reflectingsynchronicity

[reflectingsynchronicity]

Why am I starting this?

Last night, as I was laying in bed, I thought about how easy it is to forget who we once were and how so much time has passed since childhood. It feels surreal at times to reflect back on those times. I look back on old photographs and sometimes feel as though I'm looking at a stranger.

How could I like those clothes back then? What made me think that hairstyle was cool? What would past me think if he could see present me now?

It bothers me to feel like I can't remember who I once was nor the events that shaped who I am today. Did I always feel compelled to joke sarcastically in social situations or when did that start? Was it always so difficult for me to have even a simple conversation with someone else?

Who am I, really? If I had to write about who I am as a person, I feel like it would end up looking like a resume with sections dedicated to my interests and hobbies. These aren't what define who we are as people though, they're just things that we do.

Before I end up rambling on with thoughts that would probably be better off as separate posts, I am starting this writing journey because I want a record of who I am as a person. I want to write about my experiences in life and the feelings that I've felt. I want to write about the random thoughts that I have but never had the chance to share with someone. I want to be able to go back and look at this and remind myself of who I once was and how I've changed over the years. I wish I had started this sooner.

I don't know if anyone else would ever read this but if you somehow stumbled upon this mess, then I hope that it may inspire you to start writing as well.