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i want my life to feel like this satc commercial

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banana fish to help me get back into drawing more

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U CANT MAKE THIS UP 😭

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☀️

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Forehead kisses pretty pls 🥺

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”are you ok”

no i wanna listen to the sound of you blinking, wanna listen to your hands soothe, listen to your heart beating, listen to the way you move

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not meant for this heat

sincerely,

summer lover, august girl

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I hate university, genuinely I don't think I've been this lonely since 4th grade. i hate being on campus, i hate going to lectures, i hate sitting pathetically in the corner of the classroom when I actually DO attend a lecture, watching the people around me already with their friends, making jokes, laughing, talking about their weekends.

worst part is that it is absolutely my fault, I haven't made an effort and I shouldn't expect people to sit with me and talk with me. i just can't click with anyone, and I hate myself so much.

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I need to find my people

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“i’m just a girl🥺” “i’m just a widdle passenger princess and i need my big strong 6’5 golden retriever boyfriend to drive me around” “is hating stanley cups misogynistic?” “get ready with me to make my boyfriend breakfast as a stay at home 21 year old girlfriend with no friends and no future just a man” “fashion girls help! what sneakers are we wearing this summer” “click on the link in my bio to buy this anti wrinkle straw for your stanley cup” “get ready with me to skip all of my classes and sit in the parking lot alone and read my spicy booktok romance novels💅” “sorry malala but i hate school and i wish you weren’t fighting for women’s rights to education lol” “pov: you overcame bisexuality and gender nonconformity and now have a boring boyfriend, wear pink shein sundresses and can finally embrace your divine femininity” “new trend alert! moonshine lavender haze hailey bieber purple blue milk nails” “when your dad gets mad at you for using his credit card on ur starbucks app and uber eats app but you’re literally just a girl” “pov: you and your boyfriend are literally the black cat gf golden retriever bf irl” “how to get ozempic for free online using my amazon store front” “restock my stanley with me for a hot girl walk” “when you’re his first victoria secret aritzia spray tan silk press false eyelashes black bmw girl” “what snacks i pack with me to sit in the pick up line for 2 hours as a stay at home mormon boy mom” “come with me to burn my old clothes from last year because platos closet won’t take them”

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absolutely genius of rf kuang to elaborate on virtually nothing about speer's culture. the only things said about speer are "speerlies are mindless savages" and "speerlies are most definitely not mindless savages". there are no deep dives, no explanations of their way of life, nothing beyond the glimpses that disproves nikan's belief that they are nothing but a violent group. we saw that they had leaders that cared about their people and children. we saw that they are people who found joy in life. but that's really not much.

this emphasizes the horror of genocide. millenia of culture and history, individual lives filled with love, pain, and passion, just completely wiped away. there were only two surviving speerlies. one of them was too young when he was taken away, and probably doesn't remember much. the things he did remember was also probably buried under years of abuse and drugs people were plying him with. the other one didn't even know she was from speer until the last few months of her life, and there was really no one around to teach her about their culture. and if there was, life as she knows it was falling apart. learning about her dead people's culture probably didn't even cross her mind.

without saying any of these things and by intentionally leaving readers in the dark about what speer was truly like, rf kuang said so much about the horrors of genocide. by not saying anything, she said everything. she did the "show me, don't tell me" tip for writers and it was brilliant.

we will never learn most of speer's culture and history and that was the point.