. Last time you cried

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice

7. Been cheated on

8. Self harmed

9. Lost someone special

10. Been depressed

11. Been drunk and threw up

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:

12. had sex

13. How many people have you had sex with this year?

15. Made a new friend

17. Laughed until you cried

18. Met someone who changed you

19. Found out who your true friends were

20. Found out someone was talking about you

26. What did you do for your last Birthday

27. What time did you wake up today

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for

30. Last time you saw your all of your siblings at the same time

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life

32. What are you listening to right now

33. When is the last time you had sex?

34. Who's getting on your nerves right now

35. Most visited webpage

36. Favorite colour

37. Nicknames

38. Relationship Status

39. Zodiac sign

40. Male or female

41. Primary school

42. Secondary School

43. High school/college

44. Eye color

46. Height

47. Do you have a crush on someone

48. What do you like about yourself

49. Piercings

50. Tattoos

51. Righty or lefty

FIRSTS:

53. First piercing

54. First best friend

55. First hookup

56. First Bestfriend

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating

60. Drinking

61. I'm about to

62. Listening to

63. Waiting for

YOUR FUTURE:

64. Want kids?

65. Get married?

66. Career

WHICH IS BETTER:

67. Lips or eyes

68. Hugs or kisses

69. Shorter or taller

70. Older or Younger

71. Romantic or spontaneous

72. Nice stomach or nice arms

73. Sensitive or loud

74. Hook-up or relationship

HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger

77. Drank hard liquor

78. Lost glasses/contacts

79. Had sex

80. Broken someone's heart

82. Been arrested

83. Turned someone down

84. Cried when someone died

85. Fallen for a friend

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself

87. Miracles

88. Love at first sight

89. Heaven

90. Santa Clause

91. Kiss on the first date

92. Angels

93. How would you label yourself?

94. Someone You Pray Everyday For

95. Did you sing today

96. Who From All Your Ex's have You Cared The Most About

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?

98. Out Of Everything In The World What Do You Wish For

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?

100. Do you like the way you look?

Actually ask me something. Anon or not.

[romyism]

miscellaneous angst starters.

when were you going to tell me?

you can’t keep doing this to yourself.

that’s…a lot of blood.

can you walk?

please don’t lie to me.

you were supposed to leave.

i’m not going anywhere without you.

shh, it’s okay. it was just a dream.

there was nothing more you could have done.

it wasn’t your fault.

this is all my fault.

you aren’t acting like yourself.

i’m never going to let [her/him/them] hurt you again.

you’re hurting me.

don’t ever do that again.

go to hell.

please don’t cry.

you have to stay awake.

i wish i could take the pain away.

you could have died.

hey – stay with me.

it’ll be over soon.

did you ever love me?

i’m sorry. i can’t do this anymore.

things won’t always hurt this bad.

you passed out.

how much have you had?

i’m okay. it’s all fine.

it’s not okay! you’re not fine!

let me get you something for the pain.

it’s nothing. it’s just a bruise.

it’s clearly not nothing.

have you been to the doctor?

i didn’t mean the things i said.

i thought we meant something.

people who are okay don’t act like this.

you don’t have to go through this by yourself.

i don’t want you to be alone.

please don’t regret me.

i heard you crying.

you need to get some rest.

when was the last time you ate something?

i’m worried about you.

did you have another nightmare?

[name], there’s nobody there.

i want to be happy but i don’t think i deserve it.

please talk to me.

why are you mad at me?

alcohol isn’t going to solve your problems.

don’t leave me.

did you do this to yourself?

it’s breaking my heart to see you like this.

tell me what’s wrong.

tell me how to make it better.

why don’t you care?

get the hell away from me.

please don’t do this.

i can’t believe that you lied to me.

just…stay for the night.

you obviously can’t be trusted to take care of yourself, so let me do it for you.

you can’t die. i won’t let you.

just hang on, okay?

hold my hand if you need to.

i’m sorry.

why do you have a gun?

don’t panic.

just breathe.

you’re bleeding.

i’m trying to stop the bleeding.

you’ve been crying, i can tell.

you should have told me sooner.

i wanted to tell you in person.

a phone call would’ve been nice.

i hate you.

i love you.

[romyism]

💔     HEART     ACHE     SENTENCE     PROMPTS    !  

❝ You are a victim of your own broken heart. ❞

❝ You’re breaking my heart.  ❞

❝ The heart is just a muscle, isn’t that right? ❞

❝ You’ve left a void in me that cannot be filled. ❞

❝ Time does not heal a broken heart as they say. ❞

❝ How do you cope when the love is with somebody else? ❞

❝ Well, you can’t have heartbreak without love. ❞

❝ Love is supposed to heal, to be your haven from misery. ❞

❝ My heart no longer felt as if it belonged to me. ❞

❝ There is an ocean of silence between us… and I am drowning in it. ❞

❝ Raw love, like raw heartache, could blindside you. ❞

❝ I was born the day you kissed me, died the day you left me.  ❞

❝ I’ve fallen victim to love once in my life, it was enough for me.  ❞

❝ I think perhaps I will always hold a candle for you – even until it burns my hand. ❞

❝ I would have followed you to hell and back… if only you’d lead me back.  ❞

❝ I had fallen but you were not there to catch me.  ❞

❝ This pain has not passed, this pain, I’m afraid, it will never pass. ❞

❝ A broken heart can be as lethal as a bullet to the brain. ❞

❝ As if you gave your heart to autumn, for what it destroys never blossoms again. ❞

❝ A single heartbreak teaches you more than what a lifetime of schooling can. ❞

❝ You taught me how to live with you, now tell me how to live without you… ❞

❝ You hurt me and yet I cannot stay away, I am miserable either way. ❞

❝ Do you know why he did what he did to you? Because he could. ❞

❝ I have been bitter since the day you broke my heart. ❞

❝ Today is just another day of trying to get by without you. ❞

❝ An entire world of people can never replace the one that I’ve lost. ❞

❝ I cannot carry on with my future when I am stuck in my past. ❞

❝ Many things we die but this love I have for you will not. ❞

❝ I could never love another as I do you, even if I wanted to. ❞

❝ This heart break will be the death of me. ❞

❝ I still fight and I don’t know why. ❞

❝ If our love is tragedy then are you my remedy? ❞

❝ When you’re ready, come find me, my heart is open. ❞

❝ Love is both, the strongest and the weakest thing you can have in life. ❞

❝ Black misery painted on a blood red heart. ❞

❝ You make me feel like a firefly. Trapped in a belljar; starved for love. ❞

❝ Sometimes your eyes are not the only place the tears fall from. ❞

❝ My heart does not beat, it aches, for you. ❞

❝ Do you even know how you make me weak? ❞

❝ If you lose your one and only, there’s always room here for the lonely. ❞

❝ Part of me aches at the thought of her being so close yet so untouchable. ❞

❝ Sometimes it feels like love and sometimes it feels like the death. ❞

❝ I don’t know where your heart is but mine is bruised. ❞

❝ I tried to wash the scars and marks from under my skin but you’re etched in me like stone.❞

❝ You call it love, but still you hate me? ❞

❝ You’re the pain and the medicine, one taste and I’m numb again. ❞

❝ With you next to me, there’s no darkness I can’t overcome.  ❞

❝ They don’t love you the way I love you. ❞

❝ What a wicked way to treat the one that loves you. ❞

❝ What’s worse, looking jealous or crazy? ❞

❝ There’s a fire starting in my heart, it’s bringing me out the dark. ❞

❝ The scars of your love remind me of us. ❞

❝ Tears of blood fall from my broken heart. ❞  

❝ Never mind, I’ll find someone like you. ❞

❝ When it’s all said and done, I’m still in love with you. ❞

❝ I want you to know that I’m all yours. ❞

❝ You could break my heart in two but when it heals, it beats for you. ❞

❝ The emotion that can break your heart is sometimes the very one that heals it…  ❞

❝ Jealousy is just love and hate at the same time. ❞ 

❝ I know you still think about the times we had. ❞

❝ I’ve been so selfish because I love you so much. ❞

❝ You’re just like a pill, instead of making me better, you keep making me ill. ❞

❝ I bet you start loving me as soon as I start loving somebody else. ❞

❝ Do you ever think of me when you lie? ❞

❝ I fell for your lies, you hurt me, all the time. ❞

❝ Despite everything, I still remain loving you. ❞

❝ I’m waiting for the one day to come, when I can look at you and feel nothing. ❞

❝ Love creeps up on you, you never know how hard it’s there until they leave.  ❞

❝ I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to forgive myself for just how badly I broke you.. ❞

❝ What chance did we have against fate? ❞

❝ Be careful when fixing broken people. You may end up cutting yourself. ❞

❝ Every other lover will always be compared to you. ❞

❝ I would recognize your heartbeat from the ends of space. ❞

❝ Even in dreams, ghosts of former happiness haunt me. ❞

❝ You should see me when my heart is broken. I don’t grieve, I shatter. ❞

❝ Love, but don’t fall in love because everything that falls breaks. ❞

❝ If my love was a war, you only fought for the glory of winning. ❞

❝ How many hearts have you collected? How many chests have you left aching and empty? ❞  

❝ I have not broken your heart - you have broken it; and in breaking it, you have broken mine. ❞

❝ If it’s a question of my heart, you’ve got it. It don’t belong to anyone but you. ❞

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                NATASHA / azcleas‌

trepidation clung to honey dipped skin , the gentle breezes pushed around by surrounding trees singing melodies in ear drums ; presenting an opportunity for tranquility to present standing ground in an crazed sea , it’s finger tips dancing delicately on bare skin. chocolate hues lost themselves in the silver flecks that hung in the stretched darkness above her, and the only sound that reminded her that she was still her , still present was the sound of her own breathing . the brunette beauty had figured , if she stepped away from the chaos for just a moment ; she would be reminded of her own sanity .. could wrap her hands around the confusion and fear that clawed at her skin .. the want to disappear into the darkness . but as she sat , she realized the only thing loneliness had given her was more time for her emotions to spin out of control  — heavy crunches of disowned branches tapped natasha on the shoulder. sending her eyes to flicker and panic to jumpstart. manicured hands reaching beside her , earning for her bat but before she could even grab it .. the moonlight revealed familiar features and dismissed the racing heart. “ fuck , “ she breathed out , a small laugh hiding under it . “ you literally scared the hell out of me ! “ she stated , head shaking lightly . “ what are you even doing sneaking up on people like that ? “

          ･ﾟ: * &. / *     FOR TOO LONG , IT FELT LIKE HER ribs were squeezing her lungs , compressing and contracting so tightly she couldn’t breathe and she could hear her heart beating loudly in her ears. the woods welcomed her gladly , the sparse trees hanging over her head protectively as to remind her that she was GRIEVING. the shadows cast on the earth didn’t scare her either , romy had spent too long wandering around the planet to get scared so easily. but –– she couldn’t close her eyes without seeing hailey , her friend , maybe someone who was actively nice to her despite romy being the person she was. eyes squeezed shut , nails picking at thick layers of black nail polish as her feet dragged her deeper into the trees. unarmed , the short girl knew it probably wasn’t smart to be walking around by herself – especially considering the noise she was making – but what was the WORST that could happen ? her neck gets torn off ? natasha scares romy before romy scares her – or , whatever , romy’s hands rolling into tightly clenched fists before she recognizes the other.     ‘ oh , FUCK OFF , i wasn’t sneaking up on anyone. ’ her words are as snarky as ever.      ‘ if you couldn’t hear me stomping my way through the woods , that’s on you. ’

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                VALERIE / valvance‌

—— THE REALIZATION OF what’s been going was gradually sinking in. she still couldn’t believe what was seen and wished everyone’s current situation was just one huge nightmare that she could wake up to. unfortunately, it wasn’t like that. thing is, valerie felt clueless. she wanted to feel as if she could help out more, but felt the complete opposite instead. when volunteering to check out the gas station, however, she was mainly wanting to look for snacks. upon arriving back, she ran into romy and gave a nod. ❝yeah, i found some decent things.❞ going through her bag, she grabbed a bag of chips before throwing it her way. 

           ･ﾟ: * &. / *     HER HANDS CATCH THE BAG WITHOUT her really processing it. she looks down at the crinkly plastic , looking at the snack size bag of potato chips. her stomach growls quietly , but romy wonders if she should even waste the chips right now -- wouldn’t they be better suited later down the road ?     ‘ thanks, ’ she says to the girl.     ‘ kinda wish i’d gone in now , you know , instead of just hiding in the car like a bitch. ’ her laugh is quiet and emotionless , but she opts to open the bag loudly and take a crisp from the bag.      ‘ you’ve got great taste though , scavenger. ’

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                PEYTON / pcytonkane‌

EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED WAS beginning to weigh in on the lad. the images of the horrific passing of his friend, and what it all meant — the empty gas station another indicator of the absolute worst case scenario. he could FEEL himself beginning to repress, just like he used to growing up. it was easier to move through his days without having to CARE enough to lose people, but this time all it took was a few hours to flip the switch — at least in the eyes of the others.   “   hm?   ”   he turns to romy with a raised brow,   “   nothing that won’t be shared with the others. if you wanted something specific, you should’ve asked.   ”   though his choice of words were negative, there wasn’t a drop of character in them. maybe he was just out of gas — he needed to clear his head.   “   if you go back, consider taking a flashlight. might get dark on the way back.   ”

           ･ﾟ: * &. / *     EYEBROWS RAISE SIMULTANEOUSLY , DARK hues staring off into the distance as peyton talks to her. nothing that won’t be shared – she’s no stranger to sharing ( sharing is caring , after all ) – but it’s another thing for her to process that in this now infected world , everything she gathers is going to have to be shared. she should’ve gone into the gas station when everyone else did – it would’ve been better for her to grab what she wanted instead of staying in the car , staring off into the distance like a test dummy waiting for a crash that would never come.     ‘ you think it’s wise to go back and grab a soda ? ’ she jokes , but there’s no humor in her words.     ‘ or some gum ? cause i think i swallowed some dirt and my breath smells like ass. ’

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          CLOSED STARTER : @uhcaretaker​ / nicolas castro               trigger warnings : none !

          ･ﾟ: * &. / *     HER VISION WAS BLURRY , NOT WITH tears or any other real emotion –- romy was exhausted. she hadn’t stepped inside the gas station , not when she’d been in an unusual state of shock and she’d barely helped set up and as she spaced out , she chalked it all up to exhaustion.     ‘ exhaustion can make you crazy , right ? ’ she asks nico.     ‘ i mean –- maybe we’re all just deliriously hungover. ’

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           CLOSED STARTER : @rhystozier​ / rhys tozier                trigger warnings : death mention

          ･ﾟ: * &. / *     DARK HUES RUN OVER HIS FEATURES , body almost relaxing that she wasn’t the only asshole to survive from camp. arms cross over her chest , her hands gripping her biceps.     ‘ honestly , rhys ? ’ her voice is lilted , teasing the younger.     ‘ i thought you were going to fucking die back there. ’ she was devastated – more than she showed – that hailey hadn’t made it out , she’d probably be sad if he’d died too ( probably ) , but she wasn’t going to waste an opportunity to joke about death.

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            CLOSED STARTER : @helloheymickey / mickey clemente                 trigger warnings : violence 

           ･ﾟ: * &. / *     SILVER SPOONS WEREN’T SOMETHING she was used to , but she pretended the spoon in her hands were anyway. bringing cold soup up to her lips , she hears mickey’s words in her ears.     ‘ what now ? ’     . she didn’t know , she didn’t have a clue how to proceed and she didn’t want to show just how panicked she was. she maybe just wanted to try bashing some crazy people’s heads in , see how that went –- and see how it felt. they all had to survive somehow , right ?     ‘ i don’t know , mick. ’ she shook her head.     ‘ i think we listen to nico , or noelle –- whoever’s not a dumbass. ’

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             CLOSED STARTER : @kianbuckleys / kian buckley                  trigger warnings : nsfw , blood

           ･ﾟ: * &. / *     STICKY WITH SCARLET , ROMY’S fingers stick together when she tries to pull them apart. her nose crinkles , eyebrows drawing together in a tight frown when she realizes the blood’s coming from her fingers , most likely from the run , or the glass , or something –- she can’t remember , but her fingers are sticky now , amidst the zombies and the chaos.     ‘ jesus , ’ she murmurs to kian , the only person close enough to hear her.     ‘ how is blood so sticky ? my fingers haven’t been this stuck together since my last boyfriend jizzed in my hand and got cum all over me. ’ 

[romyism]

i’ll be on later tonight but consider this a starter call ! i’ll be replying to everyone on my open starter but if you’d prefer a closed starter relating to the most recent plot drops , like this ! optional: leave a word and i’ll try to cater the starter around the word !

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                 OPEN STARTER : anyone

           ･ﾟ: * &. / *     HER   EARS   STILL   RING   FROM   the   alarm   and   her   chest   is   still   tight   ,   compressing   her   lungs   every   time   she   closes   her   eyes   to   think   of   hailey   and   what   she   saw.   eyebrows   drawn   together   ,   she   releases   them   as   a   characteristic   smile   crosses   her   lips   –-   fake   it   until   you   make   it.               ‘   please   tell   me   you   got   some   good   shit   from   the   gas   station,   ’   she   complains   ,   but   her   heart   isn’t   in   it.               ‘   if   not   i’m   going   back   there   right   now.   ’

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                LEONARD / leonard-the-wallflower·

“People with no friends in high school,” he answered without missing a beat, continuing to fill bottles. He looked up from his work only to say “Well could you do me a favor and go looking for some? We need as much water as we can get before they turn the pipes off, which’ll be any second now.”

            ･ﾟ: * &. / *     EYEBROWS RAISE INCREDULOUSLY , standing up from her position and looking around ( barely ).     ‘ well , can’t relate. ’ she says offhandedly , resuming her lovely way of not thinking before speaking.     ‘ we’re in the middle of the woods with those THINGS everywhere , leonard –- i’m not going out there alone. ’

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               LEONARD / leonard-the-wallflower·

“You know, when I was planning for the zombie apocalypse in my head, I never thought it’d actually happen,” he admitted, filling up every cup and bottle with water from the sink as he could. “The first thing I was gonna do was fill the bathtub, but there is no bathtub now, so this’ll have to do. Have you found any more bottles?”

             ･ﾟ: * &. / *     HEAD COCKS TO THE RIGHT , UNKEMPT locks of raven falling suddenly from the movement.     ‘ who actively prepares for a zombie apocalypse ? ’ she muses , more to herself than to him. it was just supposed to be a camping trip , she wasn’t even that close to hailey but she’s never had someone her age DIE , much less WITNESSED anything of that caliber.     ‘ i don’t- i don’t have any bottles. ’

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               GINA / ginagetslifted·

     there was no proper way to cope with this. at least, that’s what gina told themself. being a little less than sober usually helped the situation, at least relaxed them a little. but now the paranoia was a little too real. their half-finished blunt was long gone by the time they rushed back to their cabin to begin to literally get their shit together. “we–we have to go. i can’t stay here. you have to come with me, we need to go home.”

             ･ﾟ: * &. / *     IT’S SHOCK – SHE KEEPS TELLING herself that the number she feels as the minutes tick by. for her , time’s slowed down. she can hear everyone screaming in slow motion , see people running in slow motion and hear her heart beating at a pace that’s way too calm for a moment like this. head turning to gina , she sits on a bunk bed with her fingers intertwined , squeezing so tightly that her digits are a stark WHITE.     ‘ i - ’ she struggles to find the words , her voice unusually quiet and hoarse.     ‘ gina , i don’t think that’s a good idea. ’

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               NICO / uhcaretaker·

     sweat dripped off the panicked boy as he finally made it to a safe place. trying to catch his breath, nicolas managed to ask: “ okay … what the fuck was that? ” tears welled in his eyes & his heart pounded so hard in his chest, he was sure the others could hear. “ what the hell is going on? oh my god … ” now in full panic mode, nico took out his phone and began trying to call his family. to his absolute dismay, the call dropped nearly every single time. “ fuck. FUCK. is your phone working? can you call anyone? ”

             ･ﾟ: * &. / *     LIPS PRESSED TIGHT , THE GIRL HAS no words for the first time in a long time. head throbbing from a night of bad choices , her hands pat over her body in search of her phone calmly , responding to nico’s question. for the first time in probably her entire life , she’s not looking to make a joke of the situation. the vision of her friend’s neck being ripped out by another’s pearly whites are enough to make romy shut up for a second. her head shakes , dark locks moving slightly with the side to side movement.     ‘ i don’t know where my phone is, ’ she answers quietly , swallowing hard at the lump starting to grow in her throat.

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SELF PARA #001

              ･ﾟ: * &. / *     IT’S HUMOROUS THAT SHE FINDS herself alone at the end of the day. the bonfire’s fun , the dancing flames of orange , the steady flow of cheap , bitter alcohol and the echoing laughter of the people she’s learned to call friends. it doesn’t help though , that she still finds herself knee deep in the water indignantly sipping her drink slowly. thanks to two years as a nomad and finding herself downing glorified bread water to get her mind off of a throbbing eye , her tolerance is pretty up there.

in other words , it takes a lot to get her white girl wasted , but it doesn’t take much for her to descend into the acidity of her own thoughts. she’s tipsy enough to wallow in self pity , but not tipsy enough to show anyone that she’s not feeling as upbeat as she so ‘normally’ does.

the night so far for romy’s been okay - even if she’s been yelling about how much fun she’s been having. she’s thrown herself into the water , then back into the fire , gossiped a little with mickey , has probably worried nico a bunch and has gotten up to burp the first verse of hallelujah , but yeah , it’s been okay. now in the water , she can feel her feet sinking in the soft sand beneath the clear water and she looks down , lips forming an uncharacteristic pout.

whenever she’s with friends , she misses home , she misses the good times she had when her family was still whole. she wonders if her dad cares , or even remembers. despite the thoughts , she swallows - hard , taking down the growing lump in her throat. rosemary na’s a smiley troublemaker , she never cries. she didn’t cry when she got beaten up by that six-foot basketball player , or when her front tooth got knocked out and she couldn’t afford the fake flapper for a few weeks , or even when her nose got broken ( she got a nose job out of it , after all ) , she wouldn’t cry at a bonfire.

romy downs what’s left in her cup and flips her long hair over her shoulder majestically with a simple flick of her head - look na , no hands. turning to return to the fire with her cup raised , a smile plastered on her lips , she’s yelling obnoxiously , as she always does.     ‘ who’s going to give me a refill ? ’ she jokes , stepping foot into the sand and returning to reality.