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Me: cliché 20-smthing terrified of the body horrors of pregnancy and responsibility of motherhood

Also me: In a really weird yearning mood writing a draft of accidental baby-acquisition Stiles fic (possibly steter? Possibly sterek?)

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Shout out to run-on sentences. Hell yeah, that sentence should have over 6 commas in it and take up 5 lines, that's my god given right as a fanfic writer

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"I can be very persuasive, Stiles. Don't make me persuade you." Mh ok? 🤨 Fuck him raw on top of the trunk of the car then? What who said that-

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𖥂 thē Şนຖ, thē ๓໐໐ຖ, thē trนth 𖥂

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Step 1: Create new playlist

Step 2: Change playlist title to "Randson"

Step 3: Add every song on Preacher's Daughter by Ethel Cain

Step 4: Cry?

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I've written so much this month that I had to increase my word count goal for the month because otherwise I was about to hit it not even halfway through the month

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I think that part of why Stiles aiding in Peter's murder is so important to me is because it stands in such a contrast to Peter's behavior toward Stiles.

Peter never harmed Stiles, at all. He doesn't hurt him, the worst he does is drag him along by his collar and shove his face down onto a car but even that is done much gentler than werewolf strength could make it.

But Stiles? Stiles took the first step in Peter's murder, by throwing the first Molotov cocktail. By wanting to set the victim of a horrific fire on fire again.

It's so ruthless and vicious and it is contrasted so hard by how Peter truly goes out of his way to not harm Stiles.

Not in the hospital when Stiles realizes Peter is the Alpha. Even though Peter could have so easily killed Stiles before Derek got there, but instead Peter just stood there and smiled at Stiles.

Not on the lacrosse field when he could have janked Stiles around, forced him with threats of violence. Even though Peter had just violently and animalistically attacked Lydia, yet even the act of making Stiles get off the ground is straight-up gentle by guiding him by his chin and not hauling him up with force.

Not in the parking garage, where it would have been so easy to force the bite onto Stiles, where it would have been so easy to just kill Stiles once he fulfilled his use. Even though we see the dead nurse in his trunk, because he killed her for being no longer useful. Even though he wants to give Stiles the bite, yet he accepts the rejection. And he just... leaves, not a hair harmed on that boy.

Peter's own behavior toward Stiles already stands in stark contrast to his behavior toward literally everybody else.

And, to me, it is heightened even more by the contrast of Stiles' own ruthlessness.

Because Peter did something worse than harm Stiles. He harmed those Stiles loved. He bit Scott and he tore into Lydia.

And it's probably my favorite character trait of Stiles', his unbreakable loyalty and his ruthless defense of those he loves. And I like to think it's also Peter's favorite character trait of Stiles'.

Which makes the murder so much more fucked up, in such a delicious way. Because it was traumatic and literally deadly to Peter, but I like to think that a part of Peter appreciates the part Stiles played in it.

Peter, who killed everyone who was involved with the Hale Fire, appreciates the ruthless murderous intend Stiles feels when those he loves are harmed and wronged. Even when it's the one boy he never harmed, never wanted to harm.

And that's fucked up and twisted and delicious and perfect.

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Sorry babe. “Cry Little Sister” stays on during sex.

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A snippit of a Steter wip I have sitting in my files, as a little treat

That's how Peter knew he could never have him. He was incapable of "casual". His wolf whined for Stiles, but he knew that if he had even a taste he would lock his jaw and never let go. Just the idea of his fangs scraping up the pale column of Stiles throat had his wolf gnashing his teeth, imaging the trickles of blood that were sure to follow.

But therein lied the problem. Stiles was cunning, intelligent, strong, loyal, everything Peter's wolf craved for a mate. No, not just any mate.

Stiles was the perfect mate.

But Peter was not. His sanity may have been restored in death but Peter could recognize that something about him was… different. Whether that was due to the fire, his death, or his subsequent revival he wasn’t sure, but he was irreparably changed. It’s very likely the change is more obvious to someone like Derek who knew both the old and new versions of him, but even Peter himself can feel that his edges feel a bit rougher, his smiles were sharper, his eyes a bit more blue than before.

Someone like Stiles could have anybody they wanted, and though their staring seemed to indicate that they wanted Peter it would practically be sabotage if they were to mate him. Tying someone that intelligent and full of potential to a once-dead, practically feral werewolf with the bluest eyes on the West Coast who just so happened to be almost 15 years his senior was practically criminal. Peter wouldn’t do that to Stiles, no matter how much he desperately wanted to.

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Alpha Derek roughhousing with his beta wolves, drawing blood, yelping, scratching them, leaving bruises that take a day to heal... Omega Stiles comes in, wants to join the fun... Derek takes it into his own hands, doesn't let anyone else handle the omega... He smiles at Stiles' attempts, at his red sweaty face, handles him so very gently, manhandling Stiles, always keeping his hands on the omega’s body, never letting him get far... They playfight, and it's nothing like the fighting with betas... They play until Stiles is a giggly, red, panting mess, and Derek let's him win bc it's his omega... Now his scent is all over Stiles, and even though the playfight is over, Derek doesn't let him out of his hands...

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one of the worst depictions of ‘autism power’ actually comes from hannibal, tell me why this emo twink shows up to crime scenes just to be like ‘watch this’ then closes his eyes and stands there weirdly for half an hour daydreaming about killing, if I was jack I would have sent his ass to the mental hospital.

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Triple feature of Secretary (2002), The Lost Boys (1987), and The Passenger (2023). God life is so good

All the things I'm obsessed with rn all rolled into one. The way cinema was intended to be viewed

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feeling very normal :)

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inspired by the fic bedroom ceremonials by @somethin-real