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[reldnahcardnassac-blog]

This is for Issa. I never knew you that well. You talked to me twice. You asked me about my last name "Chandler like Chandler Bing? That's awesome!" Then in English class you were talking to Mr. Belt about dropping out and you saw me and pointed at me "Hey I know you" and I just shyly waved. I'm sorry if I seemed like I didnt like you or something I'm just awkward. I wish I could've talked to you more and became your friend so that I could've been there for you. Noticed what you were going through and helped you. You always seemed so happy in choir. Now your seat will be empty. Such a lovely voice missing from our ensemble. Your homecoming date your boyfriend all alone. Your parents devastated. Normal Community High School shocked. Me I feel guilty I couldn't sleep last night I cried for hours. I feel guilty for not getting to know you better. I feel guilty for missing you even though your best friends knew you better. I feel guilty. Rest easy Issa Moline. To all of the people that joke about killing yourself please please stop joking about it. If you actually need help please reach out to someone. Your life matters. All lives matter. Every single human being on this planet deserves to live and have a second chance. Please don't harm yourself there are people out there who will be so devastated and you may cause someone you love to take their own life because they can't stand their life without you. Issa posted on Instagram the night she killed herself "use this picture for my obituary" and her bio said "I'm just trying to live it up until I get enough courage to die" but no one knew she was serious. No one checked in on her because she joked about that stuff. I wish I had followed her and saw that before she killed herself and asked her. Please don't the world lose you.