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im a burden to everyone

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Can I just me mentally okay for ONE DAY?!?

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Making amends with someone you truly care about makes the heart feel so good

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sometimes a disconnect is necessary. even from the ppl u love. don’t feel guilty for wanting to be alone for a bit, to recharge or find yourself again. always prioritize your self.

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other social media platforms are so glossy and fake .. like on tumblr the girls are suffering right out in the open

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I haven’t felt this in a while

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Try not to focus on “letting go,” but rather, just let it be. Accept the situation as it is. The breakup, the pain — all of it. This is your reality right now. Don’t resist it. Feel all that you need to feel, learn all its lessons. Let this experience teach you about people, love, relationships, life, and especially about yourself. Breakups are an incredible opportunity for self-awareness and growth in general.

The breakup is causing you pain, but don’t prolong this pain by attaching yourself to the role of “heartbroken and stuck.” See yourself as healing, as simply experiencing life. Go with the flow; let the pain flow through you and carry you through the necessary stages of grief. The more you fight it, the longer it takes. Breakups don’t need to make us bitter. Breakups can make us better. Don’t struggle to let it go, just let it be and the pain will let go of you.

♡ Bella Love ☆ 15.03.2018

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things i realized in therapy:

i am allowed to be angry with people when they hurt me, even if they are sensitive and cant cope well with being told they did something wrong. their sensitivity does not mean i have to bottle up my feelings & their lack of coping skills does not make me expressing my anger abusive.

shocking, i know. truly shocking.

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“You said you liked storms, so I let you in. Turns out you only like a little rain, and I am a hurricane.”

— Unknown

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Me continuing to make irrelevant text posts on tumblr like any of y’all care in the slightest bit

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The man I fell in love with isn’t the man I lost.

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via weheartit

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It’s okay to come crashing down after you thought you healed. It’s okay if it creeps back up on you. You are not a failure. Healing is complicated. It is a process. Sometimes you think you’ve healed and more resurfaces. That is okay. This is still healing. It doesn’t happen all at once. It happens in bits because it is too much to handle at once. Your brain has decided that you are ready to deal with the next part. You are making progress. And you are doing just fine. 

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Today my 91-year-old Mamaw told me she loves me and that one of these days a good man will tell me he does too but to not rush and take it slow.

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#38- January 18, 2021

I will not ask to FaceTime anymore. I don’t want to put my heart in a position of being let down. I don’t feel like you’re putting in the effort i am. I feel like i am far too invested emotionally and mentally into this. You said the other night the things you had said you meant but that’s a past tense phrase. I only use present tense with you, see the problem?

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#37- April 22, 2021

I feel like I’m always doing something wrong. I’m always on edge worried about making him upset that I stay anxious. As if I’m walking on eggshells. When it’s good, it’s good. But. My heart aches at times because I feel as though I am unable to let him see this in me. My heart aches because I do love him but maybe there’s not enough love in this world to be able to deal with me. I’m tired of feeling like a burden or a headache. I wish I was perfect.

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#36- September 8, 2021

Still to this day I wonder why I wasn’t enough and what changed so quickly for us. I understand that people come and go in life but to me I thought I would always have you. It’s been hard to wrap around my mind that’s just not true anymore no matter how bad I want it.

I am scared. There’s so much going on in my life right now. What I’m about to say hurts and I’m somewhat ashamed of myself for this thought. But I now understand why I couldn’t have been with you during this period of time. I would have done anything to stay with you even if that means following a path that wasn’t for me. When I got back home I constantly questioned and prayed about whether what I was doing was for me or to be with you. You never put pressure on me or made me feel like I had to do certain things to be with you but it was an indirect instinct for me. When I got back I realized that although I love traveling and I love the idea of a city I just couldn’t. I love small-town life, my siblings, The Club, and all the memories/familiarity in this place.