roflections

[roflections]

What is the meaning of life? The end goal. Is it finding love? Was Darwin right? Is it to procreate. The beauty of life and free will is that it doesn’t have to be a one size fits all. For me, the goal has always been to find love. I’ve learned with chronic illness that end goal is often been put on the back burner. it’s been an uphill battle since high school to fit into a cookie cutter life. Go to college, get married and have children. Everyone around you is doing it, so It’s easy to equate yourself as a failure. Then you go to college and graduate with a 3.6 at a top university, only to start the process of how you measure up with your peers.  What jobs offers will they get? Will they be a power couple? Etc. etc. I’ve learned that the only one you have to prove anything to is yourself because there will always be the next thing to make you feel small. In a sea of measures, we let life pass us by. What is left at the end is a bunch of regrets and second thoughts. So next time an opportunity presents itself, take it. Life may be working in mysterious ways, or you might be taking a detour. Unless you go for it, you won’t know how it will turn out. Chronic illness might be useless for most things, but it definitely teaches you to think from many perspectives. It puts you in many shoes. You try to shield people you are close to and or love. For me the thought of dating or getting married, reminds me of all I can’t do for myself. I always thought I would be burdening someone with all my baggage. The more you grow, the more you realize everyone comes with baggage. Some is just more visible than others. So what is the point I am trying to make? We miss a 100% of shots we don’t take. I have learned to start taking risks. I have always been very risk averse but you can’t come at life like a finance professional. Just live and roll with the punches. -Rohit Kapur