rambing-of-a-fool - Tumblr blog

[rambing-of-a-fool]

today has been shit. and i hate not being able to just stand back up and deal with it like a normal fucking person.

[rambing-of-a-fool]

cw: suicide, suicidal thoughts, mental health, depression, anxiety, swearing

huh. first post. it's a funny thing having a clean slate to do anything with and then getting totally lost on what to actually say. my name is untitled (mainly because i don't want a family member/my counsellor to find this account, see it's by me, and then set me up with a new safety plan.) and i am 18 as of writing this. i live in the south of england and i'm depressed, to be blunt. my counsellor at college said being honest is a sign of getting better because, well, i'm the kind of person to very much avoid talking about how shit i'm feeling and i use humour as a coping mechanism. god, i sound like a depressed comedian. maybe that's a good idea for a future career path. this blog is gonna be me talking about my day (when i remember this exists) and any random thoughts i get. i'll probably also post song recommendations as well and because i don't want this entire blog to be sad, i wanna post the good parts of my life as well. because that is what a realistic look at someone with depression's life is like. not every day is gonna be horrible and make you wanna jump off a cliff. some days are good and some days are shit. and to be honest, the days that are shit are honestly the worst ones. even a mostly good day can come crashing down around you because of one bad thing because, when you're depressed (and if you're autistic like me), those fuck ups and bad parts are like getting punched in the face. i also have an ask me anything set up and a submission so if you have questions, or want to share something, go ahead. - untitled