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Have the day off Run errands Put TWO HOURS INTO DETAILING MY CAR MYSELF Get some drinks. Come home and I have a flat fucking tire. AND OUT OF THE 4TIRES I HAVE 3 FUCKING NEW ONES WITH WARRANTIES FROM LITERALLY A YEAR AGO. ONE FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT YEAR AND OF COURSE MY FUCKING FLAT COME FROM THE ONE TIRE OUT IF FUCKING 4 THAT DORSNT HAVE A STUPID FUCKING WARRANTY AND IT WAS STILL A GOOD FUCKING TIRE THERES NO FUCKING REASON FOR IT TO HAVE GONE FLAT AT ALL AND OF COURSE I GAVE ALL MY GODDAMN MINEY TO MY FUCKING MOM BECAUSE SHE STOPPED WORKING FOR TWO WEEKS SO IM BASICALLY JUST FUCKED HINESLTY CAN SOMEONE JUST FUCKING SHOOT ME IN THE FUCKING FACE BECAUSE IM SERIOUSLY OVER IT IM DONE IM DONE PAYING BILLS IM DONE WITH THIS BULLSHIT IMDONE PAYING OTHER PEOPLES BILLS AND DROPPING OUT OF SCHOOL TO WORK ALL THE TIME TO PAY FOR THOSE STUPID BILLS IM DONE WITH MY FUCKING LIFE AND HINESTLY THE ONKY WAY OUT IS TO JUST FUCKING DIE AT THIS POINT IM MEVER GOING TI GRADUATE IM NEVER GOING TI GET A JOB NEVER GOING TO BE WORTH ANYTHING SO WHATS THE FUCKING GODDAMN PIECE OF SHIT POINT OF BEING ALIVE?!?!?! TO PAY FOR OTHER PEOPLE AND KEEP GETTING SCREWED OVER?! SERIOUSLY CAN SOMEONE JUST FUCKING KILL ME SINCE IM TOO SCARED AND TOO MUCH OF A FUCK UP TO DO IT MYSELF PLEASE IM TIRED OF LIFE TIRED OF LIVING TIRED OF EXISTING

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tripsexual:

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um excuse me i can see their hands this makes me extremely uncomfortable pls fix before boNER

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I'm a stupid piece of crap. I don't deserve shit. Most of my money is gone because I'm a dumb piece of shit. Someone stol from me and it's probably my because I didn't keep an eye on my stuff. This is all my fault. I don't even deserve to be human. I deserve to be fucking dead. That's it. I'm worthless. I'm nothing. I honestly don't want to live. Why was I even born. I'm just a fuck up. I lose my money, I can't do well in school because it's just too hard because I'm fucking stupid. Can someone please kill me. Please. I seriously want to die. I'm human shit. That's it. I hate myself, I can't fucking so anything.... I'm ugly. I'm gross. I'm stupid. Worthless crap. I'm surprised I haven't been thrown out of my house as literal trash. I belong in the garbage...

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For some reason I'm responsible for everything..: And I hate it. I hate myself. I hate my life. I just hate everything and I don't want to deal with it anymore... I really just want to kill myself. What's the point? Everyone fucking hates me including my parents. They blame me for everything, I'm a huge failure. Can't get through school without failing. My friends eventually begin to hate me. I hate myself. I seriously just wanted to crash my car and kill myself: I'm hitting myself as hard as I can. I'm trying to think if there are any pills in my house that will kill me. And o have no one to talk to. But everyone hates me. Why. Why does everyone hate me??? I try my best to talk to everyone in a positive way. It gets me no where I just want it to be over. I don't want to try anymore. I don't have it in me... I wish I had the ability to kill myself. I have very few things to live for. I hope I die soon. I really do.

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When you’re not over your godfather’s death

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I really need someone right now. I can't stop thinking about why my family hates me so much. And it makes me feel like I'm so worthless and I can't handle it right now. This has been a really bad couple of weeks. First I have a major anxiety attack and now a depressive episode. Idk what the fuck to do, I just hate myself so much right now. Usually I can get out of this easily, but I've been depressed for months now and and I haven't been able to do anything. I still feel the same and this has never happened before. I feel like just giving up...

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I think everyone hates me. Or they're just friends with me out of convenience. I'm the friend they hang out with when no one else will. Or I'm the friend that drives them places. I have a friend where the only thing he ever wants to do is go smoke hookah, and I think the only reason he ever hangs out with me is to give him a ride there and pay for it when he blows his entire paycheck in a week. But when it comes to hanging out with other people, he's more than happy to put in the effort to see them or go do other things with them. Like I'll offer going out for food or something other than hookah, he's not interested, but then he goes and does what I suggested(ie like go see a movie) the next day, just with someone he actually gives a shit about.. I have friends that I used to spend a lot of time with but don't anymore because they found new friends to hang out with, and they don't need me for anything anymore. I think a lot of the friends I made in college were just using me, and I only have a few friends now that I'm not needed or convenient for others.

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Today was the first time I self harmed myself in a really long time.... I dug my nails into myself as I talked to my friend about depression, and it actually felt really good which worries me.

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I honestly can't keep being strong. The depression always just builds up and after time, when I feel like shit, it just gets really bad. There have been several times where I have wanted to kill myself just this one night. I keep thinking about it while I'm driving, it'd be so easy to just crash and die that way. My friends kept trying to comfort me, but people always try to reassure me and build me up when I feel down, but at the end of the day, I still hate myself, I still want to starve myself, I still can't stand the thought of me existing in this world, and I still can't stand looking at myself and thinking about myself in a positive way. I always try and come off as confident, I always try to believe that I am great, but it's not how I feel. It's a camouflage I use to cover up for myself. I don't believe in any way that I'm a good person or that I'm attractive. I don't find anything positive about myself. And I'm glad no one follows he blog that I'm posting this to because I don't want people to see me like this or viewing me this way. I just need to write this out. It helps to write it out. People trying to reassure me or make me feel better just makes it worse...