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Can I look for another?

So... Um. I got a real job for a few upcomming months and the pay is good. Perfect time to save up a bit and visit the family.

However. Since I'm still a scrub working for the second hand store supported by the local employment agency for now, I still have to look for more work under their watch. Fair enough.

I did ask for suggestions so I could mostly focus on working at the store.

During a stressful shift, my supervisor gave me a printed copy for a "Digital communicator" job application... They were looking, pretty much, for a Social media expert with crafting skills.

Yeah... she had the heart in the right place. But online charisma is not my strongest skill. I lost count how many friends I lost because of my stupid personal outbursts online.

Maybe I've succeded in not getting too many enemies. Perhaps for sounding like I wasn't worth it.

Still, I really doubt I can help this company to get this attention from Facebook, Youtube and TikTok that they want. Not to forget how openly I've already admitted that I dislike adds and still do. Now I'm expected to join team ad-nag?

I enjoy creativity, I can draw, I can edit stuff, I know about good cheap tools, and I even know where to post so it doesn't get (at least) too awkward. I see why she thought this might fit me. But I hear alarm sirens, people!

"Don't worry, champ. Just send a letter and a CV. Worst you can get is a 'no' and at best a workplace you can grow your talents." said my supervisor

That's what scares me most. What if they DO hire me? What if I don't deliver and people might lose their jobs!? Dear oh dear.

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Looking for a simple new game to the next boardgame night. To warm up the guests, you know. Maybe a card game?

... Hello? What do we have here?

Oh? Oh hell yeah!

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This is good... too good.

What just happen? I got my hands on a stronger used computer that I know works and will last me for years. I didn't have to pay much at all.

Great! Now I only need courage to set it up and move my data thingies over to this one... and I can no longer blame on my potato computer when I don't want to do stuff. Darn.

Not sure where to start to be honest. I was not prepared to get a job and a new hobby machine with money left over at the same week.

What's going on here? Something is up

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Things found in second hand stores.

Dolls. Creepy looking dolls. Lifelike and yet feel more dead than a cadaver.

Most of the time at least.

Then we have dolls that looks like they are playing dead instead.

Interesting...

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Music: Myuu - Luigi's mansion

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Clip studio line art

I gave Clip studio a shot again. Just putting away the android tablet for a bit and work on a computer. It feels eerie nostalgic. Which is weird, cause I can do MORE on a computer than the tablet.

I want to try making my own custom brush. Maybe that would keep me focused. Maybe not...

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"Heard of an 'ICE agent?'"

"Who hasn't about now? Please spare me from whatever information you dug up. I'm trying to heal mentally."

"I know you are tired of these kind of news. But this is crazy. Good to know stuff."

"Special government hired officers specializing deporting random people with and without criminal charges, some among those being kids? How can it get more crazy?... No wait! Don't answer that!"

"Too late. ICE agents doesn't have an official uniform or cars, right? They just dress in civil clothing with masks and sometimes kevlar, right? In some places in US it's legal to use lethal force to protect yourself against gangs. And since ICE doesn't have a official uniform, anyone can mimic them. So it should hold up in court to shoot agents to death by blaming them for 'gang activities.'"

"... Wha... I...?"

"Civilians can legally put down government personal right now in some parts of US! That level of crazy!"

"I don't want to know... I just wanna draw, man! *Cries*"

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Movie talk

Remember Lord Farquaad from the Shrek series?

We never learned who his parents was from the movies. But in a rumored "official musical play" backed up by DreamWorks. It might be enough to canonize the lore that his parents was "Princess and the pea" and "Grumpy" from Snow White.

It makes sense in a way. Farquaad was short, grumpy, entitled and spoiled. Only the best for him was enough. It all lines up!

I also learned that when Farquaad was still a baby, his mother fell down from her unusually tall bed and... well... died. Grumpy alone was not the best example for "fathers love" either. But he did let his kid live in his basement until he was 28 before they had the "enough is enough" fight. So he did care for the kid longer than he had to. Not long after, Farquaad reclaimed his royal title by birthright and now he has power, while hating on fairytale characters like his father who dared to throw him out. Hah! It's too perfect!

This should be canon if it's not. It's goofy fun as heck.

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I wish my feedback on interests had a bit more value than my algorithm.

If I say that I don't want toilet paper, I get ads on it anyway, because I look at a lot of shit online. Figurative speaking ofc. But it's the mindset they use.

Okay, I'll be straight forward.

I hate Adobe. Absolut garbage company. Software crashes, stolen work, spy software, overpriced plans, hard to end plans, expensive to end plans, scams and the list goes on.

If I see an ad from Adobe. I'll give the ad colpany a feedback that I'm not interested. Sometimes they ask "why" and I've tried every option on that "list of reasons bingo card" now. Then the next ad is... You guessed it. Ado-facking-be!

Why? Because I look at online art and use art software? So that means I love to to use A.I tools? Adobe is our king!?

No... Adobe has a lot of money and can nag as much as they want until I cave!

Gosh. It will be horrible to detox from the internet when it's no longer available. But gosh will I not miss it when that leftover addiction blows over.

I'm done venting now. Time to work

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I finished the game "Ori - The will of the wisps" for the first time yesterday.

What a ride that game was. A deep story, smooth gameplay, and graphics that just kept blowing me away. Some parts was unnecessarily harsh though. Some events was annoying and repetitive to pass. But the deepcutters was some lore that messed me up.

Take this little spoiler for example:

There was a part of the forest that suffeed a abnormal amount of decay and most life in the area had been petrified to stone where they stood. It was really spooky. Ngl.

During my travels through these hellish place, I found a hut containing two statues of lemur looking creatures called mokies. A parent and it's child. I also found a "petrified doll" in there that I picked up for some reason.

Well that was sad as shit. Thank you for that, game.

Eventually I ran into a healthy moki in a sunny and beautiful glade. He had just prepared a new hut for his family and was in high spirit. Before he noticed the doll I was carrying, that is. His mood shifted and asked me where I found it. Said he had to go and just ran away.

Oh come on... I had to check on him and went back to the petrified hut.

I found three statues this time. The third was holding the other two in it's paws and faced the light coming in from the ceiling with a sad expression.

Fucking hell! Okay? What did that do to help me progress the game? Nothing!

The game never mentions this family again and throws me a happy "life is forever changing and it's beautiful" ending and all that.

Yeah. Because throwing a pure hearted family into a cement blender for being born in the wrong time really adds mushy feelings to the beauty called "circle of life".

It's not the only sad ending either. Good god. They sure don't sugarcoat their stuff.

Great game. But it made me more sad that happy to be honest.

I'm gonna go watch Totoro now...

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In the Air by Artem Chebokha

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Another profile run? Why is this always the first thing popping up in my head while brainstorm sketcing?

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New online habits (nerd talk)

I've joined the Proton mail and Vivaldi browser family.

With all that is going on with corporate corruption, scam mails and hacking. I decided to get a few new baskets for my eggs, sort of speak. These are programmed in the EU and promises safety for their users.

I thought it wouldn't hurt to try them out and support their business. But I still have some trust issues and will take it slow.

Once I finished setting up my accounts, I noticed that Proton is still working on it's safety features. Not that it didn't feel safe. It just had some issues connecting with my phone number (Yeah, I wanted to start fresh and actually give a company my number.) I had to set up my old mail to verify the account for now. Fine then. Hopefully I get that fixed. I was planning on eventually dissing my old outlook mail for lacking privacy. Now I need it the same way a minor need the signature of a abusive parent to set this train in motion. Sigh~

The Vivaldi browser had a similar problem. But the issue was mostly in the storage of passwords and bookmarks. Which I didn't fully plan to use anyway. At least they let me know what the issue was and ask me to check for updates to have that fixed. That straight forward level of informative customer service felt new to me. Like they actually care what I know and what I think. Google and Microsoft better watch their tone.

Once I get Vivaldi going the way I want, I'll log in to my social media accounts on there. They even have calendar services and cloud saved bookmarks between phones and computers. This will be extremely helpful for art-projects and job-hunting.

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"Until death pulls you together"

As sad as it is. We had to put away two of Juli's many birds not long ago.

The first was the elder bird mom. She has been really sick lately. Backpain and lack of appetite, the whole "end of the line" thing.

The second was a old cripple bird who lost two of his toes and had a beak that just wouldn't grow right. We suspect one generation too much of inbreeding. These where zoo animals at one point. Nearly a hundred birds in one closed up area. So I'm not surprised.

However. These two hated each other. The moma bird was a alpha parent and the crippled bird was an outcast. I don't think any of them wanted the other as company for their final car-ride to the vet.

During the moment of the final breath. The outcast bird just accepted death. No fear or fight. He just calmly shut his eyes and vanished in the hands of the vet. Well, that image will follow me to my final day.

Moma bird was not as ready.

We buried them together in cozy glade the woods later. Belly to back to save our own time. It wasn't until after I realized what kind of twisted, dark and romantic scene have we made here. The big boss bird lost his wife in the wings of an outcast, which himself didn't choose this either. Nobody did!

Even worse to think about, was that the outcast did have a wife too. She was a lot younger and liked him a lot. Never left his side, although he rarely seemed to notice her. Probably for being in pain most of his life and all. Still. He looked like he appreciate her company, since he never really pushed her away either. So I believe it counts.

I'm glad there is no way for me to tell them about their partners romantic burial together.

What twisted love story is this!?

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Short hair? Does it work on her?

Yes. Yes it does.

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I carry a bag wherever I go. I want to always carry equipment to be able to sketch or write things down always. I never know when inspiration strikes, or when I end up having to wait all bored out somewhere for hours. Maybe my phone died just as I want to work on an idea or need to brainstorm an important email. I need backup gear! ...yeah. I know I sound nuts.

So! For my inventory carrying brothers and sisters out there:

How often do you "improve" the way you line stuff up in the bag?

Cause I have tried for years to make it perfect. But it never is...

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Not as bad as I thought. (Chip reviews)

I like my salty snacks during my weekends. It's a half-treat and other half-food kind of consumable, that goes so well with a creamy dip sauce as well on it's own. What else do I need except a cold drink with that?

I like to try something new from time to time and decided to buy a bag of these:

"Oikia Mausteinen Matilda" chips. Or from what I could get out of the Swedish translation on the back of the bag: "Chips with hamburger flavor." Or at least ketchup, mustard, pickles and onion flavored.

Added to a potato chip, we had a whole burger with fries meal from a bag, minus the meat patty, though.

Because of the weird idea for a flavor. I didn't have high expectations. Anything except the simple stuff in these parts, am I right. It's like the law or something. A Swedish/Finnish hipster law.

Still. They are actually fun to eat. I feel the nostalgia of a car-trip from long ago. I remember sitting on a food joint somewhere enjoying a silent break after spending hours surrounded by the humming of a car engine. I would talk and laugh with my brother under a dim light from lightbulb, while staring out the window at the cold dark night of the north. Wondering how it would feel to arrive at our destination where we will spend a whole week exploring the surroundings.

Quite something.

Back to the chip itself.

I can mostly taste the ketchup before anything else while eating these. Not bad at all. The Canadians are on to something.

I can't call it a top five favorite, but it is better than average. 3,5/5 points. I would put a four if I could remove the pickles. Just... ew...