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tiny thumbnail sketch of jake made as a gift for a friend on snap!

song: https://open.spotify.com/track/1qhANyBUZ6ez458oFr9wJ0?si=l96JEB4fSV-XktulrtHk9Q

album: https://open.spotify.com/album/2ucnrprKK7JaOSaFl1dNGA?si=zckpl6CjS3G7MvIUJhHeiA

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So i just wanted to say a quick thing about tolerance, respect, and religion on this TDOV Easter crossover episode!

To those of you who are angry about TDOV “disrespecting” or “overshadowing” Easter, why? I want you to truly look inside yourself and ask *why*? If the answer is that “this day is about Jesus” or “TDOV is more propaganda to ignore Jesus” then please step back and rethink!

TDOV is a day, March 31. Easter is a day, the first Sunday after the Spring Equinox. No one “meant to overshadow Easter” they just happened to overlap this year! This isn’t an “agenda”!! This is a loving day for everyone involved, so stop trying to hate your fellow person! How a person identifies doesn’t affect you so don’t make it your fight.

Happy Easter, love each other. That’s what today is about.

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ok making this a proper post because it's an orb i keep pondering

which is rust and bodily autonomy.

because like, as harrowing as losing a child is (and it was certainly a defining moment for his character), what the police did to rust pre-canon just. mesmerises me for how fucked up and dehumanising it is?

like they literally "made him their junkie" and used his body to the point where he had permanent incurable brain damage, only releasing him after he nearly died (and idk to what extent this is a done thing in the us but they did violate their regulations by keeping him like that 4 times longer than they were supposed to). and they don't talk about it as much in the show but there's no way a thing like that wouldn't have influenced his worldview from '95 onward, right?

like. of course you would view people as puppets and meat in a thresher, you quite literally have been a puppet and meat in a thresher.

of course you would contemplate "the idea of allowing your own crucifixion", you quite literally allowed your body to be maimed in someone else's interest

and, moving into conjecture/headcanon territory here, but i wonder how much of his philosophy is a way of coping with that part of his past, too, because after all if everyone's autonomy/authenticity is an illusion then you losing yours is not as bad, right

and in view of that, the moment when he says "i drink every day and nobody's there to stop me" is a bit. huh

and how pointedly nonchalant he is when he talks about it to gilbough and papania, who even specify "and they kept you like that for 4 years?" and say nothing when he confirms, probably because they don't believe him. "and there's no fucking expiration date, baby" sir there is so much deep-seated hurt inside you. i want him carnally

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top ten saddest men?

obsessed with this ask. never wanna be asked about anything else ever again

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I have to meme him or else I'll die

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Happiness Will Come To You.

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2/25/24

quote by psunonymous bosh “the name of this book is a secret”

song: https://open.spotify.com/track/3k2kIiJqUiIP49iUcOLpWT?si=o-8EBnjgQ7y7qLcwgJYF7Q&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A21xp7NdU1ajmO1CX0w2Egd

album: https://open.spotify.com/album/21xp7NdU1ajmO1CX0w2Egd?si=iz09uNUHROCaxJ_hxyiENg

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CW // very hungry caterpillar

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im shakingg bro he fuckifnf ate everythi ng even my fuckign choco.late cake im gonna sta;rve