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we're married in my head so idc

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“i do not dream of labor” yes u do. labor is fulfilling. u dream of a world where ur labor isnt exploited and its that or starvation. i guarantee u dream of labor. labor is a necessity and in and of itself is a good thing.

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Age Regression and BPD

A common, yet normally not talked about, symptom of BPD is age regression.

What is age regression? Why does it happen?

Sigmund Freud believed age regression was an unconscious defense mechanism. It was a way the ego could protect itself from trauma, stress, or anger (this is subjective in theory though– this will be discussed later). Various things can occur when you age regress. Some people may only regress a few years back from their current age (for example, someone who is 25 may age regress to 22), while some can age regress as far as infancy, taking on more childlike behaviors such as thumb sucking or whining. 

It’s important to note as well that BPD is not the only mental disorder that can have age regression symptoms attached to it. Other disorders include:

Schizophrenia 

Dissociative Personality Disorder (once known as Multiple Personality)

Schizoaffective Disorder 

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder 

Major Depressive Disorder

Dementia

Age regression can be triggered for a variety of different reasons. The person who is regressing, also known as age sliding, can find themselves in a stressful situation that involves them making adult decisions and, to escape the stress, will regress to a younger age where they hold the memory of being safe and stress free. Some people who are under a great deal of pain or distress will age regress to cope with anxiety or fear. And some people are “triggered” (a response caused by a particular action, process, or situation) when they come face to face with distressing memories or triggers. Some people are able to willingly age regress to escape stress, while most people who are triggered do it subconsciously. 

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Don’t be so harsh on yourself over something you didn’t recognize as wrong before. You know better now, so do better now.

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it doesn't matter who has it worst. it matters that you're hurting right now.

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↖This blog will be screamer free on April Fool’s Day.

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Please love yourself

It’s not easy, but you’re gorgeous no matter what. You don’t have to be the skinnies, you don’t need to have the most flawless skin, stretch marks are fine, bodyrolls are fine, cellulite is fine. Love yourself. Dark, white, yellow, pale, skin conditions or not. You are beautiful. You are loved. You are perfect. Don’t starve  yourself, don’t binge, don’t hate yourself, don’t beat yourself up. You’re worth love and attention, you are wantede. Scars, no scars, mental health issues, health issues. YOU are beautiful and loved no matter what. Love yourself, respect yourself, be gentle and soft on yourself. 

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echo park be reading your soul sometimes

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I hope black girls with depression have a good day today.

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You are not what has happened to you. You are what you choose to become.

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mental health is important

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what another person did to you wasn’t your fault

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If you lived with abusive parents, it meant that the rules changed for you any moment. You could have been praised for something most of the time, then suddenly one day it brings a punishment instead. You could have been allowed to do certain things until one day you got tortured for doing it, and afterwards you couldn’t even know if it was alright to ever do it again. Some things were only allowed when parents were in forgiving mood, sometimes things you absolutely had to do, you knew you’d be punished if anyone saw you doing it, or if they found out. 

You never knew what the consequences would be. You could be wildly overpunished for something as simple as failing to close a door, saying the wrong word, having a certain face expression. You would get blamed and punished for things you didn’t do. You would get punished for someone’s bad mood. You would get punished for existing next to someone who was angry and wanted a punching bag. 

There was no consistency in your life, you had to live tiptoeing and hoping you would somehow do the right thing and avoid torture, the rules would change and twist and turn against you no matter what you would do, you developed a sixth sense to figure out when someone was irritated or upset, and you would still end up hurt and abused. 

And you got told this is normal, this is just how life is, everyone has it like this. You don’t doubt it or see it as abuse, it’s just your every day, you can’t imagine living a life where you’re safe, where you don’t have to expect thousand horrible things to happen if you make a tiny mistake that you initially had no idea would even be a mistake.

Now think about that and tell me where your anxiety came from. What living like this continually would do to a person. Because once you lived like this, this mindset doesn’t go away, it’s what you’ve learned to live with, what you’ve been forced to live with if you didn’t want to be in pain every second of your life. How would you not panic and over analyze your every word? How would you not try to predict just what kind of horror could come from most mundane and common action? How would you not at least try to brace yourself for the next torture someone might have ready for you? Your senses are not wrong, they’re trained to do this, they’re experienced in trying to help you survive life in abuse. 

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anyone else grow up touch starved and now any sign of affection or touch scares you or makes you feel weird? like i can't show affection or have affection shown to me and if someone like touches me it's the most shocking feeling. kinda like a shock

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gentle reminders for you: 🌷🐝

you’re extremely lovable, don’t shut yourself in, thinking you’re not.

you’re doing good, you’re slowly making progress bit by bit. 

you don’t need to change your appearance, burnout or win someone’s attention to be worth something.