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-Home for Lost thoughts-

Tw for this one; mainly me kind of rambling about similar behaviors I’ve seen in both myself and others that IF and may have ED tendencies

Also just a general thing, I’m not a professional in any means. I just do basic level research and watch videos by nutritionists lol. So i know next to nothing, unless i cite sources I’m just sharing my personal journey.

Hey guys, back with a new post. This is mostly just research? I had some thoughts recently about IF(intermittent fasting) and ED behaviors. I know from a few sources, and just personal experience, when you restrict in any capacity if you have BED behaviors for example. Not giving your body enough nutrients, when I* did eat(going back to my experience) i was usually ravenous, or it would exasperate my binging behavior..which ya know, wasn’t helpful.

I also noticed having a fixed time to eat was never helpful to me, and here was where i struggled a lot. I need a shit ton of structure. So at the time, fixed eating times with the possibility of snacks seemed right, until when I couldn’t “hold out” until my next meal time, the bad thoughts would flood my mind, and more often than not I’d push the meal later to the last possible time to “prove to myself” i could hold out.

Not the most healthy mindset at all. I’ve also noticed that with family members or friends that do IF have ED behaviors to start with. Then again, I can’t speak for anyone but myself at the end of the day. For me sometimes i just naturally fast, like I’m just not hungry until later in the day. Though i am aware when i eat later in the day, it messes up my whole schedule.

At the end of the day as long as things are done safely and you do your research and don’t encourage unhealthy behaviors within yourself, if it makes you feel good. Do it. For example i used to eat meat my whole life, was vegetarian once around like 18 for a year. Noticed i felt better mostly. Now I’m mostly plant based again, it just works best for my body. Just have to be aware I’m getting enough protein and iron due to my dietary needs. So i cook with a lot of beans and tofu personally.

Anyway, I’m rambling lol. I honestly just think for me personally I’d stay away from IF only because i think it would rev up the old unhealthy thoughts again, and i just got mostly* over that.

That’s really just the thought honestly. I’ll probably do more research on this specific topic.

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~Update~

For anyone that’s curious I guess lol.

So, it’s evident I’m very inactive here lol. I think I’ve been kind of inactive everywhere though.

At this moment, I’m just trying to seek out peace. Doing things i love, talking to friends and my partner. Just engaging in a routine that i love, and is good for me and my health(both mental and physical)

What i want to share is, slip ups will happen. Though the faster you get back to loving yourself, the quicker you’ll find happiness within yourself. Relapse of any kind is easy. Just losing steam for your daily routine.

You got this though, you deserve recovery.

You deserve to be happy, as scary as it is. You were not meant to live a painful life.

There’s peace for you, you just have to find it. Reach for it, even if you’re at rock bottom.

As long as you get back up, that is all that matters.

Please keep getting back up, I believe in you.

Good luck with your recovery, choose to love yourself.

- Love Ghoul

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Hey there~

So real talk. Life happened lol. Had some ups, a lot of downs, a lot of stressors have been going on for me, and generally speaking I’ve been trying to navigate them. I think generally it was very ambitious of me to take on so much for this blog all at once, so early in my own recovery.

To be honest, i fell “off the wagon” a few times, but starting strong from any point is always okay <3

Right now i have a lot of obligations in my life, so I’m not sure how much time i can effectively put into this anymore, but i see that it’s still helping people, which I’m glad for.

I think realistically i can maybe put out a few WIEIAD’s a week, or maybe just a WIEIAW at the end of the week, just picking and choosing things to showcase (i.e, new recipes, cool or delicious snacks etc). I’m honestly not sure.

What i do know, is i know this blog was helping me. Both with staying on track, and with implementing healthy habits, and lately my routine has been a mess :’(

Anyway, i hope all is well, and you’re taking care of yourselves. Remember you deserve it <3

Have a great day/night,

Until next time~

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Hey there! Ghoul here, welcome back to another day~ been awhile and it’s good to see you! <3 lately I’ve been really focused on romanticizing my life, and just overall improving it. You know, just doing silly little things for my mental health lol. Also just trying to improve the quality of my health both physical and mental, and my life. It can definitely be hard to stay afloat when you have a lot going on, stress, mental health struggles, maybe not living in the best environment. These things can and will effect how you personally take care of yourself. Putting yourself first, will never be selfish, I know it can feel like caring for your needs after years of being told you should only focus on others to be a ‘good’ person can be deeply embedded in you(speaking from experience). Though you will only start seeing personal results in yourself when you give yourself the space to heal too. This goes for anything, your relationship with food, yourself, self esteem, etc. you can’t start healing if you’re not in a place where you feel like you deserve it. I promise you do, so lets go on this journey, and heal. We deserve it <3

Let’s get into the day~

Breakfast~

Yogurt bowl with fruit and granola, and a piece of pancake bake

Lunch~

Corn dog with a side salad and veggies with cottage cheese and mustard dip

Snack~

English muffin with cottage cheese, tomato, and balsamic drizzle. Side of a banana.

Dinner~

Half of a subway sandwich, side of chips, and a side salad

Drinks~

Strawberry milk tea x2

Water throughout the day

Strawberry lemonade water mix x2

So today was a bit of a draining day both emotionally and mentally, so it was a bit of a easy day in terms of the food I ate~ but easy doesn’t always have to mean ‘unhealthy’ you just have to balance it~ something I think I lost sight of in terms of having this bling, is my goals. My goals are just to be healthy, not have food consume my every thought. Not having to “work off” a meal with my work out the next day, not body checking myself every time I pass a mirror, just gradually improving my relationship with food. Which will in turn improve my health~ I hope these words help, and I hope you were kind to yourself today~ much luv <3

As always, good luck on your journey, and until next time~

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-Update-

Hey there, Ghoul here! Long time no see~ I took a kinda long, very needed mental health break, and along the way I'm evaluating what I should do with these accounts :}

Since some things in my personal life have changed posting daily WIEIAD’s aren’t really going to be possible anymore, so I might post those maybe twice to three times a week. My goal is also to put out helpful content coming from a personal experience or research once a week, and also share with you guys one recipe that either I make personally, or I tried and what I thought about it~ those last two they might switch off depending how much time I have :>

This is all I really all I have to say right now, I just wanted to give a quick little update~

As always, good luck on your journey(you will always deserve it <3) and until next time~

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-home for lost thoughts-

Food isn’t just fuel, it’s comfort as well.

I feel like this topic in itself is very controversial, many say, treating food as more than just fuel can cause unwanted effects. Leading to an unhealthy relationship with it. Honestly though I disagree. Food is tied to experiences, passed down through generations, shared experiences with loved ones. And sometimes a nostalgic experience that can bring you comfort to simpler times. To demonize and simplify food, when it can mean so many things to so many people, at times can perpetuate the negative thoughts around it. At least in my experience.

There’s nothing wrong with you, if you want a little treat to possibly make you feel happy, there’s nothing wrong with you if you’re craving the comfort of a parent’s signature dish. You’re allowed to make peace with food, and even feel happy about it, and especially enjoy it. Staying away from things that aren’t satisfying to eat, in the long run won’t help, it’ll make things worse. Work with your cravings not against them, and just adapt them to be incorporated into a balanced diet.

The premise of no food rules, especially for people who are recovering, is very scary(speaking from experience). Though when you work on diminishing then guilt and shame that comes with just caring for your body, there’s so much freedom there. Not having to think and obsess about food all the time, not having to stress about what you ‘should’ or ‘shouldn’t’ be eating. The freedom that comes with loving, and caring for yourself, is very freeing.

I hope this post finds you well, you’re not alone. You’re strong <3

As always, choose recovery, good luck on your journey. Until next time~

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Hey there, Ghoul here! Welcome back to another what I eat in a day. I’m back~ I took a couple extra days just to decompress, because I was having kinda shitty jet lag. BUT it was well worth it, because honestly, I wouldn’t have traded that trip for anything~ :>

Also just a little note, I know specifically on my tumblr I alluded to possible making a ‘what I eat in a week’ though, that didn’t really happen lol. When I got there, honestly I was just trying to be present in my time with my partner, and just enjoying my experiences with them. Though to make up for it, I do have a post idea. I should have it up hopefully this week, so stay tuned for that~

Anyways,, onto our regularly scheduled programming!

Breakfast~

Oatmeal and fruit, with a side of avocado toast

Snack~

Half a package of hot fries, carrot and hummus

Lunch~

BBQ tofu rice bowl with veggies

Snack~

Yogurt cup, and some bbq chips

Hummus platter with veggies, pita chips, and a cheese slice

Dinner~

Bread chunks, cooked ham, and egg scramble, with a side of peppers and cucumber

Drinks~

Protein coffee

Water throughout the day

So today was a bit of a confusing day. It was really hard to differentiate between mental hunger and body hunger. Which is okay, I’m just honestly trying to be patient with myself and just go with the motions and do the best I can to take care of my body and mind. And also instead of justifying my food intake, I’m just not. It’s what my body needed, and that’s okay. Not everyday is going to look the same, and when you’re healing your relationship with food sometimes just eating the food your body’s will need will feel like you’re out of control. I promise, you’re not. If you’re getting hunger cues, I can guarantee they’re for a reason. As always I’m not a professional, so I can’t give you professional advice, I can only share my experiences and the knowledge I have. I hope this helps, remember to honor and care for yourself~

As always, you deserve recovery, good luck on your journey, and until next time~

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Hey there! Welcome back to another recipe :> This one is fairly simple and requires no cooking, and is pretty flexible with the ingredients. It’s kind of a throw shit in and go type of recipe, which in my opinion, is my favorite kind. I’m a sucker for something easy, delicious, and that’ll use up leftovers. For this you’ll need leftover rice, or chilled, whatever you have on hand. Also, feel free to switch out the grain to what you have you have on hand >.<

-Ingredients-

Cold or old rice

(Veggies of your pick, here’s where it can get customizable)

Corn(canned or fresh)

Green onion

Tomato

Spinach

Green beans(canned or fresh)

-For the dressing-

Mayo

Greek yogurt

Lemon juice

Spices of choice

If you want some spice I’d add a hot sauce of your choosing

Garlic

-Directions-

In a big bowl, add your rice and veggies after previously chopping them(or draining if using canned)

In a separate bowl mix your dressing, and when well combined, mix well into the rice and veggies.

Let chill for about 30 minutes before serving, and enjoy!

This is great as a side, to pair with BBQ tofu, or any protein of your choice, nice on hot days, or like I said above just if you’re having a low motivation day. You deserve to eat, and most importantly you deserve the care you’ve been denying yourself for so long <3

Numbers does not equal worth, you’re a person that deserves to be loved by others and by themselves~ Good luck on your journey! Until next time~

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-home for lost thoughts-

Things that helped my recovery, and things that definitely didn’t. Obviously recovery is a very personal experience, and things that work for others, may not work for you, and vice versa. I’m just sharing what works for me, so maybe people can either see a different perspective, relate, or find inspiration. General TW for this whole post it will touch on uncensored topics such as calorie counting apps, weight checking, and fear foods. If that’s a lot for you, I’d suggest you skip this post, but i wish you well in your recovery <3

I’m going to start off with the things that absolutely did not help, and if anything, sent me into a complete spiral. Why? Gotta start somewhere, and it’s best always to end on a good note~

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Weight checks- I feel like this is probably a no brainer, but these are probably the worst for me. Even if it was good news it was the eventual “when will i ruin it?” Thought, which would giving up, and lead to a binge, and the whole cycle. Looking back, to avoid this, just shifting my perspective to not going to the all or nothing place honestly would’ve helped a lot. Which is what I’m working on now thankfully :>

Free eating- as I’ve mentioned a lot, i don’t understand what a healthy portion looks like, i was never taught. So going into adulthood like that, really negatively impacted me because when i wanted to get healthy even when i tried i still had no idea what i was doing. Something has countered this, but it’ll be in the next section.

Calorie counter apps- never helped me, they’ve always encouraged obsessive behavior, and also caused shame, especially if i had gone over a few calories. I can see the appeal, but for me- they’ve always done more harm than good.

Feeling like i can’t have certain foods because I’ll lose control- this in the long run as never helped, because then these foods feel forbidden, and when i finally allow myself them- I’ll eat them until I’m sick, but if I incorporate them into a healthy diet, I’ve noticed i actually crave them less. So I’m slowly regaining back my control. And so can you~

Those are the main ones for me. Let’s end this on a good note, and move onto the positive :>

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Portion plates- it might sound silly or restrictive, but the really do help me, especially if I’m feeling a craving to clean my plate, there’s only so much metaphorical ‘damage’ i can do. For me it works, for everyone, it definitely will not. You should always do what works for you and your body~

Adding in foods I’m craving in moderation, or making healthier dupes- so, just like it says, craving chips? Have a bit, just add something to it. Like some cucumber and hummus, or carrots and cottage cheese. Want cookies? Eat it with some Greek yogurt and fruit. (All suggestions not medical advice) you can have what you’re craving just add something with some bulk so it fills you up~ so you’re satisfying a craving, but also feeling satiated.

Combating limiting beliefs with positive self talk- instead of punishing myself for having a bad thought, or getting mad I’m not ‘fully healed’ trying to practice patience, and self positivity and give myself that mental comfort to heal myself like i know I’m worthy of. Seeking outside validation can only help to a point, because if even you don’t believe it, it’s not going to benefit you. Recovery is a journey healing not only your relationship with food, but your relationship with yourself. And you deserve to finally be healed~

Therapy or coaching sessions- again self explanatory, but super beneficial, especially when you feel hopeless and can’t do it alone. Sometimes even finding resources online, like quick videos on YouTube just to understand things more, or to gain insight or advice. For me personally, the more i understand something, the easier it is for me to tackle it. There are so many great food therapists on instagram especially that share such great advice, that i urge you just to watch a few reels. Help is attainable, i promise it’s not impossible.

That’s all i can really think of for this post, as always, good luck on your journey! Remember you are worth it <3 until next time~

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i love shopping but i hate paying like why can’t i just get stuff for free?

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Hey there, Ghoul here! Today is a vibe honestly for me, recently my thoughts around food have calmed down a bit, and it’s very nice. I can admit, at times the urge to restrict and place rules are still there. Though I feel like overall, a lot of anxiety is diminishing. I do realize it’s not always going to be like this, but for now, I’m enjoying it. <3 so, let’s get into today.

Breakfast~

Egg and veg wrap with cream cheese, and a side of yogurt with berries, trail mix, and coconut flakes

Snack~

Some nibbles of granola and nuts, like not even a handful each lol,, just wanted a lil snack

Lunch~

Veggie rice and taquito bowl with sauces

Snack~

fruit and granola and coconut made like cereal in protein drink and some PB

Dinner~

Chipotle salad bowl with a side of chips and queso

(Was super proud of myself for not binging and listening to my body when i was done~)

Drinks~

Protein coffee

Water throughout the day

So another day down, as my night is coming to a close I’m just taking this time to chill out and just reflect on my day. Both the things I did well, and some of the things I could've improved on. In my opinion, self reflection is honestly so great for personal growth. Even celebrating your small wins, can help change your mindset on how you treat yourself.

As always, you deserve recovery, good luck on your journey, and until next time~

Also just to make it easier on myself, I didn’t do pictures today, but I still wanted to get a post up~

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remember that it’s okay to need gentle, cosy days to be able to fuel your most ‘productive’ ones! ˚ ༘♡ ·˚ ₊˚ˑ༄ؘ

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