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Serie: Decisions - Lando Norris Summary: When Lando no longer feels satisfied with what he feels in his life, which is why he makes a decision, the worst of all. Cw: angst, mention of suicide, self-harm Note: English is not my first language, so please excuse any inconsistencies. Please share your thoughts; this series has two parts. I hope you like it. Part 1: "Lando decides to die"

Lando had always been the joker, the loudmouth of the group, the clown, and even more so the one who listened to you and loved you, and if you ever needed him, a shoulder to cry on. He was the boy you fell in love.

But Lando's mind was starting to wander elsewhere.

The night shone in all its splendor. In the distance, the sound of cars and hooters could be heard like another of the night's melodies. It was almost nine o'clock, you were about to arrive.

"Seven races lost in a row, no podium finishes. I think this isn't for you anymore."

His manager's words echoed in his ears over and over again. He had lost again. He squeezed his eyes shut as he rubbed his hair and sighed again. He reached for his cell phone, eager to distract himself from the mental noise that would begin if he didn't, but it was there again.

"Lando Norris loses the championship again… will this be the end of his time at McLaren...?" "Lando Norris is without a team after another defeat, is it reality or just a rumor...?" "Lando Norris loses once again, no matter how much you read this..." "Lando Norris loser…" "Lando Nowins"

He felt that emptiness in his chest, but this time it wasn't just that; it was a great black hole forming deep inside him. He felt like he was running out of air, he felt like everything was falling apart.

His hands shook, his panting grew deeper, his knees trembled, he felt like throwing up.

What was happening to him?

He stumbled to the bathroom. With trembling fingers, he managed to turn on the faucet, splashing water all over himself. It wasn't enough. He raised his head, seeing his bloodshot eyes. He saw his reflection blurry. His head ached. Guilt rumbled in his head. He banged on the mirror, trying to dispel what he'd just seen. It was broken, and the stinging pain began to emanate from his knuckles.

He slammed his eyes shut, pulling at his hair, trying to silence all the noise. He couldn't, it wouldn't let him. The gasps began again, as the crying grew closer and stopped with a muffled rumble coming from his chest. Suddenly, his eyes fell on the small white bottle with black letters on the back of the shelf.

Uneasiness wouldn't let go. He gripped the bottle with all his strength as he headed for the shower, turning on the faucet and letting the icy water splash over him.

He sat there on the cold tiles with his knees pulled up to his chest, praying for everything to calm down. He took out a pill and swallowed it compassionately.

The heat and discomfort invaded him, the mental pain wouldn't go away. He began to grovel inside himself, despair gnawing at his bones.

He took another, but it was still there.

And he took another… once again, another…

The sound of the shower began to fade in his ears, a whizzing sound, his eyelashes, drenched in drops, began to blur, his chest tightened. He managed a smile as his mind fell silent and peaceful, as he felt those thoughts fall away. As he felt everything disappear.

He felt darkness invade him.

He felt the pain disappear.

Was this really what he was looking for?

Part 2 coming soon. . .

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Too Late (Part 2) [Jay Halstead]

Warning: English is not my first language, feel free to express mistakes in the shot. Please help me to improve.

Pairing: Jay Halstead x reader Everything happened very fast, the subject grabbed Ruzek by the back immobilizing and disarming him in the process. "The gun on the floor, or the brains flight!" He yelled at me. I swallowed hard and left the weapon slowly on the floor, kicking it aside, Ruzek was subtly denying me. "Karlo, you do not want to do this." He was flashing between Adam and him.

“Shut up! The gun trembled in his hands, he could feel things getting heavier." Put your hands up or shoot.

"Karlo, just let my partner go.”

"Back off or I'll blow your fucking head off, I'm not kidding." His behavior became more and more nervous.

My gaze centered on Ruzek, I began to retreat slowly as he nodded securely.In only seconds, in a moment of distraction, Adam pushed Karlo in search of his weapon, that was not enough for him to stand again and point at my partner.

"Watch out"

I threw myself at him in an attempt to take the weapon away from him, he would not escape, but he was notoriously stronger than I was.

"Drop the gun or shoot" I heard Ruzek's voice behind us.

Two shots rang out, followed by another, Adam held the pistol in our direction, Karlo fell near the gun barrel in his hands, dead.The ardor at my side was present, I don’t know at what time I had precipitated to the ground.

"(Y / N), (Y / N)! “ I heard Adam shout.

"Don’t ruin it?" I managed to ask, felt my chest in flames, I couldn’t breathe.

“No, (Y / N), damn it.” His eyes seemed alarmed, i don’t think that was so bad. “My partner is down, I repeat, my partner is down, they have been shot, I request an ambulance!”

"Spoil it," I murmured, watching as Karlo bled to the floor, his throat starting to sting, I felt drowned. “We need him alive, we need him alive ...” "Hell no," he repeated, his eyes heavy, he felt a liquid flow through my mouth. “(Y / N) Don’t you dare close your eyes!” “Just a minute...” From there i just remembered blurry scenes,i remembered the color of the sirens of the ambulance, people shouting, to Jay's brother, a rather noisy whistle and then nothing. -------------- My eyesight was hazy, the clarity and the smell of antiseptic made me dizzy a little before i was fully aware. “Kim? “ I asked, seeing the chestnut with worried eyes on the side of my bed. “Where I am?” "In the hospital," She said quietly. “How you feel?” The past memories hit me like a flash. "Where's Karlo? Where's Adam?" I asked excitedly, i felt my side burn. “Calm down, you have to lie down” Burgess pushed me back “Adam killed Karlo shot you, we've been worried about you. Kim's gaze moved backward, I could see the faint figure of Jay with his head in his hands at a safe distance.- “He hasn’t moved from there since you're here.” She sighed, "you should talk," I just nodded.  "I'll call you in." As soon as Burgess had left, a Jay with big dark circles under his eyes. “Are you crazy?” He cried as he entered the door. “Throw you unarmed to an armed criminal!” "It's okay Jay, don’t tell me again." The tears were already running down my face. "I know, i ruined it, you don’t have to tell me, Karlo is dead and not in jail,  I'm stupid.” He looked at me for a second and snorted, sat down on the chair beside the stretcher, felt his fingers grasp my hand. "No, you didn’t ruin it," he murmured. "You almost died," he sighed, squeezing my hand between his fingers. "I've behaved like a real idiot, I thought it was too late, I almost lost you," he stammered. "You're an excellent agent." His gaze fell on mine. "You didn’t ruin it, you never did.” His lips closed against mine, i felt as if my heart was going to come out of my chest. A noise was heard causing us to separate, the electrocardiogram began to produce constant sounds showing the beating of my heart.I felt myself blushing. "Looks like I stopped being an idiot." "Of course not," I said, kissing him back. Tagged: @smoothdogsgirl​

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Too Late (part 1) [Jay Halstead]

Warning: English is not my first language, feel free to express mistakes in the shot. Please help me to improve. Pairing: Jay Halstead x reader "Are you really blaming me?" I replicated

"Disobey an order so that in the end the criminal escapes, what do you believe?" He yelled back at me.

"Disobeying or not, he escaped anyway."

"Guys." Erin tried to interrupt.

"No, you're not in school anymore, take orders, that's where you work." He shouted. "Just stop clogging, okay?"

The silence became sepulchral, ​​I looked down at the pain of his words, had noticed that he had no intention

"Stop fighting." Voight grunted, intervening. "The criminal has escaped, I don’t care who has been to blame, Antonio will keep us informed with his next steps, I want them all tracking. Now "

We had had this case for weeks, followed each of its steps, the supplier's address had been delivered recently, so we had to act fast. Adam and Jay had entered first, Kevin and I guarded the entrance and exit, had left my post to realize that one of the guys had escaped, but it was only a kid who cared for the criminal, the other had just escaped.

"He did not want to say that." Only Erin and I were left in the room, I had sat trying to stop thinking about the above, but I couldn't.

I laughed bitterly.

"Well, he didn’t look too repentant." I sighed. "I know it's my fault, you don’t have to try to make me feel better"

"We all made mistakes, you did what we would all have done." He smiled at me, making me smile too. "We both know that if Jay were in on it, I wouldn’t have told you that."

I blushed.

"Thank you, Erin." I hugged her.

"Antonio sent the new location!" Kevin rushed into the living room.

...

"Every perimeter is covered, we’ll enter slowly, Antonio has informed us of the next drug delivery at the abandoned factory, to prepare." Halstead with Atwater, Ruzek with (Y / N). "

"Try not to spoil this, now"

"Jay!" Erin complained.

"Leave it," I mumbled following Adam.

The perimeter was surrounded in the distance, the patrols would rush as soon as we had trace of the supplier. Ruzek and I went west, trying to find out where he was.

"Clear." Said.

"Clear." Adam repeated.

"He escaped."

"No,just... Let's hope the others are luckier than we are."

Unsettled buffet.

"Calm down, Jay will get the stupid thing soon enough."

I looked at Ruzek to answer him, but the shadow that was approaching him struck me much more attention.

"Ruzek, beware" was all I could say.

Jay POV

The shots were heard at a considerable distance, Kevin and I looked at each other, and ran to the shots,

"My partner is down, I repeat, my partner is down, they have been shot, I request an ambulance." Ruzek's voice was heard on the other side of the communicator. Part 2?

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Bad thoughts (Will Halstead)

Warning: English is not my first language, feel free to express mistakes in the shot. Please help me to improve. Pairing: Will Halstead x reader(friendship) It had been a difficult week, shifts and shifts in which no one was the same after the Dr. Wheeler incident. It seemed that everyone lived in their own world at that time. The coffee warmed my hands from that cold day, even though it sounded gloomy, the roof was the only quiet place by then. The cold snap was as strong as the image in front of him. "Will ..." I mumbled loudly at the image in front of me.A weapon rested in his hands and his eyes did not come out of it, coffee fell from my hands. "I have thought over and over" his eyes did not come out of that object, I began to approach slowly but his sight seemed gone. "Why didn’t I realize? Maybe he would be alive. "Put the gun down, Will." I objected as gently as possible, "He was my intern, (Y / N)" he spoke angrily. "I could have done something" "Will, listen,it’s not your fault,  we can fix this" The weapon shook in his hands, beginning to move slowly “Just...” "I can’t with this guilt, I can’t" he repeated, the weapon trembled in his hands, his finger went to the trigger. "Will, think of Jay" my steps were slow, his hands were still, I could feel the tears begin to roll down my cheeks. "Please" "I'm sorry," he exclaimed with tears on his lips. He denied it over and over again, the gun trembled louder in his hands, was close enough, I took a deep breath, and threw myself on him. The gun rang when hit  on the floor, listened to my heart bursting into my ears, I squeezed his trembling body close to mine, sobs came from his chest, his tears wet my jacket. "Easy, Will, I love you, you're not alone, i'm here. I have you.”

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