readsunshine

[readsunshine]

Feeling sad doesn't even make me sad anymore.

[readsunshine]

I've a place in my heart where everything that broke of mine lives.

[readsunshine]

One day I'll stop feeling this way but till then I'll let this heart of mine shatter me.

[readsunshine]

Somedays I feel as if the sky isn't too far away and other days I only wish for the ground to swallow me.

[readsunshine]

To Love You in Silence

I always searched for you in words

Although it was never heard

Your silence carried the love you had

I kept waiting for words to return

We were young soul with love untold

I kept shouting, "you were my whole"

Your shy smile, light eyes

I knew love was there but in quiet

Maybe I needed some words

Not sweet whispers but loud touch

But I guess love has different forms

Sometimes it's hidden but still stays in different names.

[readsunshine]

I left my childhood dream of being a writer, not because I don't want to do it anymore, oh it still bring peace to my shattered soul, I write for praises even if it's just from a single soul but in today's world that's not enough. My writing isn't enought.

[readsunshine]

I feel an empty place in my heart and I've never even lost anyone.

[readsunshine]

I just want another chance to grow up once again and maybe this time I'll do the things right.

[readsunshine]

I wasn't supposed to be someone's second choice.

[readsunshine]

It's crazy how your ghost still haunts me and you're laughing in the other room.

[readsunshine]

Somedays I want to pull my heart out of my chest just so I can stop feeling this way.

[readsunshine]

I wish I could stop feeling homesick for places I've never been to.

[readsunshine]

And something happened which my younger self would never believe, I sighed and secretly prayed for everyone to forget my birthday.

[readsunshine]

And maybe I'm everything they couldn't love about me.

[readsunshine]

Sometimes, you read a novel which changes something inside you. It makes you question things, i makes you feel a different kind of alive. This was that book for me- the one that made me fall in love with books in general. I read it a few year ago, and every once in a while, my heart goes back to it, no matter where in life I am.

Characters like Ari makes me feel that I'm not the only one who thinks that way. He has made a place in my heart that will forever belong to him. and Dante, my beloved sweet boy, I wish the world had more people like you. It really needs them. The heart and innocence you carry is so rare to find, but that brave heart of yours is my favorite part, I wish I could be more like you.

[readsunshine]

I know that even if I choose you millions of time you'd never choose me back.

[readsunshine]

If you want to look for me just find everything I’ve ever loved you'll find pieces of me there because now I'm an empty shell.