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ASSORTED QUESTION PROMPTS *  assorted dialogue, adjust as necessary

do you think now would be a good time?

how am i supposed to trust you after a stunt like that?

do you have any idea what that does to me?

have you ever been up north?

what was your childhood like?

do you think there's a chance for us?

what time were you planning to leave?

is there anything i can bring you?

you knew about this, and you never told me?

what did you expect me to do?

how much more of this can you take?

do you think we can find a way out of here?

can you just stop for a second and let me think?

why did you go without me?

what difference does it make?

how long can you stay?

could you bring me my jacket?

will you give me another chance?

where am i supposed to go?

when did it start raining?

will you take me with you?

can i just hear the full story first?

didn't we agree to do this together?

when did we decide to do that?

will you walk me home?

there's more to the story, isn't there?

how many were lost?

will you kiss me again later?

would you join me on the dance floor?

how many guests can we expect?

were you expecting someone else?

can i trust you?

will it always be like this?

do you smell something burning?

when did that get there?

did you move the furniture around?

was that a ghost?

is that blood?

are you playing a trick on me?

what's your favorite holiday?

did you take my gun?

would you change anything about your life?

what were you really like back then?

do i mean anything to you?

were you ever going to come back for me?

will you call me tomorrow and tell me what happens?

were you lying this whole time?

when will it end?

we're not going to survive this, are we?

did you have to be so mean about it?

would you meet me in my quarters?

is this how you flirt with everyone?

are you always like this?

[razenoth]

SIMPLE ACTIONS

my first post is just some simple actions; plenty of room for you to decide what the reasoning or emotion behind the action is. feel free to make edits to better suit your muse, but please don’t edit or add on to the original post 💛

[COLLAR] - sender reaches out to smooth down / fix receiver's collar.

[RUFFLE] - sender ruffles receiver's hair.

[BRACE] - sender braces receiver under the elbow.

[FOREHEAD] - sender feels receiver's forehead.

[HANDS] - sender takes receiver's hands.

[NECKLACE] - sender fastens a necklace around receiver's neck.

[SHOULDER] - sender lays a hand on receiver's shoulder.

[SIT] - sender guides receiver to sit down on a chair / bed / wall / etc.

[LAY] - sender guides receiver by the shoulders to lay back.

[TUG] - sender tugs receiver's hand in an attempt to get them to follow.

[WAIST] - sender rests a hand against receiver's waist.

[SUPPORT] - sender pulls receiver's arm over their shoulder for support.

[DRINK] - sender sets something to drink down in front of receiver.

[FOOD] - sender sets something to eat down in front of receiver.

[BACK] - sender rubs a hand up and down receiver's back.

[COAT] - sender zips / buttons up receiver's coat for them.

[CHEEK] - sender brushes a thumb over receiver's cheek.

[NUZZLE] - sender nuzzles into receiver's neck.

[HUG] - sender tugs receiver in for a hug.

[CHIN] - sender tucks receiver in under their chin.

[LIFT] - sender lifts receiver off the ground (or attempts to).

[CARRY] - sender carries receiver to another location.

[HALT] - sender gently pulls receiver to a halt.

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A  MOMENT  IN  TIME  THAT  THEY          .    .    .

[  *  ]      writing prompt      )         :           send a number  1 - 30  to take a closer look inside this characters life.        /        below you will find a series of various prompts offering a look inside a characters past and the important moments of it.        these are meant to invoke character development     &     can also be altered as seen fit to better suit the character in question.              bonus if you write a drabble of that specific moment.

01.     wish they could live again. 02.     wish they could do one thing differently in. 03.     wish they could do everything differently in.  04.     wish they could erase from time all together. 05.     wish they could take a loved one back to see them in.  06.     wish they knew then what they know now. 07.     wish they had taken more time to savor while they were in it. 08.     wish they could forget for the rest of their life. 09.     wish other people thought more about. 10.     believe negatively shaped them into the person they are today. 11.     believe positively shaped them into the person they are today. 12.     think about every night before falling asleep. 13.     think about whenever they’re having a bad day and need comfort. 14.     think about when they need to find the strength to carry on. 15.     think about when they want to laugh. 16.     think about when they want to smile. 17.     think about when they want to cry. 18.     think about when they want to be angry. 19.     tell others about when giving advice. 20.     tell others about when giving a warning. 21.     tell others about when they’re trying to make them laugh. 22.     plan to never tell others about for long as they can keep it a secret. 23.     really want to tell others about but for some reason haven’t. 24.     did not think was important at the time and later regretted it. 25.     thought was too important at the time and later regretted it. 26.     felt utterly alone even though they were surrounded by people. 27.     felt afraid even though they had no reason to be. 28.     felt at total peace with themselves and everything around them.  29.     felt a rage so strong that it scared them. 30.     felt a sense of complete happiness that they had never felt before.

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SOLO 1: SCARS.

tw :: discussion of harm to a child.

“One of the earliest memories I have is of my mom, like most kids.”

It’s an unfamiliar topic of conversation to him—his mother, his childhood, what memories he does or doesn’t have. Asten has never even considered talking about his childhood with anyone, and if not for this impromptu “mental health examination”, he sure as hell would have never chosen a Shinra doctor to be the first he opened up to.

The room is cold, and combined with his nerves, he’s unable to keep himself from shifting around in the stupidly comfortable desk chair. It’s almost like one of those therapy appointments he’s seen in the movies. He has to suppress a laugh at the irony.

On the other side of the desk, Asten can feel himself being watched even though he refuses to look at the man in front of him. He feels like some kind of zoo animal, and he hates it - but the other man makes a soft “mm?” sound, a signal for him to speak again, and Asten shoves down the urge to stab him with one of the many pens in the cup he is so 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 interested in staring at.

“...She was cutting the backs of my shoulder blades open, and my screaming didn’t really seem to do much to get her to stop. All she would tell me is shut up—until she got tired of it, and gave me a cloth to bite down on.”

Asten tries to count the pens. He wonders, briefly, why anyone would need 23 of the same brand of writing utensil. It’s not like they run out very quick, right? Unless they’re really shitty pens.

This isn’t helping. He starts tracing little shapes on the surface of the desk with his nail. The bright red of his nail polish is a nice contrast against the grey.

“I remember she was mumbling, really softly, while she was doing it. I could only hear after the cloth was in my mouth… but even then, it was kind of hard. It took a while to realize she was repeating the same things, over and over. Something about not wanting me to be a monster. Something about wings. A wing.”

As he speaks, he realizes he never really knew much about his mother. She was protective, overly so, and she was a really great teacher… but isn’t that just standard mom stuff? He never knew her to have a personality of her own. There was nothing but quiet, unstable, protective Mom. Even her relationship with Dad seemed kind of strained, but maybe that was because of whatever was going on with her psychologically.

The only thing Dad ever said about Mom was that she was mentally ill. That she started breaking down after she got pregnant with Asten.

So maybe it was his fault, then.

“She was really sweet, afterward, she took care of me really well. It was like she went back to her old self after snapping for a while—really quiet, gentle. She only snapped like that a couple times after, and then she’d really baby me for a while. Almost like she was apologizing, without saying sorry.

…I forgave her. I mean, she’s my mom. I had to.”

Asten braves a glance upward, but actually 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 himself being stared at makes him angry. The reality of the situation comes rushing in, a dull nagging in his chest—and suddenly, the loudest sound in the room is his heel practically drilling the floor.

It feels dehumanizing. The staring, the obvious taking of notes, the sterile, freezing office. Everyone around here is so set on asking questions, never answering them. Nobody bothered to explain Nibelheim, or why Zack deserted just like the others right after.

He was always met with 'we can't tell you right now.'

'We don't know all the details ourselves.'

Liars.

The doctor opens his mouth to speak, but Asten can’t tolerate whatever question he’s about to be asked. He quickly rises from the chair, listening to wheels against tile as it rolls backward from the force.

“We’re not finished,” the doctor responds, gesturing for Asten to sit, “There’s more that we need to talk about. It’s important that we understand how you’re doing. You don’t seem to be much better than when—”

“Stop.” Asten hisses, shaking his head. He won’t listen, he won’t deal with it. Won’t talk about it. Not about his mother, about Genesis, about Zack, Sephiroth, Angeal, everyone who died. Everything he never got answers for.

“I’m done. I have shit to do.”

It’s the safest response. Nothing good would come from attacking him, or threatening him—just more paperwork and disciplinary measures he doesn’t want to deal with right now.

Turning and walking out is all he can do. The plants in the dorm need tending.

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GLIMPSES OF THE PAST: a headcanon / prompt collection because sometimes it's not enough to write about your muse's past and how it affects them, you just gotta write a little scene. these prompts are designed to be a little writing prompt related to your character's past, essentially!

send FORGED for a scene from my muse's past that they think made them stronger in the long run

send REMINDED for a scene from my muse's past in which they encountered something that reminded them of a difficult experience / trauma

send CONFESSED for a scene from my muse's past in which they revealed a secret about themselves to someone

send TRICKED for a scene from my muse's past in which they misled, tricked, or lied to someone

send IMPRESSED for a scene from my muse's past in which they tried to impress someone, successfully or not

send ACHIEVED for a scene from my muse's past in which they completed / achieved something they were proud of

send CHANGED for a scene from my muse's past that represented a turning point in their life

send DIFFERENT for a scene from my muse's past that they feel changed their outlook / personality / etc, for the better or worse

send CRITICAL for a scene from my muse's past in which they thought about / were reminded of something they're insecure about

send SCOLDED for a scene from my muse's past in which someone told them off, justifiably or not

send STRAINED for a scene from my muse's past in which they interact with someone they have a difficult relationship with

send SOBBED for a scene from my muse's past in which they broke down in tears

send LOST for a scene from my muse's past in which they felt lost, literally or figuratively

send BLINDSIDED for a scene from my muse's past in which they were betrayed or shocked by what someone did

send INJURED for a scene from my muse's past in which they sustained a significant injury

send AFRAID for a scene from my muse's past in which they were scared / under threat

send HELPED for a scene from my muse's past in which someone helped / saved them

send CAUGHT for a scene from my muse's past in which they were caught doing something they shouldn't

send BLUSHED for a scene from my muse's past in which they received a compliment that really got to them

send VICIOUS for a scene from my muse's past in which someone said something cruel that really got to them

send SWOONED for a scene from my muse's past in which they were infatuated with someone

send PINNED for a scene from my muse's past in which they were stuck somewhere, literally or figuratively

send GRIEVED for a scene from my muse's past in which they had recently lost someone / something

send MORTAL for a scene from my muse's past in which they had a brush with death, either themselves or someone close to them

[razenoth]

If you are the moon, then I am the sun—I will not allow you to forget. In the dark of the night, and the shifting of tides—I will come for you then.

indie ff7r oc. multi-verse & crossover friendly. carrd [incl. rules & dossier]. promo template by noahsresources.

[razenoth]

If you are the moon, then I am the sun— I will not allow you to forget. In the dark of the night, and the shifting of tides— I will come for you then.

indie ff7r oc. multi-verse friendly. carrd [incl. rules & dossier]. promo template by noahsresources.