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I remember you telling me, how beautiful your ex girlfriend was.

i rememer you telling me how long and shining her hair was and how my short hair bothers you and

how i am not in comparision to your ex girlfriend.

i heard you saying you miss her sometimes when she said you to quit smoking and it bothers me when i say the same things once or twice but nevermind.

it bothers me that i still can't replace her and even if you are with me, i can still hear you saying her name when you are asleep.

you made me to question about my selfworth and trust me my insecurities hits me everytime i talk with other guys.

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when we enter into new place,work,college,hostel or whatever feels new to you, we actually feel scared at first.

anxiety hits and you feel panicked to adapt that particular place or people .

you feel sick to these new changes and you wish to go back to previous times.

although you say yes to new adventure and call you extroverts but in this place you will lose yourself at first.

you gotta learn to be habitual with it,slowly you start to engage with that place

you will think this isn't as bad as you thought it would be.

you are enjoying its new smell and fresh air,you made some friends and you actually likes being in that place although few months back you were dying in it.

and in a blink,month changes to year and its time to move into another place and you feel sad just like you felt sad while leaving your hometime.you don't like these changes,you feel like escaping these simple rules of nature.

now its time to say goodbye to your friends and you feel terrified that you might never see them again but console yourself to be in touch with them just like you said it to your homies.

its time to farewell to your room and specially your bed and your soulmate(pillow),when no one was there you held it into your arms and cried your heart out and complaint how you didn't like these changes.

how you cried that day when you had fight with you boyfriend and how you felt when you rember about your life decision.

how you said everything to it and how you are trying your best to win your parents heart .

its time to say thank you to it because it listened all your complains and soaked all your tears without saying anything and how it kept all your secrets.

say that you will miss it,just like you said to your previous one but you never did.

during this entire period, you've grown,learned many things,cried,felt happy,got confused,and got so many emotions and memories moreover,promising yourself to get better always

remained your favourite.you hold so many memories from this place and now you are going to say goodbye to it,you are crusing yourself for this but deep down you always know that changes makes you stronger than before.