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oh and this morning i made a delicious apple pancake :)

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i do need to go back to therapy tho i think bcus i truly dont understand why i experienced such a debilitating anxiety/ocd episode earlier this summer and it feels like its always lurking around the corner or like could be reactivated as soon as i get covid again so i wanna figure out how to re-regulate if & when that happens. because the past few months have been so idyllic by comparison and im not really sure what changed

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have been having a very social few weeks which is much needed, last weekend i spent a lot of time with friends i haven't seen in a while and was a little wounded by last winter when i got kinda iced out of the friend group but those connections are either still building or holding steady at a comfortable distance and im ok with either at this point. also saw my old coworker boys night group and helped another friend install a shelf and processed the drama theyre having with some of the other people in the group...yesterday went to my roommates dia de los muertos art showing at greenwood which was more of an Event than i expected but i got to see my friend from western mass who just moved here and is So cool...and one of my best friends has been in town this week so i've been hanging with her and her girlfriend and last night we went to this super out-of-the-way grad student halloween party but it was fun to hang out with..idk normal people ????? for a bit and i also used it as an excuse to get kinda fucked up which is rare for me. took the train back for an hour and texted that old ass man super high on ketamine at 2 am which was maybe not my wisest moment but whatever he seems to continue ignoring me and thats probably for the best. anyway i seem to have these periods where my life is incredibly rich and full of people i love and then sometimes descend into a total void of social connection and id love to learn how to keep all of this steady

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GREGG ARAKI

The Living End (1992) Totally Fucked Up (1993) The Doom Generation (1995) Nowhere (1997) Splendor (1999)

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beach bonfire sunday

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friends birthday hike saturday

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the park on friday

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The Kiaat Tree (Pterocarpus angolensis, also called “bloodwood”) releases red sap when cut. Species of Pterocarpus native to southern Africa, in Angola, Mozambique, Namibia, South Africa, Swaziland, Tanzania, Zaire, Zimbabwe, and Zambia.

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'fences' by alan wood, 1983 in earthworks and beyond: contemporary art in the landscape - john beardsley (1989)

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funeral procession (miss you forever) I - IV, 2024, oil pastel on paper.

drawings of photos from the 99 highway in my home province of British Columbia during the past three years of driving up and down from city to town at midnight to catch planes to get to funerals.

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anyway i had to delete my ig bcus its actually making me physically ill at this point to a) think about the election at all and b) see friends i organize with post dumb ass short-sighted takes on main every day. so here i am instead

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i also believe with my whole chest that palestinian & arab americans have every right to abstain when they have been begging our govt to see them as human beings and are just getting slapped in the face on top of their grief. harris chose to ignore the very basic demands of that population in favor of catering to centrists/zionists so she doesnt get their vote and that is absolutely fair. i just dont think that white ppl abstaining in solidarity with them or whatever rly accomplishes......anything at all

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sorry to lib out on main occasionally but i cant talk about this stuff anywhere else. anyway i feel like im generally on the same political wavelength as my friends/community 99% of the time and EVEN OPEN TO THE IDEA that voting for president/the person in office doesnt matter but i simply have never seen a compelling argument for this that doesnt view huge numbers of poor/otherwise marginalized americans as inevitable collateral damage for some abstract idea of a revolution that may or may or may not be successful (and definitely won't with our current level/lack of organization on the left). like i genuinely WANT to not care about the outcome of this election and TRULY BELIEVE that it does not matter like the rest of the leftists and i just. can not see it. like the material consequences of a trump presidency would be so dire. and that doesnt negate the present tense suffering of millions of people under dems. but adding to those numbers does not..........to me..............create better conditions for a revolution than the ones we have now. i think the hard work actually is building that coalition under conditions where half the people are comfortable/lulled into complicity. doing all the political education to Wake People Up while, idk, social services still exist at all. anyway

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this is a cinematic masterpiece

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do it for the faggots who never got to btw

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embroidery from peacocksandpinecones my friends and I have been losing our minds over all morning.

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new updated drive with psych abolition resources! it’s sorted into folders for specific subtopics for things like harm reduction, different types of support, disability justice readings, mad liberation zines, etc. it’s not complete yet—there’s a bunch more resources I want to add once I’m at my laptop again but wanted to share now!