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okay so the first and only time i've done impact play was this june at a private play party. i asked an acquaintance if they'd do a scene with me. they said yes. very experienced i felt like i was gonna be in very good hands.

at the party when i arrive, everyone's standing around in the room that also happens to have their spanking bench. top throws out the idea of doing an impact play demo and asks me if i'd be interested in being the bottom for it. i said yes. nervous as hell but yes. so i stripped in a room full of people and got on the spanking bench with just my panties on. tits out,, everything out.

it was really exhilarating even though no one was making a big deal out of it and the bench kinda put less focus on my tits and i was also facing a wall so like people were watching me but i couldn't see them. top starts going through how to do impact. it was really interesting getting a demo while also bottoming for the first time.

so first they say you have to warm me up. and they just start rubbing me down from back to thighs. it's so i get used to their touch and don't flinch away from it and so i get relaxed in the position. i had never considered getting warmed up!! then they used a flogger to just gently start hitting me like reallyyyy lightly.

and this whole time, they're narrating what they're doing to the audience which is kind of exciting in itself. i don't really consider myself an exhibitionist but i liked it in a way i didn't think i was going to.

they rotated through tools, intensities, methods, etc. it was really cool and really fun. and i didn't know that pain tolerance builds DURING a session. they kept warming me up with softer hits and then eventually i could take harder ones with the same tolerance or better. it was so cool feeling my body adapt to it.

they'd rub out the stings which was also nice as. i like being groped and rubbed on. AND they'd use their nails which was soooo tingly and ticklish due to the fact that my ass is unfortunately super fucking ticklish and i had to keep from squirming LOL.

it was such a nice feeling, all of it. i liked how i felt in my head, i liked how i felt in my body. i liked hearing people laugh when i flinched and i liked someone commenting on my ass getting darker. i liked how hard i got from it. i liked when they kinda hit my dick a little. i liked being surprised at the pain.

it's funny cuz honestly i don't think my tolerance is that high. they said i had really good body language cuz it's all about if i'm leaning towards the hit or away from it (ideally, you should always lean towards it). and they said i was really reactive and really easy to read. which made me feel really good hehe. i was quiet like i didn't make much sound but that also might've been cuz it was too public lol (i get shyyyy okay)

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friendly reminder to everyone, me included:

having plans or being excited for sex with your partner(s) is amazing and fun, but don't let it get you down if the plans change for whatever reason.

we've been conditioned by all kinds of media to interpret "I have a headache" etc. as an excuse, a sign for a failing relationship, for a lack of communication, but that's usually not the case.

you can have bad health days, can be tired or sad or whatever! or? just not be in the mood for the scene you were talking about for days.

all of that is okay. it's fine. there will be other opportunities, there will be days you feel better, and it might be disappointing for all involved parties because you were so excited for it, but not letting yourself get pressured (or pressuring yourself) into uncomfortable situations is more important than a fleeting sense of disappointment.

I know I struggle with this often- and my partner is the most compassionate, kind, patient and loving person I've ever known! there's never any pressure from him. it's internal and I'm trying to actively unlearn these thought patterns so I thought other people might need to hear this as well 🖤

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”boys will be boys” yeah boys will be pinned down and fucked while being told what a fucking slut they are for wanting this

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hey my bf and i saw you from across the bar and we'd love to put you on a leash and make you bark

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I can’t let motherfuckers know I got desires or they’ll think I suck

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Hello, this is not an emergency – but I would like a little help with money, please.

I'm not going to pretend that this isn't a donation post – it very much is. It will be tagged donations for ppl who don't like them. I understand, I find them emotionally overwhelming as someone who cannot afford to contribute to others, too.

I'm 22, trans, physically disabled, and neurodivergent.

I need a laptop to work and attend school. I can't work a physical job without incredible pain and exhaustion, and I haven't been able to pay my phone bill for ages, so I cannot work remote call centre jobs.

I'm able to do a small number of online jobs, plus making and selling commissions, but I can't do them from my phone. Without a job, I cannot pay for my phone or help my roommates buy groceries. I cannot go to university until I have a laptop for my program, either.

I've found a laptop that fits my specific requirements refurbished and steeply discounted from its original price online, but I can't afford it yet. I need about $250 more.

Please, don't bother donating if you're struggling yourself. I'm sure I'll find a way, and once I have the laptop, I'm confident that I can figure it out. Until then, if anyone who can help could, I would really really appreciate it. Including by reblogging.

Thank you so much.

https://www.paypal.me/cougheddrop

$55.12/$250

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Why won't our host just fucking accept we're a little lactose intolerant and stop consuming so much goddamn dairy out of pride

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Hanging out is all we have left

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Wish there was a way to guarantee a wet dream. They're so rare for us, but I hate jacking off b4 bed bc I can't stand staying wet. I have to go clean up and it's a fucking hassle

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“poor baby” hhhGGDGDH/?/?1[[^%\%\\%.

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I dont know what it is about it, but the idea of feeling myself get spread open and inspected.... is good

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It’s tiring, isn’t it? Being in control, making choices, thinking for yourself. It’s so, so tiring. Let me do it instead. You’ll like it.

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I want to touch your ticklish spots.

Let me be clear; I don’t want to tickle them. Not now. Right now I just want to touch them. I want you to know I know about them. I want you to know I can reach them. I want you to know I can exploit them anytime I want. I can poke, rake, stroke, scrub, swirl, spider and drag. I can make you twist and squirm, I can make you yelp and squeal. I can make you say things you don’t want to say. I can make you tell me secrets you swore never to reveal. I can, very simply, torture you.

But I won’t.

Instead, I’ll just touch you. I’ll take your feet in my hands, rub your soles with my palms, massage your toes with my thumbs. I’ll keep my hand on your knee, gently kneading, perhaps, but never more than that. I’ll stroke your hair and maybe linger my fingertips on your neck for a moment. But then the moment’s gone and I’ll be at your sides, perhaps under your shirt so that I can glide up and down your bare skin. Almost to your underarms, but not quite. Almost to your hips, but not quite. That doesn’t tickle, does it?

Not quite.

I’ll touch you so much you’ll hate me. You’ll shiver and grunt with frustration, maybe curse at me. “C’mon,” you’ll say. “Get on with it.” Get on with what? I was only going to touch you, but if you want something else, you’ll have to ask me nicely. Here, I’ll stand up behind you, lightly tapping my fingers on your ribs. Now, look up at me. You look a little angry, is there any way to fix that? I’ll help however I can, just tell me.

What is it you want me to do to you?

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✨️ A dom/ler pulling your hands off your face while you're blushing so hard, pinning your arms gently and saying some shit like, "I want to watch your pretty face blush as I destroy you."✨️

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Basically, I want to playfully bully you for being ticklish, but I also want to make you feel special and treasured at the same time.

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If you scratch the back of my head I’m gonna fall in love with you