remedic-fiend

[remedic-fiend]

as my main's pinned post states, all of the blogs associated with azrielfiend will be abandoned and i will start somewhere new. i have better places to be.

[remedic-fiend]

youre right, i dont like you at all.

as ive stated, too many think in black and white situations, labeling people, targetting, public slander, what have you. it is easier to yell at something and let all of your feelings out before carefully constructing your thoughts to try to understand someone. some people also tend to skim through these with a surface level of understanding and making their stance based off of that alone.

i turned 18 in this years june 5th. ive felt more guilt over being an adult more than anything, denial it ever affected me, denial that it ever mattered at all, or why i was so upset. this is all so worthless.

mental energy that couldve been spent on enjoying myself, understanding things earlier, improving myself and making friends. worthless months spent on being angry, paranoid that people will hurt me, anxious that everyone will hate me, that everyone wants me dead. im baffled with people who willingly indulge in drama-conflict filled situation like this and get something fun out of it, either by fueling the fire more by gossip, harrassment or sending death threats. i just dont understand whats so fun about seeing people hurt eachother. humanity, i guess. So stupid. im going outside.

[remedic-fiend]

what a sad state of affairs.

I think some people have been frustrated with you since may. They have been waiting all of this time to hurt you personally.

They're afraid of what your accomplishments represent. They hate that you managed to get rid of such monolithic figures. You remind then that they are not immune to exposure and defamation.

I am not the biggest fan of what you have done. I think that the majority of your judgements were harsh and premature. The irresponsibility with which you handled that power irreversibly broke a lot of people's trust in you. You terrify me.

I think you could gain a lot from tempering your desire to publicly condemn people. The messages of hatred you are receiving now are what you forced upon each of the people in your documents.

i figured. there were echo chambers that i was aware of (ahem rw confession blogs) and probably hate groupchats that have been waiting for me to fuck up again, so they felt justified telling me to die. just to "dunk" on me.

i do not agree with you on the last paragraph. i think it is good to be aware of a person's behavior, how they lie, manipulate and gaslight others, it will start a pattern, and a repeating one at that. a pattern people should avoid. background checking.. etc, especially if its something that happened recently. its how im aware theres a predator in the madcom community, for example.

of course my method of letting other people be aware of this is not ideal. it hurt people. people who were not involved. because i was consumed by my own frustration and pointed fingers. im not fit to handle this attention, nor does anyone in the community. we all had our own issues, i made things worse. most of us are ill, and are rather reactive, im not saying it as an excuse, just a reason why it happened.

my reputation is down in the dump at this point. i need to get out of here, and nobody will follow along my path.

[remedic-fiend]

I think everything is cleared up now, might wanna turn off asks for the sake of your own mental health. if you can, let us know if there are any developments on the person who faked the screenshots, but other than that all my personal questions are answered now. it was a hard path to walk but the truth is finally out and everything makes sense.

thank you. this was a hard situation but it's over now. take care of yourself, ok?

this one's really old and everything has calmed down, but rotinshit or whatever their username is now is still on a rampage, so i guess be on the lookout for that. there are also people PRETENDING to be rotinshit. which was just really odd. i dont know what satisfaction you get from this, and from what i remember, other people were inspired to do the same thing as rot did. this fandom is a hellhole. i guess none of us learned anything. good luck surviving it, those who still engage with the rain world fandom. it wont be pretty. so im glad i left.

being so motivated by hate and being driven to hurt other people is sad, and pathetic to watch. i cant look at it. it makes me shrivel up. second hand embarrassment, even.

[remedic-fiend]

hmm, i actually have two more unanswered asks before i completely leave this blog (and my main, azrielfiend) and ive forgotten it. sorry.

[remedic-fiend]

on behalf of my friend who sent the "gobbling up the lesbophobic allegation" ask I would like to apologize. we have since realized you were skeptical of it. I'm killing him this evening

HELP ITS OKAY IM JUST REGISTERING THIS SLOWLY. no worries

[remedic-fiend]

(not directed at you btw. You said it was debunked)

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[remedic-fiend]

remained emilys friend after may

Source? Anyone? Think critically and back up your claims or you'll let another screenshot forger in for Christ's sake.

[remedic-fiend]

lesbophobic.?? thats new??

You're about to gobble up and internalize yet another baseless allegation, just like that. Did you not learn anything at all from rotinhell? God damn it.

You can do better than this. Not every unfavorable rumor you hear about someone who wronged you is suddenly true.

nah you misundertood my tone. i heard of it Before but ive never seen like. actual screenshots so i was . confused? moreso???? on why that was brought up. Also im turning off anons im done answering stuff its been like 3 days at least im so doneneeeeee

[remedic-fiend]

WRONG BLOG

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the fact that pansear is getting more sympathy than you, a child who was groomed by a popular artist and dealing with death threats for months, is appalling to me. adults in the fandom have no excuse to be this disgusting. i don't care if pansear's life is 'ruined' (it isn't lol, her real name and face aren't attached to her online persona, she can just make a new account and start anew), she defended grooming, tried to gaslight her audience, remained emilys friend after may, and she's lesbophobic as fuck. we cannot ignore that just because a few screenshots were fake. as adults we should believe minors who come to us for safety no matter what. BELIEVE EVERY VICTIM. YES EVEN IF THE PERPETRATOR IS AN ARTIST YOU LIKE WITH BAD TASTE

i think youre rightfully angry about this whole thing. but i havent heard about her being lesbophobic.?? thats new?? her being friends with emily is debunked though

[remedic-fiend]

"Azriel started this cycle, pardoning us of blame for continuing it" is not a mature argument.

Yes, this all should have never happened in the first place. Solely from the amount of momentum he received, Azriel could have very easily caused the people he was calling out to commit suicide a la inquisitore3. Everybody is lucky (ESPECIALLY AZRIEL) that that did not happen. If it had, we would have had an even larger mess on our hands. It might still happen yet.

We need to get our hatred back under our control and start behaving maturely to de-escalate this before someone actually dies.

i have nothing to say to this and this feels more like a message to the other anons on this blog so

[remedic-fiend]

I hope you can forgive yourself, at least

You're not a terrible person, and you didn't have terrible intentions

you're a human being and being told repeatedly you're a horrible person and you're unforgivable and all that crap is terrible for you and it won't help to expose yourself to that, nor does it help anyone to say that to you (even if they THINK it'll make them feel better; it really won't)

you deserve support and acceptance, too

you were still hurt

i dont know what to think of myself as a person anymore

[remedic-fiend]

i think a lot of people are missing the context that the fake screenshots were only a small part of multiple, much larger callout posts on pansear at the time — I don't think it's fair to blame azriel and their friends for pansear leaving the internet.

im sure the idea probably crossed their minds multiple times before that, anyways

so telling azriel "hey it's your fault pansear left the internet" isn't really true or fair (or helpful) so please stop that

Yes there was an entire thread on pansear's past behavior (specifically from the cookie run fandom) . And pansear mishandling of the kiss me kill me map project thingy. so i moreso added more fire to the already huge pile of flames while everything was in chaos mode. still Doesnt justify what i did but thats the timeline of the event

pansear has expressed to me directly in dms that they cannot handle the internet themself, even when nothing was happening. and that it was really getting to their head. i Think its probably for the best if she doesnt come back

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no matter how invalid the screenshots are. is everyone just going to ignore the fact that pansear defended a groomer. or any of their past controversies. or anything else that they are PROVED to be at fault for. guys pansear still is not a good person can you PLEASE leave azriel alone and stop putting a very problematic and extremely irresponsible person who had done abhorrent things on a pedestal while harassing this guy-? he messed up sure but so did pansear-? and emily is still a groomer and into feral are we just going to ignore that-??? and excuse all of those blaring mistakes and forgive them just because you refuse to acknowledge that maybe your beloved creators are not good people-????? these adults should have also been taking care of their minor audience but failed to do so. this situation is grey. none of this is black and white the way you cruel anons think it is. everyone messed up here. everyone. the rainworld fandom can recover. and as much as it hurts some of you to have lost this artist....I would like to say in the kindest way that i can this fandom and community does NOT revolve around pansear or shipping container. we will recover. I know we can. we have not been destroyed. stop accusing azriel of destroying the community. the people who do this are no better than the people who harassed pansear. please take care of yourself and do not let this destroy your life. you messed up monumentally but we all mess up sometimes. a lot of us were tricked into thinking these screenshots were real when they were not. please treat yourself well.

^^ god bless i have nothing to add to this but thank you for the last part im trying to relax a bit

[remedic-fiend]

hi, sorry, we don't know each other but I just wanted to give some support. I'm sorry for all the stress this is causing you, and I hope you're doing better. It's great that you're taking responsibility for your actions, and I think it's disgusting how people are treating you. Everything that happened recently wasn't great at all, but you don't deserve this

I'm sorry this is how things are rn. I know it sucks for everyone, but You don't deserve any of the insults or threats thrown your way. please take care of yourself

Hi anon sorry if this typing is reallystrange Im Dissociating but ill be okay maybe i dont know at this point so much going on

[remedic-fiend]

rainworld fanbase when they realize that they are continuing the cycle ( the cycle of bullshit you go through ) we should saint ascend these people

i think some of them are beyond saving. shrug. if theyre still stubborn about emily then actually i dont care enough to think of a proper response