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I'm so very tired of feeling responsible for the feelings of others.

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Lolz I have this fun thing called "trust issues" and when I'm upset with you and you're telling your best friend that you would die without him I can't help but wonder at what point do i give up on this.

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𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘴 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘴

𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘴𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘥

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I hate being tired, I hate the cold weather, I hate how today started, and I hate you. I hate how you cling, and I hate how your skin feels on mine, and I hate that you annoy me, and I hate that I don't know why. Most of all, I hate that I'm like this when you've done nothing but be yourself.

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Boulders, another vent piece WIP 

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You call me "only" and "first" and all I can do is stare in awe into the eyes of someone who loves me

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cosmic art x | x

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Hey don't worry about that thing I told you I needed to talk to you about, I had a full conversation with you about it in my head and we figured it out :]

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stars & letters

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I've lost all my reasons

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Gustav Janouch, Conversations with Kafka

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fantasia (1940)

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When we're together, things are easy. But I can't stand the person you become with distance, someone miles and miles away from me in every sense. I'm banging and screaming from the other side of a glass screen wishing you were on the other side calling out for me to.

And this is why I hate having a favorite person. And this is why I lie when I find out I'm in love.

And this is how I ruin everything in an instant.

And soon enough, it'll be time for you to leave.

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And I think that's ultimately the problem with being in love for me. With having a favorite person. I will rip myself apart all every time the sun rises because you weren't there to tell me you loved me when the sun set. I ring my hands anticipating my flood of messages to be received with negativity, but my serotonin levels spike when I know you're watching, when I know you're thinking of me. My mind rakes my heart over burning coals every day just because I don't know if you love me.

I just can't believe you do.